The sound of leather shoes stepping on the ground gradually faded away, and the apartment suddenly became completely silent. Sayu, who was sitting on the ground, held the door with one hand and slowly stood up.
"……good."
She murmured softly, returned to the living room from the entrance, and began to arrange the breakfast dishes on the table, preparing to take them to the kitchen for cleaning.
Wash the dishes after breakfast.
Ever since Kato Yusuke left home, this has been her first job every day.
The water gushes out from the pipe, and then rushes to the hands, with a slight coldness, which makes Ogiwara Sayu's thoughts gradually clear.
The sound of "Ding Ding Dang" sounded in the pool, and the crisp dish touched the sound and passed into the ears, so that the heart of lonely and lonely got a bit of relief.
Since there is no space for drying in the house, Sayu will immediately wipe off the water droplets after washing the dishes.
By the time I finished doing these things, about ten minutes had passed.
It's about ten minutes from here to the nearest station. Has Yusuke already caught the train? In that case, it only takes one stop to get to school.
Thinking about such a thing, Sayu immediately felt a little funny.
"So what if I get on the train?"
(No matter how much I talk to myself, no one is listening, and no one will respond. Whenever Yusuke is not at home, the frequency of my monologues will increase significantly, and my loneliness will also increase exponentially.
)
"Speaking of which, Yusuke said we could go out to eat together. Is this considered a date...?"
Sayu murmured, her cheeks turning red with shame, and her heartbeat speeding up slightly.
"ah……"
She called out softly and paused slightly in her hand movements.
here we go again.
"I'm thinking about Yusuke again."
Sayu whispered in a low voice after realizing it, and put the dried plates into the cabinet. Then he snorted through his nose.
It has been more than twenty days since I left home. With the money given by my brother and the idea of "as long as I can stay away from that home", I have been spending time alone in various hotels, traveling all the way from Hokkaido to
Tokyo.
Until every last penny is spent.
The can of coffee is still clearly visible in my memory, and the drunk middle-aged man is also vaguely remembered.
His face has become blurry, and he only remembers that the person seemed to be chatting with him.
There is no unprovoked kindness or unprovoked malice in the world.
Even though he knew that he was a "high school girl", that middle-aged man still wanted to invite me, a time bomb in society, to his home. He must be fully enjoying his status as JK.
Sayu thought indifferently: "What was my mood at that time...?"
Uneasy, helpless, and hesitant, it seemed that I was almost ready to agree.
Then I met that young man miraculously.
"What an incredible person... He is obviously two years younger than me, but he makes people feel mature and reliable."
"He took me home so easily and gave me as a condition for renting him a house, just as a casual and over-the-top reason like "helping with housework"..."
"I really don't understand..."
(I am a vibrant high school girl, and although it doesn’t seem right to me, I think my appearance is great. This is not a boast, it is just an objective fact.)
"At least there will be a little...that kind of thought...?"
After saying the words, Sayu's mood became inexplicably depressed.
(why?)
She couldn't understand.
I have never felt such uneasiness before.
Kato Yusuke's absence made her feel extremely long. Errands such as housework were completed immediately, and all that was left was to wait for someone to come home.
Although she read the comic magazine he bought for her very slowly, she finished it in a few days. When reading the book, she felt more happy than the fact that "Kato Yusuke deliberately bought the book for her" rather than the content.
The time she spent with Yusuke Kato made her feel at ease and comfortable.
But after feeling reassured, she was a little scared.
(How can I be in such a happy environment? Have I provided any benefits to Yusuke? I have no idea at all.)
Sayu even thought to herself as she lived every day plagued by uneasiness of unknown origin.
"It would be nice if Yusuke could just attack me."
That way she can feel much more relaxed.
Being needed in such a concise and easy-to-understand way, she also felt that it was okay to touch Kato Yusuke, and she even had a glimmer of hope deep in her heart.
Sayu Ogiwara herself didn't understand why she had such an idea, but the result was obvious. Yusuke Kato has never crossed the line in any way.
"Sigh... I feel relieved, but I feel uneasy. I feel uneasy, but I feel warm inside."
She wiped the table with a twisted rag, sighs pouring out of her mouth.
"How long can I stay here?"
She murmured and sat down on the bed, her soft buttocks shaking with the mattress.
(Would Yusuke choose to kick me out once it’s inconvenient?)
For example, getting a girlfriend or something...
In a daze, she remembered the blue shirt of Kato Yusuke that was in the washing machine last night.
And the faint floral fragrance on the shirt.
Thinking of this, Sayu felt an inexplicable pain as if his heart was being grabbed.
"After all, Yusuke is so gentle."
So Sayu had no doubt at all that there would be girls falling in love with him.
And if a girl confesses to Yusuke, and Yusuke agrees...
Then there is no doubt that your own existence will become an obstacle.
Sayu thought so.
In her impression, even in high school, couples in a relationship would often go to each other's house to play, especially if the man still lives alone, so it would be natural for him to be invited to his home.
(In that case, there would be no room for me.)
My boyfriend and a girl who is not related by blood live under the same roof all the time. No matter how generous a girl is, I am afraid she cannot accept this.
"Haha, if he gets a girlfriend, no matter what, I have no choice but to leave."
Sayu let out an awkward laugh, and the negative emotions in her head caused a chain reaction, making her unable to help but think of unnecessary things.
The delusional images kept flashing through his mind, making Sayu's internal organs seem to shrink tightly.
"Yusuke is having an affair with a girl I don't know."
Just thinking about that scene made Ogiwara Sayu feel very disgusted.
"This has nothing to do with me."
"Even if Yusuke does have a girlfriend, it is his own choice."
"It's normal to have that kind of situation after dating."
She tried to convince herself with various reasons.
But the more I imagined it, the more extremely unhappy I felt inside.
"Alas...what is this..."
She lay slumped on the bed, the discomfort coming from her stomach causing her body to curl up.
The loneliness and negative emotions she had never experienced before formed a whirlpool that almost swallowed her up.
"Yusuke... come back soon."
Sayu slowly fell asleep as she softly chanted that person's name as if asking for help.