He did not expect that Zijin would suddenly ask about his father.
What kind of person is Qiao Shiyun?
No matter how much he resents Qiao Shiyun, they are both father and son. His relationship with Qiao Shiyun and the relationship between Gu Yanshen and Qiao Shiyun are completely two extremes.
For him, Qiao Jinglian, Qiao Shiyun is a real father.
——He has grown up by Qiao Shiyun's side since he was a child. Except for 5 years ago, when he forced himself to marry a wife he didn't like, in his several years of life, he had no relationship with Qiao Shiyun.
There is no malicious resistance.
Some feelings, apart from blood ties, are accumulated over time. Even someone like Qiao Jingting is not Qiao Shiyun's biological daughter at all, but maybe in Qiao Shiyun's heart, he also has feelings for this "daughter", so
, sometimes people who go crazy in order to hide their secrets do not treat Qiao Jingting very harshly.
This is the case for Qiao Shiyun, let alone Qiao Jinglian?
He is not a cold-blooded and vicious person, on the contrary, he is actually quite soft at heart. At this moment, he suddenly heard Zijin speak, using such an inexplicable tone, asking his father what kind of person he was.
While it was difficult for him to answer, of course he was also surprised.
"...Why do you suddenly ask this? The old man...what's wrong with him?"
Qiao Jinglian really couldn't understand for a moment, because 5 years ago, it was Qiao Shiyun who insisted on marrying this woman to him and becoming Mrs. Qiao, and in the past 5 years, he had witnessed with his own eyes the old man's various treatment of her.
Such care, sometimes Qiao Jingting would get jealous because of this, of course he could see it, how good the old man was to her?
He was given 5% of Qiao's shares, which is what many people dream of. You know, Qiao Jingting has been the daughter of the Qiao family for several years, but she got nothing. But Shen Zijin...
Qiao Jinglian couldn't understand why Zijin would ask this question at this time, but he was not a fool. The equally shrewd man quickly thought of another question -
Just because the old man was good to her, the old man never agreed to divorce her, so... is the child she no longer has related to the old man?
Qiao Jinglian was startled by his own thoughts, but he knew very well that if this was really the case - there seemed to be nothing strange about it.
All of this seemed to be unexpected, but also seemed to be expected.
How to describe a person like the old man? An adjective quickly came to Qiao Jinglian's mind - he wanted to save face.
Even if he is not a self-centered person, he will never allow such a thing to happen under his eyes. To put it bluntly, Qiao Jinglian now thinks that she is very clear in her heart that the old man does not agree to the divorce. The reason is because this marriage is
He had single-handedly facilitated it, but now Zijin had come to an end with his eldest son. This was of course a humiliation for him.
Not to mention, how the entire C city will view the Qiao family after they know it.
However, if it was really just because of this that the child in Zijin's belly died alive, just thinking about it, Qiao Jinglian felt that she could not forgive such behavior.
In fact, people are all flesh and blood, with resentment and unwillingness. These emotions can occasionally override people's reason, but they cannot control people's reason.
That child is still innocent after all and is a life.
"...Jinglian, I have always felt that everyone in the Qiao family is targeting me and dislike me, but only your father is the best to me. He always thinks about me, no matter what.
They all helped me think about it, provided for me to go to school, provide for me with food and clothing, and also let my father stay in the best private hospital and receive the best treatment. I thought at that time, he is really an unparalleled good man.
There will never be a better person in the world than him."
Zi Jin was still curled up on the window eaves. When she spoke, her soft but pale cheeks were hidden between her legs, so her voice sounded very weak, but Qiao Jinglian listened.
She spoke very slowly, perhaps because she wanted every word she said to be extra clear when it reached other people's ears——
"I really have always thought so. I respect him very much. I admit that before I met Gu Yanshen, I thought that I would just live like this for the rest of my life. It doesn't matter if I don't want to be seen by you. I will look forward to your father's expectations.
Just keep walking, because when I married you 5 years ago, I was living for my father. What difference does it make in the future? But God still gave me another way.
In the process of stumbling forward, I learned a lot about being strong and responsible, and understood what I wanted most. I worked hard to grab it, and when I went to grab it, I saw too much.
Something I dare not think about. I know that the truth is very cruel, so during this period of time, I have been running away until my baby is gone..."
Qiao Jinglian pursed her thin lips tightly, and her breathing became a little light. He didn't make a sound and didn't know what to say. He knew that Zijin wanted to say such a thing to him for no other purpose. Maybe she
She just trusted herself subconsciously, or maybe she couldn't say some things to Gu Yanshen, but chose to say them to herself.
But no matter what the purpose was, he didn't want to interrupt, he was willing to listen.
The room was extremely quiet. They had been tied together in the name of husband and wife for 5 years, but this was the first time they sat down quietly like this. And this arrogant rich young man was listening so quietly.
Speaking by herself, this change made Zijin instinctively let go. The darkest past in the elevator was the key to tormenting her. She couldn't speak. She didn't know why.
, to Qiao Jinglian, she was actually able to say it——
"...I was really scared when I was locked in the elevator, but what scared me most at that time was not the claustrophobic space, but because...I received a call from your father in the elevator...
…”
When Zijin said this, she paused. She took a deep breath and tried very hard to control her emotions, but the darkness came over and the deep fear almost overturned her.
She was still scared and her voice was trembling, "...he said that he already knew that I was pregnant. He said that he was very disappointed in me. He said that he would not allow me to give birth to this child. He called my baby a bastard. He didn't
He gave me a chance to speak, and he said many things to me, but every word was like a sharp knife, piercing my heart. I was very scared, and I felt like the sky was not working, and the earth was not responding.
, I couldn’t refute a single word, I just listened to him keep buzzing in my ears, I..."
"Zijin, Zijin, calm down! Speak slowly, I will accompany you, Zijin -"
Qiao Jinglian saw that something was wrong with Zijin. When she finished speaking, her whole body twitched. He had never known that her father could be so cruel. It was impossible for her to deceive herself at this time. Then everything she said would be useless.
If it were true, in such an environment, what the old man said to her would undoubtedly have been a huge blow.
He leaned forward and reached out to hug her. His hands paused in mid-air and finally fell down.
Zijin unexpectedly did not push him away. No one knew that what was in her mind now was the dark scene in the elevator, as well as Qiao Shijun's voice in her ears, and the word "evil", as long as every
Thinking about it once, she felt as if there was something sharp in her throat, which was particularly uncomfortable.
She needs warmth, but the warmth she can feel now is not what she has always been familiar with and relied on. This is not Gu Yanshen. Zijin frowned, and although he did not push Qiao Jinglian away, he still shrank his body.
shrink.
Qiao Jinglian could feel her silent resistance, but he did not let go. With such a soft body in his arms, he felt shamefully that it was too extravagant, and he always refused to let go. He tightened his arms
With all his strength, he comforted her softly: "...I didn't know something like this happened, Zijin, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... If I had been willing to let go of you earlier, maybe I wouldn't have reached this point today."
Zi Jin shook his head. She wanted to say no. In fact, she really didn't blame Qiao Jinglian. She knew very well that there were some things that she didn't know, and Qiao Jinglian didn't know either. She couldn't fall asleep these days. That was because
She was afraid. She was afraid that when she closed her eyes, she would see the dark enclosed space. The feeling that life was worse than death made her very painful. What made her even more painful and made her unable to recover was the deep self-consciousness.
responsibility.
She seemed to finally understand what Qiao Shiyun was like, so she couldn't accept her careless behavior back then.
If at that time, she could listen to Gu Yanshen and not be so anxious to leave the car when she couldn't contact him, maybe nothing would happen. And when she thought about her father again, she thought about what Zhou Su once said to her.
If so, she felt even more frightened.
In the past five years, what kind of man has she been listening to?
Did she kill her own child with her own hands and cause her father to be imprisoned in such a place and suffer endless pain?
…………
This kind of voice kept echoing in her mind, making it impossible for her to cheer up, even if she told herself countless times that the world is so big, and she is so small, in fact, no matter how big the setbacks and difficulties are, as long as one
Breathing will become insignificant.
Yes, there will be children, but who knows that she did not really become so haggard and vulnerable because of a child. She is really too scared. If the truth is what she thinks, she
I don’t know how else I can position myself.
She was so scared that she didn't dare to say this to Gu Yanshen.
"...Zijin, there are many things that I don't understand very well. In fact, I have always felt that it is unfair. Five years ago, I didn't like you, but the old man forcefully wanted to give you to me. Five years later, I
I think you are actually very good, and I want to get along with you, but suddenly there is Gu Yanshen. Can you understand that feeling? I feel like a monkey who is only played by fate, I am so proud
How can a person accept this? So I have been refusing to let you go. It wasn't until I found out you were pregnant that I finally realized that I can't continue to delay you like this. You and Gu Yanshen are together, and you are so important to me.
It is indeed a kind of irony to say, but in the final analysis, isn't it because I don't cherish you? I tell myself that as a person, you must always look forward, even if sometimes you don't want to admit that you are just a pawn played by fate.
, but I have to admit that when making chess pieces, there are those who do well and those who do poorly. Are you right?"
Zi Jin did not move, she seemed to be listening quietly, Qiao Jinglian continued: "... many times, many things are beyond our control. I know that you must be feeling very uncomfortable and blaming yourself. You will feel that your child
In your own body, as a mother, you are not able to protect it well. But Zijin, if we can really do everything, then we are not human. Can you understand what I say? You must
Be strong. You torture yourself like this. In fact, it's just that - enemies are happy, relatives are hurt. Let me tell you one more thing. I know that you had a one-night stand with Gu Yanshen in the UK.
, when I found out, I was shocked and angry. I was really thinking about killing people, but when I went to see Gu Yanshen, he told me that this matter was just an accident.
The initiator of this design was Xie Lingxi."
"…………"
"At that time, I really felt that life was so ridiculous. I had never understood the true face of the woman I had always held in my hands. I had been with her for so many years, but I didn't know that she was actually a very talented person.
A scheming woman. I feel like I really deserve it, and I deserve nothing. But now I think, who says that every person and every past experience in our lives is not a representative of maturity? At least later I thought
After seeing her character clearly, at least I now understand that you shouldn’t just look at people by their appearance. Zijin, we can’t impose other people’s mistakes on ourselves, we must learn to bear them. In fact, I don’t know, I
I can actually say such things to you, but they are all my true words. If you can understand them, you will definitely understand what I want to say to you."
"…………"
Zijin's throat felt sore. She seemed to really understand. Just when she was about to say something, the door of the ward was suddenly pushed open from the outside. There were steady footsteps, followed by a familiar male voice, who just said something.
, "...I know, you should go back and rest first, and leave this place to me——"
When the words reached the last word, they stopped abruptly, and then the man roared angrily, "When did you come in? What are you doing?!"
Ji Yang stood at the entrance, extremely shocked.
When did Qiao Jinglian come in?
Gu Yanshen's face was already livid, his sinister eyes were staring at Qiao Jinglian's hands holding Zijin, and his whole person exuded a kind of hostility that made people afraid to come close, as if in the next second, he would not come close.
He hesitated and pounced.
He slowly raised his head, and the light in his eyes was filled with too obvious broken ice. He gritted his teeth and said word by word: "Let her go."
Qiao Jinglian came in today. He really didn't intend to provoke Gu Yanshen. He was willing to hand over the divorce agreement. He also really wanted to fulfill this woman. Although such thoughts always made him feel too cowardly, but in front of him,
When facing her, he also felt that he was no longer qualified to pester her endlessly.
However, he is a man after all, and he is also a proud man.
Gu Yanshen's current demeanor made him feel as if he was a thief who unforgivably stole his baby. Qiao Jinglian thought it was funny. Shen Zijin, then she is still his woman now, no matter what,
She also holds the title of Young Master Qiao now, so he can't even come to see her?
"If you can take good care of her, others will have no chance to take advantage of her!"
Not only did he not let go, he turned his tall body to the side, blocked Zijin behind him, and counterattacked in a deep voice, "Gu Yanshen, haven't you always thought you were powerful? But you failed to protect her.
, why do you let others let go?"
"Qiao Jinglian, this is a hospital. Don't force me to do anything. I don't want to quarrel with you now. You should leave immediately!"
"What if I don't leave?"
Qiao Jinglian didn't know what her state of mind was. Gu Yanshen's words always made him subconsciously refuse to give up. "Or should I take her away?"
"Do you think it's possible?" Gu Yanshen's face was already ugly, but he was still worried about Zijin. She was emotionally unstable now. Of course he didn't want to put too much pressure on her. He took a deep breath and tried hard to
Controlling the speed of his speech, "Are you going to argue with me here? Affect her rest? Leave now!"
Qiao Jinglian nodded and glanced back and forth between Gu Yanshen and Ji Yang. Finally, she pointed at Gu Yanshen and said, "You can let me go, but come out with me. I have something to say to you."
Gu Yanshen was actually more worried about Zijin's situation. He really didn't want to quarrel with Qiao Jinglian, let alone fight with him. However, when he said that he had something to tell him, he thought about something and thought of something.
He simply nodded generously and said, "You go out first."
Qiao Jinglian didn't make things difficult for anyone. In the final analysis, both of them were doing it for Zijin. No one wanted to affect her mood anymore. He was very cooperative. When he passed by Gu Yanshen, he lowered his voice and said, "I'm outside."
Wait for you."
As soon as Qiao Jinglian left, Ji Yang quickly went out and closed the door for them.
Gu Yanshen took off his coat and threw it on the sofa nearby. He unbuttoned a few shirt buttons, stepped forward, and gently picked up the woman on the window eaves. Zi Jin moved in his arms.
, then reached out, hugged the man's waist tightly, and buried his face in his chest.
Gu Yanshen couldn't remember how many days he hadn't heard her speak, so when she spoke now, he was really in a trance for a moment and thought it was his auditory hallucination——
"...Yanshen, I'm sorry. I know you are worried about me, but don't blame Qiao Jinglian. He has no ill intentions. He just came in to see me. He brought me the divorce agreement."
"…………"
Gu Yanshen didn't know whether he should be excited or angry.
She was finally willing to speak. These days, she had been silent and secretly shedding tears. He knew that sometimes she was as quiet as a porcelain doll. He did not dare to disturb her. She refused to rest. He
She could only find a way to let her rest, but now, she is saying sorry to herself. In fact, she is not sorry for herself, it is him who is sorry for her. Just like Qiao Jinglian said - he can't protect her well, who has the right to blame her?
other people?
Is it just that she is talking to herself now because she is afraid that she will blame Qiao Jinglian?
He put her on the hospital bed, let her lie down, leaned over and gently kissed her forehead, "Baby, you are not sorry for me, don't apologize to me, and you don't have to worry, I won't do anything to you."
How about Qiao Jinglian? I am very happy that he is willing to divorce you, but now, I hope that you can take good care of yourself and not wrong yourself, you know? You are willing to talk to me now, which is too much for me.
It’s such a big gift, I’m afraid you won’t be able to get out of it, but as long as you can let it go, I will listen to you no matter what, and we can have many, many more children in the future, believe me, eh?”
Zijin's eyes turned red again. In fact, she didn't tell Gu Yanshen what happened to her in the elevator because she had been in a state of self-blame these days. What she couldn't let go of was that part.
Guilty, she always felt that she was like this because she disobeyed him, made the decision without permission, and left the car. But today, when Qiao Jinglian suddenly came in, she seemed to have found an outlet. There were some things that she couldn't say to Gu Yanshen.
But she was able to say it to Qiao Jinglian.
And once she said some words, she realized that many things were not really difficult to talk about.
She said it. Over the years, she had never had such a calm conversation with Qiao Jinglian, and she had never known that the "husband" whom she once disliked was once considered by her to be nothing more than a dandy.
A person seems to have grown up in a matter of seconds, and he will even comfort himself...
Yes, why put others' mistakes on your shoulders?
She felt as if the stone that had been stuck in her throat had suddenly been swallowed.
Zijin stretched out his hand, went around Gu Yanshen's neck, hugged him, and whispered: "...I believe you, I believe you, Yanshen, I believe you no matter what you say, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I will never