After hearing Fu Wan's words, Shen Ye was speechless for a long time. It felt like there was a foreign object stuck in his throat and he couldn't escape a single word. He just looked at Fu Wan seriously, as if he was carefully trying to figure out the credibility of her words.
"If you really do something to me, don't you want to be responsible?"
Fu Wan asked further.
Her questioning was nothing more than adding fuel to the fire, which immediately heated up Shen Ye's heart. He couldn't help but search for Peter, as if Peter was here, this guy shouldn't make things more complicated. Develop it.
After searching for Peter to no avail, when he looked at Fu Wan again, he finally squeezed out a few words, "Fu Wan, you can't be..." Seriously?
If it's true...
Shen Ye couldn't think of any way to deal with it for a while.
Fortunately, Fu Wan's teasing voice came, and the slight smile on his lips wiped away the seriousness and pressure just now, "Look at you, I'm joking with you. Nothing happened last night. A drinker What can a drunk person do to me?"
In an instant, Shen Ye's tense body relaxed, as if the heavy burden on his shoulders suddenly disappeared, so relaxed and stress-free, "You scared me just now."
He knew very well that drunkenness was the easiest time to make mistakes, so even if he went drinking with Shen Ziqi, Lu Chennan and the others, he would always maintain a certain level of sobriety, at least knowing exactly what he had done.
But last night was different, because at Peter's house, they were just two grown men, and he would not do anything outrageous, so he drank bottle after bottle unscrupulously. Of course, it was also because the separation from Yin Manqing was too painful. Too bad.
"Did I keep you from being scared? Or, am I that scary?" When Fu Wan asked back, sadness came from her heart, and she felt miserable and uncomfortable.
Is she not beautiful enough or has a good figure? That's why she can't catch his eye. Fu Wan's words sounded relaxed, but the weight on her heart seemed to be getting heavier and heavier.
Shen Ye didn't answer, but responded with a smile and changed the topic, "Where is this boy Peter?"
"I said I went to buy breakfast for you. I've been out for a long time and I haven't come back yet." Fu Wan looked at his watch, stretched out and got out of bed. The moment he turned around, disappointment filled his eyes.
She couldn't even tell Shen Ye a little lie and cause him to panic. What else could she do?
Shen Ye looked at Fu Wan's paused back. It was not difficult to guess Fu Wan's mood at this moment. She must be disappointed.
Fu Wan's feet were as if they were rooted to the ground and could not move, "Before, you said that you were tired and wanted to be with me. Is this sentence... still valid now?"
She thought she would ask Shen Ye whether he would be responsible if something really happened, but even Fu Wan didn't expect to ask such a question.
It wasn't until this moment that Fu Wan deeply understood that Shen Ye's drunken words at the door of the bar that day were just a drunken remark, but she cared about it so much, was moved by it, and never forgot it. Even though the motive of this sentence was not that simple at the beginning, as long as She once said such a thing, and she took it seriously.
It's not that she took it seriously now. Shen Ye took it seriously as early as when she said it. It was just that there was a hurdle in her heart that she couldn't get over.
Now, it's not that the hurdle in my heart has passed, but that I realize that I am not that strong and free-spirited at all. I just look at him, looking at him from a distance...
Especially the feeling of hugging him tightly last night, the warmth and security of being firmly held in his arms, had made her so attached and greedy that she could no longer let go.
Shen Ye was startled, as if he didn't expect Fu Wan to say such a thing. From the past to the present, she would never put such pressure on him. She would always think about him and give willingly, and she seemed to have put Fu Wan's Giving silently has become a matter of course, accepted as a matter of course, and ignored as a matter of course.
"Fu Wan, do you know what happened between me and Yin Manqing?"
"I know it's impossible for you." Fu Wan's answer was absolutely decisive.
Even Shen Ye didn't quite understand why Fu Wan could be so certain, even more certain than he and Yin Manqing, the two parties involved.
"Grandpa is forcing you to go to the army, right? The only condition for you not to go to the army is to marry me. Otherwise, grandpa won't be able to easily let you do whatever you want this time." She knew everything about them. She was watching Grandpa Shen. The chosen granddaughter-in-law is one of the younger generations whom Grandpa Shen loves and likes very much. Grandpa Shen will naturally tell her something.
"So, you are now very sure that I will choose to marry you, and it is impossible to join the army, right?"
It was not that he couldn't bear the hardship of going to the army. Since even the spoiled Shen Ziqi could survive there for three years, Shen Ye didn't believe that he was worse than him.
Fu Wan turned around and said, "I don't have such an idea. I just think that you and Xiaoman may be destined to be different."
"I had never considered obeying my grandfather's arrangement and going to the army for training before. But now I have a different idea. It would be better to go to the army and live a solitary life. On the contrary, I can take this opportunity to sort out some things and forget some things that I shouldn't. People who remember.”
Yin Manqing will eventually become a stranger to him.
"You mean to accept grandpa's proposal?" Fu Wan was not worried, but just wanted to get an accurate answer from Shen Ye's face.
Shen Ye looked at Fu Wan and understood how embarrassing Fu Wan's situation was. No matter how strong she was, she was still a girl, "You must hate me. I would rather live in the army than marry you." Fu Wan, I'm sorry. It's not that you're not good enough, it's my own fault. I don't want to be irresponsible in dating you before I completely forget Yin Manqing. It's unfair to you and will actually harm you."
Forgetting someone doesn't mean you need to seek medical attention in a hurry and find another person to replace you. This will only make you feel even lower and more confused.
"If you are willing to go to the army, I quite agree with it. The short separation of distance and time will make you forget some people and things. And I, no matter where you are, I will wait for you where you are, just like I am waiting for you. I have been with you for more than ten years, and I will still wait without any regrets. Even if in the future... you may not have any romantic feelings for me, I am still willing to wait and wait without any burden on you."
She also wanted to be like other women, clinging to him and insisting on being with him without dignity.
For example, just now, there was actually a moment when she really wanted to tell Shen Ye what happened to them last night. If something happened, even if he was not responsible, at least it left a knot in Shen Ye's heart and left a A little trace.
But seeing Shen Ye's panicked and pale face, she felt so soft-hearted that she couldn't bear to deceive him, as if deceiving him would be a heinous crime...
"Fool..." What should he say? Shen Ye almost didn't know what to say to Fu Wan.
Telling her not to wait, and to wait hopelessly, would undoubtedly hurt Wan.
But if you tacitly let her wait and give her hope, you would be setting her up even more.
"Don't say anything, I understand, I understand." Fu Wan stopped him from saying anything further, unwilling to hear Shen Ye's reply.
Shen Ye also felt uncomfortable. Loving someone or being loved by someone is not that easy.
"Grandpa, grandma, uncles and aunts are going crazy looking for you. Give them a call to let them know you're safe." After Fu Wan got dressed, she walked to the entrance and planned to leave. Last night, although nothing happened, just It was just a hug, and Shen Ye might be able to pretend that nothing had happened, but she couldn't...
From last night to now, her heartbeat has accelerated wildly, and her heart is palpitating as if it is about to burst. This is heartbeat, a real heartbeat.
Her heartbeat for Shen Ye has not decreased but increased since she became sensible, until it reached its peak last night, so much so that Fu Wan could not control her emotions well, and she would be selfish and selfish by nature. Selfishness comes out.
Shen Ye's face was solemn, and before Fu Wan had fully gone out, he said, "If, I mean if one day, the place in my heart is freed up, I will try to date you."
It was not an impulsive decision, but Shen Ye also felt that some things should be stopped in moderation, such as his passionate feelings for Yin Manqing and his cold attitude towards Wan.
"Even if the place in your heart can no longer be vacated, as long as you are willing, regardless of whether it is fair to me or not, I will cooperate with you at any time, whether it is dating or letting me forget her, I can accept it."
The words that were as humble as dust did not reveal any loss of self-esteem in Fu Wan. It only deepened Shen Ye's guilt and made him realize more deeply that he and Fu Wan were the same kind of people. For the sake of the person they loved, they could work together. Self-esteem, even life can be given up, go through fire and water, desperate for only a little chance of being together...
"Oh... the young master is awake. Fu, are Miss Fu Wan leaving?" Peter came in with breakfast. Fu Wan was at the door and was really frightened. Seeing the looks on their faces, both of them seemed not right. , Peter came in cautiously.
"Peter, please keep an eye on him and don't let him drink anymore."
Before she left, she didn't forget to tell Peter.
Listening to those warm words of concern, Shen Ye's heart was filled with pain and confusion. He was so confused that he couldn't figure out what he was doing. Why did he let such a good woman go without wanting to love her? Will he never love his woman in this life?
"Master, are you going to quarrel with Miss Fu Wan?" Peter asked softly, trying to find out some information. When Shen Ye didn't respond, he continued to speak tremblingly, "Last night you were drunk and crazy, thanks to Miss Fu Wan's help. , she stayed awake all night to take care of you, for fear that something would happen to you, she was extremely worried, Miss Fu Wan really cares about you..."
"Master, where are you going? You haven't had breakfast yet."
Before Peter could finish his words, Shen Ye picked up his coat and hurried out...