"Chen Xiaofeng, in fact, I have always understood that you only had them in your eyes from the beginning."
"..."
"Should I choose You or Qiong, or should I reject them and choose Aini, haha..."
"Stop making such jokes."
Perhaps because of the alcohol, Luo Jia actually started telling jokes.
"Haha..." Luo Jia laughed at the end, his voice sounded lonely, which made Chen Xiaofeng feel very uncomfortable.
"If Chen Xiaofeng didn't have such thoughts, he wouldn't have agreed to be with her after realizing Qiong's thoughts."
"that is……"
When Luo Jia said it, he felt so.
"Originally, you had a new consciousness in your heart, and you should say sorry first, but you thought in your heart, 'It would be a waste to refuse like that, so you just keep it like this'... just like you always treat us, so
Thinking about it, you are really smart..."
"No...I've never...well, maybe it's a little cunning to think so."
In fact, Chen Xiaofeng really didn't have such thoughts, so there was no need to admit it.
"Haha... you are still the same as before... people will misunderstand you if you don't explain clearly... you never explain your inner feelings to others, so Misaka..."
"..."
"But this time it seems that I was overwhelmed by the guilt of betraying Xiao Qiong. Haha... you should definitely refuse it from the beginning!"
"Um……"
Was he right? Chen Xiaofeng didn't expect that the girl who pointed at his chin and said she wanted to "castrate" him could actually see so deeply.
Should we say that Chen Xiaofeng is too honest and not suitable for playing tricks?
"Chen Xiaofeng, you are indeed too honest, and so is Qiong."
"Isn't this a compliment to me?"
Luojia didn't answer.
"Want relief?"
After speaking, Luo Jia fell into silence.
"...If...if Yuu adopts this method."
"...Don't continue to struggle with the issue of who to choose. Just pretend that nothing has happened now."
"Um?"
Chen Xiaofeng was actually lectured by a younger generation.
"Smart people, when faced with such difficult things, will treat bad options as if they can't see anything, because they are things that may hurt themselves, so they simply ignore them and just treat them as if they are nothing.
I don’t know, if nothing happens, the pain of such a difficult decision will disappear by itself.”
This might not be a bad idea, should we just do it?
Is it not because my mind has wavered that I have troubles that I have reached such a state? Is it not because I have admitted this contradictory statement?
Therefore, it should be like what Luo Jia said, if you know that liking someone is just an illusion, then there will be no pain of choosing someone and pain of getting rid of someone.
If there are no worries like that, Chen Xiaofeng's mood will improve, and the embarrassing situation will disappear.
However, Chen Xiaofeng still can't understand it, and he doesn't want to understand it.
Can such a thing really be done? Chen Xiaofeng knows that such a thing is absolutely impossible.
"Such a thing...how, how could it be done so easily?"
Chen Xiaofeng seemed to be struggling in his heart and strongly opposed Luo Jia's proposal.
"Why can't it be done?"
"I am now...whether it is a misunderstanding or an illusion, these are feelings that cannot be treated so perfunctorily."
Chen Xiaofeng looked straight at Luo Jia.
"I have such feelings because after I came here, I spent time with You and Qiong, and the time I couldn't let go of was given to me... If you deny going to the black market as you said, treat it as an illusion.
Or if it is just a misunderstanding, then it is equivalent to denying the important days we spend together! The memories I have experienced with Qiong and Yu, happy, sad, even if there are conflicts, these are unparalleled to me.
They are all important, so... therefore you must not forget them all!"
The feelings for those two people were not born in a day or two. They were spent and created together under the same roof. They were accumulated bit by bit through those inconspicuous little things.
With that kind of accumulation, we have the relationship we have today.
Therefore, it absolutely cannot be denied.
It was precisely because of knowing this that Chen Xiaofeng accepted his current contradictory self that was entangled between Qiong and You. Even if he was really shameless to the extreme, he was still troubled by these things... Even so, it was better than just
If you want to escape that trouble, forget that pain, it would be better to throw away these precious memories without any nostalgia.
That is much more interesting than betraying the unparalleled and beautiful past. Chen Xiaofeng will carry these depressions and worries and walk towards tomorrow with his head held high.
This was what he was taught every day in that city and everything he experienced in that city.
"You have really chosen a path that makes people both love and hate you. That's why I like you like that..."
"..."
Luojia smiled bitterly, although it is meaningless to say this now.
"You are really too honest."
"I know...I also feel that my brain may not be normal after turning into a zombie, but it's strange to fall in love with Xiaoqiong and Xiaoyou at the same time..."
"Is that so...I don't think it's that strange."
"Um?"
"Chen Xiaofeng, your brain is not broken either."
"But……"
"Chen Xiaofeng, do you believe in such things as 'there will only be one person destined for you in this world' to bluff young girls?...Oh, I'm sorry, I don't believe it either."
"..."
"Humans...we are all humans for now...it is impossible for us to get used to liking only one person. This seemingly normal thing is actually impossible."
"But……"
"If you like someone... do you need a reason for this feeling? Isn't it something that you think you can control... If you can control it, is it still worth believing?"
"..."
"When he first talked about this matter with me, he told me that as people grow up, even those matters can be easily expressed in lies. Tell me about my encounter with that person, what I said, and how I felt.
I forget all my feelings, because I will get hurt, so I have to escape... Therefore, I put the things that are important to me in both hands and choose one of them. I also know that this kind of thing is very painful, so I just
Just follow the original decision, but what does that mean? I think it's like you said, betraying important memories, important companions of the blastoderm, and the feelings of those guys... In this way, you
Don’t you understand very well?”
"Even if I understand...but if you want me to do it..."