Yun Shu, when you read this letter, you don’t know what the scene will be like. Maybe I have drifted in a small northern town and am still in the same state. Maybe you are still sitting under the flower stand in the backyard, still bored. I don’t know you. Will you miss the days when I was around? But for me leaving, I think it is the best ending for us.
The days when I am by your side can be said to be the most leisurely and comfortable time of my life. I am no longer on the run, no longer precarious, no need to face the dangers and gunpoints lurking around me, and no need to worry about how long the remaining dry food will last. , just protect yourself from bad people hurting you.
The villa has always been very peaceful, so my work couldn't be easier. It's so comfortable that time seems to stand still and the clouds in the sky move slower. At first, I couldn't change my habit. I always paid attention to the unusual movements around the house every second. Later, I found that the area around the house was very safe and there was no need for me to be on high alert. So my eyes gradually shifted from being wary of the surroundings to you, who is often distracted.
Many times I saw you lying on the bench in the backyard, looking up at the blue and distant sky between the intertwined fingers of your hands, but it seemed that your heart was elsewhere, and I didn’t understand what you were looking at. Later, you followed Qiao Ye Every day when I go to the company and lie down in that position, I realize that you were missing Qiao Ye, and I was missing you. Looking up at the sky, it seems that that person's voice, face, and smile are right in front of me, clear and bright.
I remember that dark and lightless morning. When I first met you, you were like a wounded deer, with scars all over your body, facing cruelty and killing that you had never experienced before. It was my dereliction of duty that I failed to protect you. Zhou Quan, that was the one I hated myself the most among the countless times I performed the mission.
I decided to stay by your side and protect you because you touched the corner of my heart that I regret most. During my military career, I had a lover who accompanied me for several years, but it was also because of my mistakes that she left forever. When you stubbornly resisted the approach of the people around you with scars, I saw the tenacity in your bones, so I was determined to protect you and never let you get hurt again. I was determined to help you and never let mermaids take advantage of me again. .
I don’t know when my feelings for you started. Sometimes I have doubts. Probably from that night when I carried you through the mountains and forests to safety, some feelings have already sprouted in my heart. Later I witnessed your love for Xiao Yichen. Dependence, I found that the compatibility between you and him is much higher than that between you and Qiao Ye. It is probably destined that you and Qiao Ye have a stronger fate, which is why you can't get rid of Qiao Ye.
I have been with you for a long time, and I really feel sorry for Qiao Ye. You are such a good person, but he keeps you in a house in a courtyard all day long. We only see each other for a few hours every day. We sleep together at night and only know how to plunder and indulge. .You who chase butterflies and play around, you who lazily take a nap on the bench, you who take your baby to the garden, you who gorge on desserts, you who are stubborn and angry...there are so many other aspects of you, Qiao Ye didn't even know.
I'm just an outsider, I can't comment on your family affairs, I can't tell Qiao Ye to spend more time with you. I can only stay by your side silently, cover you with clothes when you fall asleep, and find you something interesting when you are bored. He helps you carry things when you go shopping, and comforts you when you complain.
Over time, I got used to paying attention to your every word and deed, every frown and smile, and your emotions also affected my mood. When you and Qiao Ye were close and joking, my heart became colder and colder, and I could only quietly retreat.
.You don’t know, on the night Qiao Ye was attacked, I saw you crying like that for him, and he insisted on protecting you first, and then I fully understood my feelings. Too much jealousy, envy, longing, and entanglement.
, depression... They wrapped around me tightly like a python, and let go at the last moment, just because of Qiao Ye's trust in me.
When I took you to escape to Haikou, I warned myself that Qiao Ye really loves you. Even though he often neglects you for his career, it does not shake the fact that you love each other. He cannot be with you all the time and share your feelings.
Joy, but it does not mean that I, a hired person, can covet you and seduce the innocent and unintentional you.
You are too naive and have always only regarded me as a friend and a brother, forgetting that I am also a normal man. Later, we had a lot of close contact, and your breath could easily distract me from my distracting thoughts without knowing it, which made me very distressed.
, I have to keep a distance from you, and I don’t dare to look at you who is dressed casually when you are alone.
It wasn’t until I protected you from bullets and dangers that I realized that loving someone does not depend on whether you get the body or not. The important thing is to connect your life to the other person and to be able to sacrifice for the other person regardless of everything, even if it means giving your only life.
Later, when I returned to Qinzhou, our relationship was much closer than before. You changed your previous boredom and loneliness into joking and joking with me, and your whole person became more gentle and affectionate with a smile and a pure heart. I
I'm glad to be close to your heart and no longer just appear by your side as a bodyguard.
It's a pity that I couldn't control my feelings and was discovered by Qiao Ye. He didn't make things too difficult for me, but I felt sorry for him, so we reached some agreements. I asked him to spend more time with you and care about you, and he asked
I am devoted to you, and I can no longer look at you and get close to you.
You don't know any of this, and I feel a little relieved about this, otherwise such feelings will definitely cause trouble to you. Since it is my own feeling, I can keep it alone.
It just backfired. I couldn't be coerced by him and listen to him plundering and venting his anger on you all day long. I was also afraid of embarrassing the three of them when I confessed to you, so I prepared the notes and weapons for you and left.
Yun Shu, every place I have traveled with you and every little and big thing I have experienced are all vividly visible to you. You are probably used to having me as your friend and brother who has special abilities and can always protect you. For more than half a year,
Saying goodbye really seemed rushed.
I never thought that I would be tortured by emotions, so when I fell into emotional difficulties, I seemed at a loss. Accustomed to a life of horse leather wrapping corpses and licking blood from the knife edge, my feelings had long been buried, like a frozen deep pool. But the dust covered
The feelings were quietly ignited by you and can no longer be extinguished.
I have never been afraid of any enemy, but I am afraid that I will be defeated by feelings that have a beginning and an end. Not getting love is the greatest torture. I can no longer pretend to be nothing and wait for you. So I choose to leave and leave for you and Qiao
Ye is at peace. I believe that without me, he will be better to you and will figure out some things.
Yun Shu, let me call you this for the last time. Thank you for the laughter and joy you brought me, thank you for giving me the opportunity to protect you and atone for your sins, thank you for your reliance and trust in me. I love you and swear by my life.
At this moment, I kiss the letter as lightly as I did that day, leaving you with the spurs and weapons, along with the scars on my shoulders, from now on out of your sight. You don’t need to be nostalgic and sad, life is like a banquet, there will always be an end, since I
You are just a passer-by, so you have to grasp your own permanent guest.
You still have a long way to go in the future. I hope you will protect yourself and learn from the tenacity and sharpness of the Butterfly Army Thorn. A pure heart is not suitable for everyone. You still have to show your momentum for people with malicious intentions.
Qiao Ye wants to protect you, but he can't protect you every moment, and his family is destined to be full of complexity and danger. If you don't take root and grow on your own, you will be knocked down by the wind and waves accidentally. And Qiao Ye, he
His character has some flaws, and he is sometimes too paranoid and arbitrary, and he never knows when he will hurt you too.
I also prepared some money for you in the envelope. I don’t know when I will use it, but I hope you will never use it. You can always grow up with your two babies under the protection of Qiao Ye and be a good mother.
, life doesn’t have so many twists and turns.
Okay, having said so much, it’s time to stop. In the past, I was too serious and not good at expressing myself. This should be the most words I have said to you, and it can also be said to be the last words. Qinzhou is not my hometown, but people like me
People are pretty much the same wherever they go, so I will go to more places I have never been to. Maybe one day I will be able to let go of my deep love for you.
My beloved Yun Shu, cute and innocent Yun Shu, Yun Shu as pure and beautiful as water, goodbye.
Signed: Shen Ce
Outside the window, the mountains and forests were secluded, as dark as ink, with only slight changes in shades. Xie Yunshu looked out, avoiding the light of the letter paper and the desk lamp. His eyes stung after looking at them for a long time, and unknowingly, two lines of tears streaked down his cheeks.
She hurriedly raised her head, blinked and stared at the ceiling, but the tears still flowed out uncontrollably. Who said that tears would stop flowing when she raised her head? They were lying.
There was a dull pain in his head, and the headache that came with crying came back. But what does it matter? Shen Ce was a free wolf. He wanted to let go of his feelings for her and live in a foreign land, but he accidentally fell in love with her.
The kiss made a big mistake, and Qiao Ye was exiled to desolate Africa, never to come back.
Compared to the pain he endured, she was the real fool and coward.
She has never hated herself or Qiao Ye more than at this moment. Everything has a cause and effect, and the recurring harm between the three of them is all caused by Qiao Ye and herself.
Shen Ce was the biggest victim. After he was tricked by Qiao Ye into drinking drugged coffee, he didn't think about his own safety at all. He still wanted to protect her and insisted on confronting Qiao Ye. Unfortunately, he really
He was unable to resist and attacked Qiao Ye.
But Qiao Ye, he was more bloodthirsty and ruthless than Shen Ce who roamed the battlefield. He didn't give Shen Ce any room and exiled him regardless. Little did he know that while cutting off the possibility of her and Shen Ce, he also cut off her heart.
Trust and tenderness towards him.
You can't break your heart casually, but Qiao Ye doesn't seem to understand this. He always says that she does things regardless of the consequences, but as for himself, when he hurt Shen Ce, he didn't consider her feelings at all.
Qiao Ye, I will not retaliate against you, nor will I forgive you. When I gave up on you, it turned out to be the best way to let go of myself.
