When you love me, I'm sorry I don't love you anymore
The sky turned pale, and Ji Lingtian slowly opened his eyelids.
Although he woke up early, he finally got rid of the trouble of insomnia.
The island resident was still immersed in sleep. He wore a nightgown and came to the balcony outside the room.
In the blink of an eye, he has been on the island for more than ten days...
He had lived an ordinary but comfortable life for more than ten days. He could see her walking on the beach every day, and he saw that her body seemed to be getting healthier day by day.
"Mr. Ji, you woke up so early!"
An old voice suddenly sounded behind Ji Lingtian.
Ji Lingtian turned around and saw Uncle Allen holding a bamboo tray to dry the salted fish.
Ji Lingtian's personality was not indifferent. He smiled lightly at Uncle Allen and said, "Yeah."
While drying the salted fish, Uncle Allen said, "Mr. Ji, if I remember correctly, you came to the island to see Miss Qin, right?"
Ji Lingtian responded with a faint smile and remained silent.
Uncle Allen smiled and said, "Looking at Mr. Ji's age, he should be thirty, right?"
"The age of fortitude."
Uncle Allen turned his head and looked at Ji Lingtian in surprise, "Mr. Ji, are you kidding me? You don't look like a forty-year-old at all."
"Uncle Allen, you don't look sixty years old."
"Sir, you are really good at talking. When Miss Qin next door saw me for the first time, she called me grandpa..."
Ji Lingtian laughed heartily. "She also thinks I'm old."
"Really?" Uncle Allen turned to look at Ji Lingtian, "Mr. Ji, who are you to Miss Qin?"
Uncle Allen's words gradually dimmed the smile on Ji Lingtian's handsome face.
Yes, who is he to her now?
husband?
No...she has already filed for divorce from him.
Ex-husband?
It seems that they haven't divorced yet.
Seeing that Ji Lingtian was thoughtful and didn't answer for a long time, Uncle Allen couldn't help but ask, "Are you also the one pursuing Miss Qin?"
Ji Lingtian neither admitted nor denied, always smiling lightly.
"Miss Qin is so beautiful, she is a good match for Mr. Ji, but I think Mr. Gu who is accompanying Miss Qin is not bad. He is very friendly and helpful. The most important thing is that he takes great care of Miss Qin.
...Mr. Ji, your love rival is very strong."
Ji Lingtian was silent for a long time, then asked quickly, "Do you think I can still get her back?"
"Recover?" Uncle Allen frowned, "So Mr. Ji, you are Miss Qin's ex-boyfriend!"
"Yeah." Ji Lingtian didn't explain in detail about the identity.
Uncle Allen frowned and said truthfully, "Well...it depends on Miss Qin's heart. If she still has you in her heart, she can definitely get her back, but if she doesn't have you in her heart, I'm afraid it will be difficult for me."
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Ji Lingtian sighed softly, "I don't know if she still has me in her heart."
Uncle Allen asked with concern, "Since you're not sure, why don't you go see her?"
"I...I'm afraid she doesn't want to see me."
"Why?"
"Because I did a lot of things that didn't cherish her, that's why she stayed so far away from me."
Uncle Allen sighed and shook his head, "Oh, young people, you have to experience something before you know how to cherish..."
"She may not be happy to see me, so should I meet her?" Ji Lingtian seemed to be seeking Uncle Allen's support to give himself a reason to move forward.
Sure enough, Uncle Allen's answer was what he wanted.
"I must meet Miss Qin... If you don't meet her, how do you know if she still has you in her heart? Since you feel you owe her, then use the rest of your life to compensate her!"
"Really...is it okay?"
"Stop dawdling, Mr. Ji. The residents of Loren Arthur Island have believed in the God of Love for generations... I am optimistic about you, so I believe that the God of Love will also protect you."
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Ji Lingtian finally decided to meet Qin Zixin.
He had been thinking about how to meet her, but he never thought of a suitable way.
In the end, he decided not to worry about how to meet, because, as Uncle Allen said, he would only know her reaction when he saw her. Who said it would be a bad meeting?
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Qin Zixin never expected that when she was walking on the beach as usual in the afternoon, she would meet Ji Lingtian.
Ji Lingtian had obviously been waiting there for a long time, staring at her deeply with his deep eyes.
Qin Zixin was stunned and stood frozen on the spot.
Gu Yuchen, who was standing next to Qin Zixin, was stunned for a few seconds. After a while, he came back to his senses and asked, "Why are you here?"
Ji Lingtian ignored Gu Yuchen at all and kept his eyes fixed on Qin Zixin's beautiful face. After a long time, he opened his lips and asked, "Can I talk to you?"
Qin Zixin's face turned slightly pale due to Ji Lingtian's appearance, but she did not show any strong emotions and just nodded lightly.
Ji Lingtian walked up to Qin Zixin, reached out to hold her hand, and said warmly, "Let's find a quiet place to talk."
Qin Zixin did not refuse out loud, but she also did not allow him to hold her hand.
When he held her, she naturally took away his hand, turned around and said gently to Gu Yuchen, "Wait for me for a while."
"Zi Xin..." As soon as he saw Ji Lingtian, all the uneasiness in Gu Yuchen's heart welled up.
Qin Zixin shook her head at Gu Yuchen, indicating that he didn't need to worry about her.
Ji Lingtian looked at the tacit exchange between Qin Zixin and Gu Yuchen's eyes, and felt very uncomfortable in his heart.
Although he agreed that Ji Lingtian should talk to Qin Zixin alone, Gu Yuchen still did not forget to warn Ji Lingtian, "If you dare to hurt Zixin, I swear you will never leave this island."
Ji Lingtian didn't pay attention to Gu Yuchen's intention at all. His eyes followed Qin Zixin, silently keeping up with her pace, but his heart was still struggling with her resistance to him just now.
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Finally, she and him came to a quiet place on the beach.
She turned around and looked at him, the calmness in her eyes was unexpected.
"Xinxin." The hoarse call seemed to be filled with deep emotion.
Qin Zixin was stunned.
The name he was calling her now was the name he used to call her. The memory was so long that she could hardly remember that he had ever called her that.
Ji Lingtian walked towards her and stopped a few centimeters away from her. The pair of eyes that had never looked directly at her were now filled with some kind of mist.
"Xinxin." He called out again in a low voice.
His face was very close to hers, his dark eyes were still as clear as before, and the bridge of his nose was as strong as before.
She looked at him as if she had never seen him in a lifetime, and felt an uncomfortable feeling welling up in her heart. She knew it was pain, but there was no other feeling.
She would never feel guilty about him like before, nor would she pray that he could look at her in the eyes like before, nor would she hope that he could have a good talk with her like before.
All the expectations and feelings for him were gone...
"Ran Ran told you?" she said slowly.
"You are willing to let the whole world know that you are still alive, but you are not willing to tell me?" He asked in a very uncomfortable tone.
She answered lightly, "I just want to live a life of my own. It's a pity that God doesn't even give me such an opportunity."
Her sad tone made people feel distressed, but it also hurt his heart.
He looked at her quietly, as if there was a blockage in his throat, and after a long time he said, "You don't want to see me that much?"
"I just don't want to live the same life anymore."
He finally couldn't help it, and reached out to hold Qin Zixin's shoulders, "Xinxin, can you... forgive me?" His voice trembled, "I know I was wrong.
I apologize for the hurt you caused."
Qin Zixin didn't respond, but looked at him quietly with the faint black eyes under her eyelids.
He looked at her expectantly, as if in front of her, even his breathing became cautious.
Suddenly, she pushed away his hands on her slender shoulders and smiled slightly, "President Ji, speaking in a low profile like this is not your style at all. Where are your usual pride and arrogance?
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Her smile was so calm that it was almost cruel, which hurt his heart even more. Was she mocking him now?
"You don't have to lower your posture deliberately. You can just talk to me like you did before. Anyway, I'm used to it."
As if she didn't think the blow to him was enough, she added quietly.
Ji Lingtian closed his eyes in pain, took a deep breath, and finally calmed down the pain in his heart. He looked down at her deeply, "I'm sorry, what happened in the past... I know it can't be made up for."
"You don't need to make up for me. You don't owe me anything, and I don't owe you anything. We are two unrelated people."
A trace of pain flashed across Ji Lingtian's eyes, "Don't say that, okay?"
Regarding the pain in his eyes, she was not moved at all, and only said, "I just remembered what you said to me before... and I have always been self-aware."
"I know I did something wrong before... You can blame me, complain about me, hate me, but don't talk to me in such a cold tone, okay?"
She was still incredibly calm, "President Ji, I won't blame you, blame you or hate you, because I chose the path I took in the past and no one forced me, including you."
He looked at her thin figure that looked like she would collapse if the wind blew, and said in a low voice, "Let me stay and take care of you, okay?"
She shook her head, "I'm fine here and don't need anyone else to take care of me...and even if I do, I believe no one will take better care of me than Yu Chen."
"Xinxin..." His heart beat faster, and a terrible feeling gradually seized him.
Qin Zixin, the woman who once loved him deeply and ran to him regardless of everything, seems to have gone far.
She broke out of her cocoon and turned into a butterfly, determined to fly away, but he could no longer catch her...
Panic spread throughout his limbs.
"Xinxin, don't be like this..." He whispered anxiously, "Give me a chance and let me take care of you."
"No, President Ji, I don't need sympathy."
He felt suffocated and looked at her helplessly.
"Although I am terminally ill, I will not give up my life... I will do my best to survive in this world, so please have mercy on me, I have always been strong."
"I'm not showing pity, Xinxin, I really want to be by your side. I want to start from scratch with you...even if it's only for one day."
"Really?" Qin Zixin tilted her head and looked at Ji Lingtian, "Don't you love Ran Ran as well as Ren Qingle?"
"I love Ranran because she looks like you..."
"What about Ren Qingle?"
"I'll use her to make you angry."
"So there is no relationship at all between you and Ren Qingle?"
"I..." How should he explain to her, "I didn't... at least when I was awake, I didn't touch her."
Qin Zixin smiled faintly, faintly...
He couldn't bear it any longer and stretched out his hand to hug her into his arms, "I love you, Qin Zixin, can you let us start over?" he prayed.
His embrace was once the warm habitat she loved most, but at this moment, this embrace has lost its original warmth...
The tighter he held her, the colder she felt.
He waited with bated breath for her answer.
It seemed like a century had passed before she slowly pushed him away and her soft voice slowly rose, "Ling Tian, it is impossible for you and I to start over..."
"If it's because of your health, I said I don't care, I just want to be with you..." He strained his voice and stared at her deeply.
She didn't answer immediately, but just smiled lightly, a little tired, a little sad, with a self-deprecating and painful smile, "But in the last time, I don't want to be with you..."
His body was startled.
She looked at him and said softly, "I have promised the imperial minister... that if my health recovers, I will marry him, because I am a person who is easily moved by others, and I was already very stupid in the first half of my life."
, I want to be smarter in the second half of my life, and I know that I will never meet a man who treats me better than Yu Chen... If I die in the end, I still hope that Yu Chen will accompany me in the end,
Because he is the person I want to cherish most now, and I feel relieved and happy to be with him."
ps: Bing would like to ask, if the final ending of Ji Lingtian and Qin Zixin is a tragedy, can Bing still be able to work in Hongxiu in the future?