Chapter four hundred and sixty-eight of the past, let it pass
Seeing Zhang Xinlan's red eyes sparkling with tears, Zhao Yang couldn't help being slightly startled, and stopped, looking at Zhang Xinlan, with a vague trance in his eyes.
Zhang Xinlan raised her head slightly, looked at Zhao Yang with tearful eyes, and choked with sobs: "It would be great if there was no such car accident. In that case, you would have enrolled in Kyoto University three years ago and come to Kyoto with me."
Come and study..."
Seeing that Zhang Xinlan was a bit overwhelmed, Zhao Yang was silent for a long time, then sighed, looked up at the sky, and sighed with a sense of vicissitudes and helplessness in his voice: "Xinlan, many things happened not because of us.
What can be decided and changed by one's own subjective will. God's will is unpredictable and God's will can trick people! Perhaps, there is indeed a 'God' existence in the dark that controls the fate of all lives..."
After a short pause, Zhao Yang withdrew his gaze from the distance, looked at Zhang Xinlan, and continued: "Xinlan, the car accident three and a half years ago was a 'misfortune and blessing' for me.
Although that car accident turned me into a vegetative state and slept for two years, prevented me from even seeing my grandfather for the last time, and made me miss applying to Kyoto University. However, that car accident also completely changed my life.
My life, everything about me. It was that car accident that made me go through some unusual experiences. That's how I became what you see now."
"I don't know whether that car accident was good or bad, a blessing or a curse for me. If there hadn't been that car accident, maybe I would have filled out the application form for Kyoto University as we agreed at the beginning.
I wish to come to Kyoto to study with you, and then spend four years of college life. After graduation, find a stable job, work hard for a living, and then get married and start a business. Have children and live like an ordinary person.
There are occasional ups and downs, but overall, I spend this life relatively peacefully..."
Zhang Xinlan was silent, looking at Zhao Yang quietly, feeling the complex emotions contained in his words, the one that seemed to have gone through the vicissitudes and emotions of the world, the one that seemed to have no idea whether it really existed.
The helplessness and sigh of 'fate', as well as the faint melancholy about life, the future and the past, and the vague confusion...
Although Zhang Xinlan could hear Zhao Yang's complex emotions from his words, she had no idea what Zhao Yang had experienced after that car accident. It actually made him feel such a sense of vicissitudes.
And helplessness towards 'God's will'!
Perhaps today, walking and chatting with Zhang Xinlan on the campus again, just like in high school, brought back Zhao Yang's memories of that high school years that are worth recalling and nostalgic for.
Perhaps it was the Zhang Xinlan in front of him who reminded Zhao Yang again of the more youthful and innocent Zhang Xinlan.
Or perhaps it was that memory, the hazy ambiguity and the beautiful feelings of love towards the opposite sex that he had for the first time in his life, which made Zhao Yang feel a little embarrassed. Unconsciously, he just said those words.
Zhong revealed a lot of information to Zhang Xinlan that she would not have disclosed easily.
And Zhang Xinlan obviously understood something from Zhao Yang's words.
After a period of silence, Zhang Xinlan said: "Zhao Yang, you mean... what happened yesterday was something you only... had after the car accident more than three years ago?"
Although Zhang Xinlan's words seemed a bit confusing and she didn't understand what she meant at first, Zhao Yang knew what she was referring to.
What happened yesterday naturally refers to Zhao Yang rescuing her in the museum and using spells, flying swords and other means to kill the two vampires.
What Zhang Xinlan asked was nothing more than asking Zhao Yang whether he had the means and abilities he had yesterday because of some experiences and encounters after that car accident.
Zhao Yang did not deny this, but nodded very calmly, "Well! If it hadn't been for that car accident, my world would still be the same as yours now. Everything is ordinary and ordinary. Now my world
All changes happened because of that car accident."
"As I said to you on the phone yesterday, this world is very big. There are many unknown things, many, many more than you can imagine. Even I have experienced some, some that you can't even imagine.
What I got was that I came into contact with some incredible existences, but now my understanding of 'this world' still seems very ignorant..."
Zhao Yang stared at the sky in the distance and sighed.
Zhao Yang's words made Zhang Xinlan silent for a while. She was carefully savoring the information contained in Zhao Yang's words, and at the same time, she was full of curiosity about the 'experience' that Zhao Yang mentioned.
However, Zhang Xinlan also knew that it was not appropriate to go to Shenzhen to ask about the 'experience' that Zhao Yang mentioned.
"Zhao Yang, you said, it would be great if we could go back to the past, to high school. At that time, although the study tasks were very heavy and there were a lot of homework, I felt very fulfilled. I went to school every day and walked on the road.
I will always meet you at a street corner. When school is over, you will always be left behind and wait for me to pack my things before we walk out of the classroom and walk home together..."
"At that time, I felt really happy, very happy. You know, at that time, before going to bed every night, I would look forward to the early morning. Go to school quickly, and then meet you at that corner and walk together.
go to school."
"If I could really go back in time, I would never agree to that date in the summer after the college entrance examination. Even if I agreed, I would never ask to go to a zoo to see animals, and I would never go there at that time.
Road..."
As Zhang Xinlan talked, two lines of clear tears gradually slipped down her cheeks.
Seeing Zhang Xinlan's face full of tears, Zhao Yang felt some pity in his heart and sighed softly. Didn't Zhang Xinlan's words bring his emotions back to that period of green and innocent years? But, some
Once something is in the past, it is in the past. If you want to get back the past, I'm afraid it will be... very difficult, very difficult.
This is not a factor of personal will, but some regrets caused by time, environment and experience. A person's life is always full of regrets or shortcomings of one kind or another. Even if you want to make up for it subjectively, you want to make up for it.
I want to retrieve it, but some objective factors no longer allow it.
God’s will plays tricks on people!
Some things missed are like two lines in opposite directions. They were not able to interweave at the time and place they should have intertwined due to some reasons. Then each other missed the time and place they should have intertwined.
Maybe there will never be another time and place where we can be intertwined with each other...
"Xinlan, what happened in the past...just let it pass."
"At least, aren't we all living well now? Wouldn't it be nice to let everything in the past become the best memory in our memories? Occasionally, when we recall that beautiful and ignorant time,
Being able to smile lightly to each other is also a kind of 'happiness'."
Zhao Yang couldn't help but open his arms, gently hugged Zhang Xinlan into his arms, whispered in her ear with a low voice, and gently patted her right shoulder with his right hand to comfort her.
"What's more, who can tell clearly what will happen in the future? Perhaps the world that was familiar one second will become extremely strange the next second. Unknown things in the future are always unpredictable.
Living well in the present is the real thing!"
Listening to Zhao Yang's words whispering in her ears, tears kept rolling in Zhang Xinlan's eyes. Tears gradually rolled down the corners of her eyes and dripped on the skirt of Zhao Yang's shoulders. Zhang Xinlan leaned on Zhao Yang's shoulders.
His head was nodding, but his hands hugged Zhao Yang's back tightly, and he could not suppress the sobs and sobs...
She understood what Zhao Yang meant, and she had actually expected it deep down in her heart. But at this moment, listening to what Zhao Yang said in her ears, Zhang Xinlan still couldn't control her emotions. She didn't want to, was unwilling, and couldn't let go.
Gotta get it.
That summer vacation three and a half years ago, that date, was also the first and only official date between the two of them. The last scene left in my mind was the car that was speeding by crazily, and that car flew far, far away.
, so far away that Zhang Xinlan felt like it was the end of the world, out of reach. Such a distant figure... Zhang Xinlan will never be able to forget it!
Even though more than three years have passed, Zhang Xinlan would be suddenly awakened every time she dreamed about it at midnight. The scene seemed to have happened yesterday. Every detail, even the change in the expression on the face when the figure flew out.
Everything is still very clear in Zhang Xinlan's mind.
However, Zhang Xinlan also understood that just as Zhao Yang said, it has passed, it has passed...
However, Zhang Xinlan really didn't want to. She wanted to grab it, just as she was hugging Zhao Yang's body tightly and grabbing the skirt of Zhao Yang's clothes.
However, hugging Zhao Yang's body did not make Zhang Xinlan feel safe. On the contrary, the real embrace at this moment made Zhang Xinlan even more frightened, fearing that she would be completely lost in the future, and that she would not even have the last trace of thoughts left.
Next. There is only one memory left, as Zhao Yang said.
It can only be found in memories.
Zhang Xinlan tried her best to suppress her sobs and cries, as well as her shoulders that shrugged from time to time, which made Zhao Yang feel melancholy and sigh in his heart. However, everything nowadays is really no longer decided and changed only by personal subjectivity.
The past has passed, really let it pass!
I already have Xue Qi and Qing Lan, let this relationship turn into a beautiful memory and bury it deep in my heart.
Zhao Yang sighed softly, and kept patting Zhang Xinlan's shoulder with his right hand. At this time, he had nothing to say anymore. This was a beautiful relationship, and it was the most memorable and nostalgic thing in Zhao Yang's green years.
A thing. Only sometimes, a certain degree of regret may make it more precious and cherished...
