Epilogue he loves her he can't live without her 5000
Chapter 306
The dim room was filled with the pungent smell of alcohol.
In the darkest corner of the room, Ji Lingtian's limp body was leaning against the cold wall. He was still holding a wine bottle in his hand, which contained a very high alcohol content.
There were constant sounds of being slapped on the door, "Ling Tian, Ling Tian..." This caring and kind voice came from Guan's mother.
Ji Lingtian's eyes were dull, as if he hadn't heard the call from the person outside the door, and his eyes were filled with sadness.
The next second, the door was forcefully opened from the outside...
Seeing Ji Lingtian in the corner, Guan's mother's old body walked towards him eagerly.
"Ling Tian, Ling Tian..."
Seeing Ji Lingtian's current state, Guan's mother's distressed tears had already fallen down.
"Why are you so stupid? You don't know how to bandage your hand when it bleeds so much..." When Guan's mother said this, the servant had already hurried to Guan's side with the medicine box.
Guan's mother immediately took out alcohol, bandages, etc. and simply bandaged Ji Lingtian.
When Guan Mu was bandaging Ji Lingtian, she discovered that the back of his hand and the spaces between his fingers were covered with broken glass...
Guan Mu choked up and vomited out, "Even if you feel uncomfortable, you can't hurt yourself like this..."
The servant on the side whispered, "I heard that the glass in the hospital was broken all over the floor, and there were things smashed by Mr. Ji everywhere... Everyone in the hospital was very scared."
After Guan's mother bandaged Ji Lingtian, she asked Ji Lingtian softly, "Lingtian, are you hungry? You haven't eaten for two days. Can I have someone bring you something to eat?"
In the past, Ji Lingtian, even if he would not accept Guan's mother's love, at least he would respond to her, even if it was an unfriendly response. However, at this moment, Ji Lingtian seemed to be living only in his own world. He did not say a word, just
He kept picking up the wine and pouring it into his mouth...
"Stop drinking, Lingtian, you will get alcohol poisoning if you continue to drink!!" Guan's mother took the bottle from Ji Lingtian's hand distressedly and spat out with a choked voice, "People cannot be resurrected, so why are you doing this?
?If you don’t think about yourself, you also have to think about Qianqian. If Qianqian sees you here now, how can you conceal the news of her Zixin’s death?”
Ji Lingtian remained indifferent, as if he had lost consciousness and was indifferent to the whole world.
…
Guan's mother met Guan Hao when she came out of the room.
Guan Hao's face was heavy and he asked, "Brother...how is he?"
Guan's mother wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and spat out heartbrokenly, "He hasn't said a word until now. He got drunk, woke up when drunk, drank again when he woke up..."
Guan Hao gently supported his mother, "Mom, don't worry too much, brother still has Qianqian, he won't be depressed like this."
Guan's mother still covered her mouth and cried bitterly.
Guan Hao held his mother's trembling body tightly and said in a gravelly voice, "I won't let anything happen to me."
Guan's mother lowered her head and cried bitterly, "How could this happen... How could Zi Xin leave us... I don't believe it..."
"mom……"
Guan's mother looked at Guan Hao with tearful eyes, "Huh?"
"I have something to tell you. Let's talk somewhere else."
Guan's mother saw the deep meaning in Guan Hao's eyes and nodded.
Guan's mother was surprised to see Qu Ranran in the room of Guan Hao and his wife, who was much calmer than she had imagined.
"Ranran, you..."
Qu Ranran stepped forward to support Guan's mother and called out respectfully, "Mom."
Guan's mother held Qu Ranran's hand and asked, "Are you okay?"
Qu Ranran shook her head, "Mom, I'm fine..." and then helped Guan's mother sit down on the bed.
Guan's mother looked at Qu Ranran in confusion, "You..."
Qu Ranran sat next to Guan's mother and smiled reluctantly at Guan's mother, "Sister is not dead."
"What?" Guan's mother widened her eyes in shock.
"Mom, forgive me for not telling you right away." The person who spoke was Guan Hao.
Guan's mother stood up from the edge of the bed with a "Teng" sound, "Ran Ran, what did you say? Zi Xin is not dead?"
Qu Ranran nodded lightly.
Guan's mother looked at Guan Hao in disbelief.
Guan Hao then took out his phone, pressed a few times on the screen, and then handed the phone to Guan's mother.
Guan's mother took the phone blankly, and Qu Ranran pressed the video play button for her.
The next second, a recorded video started playing on the phone——
The background is in a spacious and clean ward. Qin Zixin is lying on the hospital bed, her face is thin and there is no trace of blood.
Guan's mother was stunned, "This..."
Guan Hao used his eyes to signal Guan's mother to look further.
The camera focused on Qin Zixin's frail face. At this time, she still did not forget to put on a smile and opened her whitened lips with difficulty, "Mom, Ran Ran..."
"Now it's after my second surgery... I'm really lucky. I survived both surgeries. I'm also very lucky. Even with such a low success rate, I was lucky enough to win again...
...I know you must be wondering now why I left this video to you. That's because I don't want you to be sad and sad for me when you learn about my 'death', because I am fine... at least I am fine now...
…”
When she said this, Qin Zixin paused for a few seconds because of her physical weakness. After resting for a while, she continued, "The reason why I want to give such a 'death news' is because I really want to follow him."
I want to make a break. I want to live for myself for a while, not for that person... I heard Guan Hao say that he has been in a bad mood recently, and he has been looking for me. I also saw the newspaper where he was published.
I know that he has been very decadent during this period. I can even imagine the sadness he may feel when he learns the news of my 'death'... I know that I am a bit selfish for him by doing this, but I understand that it is very important for me and him.
It’s the best ending for him.”
Qin Zixin tried hard to swallow the sobs in her throat, but her voice was still hoarse, "I don't know why he came to me, but it's too late... Don't say that I don't know even if I have surgery now.
I will die one day. Even if I am really in good health now, he and I will not have a happy ending, because there are some pains in my heart that can never be erased, like my 'betrayal' of him.
It will always leave a deep imprint in his heart... The sacrifice I have given to him over the years was actually never just to be with him again. I just hope that he can feel better, because I know him better than anyone else.
How fragile your heart is..."
"So, Mom, Ran Ran... don't regret that he and I ended up like this, and please forgive me for selfishly asking you once, don't let Ji Lingtian know the news about me, at least while I am still alive in this world.
, so that I can truly live for myself..."
"Please take good care of Qianqian for me. If there is a miracle from God that I can survive, I will definitely come back to find my daughter one day. Please."
"By the way, don't blame Guan Hao. I begged him to do all this... Finally, I wish you all the best. I hope you are in good health and live longer than Nanshan. I hope Ranran and Guan Hao will be happy forever...
Don’t think about it.”
After watching the video, Guan's mother burst into tears.
Qu Ranran also had tears in her eyes, but her mood had eased compared to the first time she saw this video.
Guan's mother covered her mouth to suppress her sobs and asked, "So, although Zi Xin has undergone surgery, her life is still in danger..."
Qu Ranran bit her lip and nodded.
"Can't it really be cured?" Guan's mother looked at Guan Hao longingly.
Guan Hao sighed and shook his head, "I invited the best doctors in the world, and they have tried their best."
Qu Ranran couldn't help but cursed, "Then what's the point of this surgery?"
"At least these doctors saved Zi Xin's life for a while...
Guan's mother's voice trembled, "Then, how many days does Zixin have..."
Guan Hao couldn't bear to spit out, "It won't exceed three months."
After hearing what Guan Hao said, Qu Ranran, who had been controlling herself not to cry, finally couldn't control herself, covered her mouth and began to sob uncontrollably.
Guan's mother's eyes were dull and she murmured, "Three, three months..."
For Qin Zixin, before she met Ji Lingtian, she lived for her mother. After meeting Ji Lingtian, she lived for Ji Lingtian and Qianqian. Therefore, in the remaining three months, she will want to live for herself...
…
Guan's mother regained her rationality and asked, "Where is Zixin now?"
"She said she wanted to go to a place she had wanted to go for a long time, and I had someone send her there."
Guan's mother asked eagerly, "Where is it?"
"Sorry, Mom, I can't let Guan Hao tell you, because I know you will feel sorry for Mr. Ji..." Ranran bit her lip sadly, choked up and spit out, "I can't let Mr. Ji know the whereabouts of my sister.
He has delayed and missed half of my sister's life. In the last three months, let us allow my sister to be selfish for once and let her have a dull day in her life where she does not have to worry about anyone or anything!"
Taking Qianqian into consideration, Qin Zixin's "death" was not made public, which also gave Qu Ranran and others a reason not to hold a funeral for Qin Zixin.
Ji Lingtian's level of negativity is more serious than everyone imagined...
I spent more than a month in that dark room, accompanying myself with alcohol all day long. At the worst point, I was sent to the hospital due to alcohol poisoning...
Thanks to being hospitalized, when he heard Qian Qian crying beside him, he realized that he still had Qian Qian to take care of.
Therefore, from that day on, he came back to life.
Although he is more taciturn than before, he still pretends to be nonchalant in front of Qian Qian and continues to lie to Qian Qian that Qin Zixin just doesn't want to come back to him.
On this day, Ji Lingtian was sitting alone on a chair in the study, deep in thought.
Qian Qian ran in from outside holding a book, "Daddy, daddy..."
Ji Lingtian came back to his senses and looked at his daughter. "Huh?"
Qian Qian handed the book in her hand to Ji Lingtian.
"What?" Ji Lingtian asked.
"This is a diary."
"The diary you wrote?"
Qian Qian shook her head, "It belongs to Mommy."
"Your mommy's?"
"Yeah...Daddy, have you forgotten? When we came to New York, we brought all mommy's things. The aunts accidentally saw this diary when they were cleaning up at home. I originally wanted to give it to daddy.
Yes, but daddy, you were drinking every day during that time..."
Ji Lingtian stared deeply at the diary with a white cover, feeling a sharp pain in his chest.
"Daddy, there is a lock on the diary and I can't open it...Daddy, can you open it?"
"I'll give it a try."
Ji Lingtian took the diary over and looked at the combination lock on it. He thought for a moment.
Suddenly, he pressed a number.
No one expected that he could guess the password set in her diary so accurately, and the diary opened with a click.
He did not expect that there was a photo of her in the diary. In the photo, she looked youthful, sweet and lovely.
He picked up the photo and looked at her for a long time, the pain in his heart lingering.
Suddenly, he put down the photo and opened a page at random.
The diary contains her beautiful handwriting.
On x month x day, the weather: sunny, mood: from sunny to cloudy.
Today, the imperial minister called me again and asked me to make an appointment...
I know how he feels about me, and I don't want him to continue to waste time on me, so I agreed to him this time.
I didn't expect that he knew exactly what I wanted to say to him. He took the initiative to tell me that he and I only maintained a relationship as friends, which made me feel a lot more relaxed.
What is even more surprising is that today he brought me a photo taken when I was seventeen years old.
Looking at the seventeen-year-old myself in the photo, I can’t help but lament how time flies. More than ten years have passed in the blink of an eye...
I still remember my original intention of taking this photo. At that time, I wanted to take a beautiful photo and put it in Ji Lingtian's wallet, so that he could see me every day and remember me forever...
It's a pity that I never found this photo after I took it. Of course, I didn't know that the photo was taken by the imperial minister at that time, so I couldn't put the photo into Ji Lingtian's wallet after all...
...Now that I think about it, maybe it was already destined at that time that he would not be able to see me every day, nor would he remember me forever.
I enjoyed the meal with Yuchen very much, but I didn't expect that when we were about to break up, Yuchen would accidentally mention the matter between Ji Lingtian and Ren Qingle to me...
I thought I wouldn't care at all, but at that moment, when I learned that he and Ren Qingle were having sex in public, my heart still felt like being pricked by a needle, it hurt so much.
Every time my heart hurts, my heart also hurts, so that day I couldn't help the pain and fainted in front of the imperial minister...
When I woke up, I was already in the hospital. The imperial minister who learned about my condition was beside me and was going crazy...
At that moment, seeing the imperial minister worried about me, I couldn't help but wonder, if the person who learned about my condition was Ji Lingtian, would he care about me?
I think, probably not...
When I knew I was going to die soon, I asked him if he could just watch me die. His cruel answer at that time still clearly exists in my mind.
So, I am just hoping for nothing.
Because Qian Qian was alone at home, I was not allowed to leave the ward overnight...
Dragging my tired body, I just wanted to go home quickly and hold my daughter to sleep together early, but I didn't expect that Ji Lingtian would call me on the way back...
In fact, when I received his call, I really had a lot to say to him...
I want him to know that the doctor told me that I might not live for three months, and I also want to ask him if he and Ren Qingle are in a serious relationship...
At that moment, I wished he could give me half a word of concern from my weak voice, even if it was just a casual sentence...
Unfortunately, there was nothing. He just called me to scold me for not taking good care of Qianqian. Moreover, there was the voice of Ren Qingle acting coquettishly on his phone...
At that moment, my heart really hurt...
We haven't contacted each other for a long time, and I don't want him to give me even a few words of concern. But is it really that difficult to talk to me once?
…
After reading this diary, Ji Lingtian leaned on the back of his chair for a long time.
Annoyance and sadness all turned into regret...
He never realized before that every word he said hurt her so much.
He really does not deserve happiness, because his happiness has always been pushed away by himself...
But now, when he wants to fight for this happiness, he has completely lost her...
No……
He loves her, he can't live without her, can't...
ps: I saw friends saying they didn’t understand Guan Hao’s concealment. Don’t you all trust Guan Guan? He is Guan Guanye. Is there anything he can’t handle well? Haha, let’s see what Guan Guan does in the next chapter...