Chapter 245 The Selfishness Back then Causes the Pain Now
Chapter 245: The selfishness back then led to the pain now
The three of them were sitting in the coffee shop, each of them drinking a cup of coffee. Li Ruoqi was caught in the middle, looking a little embarrassed. Maybe that was not what she wanted to see.
"Yaonan, when you come back this time, do you want to stay a little longer? It's inconvenient to stay in a hotel. Listen to my aunt and go home. You are also your father's son. If word spreads, others will still say bad things about you.
Dad is not good to you." Qin Caifeng took the initiative to speak.
She came here just to persuade Li Yaonan to go back to the villa. It would be easier for the family to talk about something if they were at home. If they were noisy outside, she would not be able to save her own face if others saw her.
Li Yaonan neither refused nor agreed, "Aunt, it's dinner time now, why don't we talk about it after dinner."
Li Ruoqi also pulled Qin Caifeng, "Mom, don't you want to go home to be with dad? You go home first, and I'll be with my brother."
"It's better to eat together, Yaonan, right?" Qin Caifeng didn't want to go back alone. Even if she wanted to go back, she had to make Li Yaonan willing to go back.
Su Yujing was sitting alone in front of the window. She saw from the news that something was wrong with Li's company.
She always had a hunch in her heart that maybe she shouldn't care about these things anymore, but what Li Yaonan did was something no one could understand.
Mrs. Su came out of the room and saw Su Yujing in a daze. She walked to the sofa and sat down, "Jingjing, are you still thinking about him?"
"Grandma, I didn't. I just saw the news. In fact, I chose to leave at that time just because I didn't want to have anything to do with him anymore." Su Yujing stroked her belly. She worked hard to hold on until now, that is, for the sake of her child.
She couldn't let her children continue to suffer the pain she had missed.
"That's good, Jingjing, grandma wants to tell you that if you meet the right man, you have to take good care of it. Children also need a complete family." Mrs. Su knew that no matter what, the matter was over.
At this stage, she also wants to let Su Yujing live a good life.
Su Yujing shook her head, "Grandma, I can raise a child by myself. I'm afraid now. I don't want my child to live an unhappy life in the future."
She knew that if she had to find a father for her child for the sake of her own happiness, the child would be hurt even more in the future.
"You are also a stubborn child. If a man really loves you, he will naturally treat his child well." Mrs. Su hated Yunqing back then, so she put all her dissatisfaction on Su Yujing.
on the body.
"Grandma, what kind of woman is my mother?" Su Yujing has never asked her in such a long time. It's not that she doesn't want to know, maybe she doesn't want to make Mrs. Su sad.
Mrs. Su paused for a long time. She didn't know how to say some words.
"Grandma, it's okay if you don't want to talk. I'm just asking casually." Su Yujing bit her lip. Eighteen years have passed, and some people should not have appeared in her life.
Mrs. Su shook her head, "It's not that I don't want to say it, but I don't know much about her. At that time, your father and Rong'er were married. Because something happened to the Yun family, your mother also lived in Su.
Home."
Su Yujing listened carefully, wondering whether her life and her fate had been doomed a long time ago.
"Actually, I knew at that time that Wen Kai loved Yun Qing, not Yun Rong, but Rong'er was more lovable and sweet-tongued. I felt very happy when she was with me, so I was very selfish.
.Although your father accepted the marriage, he still couldn't forget your mother in his heart, so once he was drunk, your father broke into your mother's room, which is how he had you." Mr. Su.
When people recall what happened more than ten years ago, it is as if they are still right in front of them, so clearly.
That mistake back then was also the beginning of the pain now.
"Then my mother..." Su Yujing understood that if Yun Qing didn't love Su Wenkai, then this night's seizure would be a great pain to her.
The same was true for her and Li Yaonan, wasn't it? She felt that her only choice at that time was to die.
However, for the sake of the Su family, she didn't do that.
"Yunqing wanted to die at the time and swallowed sleeping pills, but she was saved. Since then, she has locked herself in the room alone without seeing anyone. Except for the servant who brought her three meals a day,
Finally, it wasn't until she fainted and was sent to the hospital that I found out she was pregnant with you." Mrs. Su sighed heavily.
If there had been no Su Yujing back then, both Yun Qing and Yun Rong would have had their own happiness.
Mrs. Su thought so, but she was wrong. A marriage that is forced to be together will not be happy.
Even after Su Wenkai and Yun Rong had Su Yutong, they still quarreled every day, and they even split rooms.
"Grandma, my mother must still be alive, right?" Su Yujing thought, if her mother was still alive, would she know about the existence of her daughter?
Mrs. Su shook her head, "Not long after you were born, Yun Qing disappeared. No matter how hard she searched, she couldn't find her. Later, her bag and a shoe were found by the river. The police searched for several days but couldn't find them.
, everyone thought she was dead in the end.”
Su Yujing's hands clenched tightly into fists, "Grandma, if I hadn't been there at that time, I think my mother would have been very happy."
Yun Qing will also have her own life, and Su Yujing is her only tie.
"Maybe." Mrs. Su said lightly, "Jingjing, in fact, Ronger treats you as her biological daughter. After her death, I didn't want Wen Kai to feel too guilty because of her.
You will say that Yun Qing and her daughter are both dead, and you just brought her from the orphanage to make him feel at ease."
Mrs. Su had no choice at that time, it was her only choice.
Yun Rong is also a kind-hearted woman. She said that it doesn't matter if she dies. What matters is that the man she loves can live well and be happy, with two daughters by her side.
Mrs. Su, however, let Su Yujing step out of the Su family's life and made her an outsider.
"Dad has ignored me all these years because he thought that my appearance would make him lose his daughter, right?" Su Yujing had always not understood that if she was not the Su family, the Su family would be the oldest.
But I don’t want to adopt her. Since I have adopted her, why should I make her suffer so much?
It turns out that it’s just that everyone’s thoughts are different.
"Jingjing, it's all ***'s fault. If grandma hadn't been selfish back then, maybe things wouldn't be like this." Mrs. Su has always felt guilty in her heart. There are some words that she has kept in her heart for a long time, but
There was still no way to tell Su Yujing.
But now that she finally said it, she felt relieved.
Su Yujing took Mrs. Su's hand and said, "Grandma, I won't blame you. Some things may really be destined. If it weren't for what you did at that time, I wouldn't have fallen in love with Li Yaonan. Although he didn't
Love me, but it is also a kind of happiness for me to love him, at least, I once got him."
She is not possessive of love. For her, all she wants is what she has received.
No matter how many women surround Li Yaonan, the happiness Su Yujing feels sometimes is real.
And now, even if she is alone, she will not feel any regrets.
"You girl, you have the same temperament as your mother. Although sometimes you are very unpleasant and you don't know sweet words, but I know you are a good child, and I also know that Yun Qing is a good daughter." Su.
If the old lady had been more cruel, she would have driven Yun Qing out of the Su family earlier.
Or, if Mrs. Su didn't stop Wen Kai from marrying Yun Qing back then, would something be different?
Mrs. Su knew that Yun Qing had no feelings for Su Wenkai, just like the two sisters of Qiao Chuheng's Su family now. Some hurt was destined to be between the three of them.
"Grandma, it's been so many years since this happened. Don't take it to heart. I won't blame you." Su Yujing would not investigate who was at fault or who was responsible for what happened back then.
She just wanted to know the truth about that matter, just like she had the right to know who her mother was and her own life experience. She had always wanted to know, but she didn't have the ability to know.
"If it weren't for my selfishness, you wouldn't be pregnant like this and bear so much on your own." Madam Su looked at Su Yujing. Everyone has their own selfishness.
If Su Yujing had been more selfish, if she had insisted on being with Qiao Chuheng, maybe things wouldn't have turned out like this.
"Grandma, I'm fine. I'm fine as I am now. Besides, my sister and brother-in-law are fine together." Su Yujing was sure that Qiao Chuheng would be good to Su Yutong.
After she chose to leave, she knew that Qiao Chuheng would love Su Yutong with all her heart.
As long as she, Su Yujing, does not exist, there will be no obstacles between Qiao Chuheng and Su Yutong.
"I'm not worried about this. With Tongtong's temperament, Chu Heng is no match for her." This was why Mrs. Su insisted on following Su Yujing at that time.
Because she wanted to spend more time with Su Yujing, Mrs. Su could only imagine how much hardship she would endure if she was pregnant.
"Grandma, actually I feel very satisfied now that you and Mrs. Fu are with me." Su Yujing didn't expect much. She had never felt the family affection before, and now she has it, and it won't be too late.
Mrs. Su patted her on the back and said, "Okay, you girl. Seeing that you can still smile on your face now, grandma will feel comfortable."
"Grandma, don't say that. In fact, I know how I have been in the Su family for so many years. At least I don't have to worry about food or clothing." Su Yujing has spent every day in the Su family over the years.
To her, it all belongs to her life.
She has experienced it herself, and she has also experienced happiness.
And Li Yaonan was the biggest accident in Su Yujing's life, and now it's not that easy even if she wants to forget that man.
Because she has their flesh and blood in her belly, even if she really wants to sever the relationship, it seems impossible.
However, Su Yujing knew that she and her children would never interact with Li Yaonan again in their lives.
If it hadn't been for that unexpected accident that she couldn't imagine.