Zhan Yiyang woke up earlier than before. When he opened his eyes, there was just a touch of white in the eastern sky.
He subconsciously looked at the place next to him - it was empty and without warmth.
My heart felt a twinge of pain again.
He thought, six years ago, after hearing the news of his death, Xu Rongrong woke up every day and felt the same as he does now?
When getting up, Zhan Yiyang looked at the time and saw that it was only six o'clock.
He remembered clearly that at three o'clock in the morning, his head was still awake, and he woke up again at about five o'clock. It turned out that he had not slept for long at all, so no wonder he had a headache.
But no matter how painful it was, he couldn't fall asleep. He got up and looked at the wedding photos taken on Nanhai Island when he and Xu Rongrong remarried.
As the pages of the photo album were turned, the sunlight slowly poured into the room, and unknowingly, the clock had already pointed to eight o'clock.
Zhan Yiyang's door was opened, Tianning poked his head in and called: "Dad."
Zhan Yiyang looked up at the door and saw Tianning leaning against the door in pajamas with messy black hair. He put down the photo album and went over, combing the little guy's black hair with his hands: "Take you to change clothes."
Today's weather seems to be colder than yesterday, but the house is very warm. Zhan Yiyang put the little guy into a warm yellow hooded sweatshirt and jeans, and then took him to wash up. The little guy was completely
People suddenly became very energetic.
Looking at his son, Zhan Yiyang's thoughts were in a trance for a moment.
He seemed to have never worried about Tianning's affairs. Xu Rongrong had taken good care of him in the past.
Xu Rongrong is attentive and considerate, and always gives his son the best and suitable things for him. Therefore, everything in Tianning looks just right, even a small piece of clothing.
From now on... their father and son will never have her in their lives again.
He felt something coming towards him, blocking his chest, and Zhan Yiyang almost suffocated.
But in the end, for Tianning's sake, he finally took a breath, touched the little guy's head, and carried him downstairs.
After breakfast, Liang Shuxian said: "Today is the weekend, Yiyang, will you take Tianning out for a walk?"
In fact, Liang Shuxian just wanted Zhan Yiyang to go out and relax, and she was not sure that Zhan Yiyang would agree.
"I'll take him to the hospital." Zhan Yiyang's tone was unexpectedly calm, "Look at Shiyan."
"That's fine."
Liang Shuxian nodded, her eyes burning a little.
She knew that Zhan Yiyang's state was just his disguise. They would never know the tremendous pain and torture he endured alone in the dark night.
"Dad," Tianning took Zhan Yiyang's hand and looked up at him, "What's wrong with Uncle Min?"
Zhan Yiyang patiently explained to his son: "Uncle Min is not feeling well and is seeing a doctor in the hospital. Shall we go see him?"
Tianning nodded vigorously: "Yeah!" He took the initiative to hold Zhan Yiyang's hand, "Dad, let's go."
Zhan Yiyang was about to lead Tianning out, but Liang Shuxian stopped him and went upstairs to get a vest: "It's cold outside, Tianning is wearing too little."
Liang Shuxian put the vest on Tianning and then said: "Okay, let's go."
Zhan Yiyang led Tianning out, but her heart felt like it was blocked - if Xu Rongrong was still here, she must have been like Liang Shuxian and considered asking Tianning to put on more clothes before going out.
It turned out that even if he stayed with Tianning 24 hours a day, he couldn't make up for the fact that Xu Rongrong was not by his side.
As for Xu Rongrong's matter, he didn't know how long he could keep it a secret from Tianning...
Tianning noticed Zhan Yiyang's absence and shook his hand: "Dad? What's wrong with you?"
Zhan Yiyang came to his senses and smiled at his son: "It's okay."
While they were talking, the father and son had already entered the garage. Zhan Yiyang opened the door of the passenger seat and let Tianning get in. Then, he got into the driver's seat and the car drove towards the Military Region General Hospital.
Over the weekend, the tense rhythm of the city seemed to relax a little. Even the cars on the road were no longer so hurried. Zhan Yiyang's car was also moving forward in the traffic flow.
After arriving at the hospital, I quickly found Min Shiyan's ward, which was in the top-floor suite of the inpatient department.
Min Shiyan was surprised to see Zhan Yiyang and his son, but when he thought of Xu Rongrong, his expression darkened again.
For these two nights, he had the same dream, and there was only one scene in the dream - Xu Rongrong jumped off the cliff.
Xu Rongrong did this for Gu Yixuan, he knew it, and because of this, he felt doubly guilty.
Looking at Zhan Yiyang's current appearance, although it can't be described as haggard, the pain under his eyes and the tired look on his brows cannot be concealed at all costs.
Min Shiyan felt even more uncomfortable.
Tianning still couldn't feel the heaviness between Zhan Yiyang and Min Shiyan, so he let go of Min Shiyan's hand and ran to Min Shiyan's bedside: "Uncle Min, what's wrong with you? Are you sick?"
Min Shiyan touched Tian Ning's head, raised the corners of his lips and said "hmm" with a smile.
"Well, Uncle Min, are you feeling uncomfortable?" Tianning had been hospitalized, and in his memory, the days spent lying in the hospital bed were painful.
"Uncle, it's not uncomfortable." Min Shiyan said, "Tianning, can you ask the nurse sister to take you to play for a while? Uncle and your father have something to say." He knew that if Xu Rongrong's accident happened, Tianning would definitely not return it.
You know, otherwise he wouldn't be so happy.
Tianning looked at Min Shiyan, then at Zhan Yiyang, blinking: "Okay."
Later, Tianning was taken out by Min Shiyan's caretakers. Min Shiyan motioned to Zhan Yiyang: "Sit down."
Zhan Yiyang pulled a chair over and sat down in front of Min Shiyan's hospital bed: "How is your condition?"
"I've used a lot of medicine." Min Shiyan said helplessly, "Experts say I won't die, but there's no guarantee that I can live as healthily as before... but... there may be sequelae."
"..." Zhan Yiyang's mood became increasingly heavy and he said nothing.
"Rongrong's matter..." Min Shiyan closed his eyes, "I..."
"You don't have to think anything of it." Zhan Yiyang interrupted Min Shiyan, his tone was disappointed but still gentle, "She did that not only for Gu Yixuan, but also for me."
"Rongrong, she..." Min Shiyan couldn't say the next words. He still couldn't believe it. Xu Rongrong was actually dead. The person who was alive a few days ago was just gone.
"Haoran is still looking and can't find it." Zhan Yiyang's heart felt a tightening pain again, "But it's okay, I can still lie to myself and tell myself that she is still alive and waiting for me to find her...
"
"..." Min Shiyan knew, in fact, everyone knew that Xu Rongrong jumped into the deep river and could not be found for so many days, and there was no chance of survival. What's more, the M305 on her body has not been completely removed...
This was also the reason why Zhan Yiyang did not dare to look for Xu Rongrong in person. He was afraid that he could not find it, and that in the end, he would not be able to even lie to himself that Xu Rongrong was still alive.
The silence spread, and was finally broken by Zhan Yiyang: "Where is Gu Yixuan?"
Min Shiyan's lips raised a wry smile: "The woman who was sent to the hospital with me was picked up by her family after the examination and she was fine."
"Haven't seen you?"
Min Shiyan shook his head: "His parents may not let her contact me at all."
Zhan Yiyang said: "I really can't explain it clearly. You can tell Gu Yixuan's parents about m305."
Because they were afraid of causing public panic, someone specifically told Min Shiyan and Gu Yixuan that the m305 matter should not be leaked.
It was also for this reason that Gu Yixuan could not explain the whole thing to her parents.
But now, Zhan Yiyang allowed them to tell the story.
Min Shiyan nodded: "I'll decide based on the situation." After all, the affairs of Kalilan Island and M305 are beyond the imagination of ordinary people.
Zhan Yiyang said something to Min Shiyan again, and then left with Tianning.
The days go by like this day by day——
Zhan Yiyang stayed with Tianning at home, neither sad nor happy. Chen Haoran was still trying to find Xu Rongrong's body, but to no avail. Min Shiyan was lying in the hospital receiving treatment, waiting for his fate to be pronounced. But Gu Yixuan, because he could not explain things clearly
, and was locked up in a small villa in the countryside by his mother and was not allowed to go to Min Shiyan.
Half a month passed in a blink of an eye.
Commander Zhan and his wife and He Huilan and his wife began to discuss Xu Rongrong's funeral, but they were opposed by Zhan Yiyang.
For these days, no one in the family dared to mention Xu Rongrong's name in front of Zhan Yiyang, but it was impossible to hide things like the funeral from him.
However, as soon as he mentioned it, Zhan Yiyang said:
"Don't do it!"
"Yi Yang..." Liang Shuxian and He Huilan tried to persuade Yi Yang to fight.
Zhan Yiyang's eyes were red: "Haoran hasn't found her yet, what kind of funeral should we have? Who should we bury? No!"
"You still don't want to accept Rongrong's death, right?" He Huilan also had red eyes, "Wake up, is it possible that she is still alive?"
Zhan Yiyang lost control of his emotions in an instant, but he tried his best to suppress it until his temples and hands became numb. Finally, he gritted his teeth and uttered: "She's not dead! No funeral is allowed!"
After saying that, Zhan Yiyang stood up from the sofa and went upstairs, only to see Tianning standing at the stairs of the second floor, looking blankly at the adults downstairs.
Zhan Yilin secretly screamed that it was too bad. She had known that her family was going to discuss Xu Rongrong's funeral, and she had let Tianning play in her room, but she didn't expect him to run out. He probably heard what the adults said.
Then...did he understand?
Zhan Yiyang also panicked for a moment. Before he could react, Tianning had already turned around and returned to the room. He could no longer care about himself and hurriedly followed.
Tianning returned to Zhan Yiyang and Xu Rongrong's room. Zhan Yiyang opened the door and found the little guy lying beside the bed, his face buried deep in the bed, and his expression could not be seen.
He walked over cautiously: "Tianning."
Xiao Tianning raised his head and looked at Zhan Yiyang, looking a little aggrieved: "Dad, why hasn't mom come back yet? I want to find mom..."
"..." Zhan Yiyang's eyes heated up, and he gently hugged his son into his arms. He didn't know how to tell Tianning that he also wanted to find Xu Rongrong, but... she was in a place where they couldn't find her.
Tianning, on the other hand, seemed to have realized something from Zhan Yiyang's actions. He hugged Zhan Yiyang tightly and burst into tears...