My heart at this time has been filled with all the negative emotions. In my mind, I have thought about it more than 10,000 times! I have directed it! I have looked forward to the scene of meeting Yaoyao and me!!
But *** I spent countless nights!! I don’t know how many times I passed out drunk on the sofa in a slow rocking bar!! What happened was *** this scene!! What’s even more ridiculous is that she talked to me about misunderstandings??
It’s been more than half a year. Is it a misunderstanding that you haven’t called me??
I came back from *** abroad and you didn’t contact me. Is it a misunderstanding??
Is it a misunderstanding to be flirtatious with a man while having dinner??
Go to *** misunderstanding!!
At the Malatang stall and at the entrance of the school, many people know me and are all my classmates. They originally wanted to come over and say hello to me, but the current situation makes them a little embarrassed.
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"Listen to my explanation!! Xiaofei, listen to my explanation!" Yaoyao grabbed my arm and said to me like crazy, her pretty face full of tears.
"Explain what? We've already finished it!! Aren't we?!" I pushed Yaoyao away roughly again, with too much force, and she fell to the ground.
"Peng!!"
Just when I pushed Yaoyao away and went to the car, I suddenly felt a pain in my waist, and then my feet became unsteady and I fell directly to the ground. Then I saw that young man in a suit, riding directly on me.
He hit me in the face with his fist.
"**!! I'll beat you to death!!" This man went crazy and punched me twice in the face.
“Peng!!!”
I bent my right leg hard, and my knee hit his crotch directly. Then I pulled his hair with my right hand, and my head suddenly hit his nose!!
"Peng!!"
I used so much force that he directly covered his nose!! He fell to the ground again! I got up! I was so angry! I didn’t hesitate at all!! I took out the pistol from my waist!!!
Yes! I'm crazy! I am no longer a normal person at this time! I will definitely not be able to kill Yaoyao! So this man appeared out of nowhere! Tough luck!!
My fucking blood surged again! I pulled the trigger directly!
"Hang!!"
The gunshot!! Hit the sky!! There was silence all around!
"You're fucking crazy! Is it worth it??" Wang Mumu raised my arm and shouted at me.
I was stunned on the spot, I didn’t know how I could shoot!! It was completely subconscious!
"How... did you... become... like this?" Yaoyao covered her mouth, looked at me in disbelief, and said slowly.
The young man in a suit, sitting on the ground, looked at me a little scared... In Northeastern terms, he was... an idiot...
"Wang Yunyao!! Haha, everything about me has changed...but one thing has not changed!...I have always fucking loved you...but this love has ended today!" My eyes were watering.
Tears, but there is a smile on the corner of the mouth.
"You're not that Xiao Fei... you're not the Xiao Fei I love... you've become a stranger!!" Yaoyao kept shaking her head, her eyes red from crying, looking at me full of fear and strangeness
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"Wang Yunyao, you were my friend before! A very good friend! But after today I don't know you! If I see you again! I will fucking shoot you!" Wang Mumu pointed at Yaoyao's nose with red eyes.
If there is a group of people in this world who can feel my happiness, feel my sadness, and can stand behind me at any time and anywhere, that is...my brothers...
Brother!!
"Let's go!!" Wang Mumu, who never showed anger, said tremblingly, and directly dragged me onto the car. I didn't resist. At this time, I seemed to have lost my soul.
Then he, who had never driven before, stepped on the accelerator, knocked over two trash cans, wandered around the street a few times, and disappeared at the gate of the campus.
Later I learned that Mr. Cao Deshuang, who wanted to come over to say hello to me, was standing at the school gate and looking at me who was shooting. He felt as if he had aged a lot and didn't even know that the courseware had fallen to the ground...
It was later learned that Yaoyao slumped down on the ground when she saw the disappearing Toyota, staring blankly at the street...
Open your eyes and you're not here
This day still comes
Forgot to breathe
But can't forget the memories
Lie to yourself that this is a dream
Looking out the window alone
The pain in my heart cannot be concealed
Wind and rain all night
Occupying the memories helplessly
The whole world becomes blank
you turn and leave
Take everything away in an instant
"..."
Yes! The song "Let Love Start Over" played in the car is the best interpretation of my state of mind. I turned around and left, taking everything away in an instant... There were only eight words in my mind at this time.
Unforgettable, interpret for you!!
Interpretation for you Wang Yunyao! Interpretation for my first love!! Very profound and unforgettable!!
I cried weakly again! Having experienced gun battles and life-and-death battles, I thought nothing would make me shed tears again, but I still cried!! Lying on Wang Mumu’s lap! I cried very sadly! Very sad!
I want to forget the girl who called me "sissy" on the playground...
I want to forget the girl who said she would wait for me for five years...
I want to forget that girl who said she would sit on the rocking chair and look into the east...
There are so many things I want to forget!! So many... The more I want to forget, the clearer they become...
Sometimes people will not give up until they are in despair and see it with their own eyes, and I am the best of such people.
I have always imagined that one day, I will leave this circle and go abroad to find Yaoyao. My brothers and friends say that I am unrealistic and always love to fantasize. Time is like a murderer who kills people without seeing blood. In just half a year, the world has changed.
, five years...haha.
I don't know how long I cried, but the moment I looked up, Wang Mumu had finished smoking a pack of cigarettes, and the car was parked on the street.
"Are you feeling better?" Wang Mumu looked at me and said.
I lay on the seat and said nothing.
"You know when I broke up with Mimi Qiao, I wanted to die! But didn't I come back to life? Some people are destined to be passers-by in your life! How many women will you be with in your life?
Are there any intersections? Do you have to live and die for each one? Are you tired?" Wang Mumu stuffed the last half of the cigarette into my mouth.
I looked at him without saying a word, took a long drag on the cigarette, looked at the ring on my middle finger, took it off and threw it out the car window.
"Let's go!!"
"This is my fucking brother!!" Wang Mumu patted me on the shoulder.
To paraphrase ***an Internet term, what I still have is not a ring, but memories...Yes...I chose to continue to bury...the burial of feelings...