Qian Qian slept soundly and was not awakened by her movements.
She locked the door and leaned tightly against the door panel, her tearful eyes downcast and lifeless.
There were several knocks on the door behind me, and I knew who it was without even thinking.
Qin Zixin did not open the door, but slowly slid down along the door panel.
After a few seconds, there was no more knocking on the door, and the whole world seemed to have returned to silence.
She leaned against the door panel, hugging her knees, and tears fell silently.
My heart hurts so much...
Why does he always side with Ren Qingle? Why has she become the one who makes trouble unreasonably?
She didn't think she had done anything bad, she just wanted to protect her family...
Ren Qingle is so young, beautiful, knowledgeable, and temperamental, but she has nothing... looks, age, and knowledge. Compared with Ren Qingle's title of graduating from a prestigious university, she is not worth mentioning at all. Temperament, she
Not at all, but Ren Qingle’s innate nobility and inner self-confidence seemed to match him completely...
When such an excellent woman appears next to him, how can she not be worried at all even if he keeps saying that he loves her?
It would be fine if he really didn't care about this woman, but he had said in front of her several times that he trusted Ren Qingle...
If her trust in Guan Hao comes from Guan Hao taking care of her like a family member for more than ten years, then where does his trust in Ren Qingle come from?
Obviously, this trust comes from goodwill, which comes from a person's subconscious mind, so even if he suppresses himself, even if he is unwilling to admit it, the goodwill still exists...
From the first day he told her "she has changed", she knew that she was no longer the woman he always loved in his heart...
She had been thinking before that even if he loved her before, as long as she was still her and she was still by his side, all this would be enough. But she didn't really realize until today that maybe the reason why he felt that she had changed
It was another woman who touched his heart...
In fact, during these days, she also thought about the fact that Ren Qingle concealed the fact that she was pregnant with his child. If he knew, how would he be responsible for Ren Qingle?
Is it really a good choice for her to get together with him again?
Thirteen years of hurt and miss, it turns out that it is not so easy to make up for...
Perhaps, the fate of their love had already stopped thirteen years ago...
When Qin Zixin came out of the children's room early in the morning, she didn't expect Ji Lingtian to be outside the door.
He obviously hadn't slept all night, and he was still wearing the same clothes as last night.
After a night of emotional adjustment, Qin Zixin's mood had calmed down a lot. She did not argue with Ji Lingtian anymore, but went straight back to their room.
Ji Lingtian followed Qin Zixin into the room. It was obvious that he had thought a lot during the night.
Qin Zixin stood in front of the bed, looked at him, and said calmly, "I want to have a good talk with you."
Ji Lingtian came to Qin Zixin and nodded lightly.
"Ling Tian, tell me honestly, deep down in your heart, what kind of person am I?" Qin Zixin looked at Ji Lingtian without blinking, watching every subtle expression on his face.
Ji Lingtian stretched out his hand to help Qin Zixin's shoulders, but Qin Zixin took a step back, "You don't need to take into account my feelings, just tell me."
Ji Lingtian slowly let go and stared at Qin Zixin's firm face.
Ji Lingtian shook his head suddenly, "I have no way to say it."
"Just tell me the truth."
Ji Lingtian looked at Qin Zixin with tired eyes, "She is unruly, but very measured, she is carefree, but thoughtful, she is simple, kind, well-behaved, has no scheming, no scruples, she resolves reality with laughter all day long
His setbacks and perseverance attracted love and affection.”
Her words made her swallow the lump in her throat, and she asked, "What about now?"
He didn't answer.
She looked at him deeply, "Am I very different now from the past?"
"I don't want to lie, Xinxin..." Ji Lingtian's voice was slightly gravelly, "We have all ignored the change of time."
"So, when you came to me and told me that you loved me, you never thought that I would be like this, right?"
Ji Lingtian's silent response had obviously given Qin Zixin an answer.
Qin Zixin's eyes began to burn as she looked at Ji Lingtian, feeling tears quietly gathering in her eyes...
Fortunately, the night's accumulation of thoughts allowed her to face any pain at the moment. She smiled lightly, covered her mouth, and laughed as if she was crying.
"Xinxin..."
"Don't come over." Qin Zixin turned around, facing away from him, looking at the transparent floor-to-ceiling window with blurred tearful eyes, "Thank you for telling me the truth..."
Although she was very close to her, he didn't have the courage to get close to her. From a short distance away, he saw that her delicate back was lonely and negative.
Tears flowed freely, but the words she escaped from her mouth were calm after thinking about it all night, "Qianqian will get up soon, I don't want Qianqian to see us like this... You go to the company, I want to be alone for a while."
Ji Lingtian didn't answer.
Qin Zixin didn't say anything else.
After a while, Qin Zixin heard the steady footsteps of leaving and the faint sound of the door closing.
After confirming that he had left, Qin Zixin turned around and looked at the door where he left.
Her eyes were dull, as if she was still suppressing pain...
Turning around, she sat weakly on the edge of the bed, tears falling drop by drop on the white quilt.
…
Ji Lingtian was sitting in the carriage, and all he could think of was Qin Zixin's thin figure standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window.
"It seems that I am the one who makes you think that you are scheming... In this case, why are you still with me?"
"It seems that I am called that small-minded, unreasonable person in your eyes again..."
"Yes, I am petty and unreasonable. In short, I am not as good as Ren Qingle in everything. In your heart, I am no longer the Qin Zixin I used to be."...
What she said rang in his ears one after another, and he suddenly punched the steering wheel with his fist.
As if he didn't feel any pain, he leaned heavily on his seat.
Does he love her?
There is no doubt about it.
But why could he no longer find those qualities in her that fascinated him so deeply?
He knew very well that the estrangement between them was not because of the appearance of Ren Qingle, but because the more than ten years they had missed had made each other change a lot...
But he thought that no matter what kind of changes, it would not affect the love between them, because as long as they had firm beliefs, nothing could stop them from falling in love. But it was not until yesterday that he discovered that they were not happy together...
During these days together, they did not usher in the happy and comfortable life they wanted. They spent more time in suspicion and distrust...
He felt very tired, very tired...
Why did they evolve into the way they get along today?
If this pattern continues in the days to come, what's the point of them being together?
Qin Zixin put away her emotions and said calmly, "Come in."
Qian Qian poked her head in and saw Qin Zixin sitting alone in front of the floor-to-ceiling window. Qian Qian ran in and hugged Qin Zixin, "Mommy, why are you alone in the room?"
Qin Zixin took Qian Qian's hand and said, "Didn't Mommy tell you this morning? Mommy is feeling a little unwell."
He lightly stroked Qin Zixin's forehead and said, "Your head is not hot, but it's still cold."
Qin Zixin chuckled, "You little fool, feeling unwell is not only caused by a fever..."
Qian Qian moved a chair and sat next to Qin Zixin, "Then what's wrong with you?"
"Well, sometimes people can't tell where they feel uncomfortable, but they just feel uncomfortable."
"Oh...then why don't you sleep?"
"Mommy doesn't want to sleep."
"Then I'll call Daddy and ask Daddy to take Mommy to the hospital."
"No, mommy is fine...just go and play!"
Qian Qian shook her head and leaned on Qin Zixin's shoulder, "Mommy, if you're not feeling well, I'll stay here with you."
It is said that a daughter is her mother's caring little cotton-padded jacket, and Qin Zixin finally felt it.
"Qianqian, did mommy tell you that mommy's health is fine..."
"Ah?" Qian Qian looked at Qin Zixin in shock, "Mommy, your heart doesn't hurt anymore?"
Qin Zixin nodded, "Well, the last time I went to the hospital for a check-up, the doctor said that Mommy has returned to the best condition after the surgery and will not leave you alone in the future..."
Qian Qian's voice was choked with sobs, "Mommy, just be okay...you don't know how worried I was about you before." Qian Qian hugged Qin Zixin tightly, letting Qin Zixin know how much she relied on her.
"I'm sorry for making you worry." Qin Zixin kissed her daughter.
Qian Qian also kissed Qin Zixin hard on the face and laughed so childishly that she burst into tears and said, "Now I don't have to worry anymore. From now on, the three of us can be together every day."
"Qianqian..." Qin Zixin suddenly called her daughter deeply.
Qian Qian looked at Qin Zixin with bright eyes, "Huh?"
"Mommy wants to tell you something, but you have to act like an adult after listening so that Mommy can trust you."
"Don't worry, Mommy. I'm grown up, and I won't let Mommy worry... Tell me, what's the matter?" Qian Qian asked sensibly.
Qin Zixin looked at her daughter's innocent face and said slowly, "During the time when Mommy and your dad have been together, I found that there are many unresolved problems between you and your dad. Mommy feels very tired and also
I know your dad is very tired now..."
"Mommy?" Qian Qian seemed to hear some insecurities behind Qin Zixin's words, and asked in a daze, "Is it because we don't get along well with each other?"
Qin Zixin nodded, "You also know that mommy and your dad haven't been together for so many years, because they have changed a lot, so they are a little uncomfortable..."
"Then just get used to it slowly!" Children always think of problems very simply.
"But there are some changes that you can't adapt to..."
Qian Qian tilted her head in confusion, "Why can't you adapt?"
"For example, your dad likes mommy to wear white dresses, but now mommy likes to wear T-shirts and jeans. For example, your dad likes mommy to let her hair down, but now mommy likes to tie her hair up..."
"Mommy, what you mean by this is that Daddy doesn't like what Mommy is like now?"
"No, what Mommy wants to tell you is that now you can let Mommy wear the same white dress, let her hair down or do something that your Daddy liked Mommy to do in the past, but now Mommy can't do it.
These things have changed, because Mommy has changed. Mommy can occasionally wear white dresses, but now Mommy prefers to wear casual clothes. Mommy can also let her hair down, but Mommy feels more comfortable if she combs it.
...What Mommy means is that Mommy has changed now, and she may not be the person your Daddy liked before, but Mommy can't change back to before, so Daddy and Mommy feel very tired when they are together...
"
A thirteen-year-old child, even though her mind is not mature enough, she still understands what her mother wants to express.
Qian Qian stretched out her hand to caress her mother's gentle face and said sensibly, "Mommy, in fact, since you and Daddy became very good, I often heard you quarreling with Daddy... Last night, Qian Qian also knew that Mommy, you were with me.
Stayed in the room all night.”
Qin Zixin was surprised, "Qianqian..."
"Mommy, Qianqian has never seen you cry before, but last night Qianqian heard you crying so loudly, Qianqian knew it must be Daddy who made you so sad again..."
Qin Zixin held Qian Qian's little hand, "Actually, Mommy also disappointed and saddened your daddy..."
"But Daddy feels that Mommy has changed, and Mommy doesn't feel that Daddy has changed..."
Qin Zixin lowered her head in silence, and after a long time she said, "In short, no matter how Mommy and Daddy go in the future, Qianqian, you must be sensible like an adult and understand Mommy and Daddy's decision."
As soon as Ji Lingtian got out of the car, he saw his daughter waiting for him beside him.
Ji Lingtian then handed the car to Ah Ji and came to his daughter.
"Daddy." Qianqian called sweetly.
Ji Lingtian put his arms around his daughter's shoulders, "Why are you standing here?"
Qianqian held her father's arm and said, "I'm waiting for daddy to come back."
"Oh, where's mommy?"
"Mommy is sleeping in the room."
"sleep?"
Ji Lingtian frowned, "You didn't come out in the morning?"
"Well, Mommy said she doesn't feel well."
"Did she say anything was uncomfortable?"
"She said she felt uncomfortable."
Ji Lingtian stopped suddenly and looked at his daughter nervously, "Is your mother feeling sick with her heart?"
Qian Qian shook her head and pointed to her heart, "My heart feels uncomfortable."
Ji Lingtian knelt down, supported his daughter's slender body, and asked, "Did your mommy tell you something?"
"Mommy didn't say anything. Mommy just said, Daddy, do you think Mommy has changed."
"What else?"
"Mommy didn't say anything else...Daddy, do you not want to be with Mommy anymore? Don't you love Mommy anymore?"
Ji Lingtian said earnestly, "Qianqian, Daddy never said he didn't want to be with your mommy, and Daddy never said he didn't love your mommy."
"Then why did you quarrel last night?"
"Daddy and mommy didn't quarrel..." Ji Lingtian coaxed.
Qian Qian said with worried eyes, "Yes, mommy slept in my room last night."
Ji Lingtian explained more patiently, "Qianqian, it's normal for couples to quarrel, but it doesn't mean that daddy doesn't want to be with your mommy."
"Daddy..." Qianqian stretched out her hand to wrap around Ji Lingtian's neck, "It was very hard for Mommy to take me alone in the past. Although Uncle Guan was by Mommy's side, Mommy told me many times that she didn't want to trouble Uncle Guan.
…”
"I know."
"Daddy, Qianqian has actually grown up. If mommy and daddy really can't be together, Qianqian doesn't want mommy and daddy to force themselves for Qianqian. Qianqian just hopes that mommy and daddy can be happy.
The last thing Qian Qian wants to see is mommy being sad." Qian Qian truthfully told her father her true thoughts.
After Ji Lingtian heard what his daughter said, he kept silent and could not calm down for a long time.
ps: Sorry for being so late. I'm really busy with too many things these past two days. I will try my best to update 10,000 tomorrow. I should be able to update in the early morning.