"I won't hurt myself." Xu Rongrong looked at the elders calmly, "But if you force me to take away the child again, I don't know what I will do." She said with tears in her eyes, "Grandpa, Mom,
Please, let me give birth to this child. He is the child of Yiyang and I, our only child."
Grandpa Zhan, who has been on the battlefield for many years and has always been calm and calm, his hands trembled slightly: "Rongrong, put down the knife first."
Xu Rongrong put down the knife, "Don't force me to get rid of the child again. If the child is gone, I will be gone too." She had no intention of actually doing anything to herself, she just wanted to tell her elders her determination to keep the child.
Even though she knew that the elders were doing it for her own good, but...she had already lost Zhan Yiyang, and she could no longer kill her and Zhan Yiyang's children with her own hands.
"Then when it's time for you to give birth, what do you want us to do?" He Huilan cried, "When the time comes, we can only choose one, you or the baby. Who do you want us to choose?"
"Child." Xu Rongrong said without hesitation, "Grandpa, please, when the time comes, if the child and I can only live once, choose the child."
He Huilan wanted to slap Xu Rongrong awake, but she couldn't move her hands and could only grab her shoulders, "Do you know what you are talking about? How can you bear to let a child be born without a mother and father? How can you bear to give up a child?
Make him an orphan after birth!"
"It's okay." Xu Rongrong shook his head, "Even without me and Yiyang, you will take good care of the child. I know." She only asked for a glimpse of the child before sleeping.
"Then how can you bear to let me and your father have a white-haired person give a black-haired person away!" He Huilan cried and shouted, hating Xu Rongrong for not living up to expectations, but couldn't bear to beat and scold her.
"..." Xu Rongrong's tears streamed down. He couldn't explain it, so he could only apologize, "Mom, I'm sorry..."
They say that if your parents are with you, you will have a good time if you don't travel far away. But she left her parents completely at such a young age, so she could only... wait until her children grow up to take care of her parents until they die.
"Mom," Xu Rongrong knelt in front of He Huilan, "I'm sorry, I can't take away the child. I really can't."
The iron-blooded commander began to wipe his tears.
The huge room was almost flooded with tears from so many people.
Finally, no one dared to ask Xu Rongrong to take away the child.
Before the child was born, Xu Rongrong lived and died with the child. Such a threat was too great.
In exchange, Xu Rongrong also promised his grandfather a few things.
It's not something that is difficult for others, but it is very difficult for her.
——Have a good rest and eat on time obediently.
Insomnia came to her like a ferocious devil. It came out late at night and she couldn't fall asleep. She could only toss and turn in bed.
Three meals, three meals without Zhan Yiyang, she wouldn't know how to eat, and she wouldn't even feel hungry.
No matter what, grandpa did it for her own good, so she agreed.
Everyone hopes that she will be well, and for the sake of her children and Zhan Yiyang, she must also be well.
After having lunch at Zhan's house, Xu Rongrong returned to Repulse Bay.
In fact, her grandfather also asked her to move to the old house so that Liang Shuxian could take care of her more conveniently, but she refused.
Memories of her and Zhan Yiyang can be found in every corner of the house. In the days without Zhan Yiyang, she can only rely on these memories to survive. Asking her to move away means asking her to leave these memories, which is undoubtedly the same as asking her to leave.
her life.
Besides, she still has to wait here for Zhan Yiyang to come back, how can she move out?
In this way, Xu Rongrong insisted on staying in Repulse Bay.
Her life seemed to be back to before Zhan Yiyang, and it was ordinary. But it was completely different from before. Now, she was missing and waiting, her heart was empty, her whole body was empty, and she was sitting on the window sill.
You can stay idle for half a day.
He Huilan and Liang Shuxian, or the Zhan family's aunts, took turns delivering meals and would often talk to her, trying to persuade her to accept the facts.
However, when she looked out the window, she often couldn't hear what they were saying. Sometimes, it would take her a long time to react, and she would look at them blankly, and then hear their slight sighs.
She didn't mean to do it, but her reaction seemed to have become really slow.
She wanted to fight Yiyang and came to this point.
Ye Zi'an also comes here often.
She can chat with Ye Zi'an. Although her reaction is not fast, at least she can hear what Ye Zi'an is saying.
Ye Ye An said:
Ji Fanyi was also very sad.
One day and night she saw Ji Fanyi crying.
Ji Fanyi was drunk and cried to her about what happened between him and Zhan Yiyang.
Zhan Yiyang had saved Ji Fanyi's life, more than once. Therefore, Ji Fanyi never had a second thought about fighting Yiyang.
Ji Fanyi...
Ji Fanyi...
Ji Fanyi...
Maybe Ye Zi'an didn't notice it, but Xu Rongrong was sensitive to it. Now Ye Zi'an is almost inseparable from Ji Fanyi. Every word she says is related to Ji Fanyi.
She knows why.
When your heart is full of someone and can no longer hold it, you will speak out.
She had been like this before - when she fell in love with Zhan Yiyang.
Ye Zi'an completely fell in love with Ji Fanyi, but she didn't realize it herself.
Xu Rongrong didn't tell Ye Zi'an either, she wanted to leave it to her to discover by herself. After all, Ji Fanyi also liked her.
When you find that you like someone, and that person also likes you, the feeling is so beautiful that it is indescribable. She wanted Ye Zi'an to experience this beauty.
As for her, she is waiting to fight Yiyang, day after day...
Regarding the child, when she told Ye Zi'an, Ye Zi'an hugged her and cried. Ye Zi'an scolded her for being stupid and asked her to get rid of the child immediately.
Ye Zi'an's statement was exactly the same as her grandfather's. They both felt that she was still so young and could still have a good future. If she could get rid of her children and marry a good man, her life would be bright and magnanimous.
She just looked at Ye Zi'an and said nothing.
In her mind, no one can replace Zhan Yiyang. She will never fall in love with anyone else in her life, and she will never wear a wedding dress for anyone else again.
She will always be Zhan Yiyang's wife.
Ye Zi'an probably understood the look in her eyes, hugged her, and cried louder, "He is your child, and he is also my child. I will take care of him. As long as I live, I will not let him be harmed by anything."
People bully.”
Xu Rongrong caressed his lower abdomen, which had not yet swollen, and his eyes were red.
Her child had already received so much love from so many people even before he was born. Therefore, it was right for her to decide to give birth to him and meet Zhan Yiyang herself.
She was relieved, really relieved.
Because of this peace of mind, Xu Rongrong's days became slower and longer. Most of the time, she sat on the windowsill in a daze.
Because of insomnia at night, her complexion was not very good. She did not dare to touch the bed during the day, for fear that she would not be able to sleep for even two hours at night because she had regained her energy during the day.
And the days are so long.
Therefore, she spent a long, long time in a daze and missing her.
In this way, more than a month passed.
There is less and less heat in the air, the morning wind is getting cooler and colder, and the leaves of the ginkgo trees downstairs are gradually turning yellow...
The mood of autumn is getting stronger.
Xu Rongrong has always had a soft spot for autumn.
This is the most beautiful time of the four seasons, the season she looks forward to most.
The weather in this season is just right, the sunshine is just right, and it feels so desolate, with a bit of vicissitudes and sadness...
Now, she has another reason to love autumn - Zhan Yiyang will come back in autumn.
…
Xu Rongrong held a glass of water and sat on the window sill of the room.
As the weather was getting colder, the floor tiles on the window sill were also very cold. Liang Shuxian was worried that she would catch a cold, so she thoughtfully bought a fluffy blanket and spread it on it.
She sat on the fluffy blanket and looked at the ginkgo tree that turned into a brilliant golden color.
It's autumn...
Xu Rongrong stroked his slightly bulging belly: "Baby, your father will be back soon. It's autumn. He said he would be back in autumn."
There was a faint smile on her face.
She rarely smiled after there was no news from Zhan Yiyang, but she would smile when talking to her children.
The child is growing up day by day in her belly. She feels the growth process of new life more and more clearly. How can she not laugh?
However, no matter how she smiled, the scar between her eyebrows could not be covered up.
Just like her favorite song "My Love", no matter how beautiful the melody is, the sadness between the lines cannot be concealed.
Recently, she loves listening to this song with her baby more and more. She often says to her baby: "This is also how your mother misses your father."
——Empty street, empty house, empty heart, I am so lonely. I pray in a low voice, hoping that the dream can take me to a place with a blue sea, where I will meet again
To you, my love. I read, I work, I talk and laugh with my friends, but I still can’t stop thinking about you, I can’t stop...
The lyrics perfectly match Xu Rongrong's mood.
Only then did she realize that when you really miss someone, you really can't stop missing them, no matter how time flies.
When you really, really miss someone, you can't help but burst into tears when you look at something, and you suddenly want to see that person again, and the thought breaks your heart.
Xu Rongrong didn't know if she could wait for Zhan Yiyang before she died, so she could only listen to this song over and over again, look out the window, miss her quietly, and wait silently.
It is said that sincerity leads to success. If she waits for Zhan Yiyang so obediently, fate will not be too cruel to her.
During the Mid-Autumn Festival, the moon is full and people are scattered.
On this day, Xu Rongrong ate his lunch with difficulty as usual and went to sort out Zhan Yiyang's clothes in the closet.
According to the custom of City A, after a person leaves, his related belongings must be thrown away. However, Xu Rongrong packed all Zhan Yiyang's belongings carefully, as if he was still there and he had never left.
It's autumn, and she wants to take back Zhan Yiyang's summer clothes and take out his autumn clothes. This way, she won't be in a hurry when he comes back.
But as soon as she opened the closet, there was a knock on the door.
When he went out and opened the door, it was Ye Zi'an.
Ye Zi'an's face was full of tears, and it could be seen that she ran over crying.
"Yi Zi?" Xu Rongrong reacted quickly this time. She pulled Ye Zi'an in and asked, "What's wrong?"