Adding to the Scene-77 I ??have never regretted loving you
Mu Chenchu once thought that she might never return to City C again in her life - a city that gave her hope, happiness, and pain.
But she still came back less than half a year after leaving. Just like, without love, there will be no hatred. The more you want to forget a person or a place, it will always be with you.
Sometimes people are really strange and contradictory creatures. They always think, don't, can't, can't, but they still insist on going their own way.
It's like this place, in this small alley.
Mu Chenchu stood at the entrance of the alley, with Su Junyan standing next to her. She never thought that one day, she would muster up the courage to bring this man to this place.
When she was in Seattle, the most difficult time, she really couldn't sleep every night, because as soon as she closed her eyes, she would think of all those things, all those terrible things, like a curse, haunting her, making her
She couldn't sleep or eat well. At that time, she only had one wish, which was to forget all this.
But now, she is standing here.
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"This is where you brought me?"
Su Junyan saw the woman beside him standing dumbly, but her expression was not very good. He couldn't help but said, "Chenchen, you bring me here and let me look at this dark alley?"
Mu Chenchu subconsciously moved her hands by her side. The ring finger on her right hand was still numb, but this feeling of being unconscious made her chest feel dull and dull. She couldn't help but close her eyes.
, the long eyelashes, all hanging down, like butterfly wings, are beautiful, but they also cover up too many complex emotions deep in the eyes.
She emptied her mind, and then countless pictures popped up——
Those things she wanted to forget most, but at this moment, she realized that she had never forgotten them, but had hidden them in the deepest part of her heart.
Sometimes people are so magical. You can really seal away the memories that you really don't want to touch.
"Jun Yan, do you remember the ring you once gave me?"
just-for-you.
Of course Su Junyan remembered that it was the diamond ring he gave her when he proposed to her. It was specially designed by him. When he gave it to her, she agreed and would marry him, but in the blink of an eye
, everything changed. Later, when Mu Chenchu came back, Su Junyan looked at her finger, and she never saw her wearing that ring again.
Su Junyan just thought that when a woman was having a temper with him, he would naturally take off the ring, so he didn't ask any more questions. But now that she brought it up herself, he couldn't help but be a little surprised, "What happened to the ring?"
Mu Chenchu slowly stretched out his hand, pointed to the alley in front of him, and then whispered: "The ring was snatched away from this place."
"…………"
Her voice was very calm, but her outstretched arms were so stiff. Su Junyan knew that she must have something to say, so he didn't speak in a hurry, waiting for her to finish everything.
"This is it... Jun Yan, you must be thinking that I, Mu Chenchu, am really a hypocritical person, but it's just because you had a few meals and dates with other women, or because of your family's
I was under pressure, so I acted on the occasion. After I found out about this, I broke up with her and ran to Seattle. When I came back, I looked at each other coldly and kept saying, I will never forgive you or love you anymore... You must
You are thinking that I am a very cruel woman, right?"
"…………"
Su Junyan thought, he really thought so.
In fact, the Mu Chenchu he knew was not such a coy woman. He fell in love with her at that time because he admired her personality very much, but when he really fell in love with someone, no matter what she turned into
, would he still get along if he was different?
He just thought that everything was his fault, and when he later learned that she had lost a child for him, he lost any temper.
"Chenchen, what happened in the past is in the past. I know that you have suffered a lot of grievances. I know that even saying I'm sorry can't make you happy. The ring is gone, so I bought it for you again. The child is gone...
...We can regenerate, we are still young, right? I am now..."
"There will be no more children."
Mu Chenchu's voice was hoarse, and every word was trembling. She raised a pair of astringent eyes and looked directly at Su Junyan's handsome face, "It won't happen again... Jun Yan, I may never do it in my life."
I have another child, because when I had a miscarriage, I suffered from heavy bleeding, and the doctor said that my constitution is cold, so it is not easy to get pregnant, but the child is gone, and it will be even less possible for me to get pregnant in the future..."
Su Junyan's expression changed. He didn't expect it to be like this. The aura around him darkened, and deep in his pupils, there was disbelief.
"Do you feel it's a pity? I'm only a few years old. I'm not even 30 years old. I may never have children in my life. Do you know how I felt when I heard the doctor say this to me?
?I feel like the sky is falling, and I feel that I will never be happy in the future, but it doesn’t matter...because before I lost that child, I already felt the pain in my heart and the feeling of the world falling apart."
When Mu Chenchu said this, he slowly raised his head and twitched the corner of his mouth at Su Junyan. The depths of his big eyes were filled with tears, but they never fell. She said in a hoarse voice: "You know it is
What's the matter? Jun Yan, you must not know that I saw you having sex with a woman, our sex, you were making love."
Su Junyan's breath was suffocated. He couldn't digest the successive blows at once. He frowned, as if he was stunned by some nightmare. It took a full 10 seconds for him to react and move his lips, "
...Wha, what?”
He and other women...
impossible!
How is it possible?
He didn't know at all and had no memory at all. When did he have sex with another woman?
But looking at Mu Chenchu's expression, it didn't look like she was lying. What's more, why should she lie to herself about this kind of thing?
He suddenly took a step forward and grabbed Mu Chenchu's wrist, "Tell me, what's going on? Chenchen, I really don't know anything..."
"Of course you don't know."
Mu Chenchu looked into his eyes. All the emotions in his eyes were real. He really didn't know.
But what could he do if he didn't know? She had been sure before that Su Junyan must have been passive in that matter, but if he did it, he did it. Even if she could accept that he was set up, what happened next?
"...I know you don't know, because I believe you wouldn't do such a thing to hurt me, but Jun Yan, if it happened, it happened. If you did it, it just happened. I believe what I saw with my own eyes.
I can't accept everything. I know it's unfair to you, but what about me? Who will give me fairness? I saw everything that day, and I ran out. I ran into this small alley, and I met
Two robbers arrived and they took away all the valuable things I had on me, but they still refused to let go of the diamond ring on my ring finger."
Such a big diamond, so sparkling, of course, the robbers would not let it go.
But she couldn't bear to part with it. Even though she hated Su Junyan in her heart at that moment, she was so resentful that she still couldn't bear to throw away the ring he gave her.
Her voice gradually trembled, her tears increased, the handsome face in front of her began to blur, and the world seemed to also begin to blur...
"...I refused to give it to them. I begged them, but they just refused to let me go. Do you know what I was thinking at that moment? I was just thinking, why did you give me such a big diamond ring? Why?
Want to be so dazzling? If it is just an ordinary ring, who would be interested in it? Therefore, this ring will never be mine, just like you, you will not be mine. I thought that as long as I am enough
If you work hard and persevere enough, you and I will definitely be able to cut through the thorns and stay together for the rest of our lives. But I tried hard and persisted, and the end result was that those people took out their knives and tried to force me
He gave in, and finally accidentally cut off the nerves on my ring finger, and then still snatched my ring."
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Su Junyan's face was pale, as if he had painted a wall. For such a high-spirited young master, his face was filled with shock, pain, and guilt. His thin lips were always moving, but he could not say anything.
In one sentence.
Mu Chenchu couldn't bear to see him like this. She never thought that one day, she would say everything like this. She thought she would hide it in her heart for the rest of her life.
If no one in the world can understand her heartache, she will not regret that she once loved her.
It's not that she doesn't love, she just doesn't have the courage to love again.
However, now, she still said it. She was not trying to retaliate against him. She just wanted to tell him that Mu Chenchu died in this alley on that day. Reunion was really a cruel adjective.
Mu Chenchu struggled, took out his hand from his palm, and whispered: "...I don't regret being with you before, and I don't regret loving you. It's not that I don't believe you, Jun
Yan, I just don’t want to think about it now. Those experiences were too painful for me. I don’t have the courage. I’m just a coward. Please forgive me and don’t force me anymore.”
She raised her hand in front of him and said word by word: "It's broken here and can never be connected again."