The lyrics in "The Promise" were that Li Nan often sat on the back of Yang Chen's bicycle, hugged his waist, and sang this song. He remembered it clearly. Now he walked into the ward and saw Li Nan with his eyes closed and crying. The past events are still vivid in his mind.
Maybe there is no love for each other at all, maybe the distance between the two is getting further and further apart, but no one can erase that memory.
Yang Chen took a deep breath, suppressing the sadness that filled his heart, and softly shouted "Li Nan"
Li Nan heard a familiar voice and thought it was an illusion caused by reminiscing about the past. He did not open his eyes. A bitter and sad smile appeared on his pale face, and tears could not stop flowing down his face.
The more desperate the situation, the more I miss the past things and the past people.
When she heard the second call, she suddenly realized that this was not an illusion. When she opened her eyes, a familiar and familiar figure was right in front of her.
Yang Chen.
First love boyfriend.
The person I truly loved in my short life.
She was also the person she didn't want to see the most at this moment. She didn't want him to see her in such a mess and miserable. She stared blankly at Yang Chen, expressionless and weeping, not knowing what to say or what to do.
Yang Chen was also at a loss for words and remained awkwardly silent for a while. He walked to the bedside, pulled up a chair and sat down. He handed the tissue on the bedside table to Li Nan and asked Li Nan to wipe his tears.
"Everyone will get sick, so relax and have confidence in recovery. As long as you have confidence, there is nothing impossible in the world. I will try my best to help you. Don't have any worries. Go find me, Sister Qiao, and tell me if you have given up on treatment."
Don't be stupid. If you are not afraid of death, are you still afraid of living?" Yang Chen did not talk about old things, but directly comforted Li Nan with sincere words. Let the past be gone forever.
"Are you giving me charity to pity me?" Li Nan asked Yang Chen while wiping away tears.
Yang Chen shook his head and said seriously: "We are not destined to be together, but after all, we know each other, we are in the same junior high school, and we are classmates in high school. We are not lovers, so I can't help you? If it were other people I know, I would also help you
.”
Li Nan was silent and did not ask Yang Chen any more sarcastic questions. Based on her understanding of the man in front of her, she valued love and justice, and would indeed help every friend and classmate who encountered difficulties. As he said, even if they had never fallen in love,
Just an ordinary classmate, he will still help.
This is Yang Chen.
A man worth talking to.
A man worthy of a woman’s devoted love.
It's a pity that he was so stupid and missed him. Li Nan was lying to himself when he said he didn't regret it. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes again to contain his mood swings.
The attending doctor led assistants and nurses on rounds to break the dullness in the ward. Yang Chen took the opportunity to ask about Li Nan's condition and the critical stage of leukemia. If he transplanted bone marrow as soon as possible, he would still have a chance of survival.
Bone marrow transplant is expensive.
Moreover, this disease requires long-term treatment and requires a certain financial foundation.
The doctor's words were very euphemistic. To put it bluntly, if you have money, you may survive, but if you don't have money, you may die.
Yang Chen didn't care at all about the last few words of the attending doctor. He figured out the seriousness of Li Nan's condition. He immediately called, first to Anna, to arrange a hospital, and to dispatch his own Gulfstream 550 special plane to the capital. The Gulfstream 550 could not cross the Pacific Ocean.
Gotta cheer up in Hawaii.
When it was time for the plane to refuel, Yang Chen could afford to wait, and then called Wu Jie, "Old Wu, please get a helicopter from the Army Aviation Corps stationed in Xijing. I want to take a patient to the Capital Airport."
"When?" Wu Jie asked the time without hesitation. Apparently it was easy to do this.
"Tomorrow afternoon." Yang Chen estimated that his Gulfstream 550 should arrive in the capital tomorrow afternoon. This guy made arrangements in an orderly manner, and everyone in the ward was stunned.
It turns out that he is a very rich, handsome man!
The nurse's eyes shone brightly, and she was extremely envious of Li Nan. She seemed to enjoy having leukemia.
Li Nan reacted and asked Yang Chen anxiously, "What do you want to do?"
"Send you to the United States to receive the best medical treatment." Yang Chen said firmly, showing his unquestionable stubbornness. Li Nan had a chance of survival, and he must save her.
No matter what this girl had done, she left him with a good time and gave him the purest feelings.
Yang Chen couldn't learn from the behavior of a narrow-minded little man who gloated over the misfortune of his first girlfriend who had been in love with someone else, but Li Nan shook his head dully.
"Yang Chen, let's go. I don't need your charity. I just want to be quiet now." Li Nan issued the eviction order, which made the doctors and nurses look at each other. They all thought that there was something wrong with this girl's mind.
It's a matter of life and death, why are you playing tricks?
Seeing that Li Nan was very emotionally unstable, Yang Chen decided to leave first and let Li Nan calm down and think carefully. Before leaving, he said to Li Nan: "Don't dwell on what we did before. Survival is the most important thing. Your mother and your brother are inseparable."
You, I will bring someone to pick you up tomorrow."
The attending doctor gave Li Nan a few more words and followed Yang Chen out of the ward. Silence returned to the ward. Li Nan closed his eyes tightly. It would be better to live than die.
But what’s the point of living in the endless pain of long-term treatment and chemotherapy, living with deep guilt for one person? Why bother with your family and close relatives who have to suffer with you?
Furthermore, living only for the sake of living is an animal.
Li Nan, who had closed his eyes for a long time, slowly opened his eyes, a look of determination appearing in his eyes.
At night, after the nurse completed her last round of wards, Li Nan took his bag from the bedside table and opened the zipper of the bag. There were two medicines inside.
Sleeping pills.
Almost finished one bottle.
One bottle is a spare.
She had endured so much pressure over the past year that she could only rely on sleeping pills to fall asleep every night. Then she took out a pen and paper from her bag and wrote a full page with tears.
Mom, brother.
When you see this page, I should have left this world. I love you very much and I can’t bear to leave you, and I can’t bear to leave this world. There are so many things in the world that are worthy of my nostalgia. So many childhood dreams have not come true.
I have worn a wedding dress, never walked into a wedding hall, and never had the opportunity to raise my own baby.
But I had to leave, please don't blame me.
I live, I suffer, and you suffer with it. Instead of doing this, I would rather leave and only let you suffer once. Live well for me, enjoy life for me, and see for me how wonderful the world will become in the future.
Yang Chen.
This paragraph is written to you.
You are my first love, the only man I have ever loved, and the person I have hurt the most. I want to say sorry to you before I leave.
I'm leaving.
Don't want to live in
Feeling guilty for you.
The last thing I ask you is to take good care of my mother and brother. If there is an afterlife, I will be a cow and a horse for you.
Li Nan placed the tearful suicide note on the bedside table, held it down with her bag, then opened two bottles of sleeping pills, swallowed them both, got into bed, and closed her tear-filled eyes.
