By the time I finished my coffee, it was already half past eleven in the evening.
Shintiao Xiang put the cleaned mug in the sink to drain.
While wiping his hands with a dry towel, he looked back thoughtfully behind him.
Someone is standing there in a daze.
"Then President, if you are okay, I will go back?"
After a long while, a dull word "um" sounded slowly.
Shinjoka walked to the wall nonchalantly and continued to ask: "President, do you want to take a rest? I'll turn off the lights for you."
There was no response, but she knew the other party must have heard it.
So she turned off the light with a click.
The room was suddenly engulfed in darkness.
"An'an~President."
Shinjoka said hello and walked towards the entrance.
Before leaving the house, she looked back again in a strange way.
The boy in the room was still sitting quietly on the bed, staring at the falling snow outside the window with some loneliness, as if longing to touch the out-of-reach moon.
Under the cold moonlight, his whole figure was like an eternal sculpture, exuding a sense of depressive desolation.
"..."
Unable to explain the reason, Shinjoka felt as if something had touched her heart, a feeling that was both familiar and unfamiliar.
She thought for a moment, then walked back to the room lightly.
"Hey~President."
She said softly: "Although you don't seem to be in the mood, I still want to ask, do you want me to comfort you?"
After finishing speaking, he reached out and unzipped his casual jacket, revealing the pure white vest underneath.
The weak and slender waist is exposed, forming a strong visual contrast with the plump and proud snow peaks.
It wasn't until the sweet fragrance and breath came closer that Kato Yusuke finally looked in front of him as if he was awakened.
A pink cheek bloomed faintly in the dim light.
Her smooth short black hair swayed gently, revealing a cute and charming face. Her eyes as bright as agate were looking at him, with a hint of teasing at the end of her slightly raised eyes.
The girl in front of her was holding her hands on the bed like a cat, with one knee that climbed up was sunk into the mattress, and she slowly crawled into his arms using her hands and feet.
The smell of shampoo and shower gel floated in the air, with warmth like candlelight, in stark contrast to the cold wind howling outside.
"President."
The crystal-clear lips opened gracefully on the milk-white teeth, "If you have anything unhappy, I can vent it to you~"
As she breathes, her snow-white skin will rise and fall regularly, and her cute belly button will also move accordingly.
As soon as she moved her body, the underwear under her clothes was looming, outlining a deep and greasy ravine.
Under the soft loose trousers, a small "Calvin Kelvin" logo with black letters on a white background is exposed on the waist.
Faced with the undefended attitude of Renjun.
Listen to the ambiguous invitation that stirs people's hearts.
A trace of depression appeared on Kato Yusuke's face, and he stretched out his hand to hold the other person's shoulder tiredly, and whispered: "Don't make trouble."
The action was not rough, he just wanted her to calm down.
Shinjoka immediately stayed still, then sat next to him against the wall, curled up her legs, and put her two little feet together comfortably.
If he didn't say anything about going back, she wouldn't leave.
The room fell into silence again, except for the rattling of the windows.
Follow the other person's line of sight and look out the window.
It was already dark, with only the little lights of street lamps floating in the darkness.
Unconsciously, the snow seemed to be falling heavier than before.
The field of vision was silvery white, and even the glass was covered with a layer of transparent and gorgeous frost, like thousands of pear blossoms in bloom.
She glanced casually and quickly looked away.
"Hey~ President, what are you thinking about?"
The young man was silent and looked lazy.
Shinjoka tilted her head and looked at him, speculating endlessly in her mind.
Various thoughts ran through my head several times.
She said after careful consideration: "Speaking of which, regarding the girl downstairs, President, do you know her?"
"..."
Kato Yusuke remained silent, but his breath stopped for a moment and then immediately returned to normal.
Even though the movement is minimal.
But for Shintiao Xiang, this change alone is enough.
She nodded nonchalantly and continued.
"No wonder something like that happened last time at the forest school. Does the president like that kind of thing?"
"To be honest, that girl is pretty cute, but her friends are a bit annoying and a little self-aware."
"The most important thing is that the local girl still talked about the president like that. I was really angry at the time. If only I could teach her a lesson with my own hands... I'm just kidding."
"Finally, I just had a little chat with the girl down there. Sayu Ogiwara said that her name is very similar to our association. What a coincidence~"
"——Have you said enough?"
As expected, she was interrupted in a harsh tone: "If everything is okay, you can go back and rest."
"Hey, but I think it would be better if someone should accompany the president at this time." Shinjoka tilted her head pretending to be confused.
As for Kato Yusuke's cold attitude, she didn't care either.
Even if he never copes with her or takes care of her emotions.
But that doesn't matter, that's the kind of relationship they have anyway.
——Straight forward, clear.
If there are thousands of kinds of fateful encounters, then the relationship between them must be one of them.
Especially Kato Yusuke's current state is like returning to the night when she took him home, exuding the same aura of keeping strangers away.
And she kind of likes this state, and she can't help but feel a sense of intimacy in her heart.
Facing Kato Yusuke's deep eyes.
Shinjouxiang changed his words: "Since President, you don't want to talk about this topic, let me talk about something else. Speaking of which, have I mentioned anything about my family?"
Without waiting for someone to respond...
"I hate my parents the most."
With this sentence as her opening remarks, she just started talking to herself.
"I have never told anyone these things, but if you are the president, I think it would be okay to tell you~"
"About when I was in elementary school, my father and mother separated. That being said, they were never married in the first place."
"I heard that my mother used to be a bartender in a nightclub, and my father was a regular customer of that store. That's how the two met, and after getting to know each other, they had me."
Shinjoka narrowed her eyes and stretched her legs lazily.
"Like most families, the two live together normally."
"At the beginning, my mother resigned from her original job and became a full-time housewife, while my father was working outside to make money to support the family."
"On weekends, my mother will prepare my favorite octopus sausages and sumptuous dishes, and my father will drive us to a nearby park for a picnic."
"Our family has been living a simple and stable life like this. I thought it would continue like this in the future, but in the end they separated."
"Perhaps they realized that this kind of stable life was not their pursuit, so they made a decision quickly.
Dad gave all the money he had saved to mom and then disappeared.
Mom used the money to buy a house, converted the first floor into a bar, resumed her old business, and opened a private bar in Kabukicho. It’s the same place you went to before, President~"
Kato Yusuke didn't express anything about this, and looked out the window again, remaining silent.
Shintiao Xiang paused for a while and continued.
"I remember that the day before my father left, he took me to buy a set of clothes that I had always wanted, and he also took me to a very high-end restaurant for dinner."
She lowered her gaze and stared at the round toes that she was twisting unconsciously.
"Whether it was my father or my mother, neither of them asked me about my decision. My father didn't even say goodbye to me, and I didn't know about their breakup until later. It was so funny~"
"The result was that my family disappeared overnight, so fast that I didn't even have time to react."
"But Mom, she is quite comfortable. She has been a housewife for so long, but once she starts receiving guests, she is very smooth. It makes me very ~~~ off-putting!"
As if a conversation had started, Shinjoka kept talking about his own affairs.
"Then, the news about our family spread to the school."
"When my friends in elementary school found out that my father was away and my mother was a bar owner, everyone was afraid to avoid me and left me one after another."
"I can't blame them for reacting like this. After all, even I didn't know what to do at the time."
"At that time, I was still a child who could only cry and cry. I couldn't do anything at all. The only thing I could do was to point the finger at my mother."
"...The feeling of powerlessness as you watch your family fall apart before your eyes, the confusion of your father suddenly disappearing without a trace, the grievance of trying to contact but finding no trace, the loneliness of being left alone..."
The girl raised her head proudly and said softly: "It's a blessing that I was able to survive at that time. I'm so amazing~"
After a pause, he added: "...I obviously didn't do anything wrong, so why did I have to meet such miserable parents..."
There was a hint of excitement in the voice.
Faced with his parents who have been by his side since he was born, and who he believed would always be the same in the future, they suddenly separated.
——That kind of pain is really extraordinary.
"Even...that feeling of despair is like losing half of your body, or half of your remaining life."
Shintiao Xiang said word for word:
“So I had to look for a new way of life and learned a lot of things that others didn’t think were good.
Even though it was a wrong way of life from a worldly perspective, no one around me said, "Isn't this right?", so I continued to live like this."
As if she had talked too much in one breath, she put a hand on her chest as if to take a break and breathed several times in succession.
In fact, she shouldn't tell anyone these things.
Because once the other party learns this fact, his eyes will turn to pity when he looks at her.
She will feel like she is the only one who has been kicked out of the normal world.
Just walking on the road seems to remind me that I am an unfortunate person everywhere.
But facing the person next to me.
Facing that boy who went from happiness to misfortune.
She felt a familiar scent from the other party, so she took down the strong defense in her heart and took the initiative to tell these things.
"I had this thought when my father left.
If he doesn't like his mother, why should he be with her?
If he was disappointed in his mother, why didn't he take me away?
If he likes another woman, it would be better to at least say goodbye."
"In the end, I basically forgot what my father looked like, but I remember the last words he said to me very clearly."
The girl said with some self-deprecation: "A wallet is not a necessity for girls. There will be men who will pay for it for you...that's what he said."
Unconsciously, the room was tainted with a strong personal color.
"So, President~~~"
Shinjou Xiang stood up and looked directly into Kato Yusuke's eyes.
"I will never betray you, never! I swear." She said with a smile, "Unless you become a pauper one day, that's another matter."
The girl's smile was as bright as usual, but her eyes were cold.
Then, she groped her way into someone's arms, boldly hugged the other person's waist, and rested her chin on that strong chest.
This time, Kato Yusuke did not stop him.
Not only did he allow her to make these intimate gestures, he also put a hand on her head and gently stroked her hair like a cat.
This feeling made Shintiao Xiang feel a little strange.
Although the two have had intimate relationships several times, the situation like now where they do nothing and just stay together is really rare.
However, she also subtly didn't hate it.
"I always feel like the president and I are licking each other's wounds~~~?"
She joked with a smile, and reached out to grab the blanket on the side to cover them. They just lay peacefully in each other's arms, enjoying his touch.
Close your eyes and smell the pleasant mint fragrance.
It's just that my mind is very clear, and I have no intention of escaping to sleep.
Suddenly, a hint of self-deprecation appeared on her lips.
Even though I just talked about it a lot.
But in fact, she herself also understood that her father not only abandoned his wife, but also abandoned her.
Fortunately, she now has a new "little purse".
So Shinjoka opened his eyes again and quietly admired the boy's appearance.
She couldn't help but be fascinated by the profile of his face and slightly damp hair.
"President, I like you~"
She said half-seriously, and it was hard to tell whether it was truth or a joke in her tone.
Kato Yusuke ignored her and just looked at the scenery outside the window wholeheartedly.
The sky is full of stars, like a frozen heavy rain.
Many nights overlap, quietly forming darkness.
The stars had faded last night, and the green mountains were fading into the distance.
Only the cold moon and warm sun can fry people's life.
As the old saying goes - "You can't look back on the past."
I regret it anyway.
After all, he lost the white moonlight he once had and turned into a cinnabar mole in his heart.
So, now he just wants to let time stay a little longer.
In the depths of midnight, picking up beautiful candies,
At the end of the blue sky, dotted with sad colors,
I fantasize that one day, I can walk side by side with that figure in my memory at dusk again.