If you are very dependent on someone, then when he leaves and never comes back, the loss in your heart cannot be healed. It is like a very important and important part of your life has suddenly disappeared. I am not used to this feeling.
, I can meditate that at this moment Li Fusheng has reached a place that I can no longer find.
However, I don’t plan to find him again. It was his decision to leave. He is a mature person and he knows the most reasonable way to do something. Since it is his decision, I respect him.
However, I couldn't control my heart. When I took out a cigarette involuntarily, I remembered a lot of the past, the days I spent with him, our knowing smiles together, our adventures together, and my memories of the past.
In order to escape, he cut open his abdomen with a piece of glass and took out the crescent copper...
I don’t know if I have really lost control. I feel that after going through this again, I have matured a lot, and at least I have understood a lot of truths. The matter was over. Maybe, I can live a more comfortable life without having to worry about it anymore. However, in
When it was over, I was deeply moved.
Li Fusheng, this mysterious person, finally left my life and my world completely. On this morning in the early spring of 2012, my eyes became wet for the first time.
I have no other requirements, I just hope that he can live a good life alone.
I stayed in the room for a long time. When the moisture in my eyes gradually receded, I felt that the world in front of me suddenly became brighter. I began to feel optimistic because I knew that Li Fusheng, Jin Pingmei, Duoji, Gongjue, Kuang Haige,
These living people of flesh and blood have made all kinds of sacrifices and sacrifices just so that others can live and live well. Now, everything is coming to an end, and I must live a good life. Only in this way can I
It is the greatest reward for them.
Sunlight cannot shine into every corner of the world, and it is impossible to drive away every trace of darkness and coldness. If a person keeps walking in a place where the sun does not shine, perhaps he will be sad and desperate. But, I hope
They believe that light and darkness are always opposites. Where there is darkness, there will be light.
Because of the existence of some people, the world is warmer.
I deleted the video left by Li Fusheng and left the room. Zhao Yingjun had already finished his tea and went for a walk elsewhere. I stood alone outside the room and began to get used to this situation again. It seemed that it had changed a bit.
A strange world. However, there are still many, many things in my heart that have not really calmed down. I took a deep breath and remembered the lonely figure of Gong Jue in front of the pass of Bawangling.
Although he stayed voluntarily, that situation made me blame myself again and again. I felt that we had abandoned him.
"Mr. Zheng."
When I thought about it more and more, I felt more and more uncomfortable. Park Zhengnan stood quietly not far from me and called me. He didn't have any serious injuries in the first place. In addition, he was in good physical condition and recovered after a few days of rest.
It's normal.
I turned around and saw a kind of eager expectation on Park Zhengnan's face. To be honest, I was very grateful to him.
"Can I talk to you?" Pu Zhengnan came over.
The two of us were sitting on the steps in front of the house. Pu Zhengnan was probably thinking about how to speak to me, but in fact, I knew what he wanted to say.
"Ask you a question." I said: "You have a mission, which means you have received a strict and good education before, and you have a wide range of knowledge. So in your knowledge, have you ever heard of anyone who can live forever?
?”
"No." Park Zhengnan shook his head reflexively, but then he reacted and looked at me with hesitation and surprise.
Finding a way to become immortal is exactly what he is tasked with.
"You're right, no." I nodded and said, "No one can survive forever. Your culture and history are inferior to China's in terms of time and depth. From the past to the present, no one can live forever.
The so-called immortality is just an illusory and unrealistic imagination."
"Then Mr. Li..."
"He will die too, believe me." When I mentioned Li Fusheng again, the sadness of loss once again occupied my heart. I didn't want to show it in front of Pu Zhengnan, so I tried my best to calmly say: "He has gone away.
, after a few decades, when his life comes to an end, he will also die."
"this……"
"In addition, I want to tell you that immortality does not exist in this world, but even if it does, I don't want you to complete this task." I sighed and said: "Any person, or a group, when they stand on
When you are at the peak of your power, what you have to think about is not how to use various coercive means to consolidate your rule, but how to make the common people under your rule live a happier life."
This topic may be a bit sensitive for someone with Park Zhengnan's background. He is not stupid at all. He immediately realized what I was talking about. His expression suddenly changed, and he opened his mouth to say what he wanted to say.
"Listen to me first." I continued: "No one can deprive others of their lives for no reason. Even a beggar on the street has the right to survive. This power is not given by someone, so,
There is no right to deprive. If a person or a group makes it difficult for the people under his rule to eat, then this kind of rule will not last long. There is an old saying in China, water can carry a boat but it can also capsize it. Believe me, no
It will take too long, and sooner or later they will be submerged."
I talked a lot, and Park Zhengnan was a little angry at first, but as he listened, he seemed to recall some things. I have no doubt that, living in that country, he must have seen many facts.
Pu Zhengnan stopped talking, and his face calmed down, but it was somewhat disappointed, and perhaps, there was also a trace of fear, because he himself also knew what the consequences would be if he failed to complete the task he was tasked with.
But Park Zhengnan has no intention of escaping. He will go back and face everything he has to face.
I admire him. He is a warrior. Anyone who regards his mission as important as his life is worthy of admiration.
Park Zhengnan left, and the remaining people rested for more than ten days and recovered more or less. We started to make plans for the future. I don’t know if this matter is really over as completely as I thought, but it can’t be because
These reasons have cast a shadow over my future life, so I adapted to the new life as quickly as possible. I am used to the north, so I plan to return to the city where I lived in the past to be safe and sound.
Do something you can do.
When many people are young, they always hope that their life can be grand and ups and downs. They believe that only that kind of life can be considered wonderful. In fact, no one can understand the truth unless they have experienced it personally.
real.
While other people were recuperating, Chen Yu and I would go shopping. Only when we walked on the crowded streets of the city and mixed with countless other ordinary people did I feel that this was what I wanted.
life.
The two of us watched a movie together, and it was already a little late when we went back. It was completely dark, and walking on the empty long street, I felt relaxed physically and mentally, and it felt good.
At the excuse of this long street, I saw a figure standing under a street lamp. When I saw that figure, my eyelids twitched invisibly.
That figure standing alone under the streetlight made me feel familiar.
At the same time, Chen Yu beside me suddenly became nervous, because she also immediately recognized that the figure standing under the street lamp was a little hooligan.
At that moment, I felt a little guilty, because I never thought that the truth about Aunt Yu and Brother Wen falling into the canyon could be concealed. There were more than one or two people present at that time. If there was really one who survived by chance, then the little gangster would know
, how his mother died.
"He..." Chen Yu looked at me and moved his lips slightly. This place is not far from our residence. The yard where we live is very large and there are many people living there. There are also powerful people like Xiang Tengxiao. Chen Yu
Yu wanted to call someone to come over.
"No." I stopped her immediately. With the methods of a little gangster, if he really wanted to do something bad to me, he would not stand here quietly waiting for me like this.
I gradually calmed down and felt calm in my heart. I will face what happened. This is the courage to be a human being.
"It doesn't matter, it's okay." I comforted Chen Yu, and then slowly walked towards the little ruffian at a normal pace.
He was wearing black clothes and stood motionless under the street light. It wasn't until I walked in front of him that he turned his head slightly and glanced at me.
Just such a glance surprised me. The little gangster is a little younger than me. He has practiced kung fu and is bold and unruly by nature, so his whole person is full of explosive vitality. But at this moment, I see
Looking at the little ruffian in front of me, I couldn't even recognize him.
In just a short period of time from Bawangling to now, the little ruffian seemed to have aged more than ten years all of a sudden. The look on his face completely disappeared, like a bright mirror that was suddenly covered with dust and became dark and unclear.
He stood there silently, as if he had been standing here for ten years.
When I faced him, I always felt a little guilty. At this moment, I suddenly understood how my adoptive father felt when he treated Aunt Yu. Sometimes, you don't have to hurt someone directly to be considered hurt.
We just looked at each other in silence for a few minutes, and the little ruffian slowly said: "Let's find a place to chat for a while."
Chen Yu behind me suddenly tightened my grip secretly. At this time, the little gangster suddenly appeared, which made her very worried. But I didn't plan to run away, and I didn't plan to call anyone to help me. This was just between me and the little gangster.
No matter what method I use, I just need to solve it by myself.
"You go back first, don't worry." I looked back at Chen Yu to reassure her, and then pushed her toward her residence.
After that, the little gangster took me to the other side of the road, opened a car, and when I got in the car, Chen Yu ran and followed me, but the little gangster didn't stop, started the car, and drove away.