She was half sitting on the bed, her tired eyes always staring at the closed door of the ward. She struggled to get up, because there was a small corner at the entrance, and when the door was pushed open, her sight
There was just a block, and she was eager to know if the person who came in was Gu Yanshen. She jumped forward and saw Gu Yanshen holding the doorknob with one hand and walking sideways in.
"… Yan Shen."
Zijin screamed eagerly, and there was a rare trace of joy on his pale face. He knew very clearly in his heart that her body could not move at all now, so he quickly stepped forward and held her shoulders with both hands.
, let her lie back on the bed. Go up.
When the man spoke, his voice was a little hoarse. No matter how well he concealed it, the low mood was still lingering around him vaguely, "...how do you feel? Don't move around and lie down."
Zijin is now like a porcelain doll that was smashed and then mended with difficulty. She self-righteously believes that she is still "perfect" without any scars.
"...I'm fine, I'm fine. What's wrong with you? Why do you look so ugly?"
In fact, people are like this. There are some things that self-hypnosis wants to deceive herself, but she cares too much about the reactions of people around her. Of course she knows her own body best, but she doesn't want to admit some things, and she doesn't want to feel them.
Some feelings, so she was too eager and just wanted to help herself determine some things through the man she trusted most.
Zijin grabbed Gu Yanshen's wrist with her backhand, but unexpectedly found that the shirt on his body was all wet. She frowned, raised her neck, and looked at him with some difficulty, "...Yanshen, why are your clothes so wet?"
Wet? Your eyes... are also a little red, what's wrong? Did something happen? "
Gu Yan lowered his eyes and looked condescendingly at the woman above him. She was actually very nervous and her expression was abnormal, but what was flowing in the depths of those dark eyes was filled with expectations.
He knew what she was expecting——
She expected that he could give her the most perfect answer, and Gu Yanshen's heart ached sharply. He felt like there was a fly in his throat, and he couldn't swallow it, spit it out, or describe the taste.
But he had to think of a way to explain this matter clearly.
He didn't want her to suffer any blow, but he knew very well that this kind of thing couldn't be hidden at all. She would know it sooner or later. If he had to pass this level, she would have to pass it too.
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Gu Yanshen stretched out his hand and tugged on his collar. He lifted up his trousers and sat on the edge of the bed. The man's slender fingers slowly brushed the woman's frowning eyebrows. His hoarse voice made him feel very depressed, "...
...Baby, I know you are actually a very brave person. In fact, I really should say 'I'm sorry' to you. I have always felt that I can control everything. As long as I want you, I will definitely be able to.
Protect you well. I have always vowed to say this to you before. Now I realize that I have actually done nothing and made you suffer too much. I'm sorry, baby. But you are in my heart.
——”
He grabbed her soft little hand and put it against his chest. In the deep pain, accompanied by the sincerity, he said, "——You are unique. I love you. No matter what you become, I will love you."
You. So you don’t need to suppress your emotions. If you have any dissatisfaction, you can vent it to me. I..."
"Yanshen, what are you talking about?"
Zijin blinked and interrupted Gu Yanshen in confusion, with a look of disapproval on his face, "...Why are you so polite and apologizing to me? I understand...Are you sad because of the elevator accident?"
Don’t worry, I’m fine, am I not?”
She smiled comfortingly at Gu Yanshen and said, pretending to be relaxed: "It's really nothing. Besides, I can't blame you. It's my own fault. I shouldn't have disobeyed you. But at that time, I really
I couldn't get through your phone call, so I was anxious to see my dad... But this matter has passed, and I don't have anything to do now. Don't blame yourself, I..."
"Zijin!"
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"Zijin, look into my eyes and tell me, do you really think your body is very good? Do you really think there is nothing wrong with you?"
Gu Yanshen pinched her thin shoulders with both hands and looked at this self-deceiving woman with furrowed eyebrows. He calmed his breath slightly and just wanted to use the softest way to let her slowly accept this cruel reality, "Baby, you
Don't be like this, eh? Be obedient, look into my eyes, tell me where you feel uncomfortable? Don't hold back, you have to believe me, no matter what, I will be by your side, and I will never--
"
"What's wrong with me?!"
Zijin's face suddenly turned cold. Her eyebrows, which were originally frowned, became even tighter now. A hint of anger gradually appeared on her pale face. She bit her lip and reached out to push Gu Yanshen's hand away.
, was really angry, "What on earth are you talking about? Why do you have to make me admit that I'm uncomfortable? Am I not very good? Yan Shen, what's wrong with you? Look at me, I'm very good, what am I?
Nothing happened and our baby is fine too..."
"there is none left."
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Zijin's face suddenly changed dramatically, her dark eyes widened, and the expression on her face slowly began to change slightly. In the end, she looked like a ceramic doll that had been broken before.
, then I deceived myself into thinking that it was mended, but now I was thrown to the ground hard again.
There is a feeling of being pierced by thousands of arrows.
But she didn't shed a single tear, and just stared at Gu Yanshen for a moment, as if she didn't hear what he just said at all. The feeling of confusion was like being withdrawn into a closed space.
Here, it seems to be true - even breathing and heartbeat have stopped.
Yes, she wanted time to stop at this moment, where she knew nothing, heard nothing, and nothing happened.
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Gu Yanshen was even more worried when he saw her like this. Dr. Xiao had told him before that Zijin's current situation was very unstable. She was a first-time mother, and so many things had happened one after another these days.
Let alone a woman who is pregnant for the first time, even a normal person would probably collapse.
But she had been working hard to adjust herself. When she put all the cruel truth behind her for the sake of her child, she didn't want to see another pair of cruel hands drag her in again.
He knew very well how much pressure she was under, and the loss of this child had aroused all the pressure deep inside her.
But the way she is now doesn't seem to be releasing her pressure and pain at all. She has been holding it back, and it has accumulated in her scarred heart, which makes her even more painful.
Gu Yanshen was very worried about her. He tightened his fingers on her shoulders slightly. The air pressure around her was too low. In fact, it was uncomfortable for everyone. "... Zijin, I know you can't accept it, and I can't accept it, but this is
The truth...I'm sorry, don't keep silent, any emotions you have can be vented to me, don't hold it in like this, Zijin."
Zijin sat there in a daze. She had always felt that she was in good condition and had no problems. But now, she realized belatedly that her head was a little dizzy.
Her vision was also a little blurry, including her lower abdomen, which seemed to be a little sore...
However, even if this is the case, it is impossible to say that her baby is gone. She can feel it. She can feel that the baby still exists in her body, breathing with her and feeling the world together. 10
The baby will not be born until several months later, and then she will give him the best of everything in the world.
She never knew that she actually liked children so much.
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"...Today is not April Fool's Day. Why are you making such a joke on me?"
Her eyes turned red, she pushed Gu Yanshen away, turned sideways quickly, and lay on the bed with her back to him. She pulled the thin quilt aside forcefully and covered her face with her voice.
Muffled, choking with a bit of stubbornness——
"Stop talking about it. This joke is not funny at all. I...I am ready to rest. I have been working hard for several hours. I am tired. I need to take a good rest. The doctor also said that I should take a good rest in the first three months."
Protect your child... Yan Shen, I'm going to take a nap first. You can go and do your own work, don't worry about me, I have nothing to do."
She refused to accept the reality. She was still hiding in her own world, trying to figure things out. What Gu Yanshen was most afraid of was that she was like this. The man's upright figure stood motionless beside her, his scarlet eyes staring at that person.
The helpless feeling on the cold back of his head was like a tide, wanting to drown him.
His Adam's apple rolled up and down, his hands at his sides clenched into fists, and his whole body was tense.
There are some words that cannot be left unsaid.
"...Zijin, I know you don't want to accept it, but you have to accept it. You are a brave person, please don't do this, okay? It's my fault, it's all my fault, but don't torture yourself like this,
You listen to me..."
She slowly leaned down and placed her hands on both sides of her pillow. The man's breath was very close to her. His deep voice had always had a reassuring charm for her, but now,
What he said made her disgusted——
"...Baby, it's really gone. Our child is gone. You have to accept this reality. If you have any discomfort, you can vent it to me, but don't hold it in. Zijin, just cry.
, cry..." The woman on g jumped up suddenly like a cat with fried hair. Gu Yanshen was afraid that she would hurt him, so he naturally stepped back, and Zijin stretched out his hand.
, slapped him directly in the face, she shouted with red eyes, "...You lied to me, I don't believe it! My child is still there! Why did you lie to me? It's fake, it's all fake!
Gu Yanshen, if you tell me, it's all false, otherwise I won't forgive you - tell me now, tell me what you just said was just to tease me, and I will forgive you, just tell me!"
At the end of her speech, her sharp voice turned into sobs, almost pleading. Tears welled up quickly, and then like broken pearls, they crackled and slid down her cheeks. With trembling hands, she stood tightly
Holding Gu Yanshen's sleeves, he waved feebly, "...please, please, I don't believe...it can't be true...I was dreaming just now, and I was dreaming about our child...
...I like my daughter very much. God has been very good to me. She is really a daughter. They all say that my daughter follows my father. She looks a lot like you, especially those eyes, which are very bright. When she smiles, she is very beautiful. You hug her.
She refused to let go... You told me that you also liked your daughter very much. You said thank you to me for giving you such a beautiful daughter... I really dreamed about it. I could feel that the child was still alive.
Why is it not in my belly? You lied to me, right? Ah? Yan Shen... I beg you, please don't be so cruel, okay? Don't be so cruel, don't..."
Her whole body was trembling, but she finally cried. But the tears flowed too fast, and her bedclothes quickly became wet. She kept tugging on Gu Yanshen's shirt sleeves with both hands. By the end of the sentence, she was sobbing.
.
For many years to come, Gu Yanshen could never forget Shen Zijin at this moment.
He felt that the end of the world was probably just like this - looking at the woman he loved, crying all the time, begging for himself, even if it was just to weave her a beautiful dream that she could long for, her voice was choked and broken.
I said unbearably, please...
He didn't know that the words "please" were really as heavy as a thousand pounds, pressing on the apex of a person's heart, making him breathless and uncomfortable, as if someone was holding a knife and pointing it at him.
His heart was stabbed forcefully time and time again.
He must have committed a sin in his previous life, and he would need to use his own children to pay off the debt in this life.
Sorry, sorry...
He said it over and over again in his heart, but he could no longer say a complete word. He was very afraid that his emotions would collapse. His deep eyes were already so red that he could only
Squatting down, he reached out and held the emotionally out-of-control woman in his arms, letting her flutter in his arms. Even if she hated him so much that she bit his wrist, he didn't feel any pain at all.
As long as she feels comfortable.
Because there was a place in his body that hurt more.
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After Qiao Jinglian signed the document, she threw it to the lawyer aside.
The lawyer read it again to make sure it was correct, and then nodded, "Mr. Lian, I will personally give this document to Mrs. Qiao, right?"
Qiao Jinglian held a goblet in her hand, her tall body sitting squarely on the sofa, her two long legs crossed casually, sandwiched on the coffee table opposite. When she heard the words "Miss Qiao", he paused for a moment
He moved his eyebrows, took a sip of the red liquid, then glanced at the lawyer and said: "...I called her wrong, call her Miss Shen."
Maybe from now on, she should be called Mrs. Gu.
Qiao Jinglian felt a dull pain at the tip of her heart. She simply raised her neck and drank the liquid in the wine glass to the end.
"Sorry, Mr. Lian, I will give this divorce agreement to Miss Shen."
The lawyer put the document into his briefcase. He belonged to Qiao Jinglian. Qiao Jinglian had been shutting himself in the hotel these days. He didn't know anything about what happened outside, and he also wanted to sign this document today.
I came here specifically to get the divorce agreement.
Qiao Jinglian had already signed it once before, but because there were still some problems with the property transfer document, he got another one, and now everything has been resolved.
The lawyer stood up, but could never take the step to leave.
Qiao Jinglian poured herself another glass of red wine and watched him stand aside without saying anything. She frowned and didn't know what he was thinking. She raised her eyebrows and asked, "Is there anything else?"
"...Oh, no more."
"Send the documents over. Once this matter is resolved, I will let you go abroad for a while."
Qiao Jinglian thought that the lawyer was worried about Qiao Shiyun's situation. After all, Qiao Shiyun did not agree with their divorce at the beginning, so he had already let it go. Anyone who dared to take this lawsuit would definitely be challenging Qiao Shiyun head-on. The current head of the Qiao family
, of course some lawyers do not dare to disobey casually.
Qiao Jinglian found him and promised him that she would never make it difficult for him.
In addition to giving him a high commission, he also helped him complete all the procedures. Then he would be allowed to go abroad for a period of time. After the limelight was over, there would naturally be nothing wrong with him.
When the lawyer heard this, he waved his hand quickly, "... Mr. Lian, this is not the case."
"Um?"
"...Actually, there has been some buzz outside recently, but I don't know if Mr. Lian knows about it."
"What's up?"
Qiao Jinglian frowned, put down the wine glass in her hand, looked up at the lawyer, and exchanged her long legs, "Don't be hesitant. I haven't been out in the hotel recently. Tell me, what happened outside?"
What happened?"
He thought, it was just the old man at home who started a war with Gu Yanshen?
Or maybe Gu Yanshen has already been with Shen Zijin in a high-profile way?
What other big things could there be?
The lawyer said: "...Some people were rumoring that Shen Zijin, the young lady of the Qiao family, seems to be in the second hospital and is hospitalized. I heard that she was pregnant...and then had a miscarriage..."
Just when Qiao Jinglian was about to lean over to pick up the wine glass, her hand shook. The glass filled with red wine suddenly fell to the floor with a bang. The liquid splashed, and a large piece of it splashed onto his trouser legs. However, Qiao Jinglian had no scruples.
He stood up suddenly, stretched out his hand and grabbed the lawyer's collar, "...what did you say?"
"...Young Master Lian, I...I just heard what I heard, but it must be true, because I have friends at the hospital, and they said it was indeed Young Master Qiao...it was indeed Miss Shen."
Qiao Jinglian's face turned ugly. He slowly loosened the lawyer's collar. After a while, he pointed at his briefcase, wiped his cheeks, and said, "Put down the divorce agreement, and you can go."
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When Ji Yang brought Huanxi's clothes and some daily necessities, Gu Yanshen was still wearing the clothes from three days ago and was lying next to the patient's bed. Zijin on the bed was already asleep with an IV drip on his hand, and the man was
Holding her other hand like this and covering his lips, he already had green-brown stubble on his chin. It was very obvious because he hadn't taken care of it for several days. The clothes on his body were also wrinkled because he hadn't changed them for several days.
He was wrinkled and had no image at all, his deep eyes were somewhat sunken, and his delicate facial features showed a tired look.
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This man who always paid attention to his image in front of outsiders, now looked so sloppy, Ji Yang felt uncomfortable. He put the things on the sofa, then lowered his eyes to look at the documents in his hand, and thought for a moment,
Still, he stepped forward and called out in a low voice, "...Mr. Gu."
Gu Yanshen immediately stretched out his hand and made a silencing gesture.
Ji Yang could only shut up.
He didn't let himself go out, so he stood quietly and waited. After waiting for more than 10 minutes, Gu Yanshen slowly stood up, helped Zijin tuck the corners of her back, and then stretched out his hand to help her gently.
Brushing the strands of hair from his forehead, he stepped back gently.
After walking to the entrance, Gu Yanshen said: "...bring the things out."
When Ji Yang went out with the documents, he saw Gu Yanshen standing at the window, smoking.
In fact, he knew very well that he had been feeling very uncomfortable these past few days. Miss Shen's mood was unstable. He spent every day in the hospital and never left for a moment. Now Miss Shen had a miscarriage. He had heard his mother say that before.
A woman who had a miscarriage also needed a good rest. As a result, her mood was so unstable that she cried every day. She couldn't eat anything, couldn't rest well, and her body would collapse sooner or later.
Naturally, the person who feels most distressed to her is Gu Yanshen.
He stayed with her like this, and when he couldn't do anything anymore, he could only give her a sedative. She refused to sleep day and night. He could only accept the doctor's advice and give her some sleeping pills, so that she could fall asleep.
It's just that the medicine is only three parts poisonous. How can she do it if she continues like this?
Ji Yang saw that Gu Yanshen was smoking heavily and lit a cigarette. In less than a minute, he had smoked it to the end. He saw that Gu Yanshen was about to light it again, so he quickly stepped forward and handed the document to him.
"...Mr. Gu, this is the information you asked for. I have already taken it from Situ's lower body. He said that because these are confidential documents, when they were brought over, the USB disk was refused to be copied.
So he can only use his own computer to get the original copy for you, saying that after you read it, you still need to return it to him."