[152] What overflows from the chest is despair and begging for the moon
She wiped it gently with a tissue. The color of the blood was very different from that of her previous aunt. The abnormal bleeding came suddenly. Calculating, her period will not come in ten days. So many days in advance, the body may have symptoms.
Problem.
It took almost a lot of paper towels to wipe it clean, put two sanitary napkins on her underwear, and flushed the toilet. An Xiaonuan took out a lighter, burned all the paper towels in the wastebasket, poured the dust into the toilet, and flushed it again.
After calming down, she changed her clothes and went downstairs wearing a black short-tailed coat, her hair disheveled, and sunglasses.
"Xiao Nuan, where are you going?"
"I want to go shopping."
Gu Changqing chuckled, "Shall I go with you?"
An Xiaonuan's face remained as usual, "No, don't you want to go back to the old house? I want to go around myself."
Gu Changqing nodded, "Okay, do you have enough money? If not, I will give you another card."
An Xiaonuan took out the card he gave her before and said, "I still have more than one million on it. I can't spend it all."
Gu Changqing then hugged her and said, "Go ahead, pay attention to safety, and buy whatever you want."
An Xiaonuan broke away and said, "Okay, I'll go first."
She took a ride all the way to the Maternal and Child Health Hospital in City A, and came to the doctor's office wearing a mask.
There were several women seeing gynecologists inside. An Xiaonuan went to register first and queued up here.
When it was her turn, the doctor first asked: "What's your name?"
An Xiaonuan didn't dare to say her real name, so she could only say casually, "My name is An Nuan."
"How old is it?" the doctor asked again.
An Xiaonuan had to conceal her age, "26."
"What are the symptoms?"
"My menstruation comes ten days early, and there is heavy bleeding, a lot of blood clots, and lower abdominal pain."
After hearing this, the doctor put down his pen after writing, his face a little solemn, "When did you start having these symptoms?"
An Xiaonuan could only tell the truth, "I felt some pain in my lower abdomen this morning, so I went to the bathroom and found that the amount was similar to menstruation. But after I went down to eat, I felt a little unstoppable, a lot."
The doctor said bluntly, "This is not a good sign. Let's get an ultrasound diagnosis first."
An Xiaonuan took the order for an ultrasound examination.
After walking around the corridor and looking at the words 'Color Doppler Ultrasound Room' written above the door, she pushed the door open and entered.
She handed the sheet to the doctor in the ultrasound department. After reading it, she immediately looked at An Xiaonuan, "Are you holding in your urine?"
An Xiaonuan nodded, "I really want to go to the toilet."
"Then lie on the bed quickly."
An Xiaonuan followed the instructions faithfully, lifted up the clothes on her abdomen, and the doctor began to examine her.
After a few minutes, I came down and said, "Doctor, what's wrong with me?"
The sonographer handed her the examination report and said, "I have written everything on it. Go to the gynecologist and let the doctor take a look at it for you."
An Xiaonuan returned to the gynecology department again.
Finally, the gynecologist arranged for a series of thirteen examinations.
She had a hunch that things might not be very good.
The doctor looked at the final test results and immediately said, "Annuan, are you anxious to have a baby?"
An Xiaonuan's heart skipped a beat, then nodded.
"An Nuan, I can responsibly tell you that your typical infertility is pathological and obvious, and you are unable to ovulate, have irregular menstruation, and you have severe cold in your body. You want to get pregnant.
Even if infertility is cured, it is not easy, but as long as you are diligent, the disease can be cured gradually, and there is a very small chance of conceiving."
An Xiaonuan's whole body was chilled by these words, and her face turned pale, "Doctor, you mean to say that I am basically 95% incapable of conceiving for the rest of my life, right?"
"That's what I mean, but it's not hopeless -"
Before he finished speaking, An Xiaonuan grabbed all the checklists and stood up and ran out.
She ran to the hospital bathroom,
Sitting on the toilet seems like a fool.
A few days ago, she was still thinking that Gu Changqing could not have children. She really thought that she was just thinking nonsense, but when it happened, An Xiaonuan felt that God was really joking.
She finally decided to be brave, she finally didn't care about her status or anything else, as long as she was by his side, but why should she be sentenced to life imprisonment.
They just said in the morning that they would never be separated. How can they continue this fragile vow now?
Her whole body was shaking uncontrollably. She lay on her legs and cried uncontrollably. Her internal organs were being pulled in pain. A knife hit her heart, and she couldn't pull it out no matter how hard it was. The pain was so painful that she was dying.
After crying for a long time, An Xiaonuan felt that she could not stay here forever. She stood up in a hurry and looked at the mirror in the bathroom. She turned on the faucet, quickly washed her face with cold water, and put on the mask again. An Xiaonuan lowered her head
My head left the hospital.
Without a ride, she walked back along the sidewalk alone. In this huge city, she suddenly felt that she was always alone.
After walking for two hours, she stood at the door of Lip Lips, staring there. Her eyes quickly filled with tears. An Xiaonuan turned around and went to the nearby community. The elevator stopped on the eighth floor. She stepped out and took out her hand.
Take out the key and go in.
Close the door, lean against the door and squat there with your knees and legs bent.
The phone rang at this moment, she picked it up and it was Gu Changqing calling.
After pressing the answer button, his voice came from inside.
"Xiao Nuan, what did you buy?"
She replied softly, "I looked around, but there's nothing good to buy. Aren't you at work? Why are you calling?"
"I miss you!" he whispered with a smile.
An Xiaonuan seemed to be able to see his handsome face with a smile on his face.
I couldn't help but burst into tears, "I miss you too."
"How much do you miss me?" That beautiful voice seemed to be the most beautiful language in the world, making the ice and snow in An Xiaonuan's heart melt little by little.
Something overflowed from her chest. She reached out to touch it and found only two words: despair.
"I won't say anything anymore. I'll go home later." She quickly hung up the call and clutched her cell phone. Tears blurred her vision and filled her heart with dust.
At noon, Gu Changqing came back for dinner and found An Xiaonuan sleeping on the bed.
He leaned over and rubbed her ear, "Why are you so sleepy? Is our baby here?"
An Xiaonuan closed her eyes and felt like a knife.
"How do you know you'll be sleepy when you're pregnant?"
Gu Changqing handed her a copy of "Ten Months Pregnant" and said, "The baby on it is cute, isn't it? Xiao Nuan, I'm looking forward to your and my child. I hope it's a girl, because girls are as beautiful as you."
An Xiaonuan sat up and threw the book aside, "I don't like children at all, Changqing, do you mind if I don't have children for the rest of my life?"
He looked at her and noticed something was wrong with her, "What's wrong with you?"
An Xiaonuan lay down again. She stared at the window with a long and sad gaze, and finally said, "Changqing, do you think we are really suitable to be together?"