Three hundred and sixteenth chapter thick self-blame
After Gu Si woke up, she became even more hysterical. Her emotions were completely beyond her control. She screamed crazily. It seemed that she had to use this manic shouting to truly vent her inner fear and fear. She could not accept Xiaojun's future at all.
The fact that you won't wake up.
"Xiaojun... I want to see Xiaojun. I heard his voice. He was calling me! Let me go..." She seemed to use all her strength to push Bai Ting away, and,
At this moment, he completely ignored Bai Ting's feelings and even completely ignored him.
"Xiaojun... Mommy is here, wait for me..."
Faced with Gu Si's madness, Bai Ting really didn't know what to do. Even though he pressed her arm hard, the needle finally broke free! Drops of blood slowly overflowed from the back of his hand, which was shocking.
"Sisi, wake up! We must face the facts now. Xiaojun can't wake up for the time being. What he needs most now is our encouragement. Only if we cheer up can he get better faster. I beg you, don't blame yourself.
"No, none of us want anything to happen to Xiaojun. Now that it has happened, we must be strong."
Bai Ting hugged her and leaned firmly against his chest. His limbs seemed to have been emptied out, and his whole body was full of weakness and pain.
"You're lying! You're basically lying to me... Xiaojun can't wake up! It was me who caused him to be like this... It's me, it's all my fault!" She is a sinner! She deserves death!
Had she not been engaged to Tang Yunze, Xiaojun would not have lived with Bai Ting, nor would he have been in a car accident at the engagement party and ended up in the hospital. Later, she was angry with Bai Ting and left Xiaojun alone in the hospital.
This gave Sam a great opportunity to hurt Gu Xiaojun.
She didn't want to think about these things, but, unexpectedly, these pictures reminded her that she was the real culprit who hurt Xiaojun.
"It's not your fault! Don't blame yourself! You can't blame yourself... If you really want to say whose fault it is, it's me who failed to protect you mother and son! I am the real sinner." He hugged her harder.
, loves her so much, but always ends up hurting her deeply. His guilt is deeply hidden in his body and cannot be vented.
"Let me go...let me go...I'm going to find Xiaojun..."
She started to go crazy again, biting the back of Bai Ting's hand fiercely. The wound from the bite yesterday was not healed yet, and a new wound was added today. He didn't care about these small pains, he only hoped from the bottom of his heart that Gu Si would wake up soon.
come over!
"open……"
Bai Ting let go slightly, and Gu Si rushed away from his arms and hurriedly walked out the door...
"Sisi, wait..." Bai Ting chased after her, and after a few steps he caught up with her. Gu Si punched and kicked him, showing no mercy at all.
"Let me go! I'm going to see Xiaojun..."
Gu Si may have a lot of anger gathered in his heart, and his voice showed a wanton flame...
"Mr. Li, what should we do? Do you want the doctor to come over first?" The servant heard the sound and rushed over. Seeing such symptoms, he was completely dumbfounded.
There was blood flowing on the backs of Bai Ting and Gu Si's hands, which was particularly dazzling.
"No need, inform Chen Bei and ask her to come over." In desperation, he could only hand the phone to the servant and bring Chen Bei over as a reinforcement! She and Chen Bei were good friends who talked about everything. They should know each other a lot.
Listen to her...
Chen Bei came over after hearing the news, and was a little dumbfounded when she saw Bai Ting's embarrassed appearance, "What's wrong with you?" His hands were covered with scars, and there were sharp nails imprinted on his hands.
Bai Ting didn't say anything, and Chen Bei finally understood something.
"Where's Sisi? Where is she?"
"She lost control of her emotions and has fallen asleep now." As he spoke, his sigh was full of his pain. On the one hand, it was because of Gu Xiaojun's blow, and on the other hand, it was Gu Si's self-blame. She made it clear that she was unwilling to accept it.
Facts, uncontrollable commotion.
It was Chen Bei's first time to come to "Qian'an". In the past, she would have studied the place eagerly, but now she was not in the mood at all.
What happened to Gu Xiaojun was a heavy blow to everyone. When they were in the hospital, the scene of her and Gu Xiaojun bickering was still so clear. However, in the blink of an eye, he was lying on the bed.
The bed was motionless, and only the shallow breathing from the tip of her nose proved that she was alive!
Seeing Bai Ting like this now, almost out of shape after being tortured by Gu Si, based on this alone, she shouldn't blame him anymore. After all, no one's pain will be greater than that of Gu Si and Bai Ting at this moment.
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"Mr. Bai, it's not good... it's not good..."
Suddenly, I heard the servant coming down from upstairs in a panic.
"What's wrong?" Chen Bei was the first to speak. Bai Ting's nerves were tense, and before the servant could speak, he had already rushed towards the master bedroom on the second floor.
"Miss Gu seems to have locked the bedroom on the second floor and can't open it..." The servant's voice was filled with trembling and fear.
"Gu Si, you idiot, what exactly do you want to do?" Chen Bei bit her lip and followed closely behind Bai Ting.
"Sisi, open the door! Gu Si, open the door..." Bai Ting knocked on the door hard, but there was no movement at all. It was obvious that she had woken up and just didn't want to see everyone, so she locked herself in the room.
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"Chen Bei, get out of the way..." He must break into the door now!
Chen Bei knew his intention and hurriedly moved out of the way. She saw his fear and horror in Bai Ting's eyes. His worries and care for Gu Si were highlighted in every word and action.
In fact, to be honest, he really loved Gu Si! It was just a coincidence that she and Gu Si always harmed him deliberately and trampled his feelings completely under their feet. However, Bai Ting never let go.
In my heart, I still have such a deep love for Gu Si.
After knocking down several times, the door still hadn't opened. Bai Ting quickly took tools and opened the door...
Staring at the beads of sweat on his forehead, Chen Bei was moved for Gu Si. The only link between them was Xiaojun, who was lying on the bed now. In fact, no matter it was anyone else, even Gu Si
, even less than the panic in Bai Ting's heart.
He and Gu Si were already strangers to each other. With Xiaojun's current situation, he might leave at any time. In this case, there really is no possibility for them to be together...
Based on Bai Ting's sincerity towards Gu Si, who is more afraid of losing Xiaojun than him?
There was a loud "bang" and the door cracked.
"Gu Si..."
"Sisi..."
The two of them hurriedly spoke out, but there was no sign of her in the room. At this moment, Bai Ting felt waves of pain and dizziness, followed by waves of pain.
"Sisi, why aren't you here?" Chen Bei's voice was slightly trembling.
Bai Ting glanced at the bathroom door, and a strong shock spread through his body. The moment he pushed the bathroom door open, the scene inside was exactly as he expected. Gu Si's wrists were dripping with blood, and the bath mirror had been smashed into bruises, with marks on it.
Stained with bright red blood.
"Sisi, you fool!" Chen Bei stamped her feet anxiously. Bai Ting stepped forward and wrapped her wrist tightly with a towel, trying to stop the flow of blood.
Probably due to excessive blood loss, Gu Si is not as crazy as before. Her eyes are closed tightly, as if she is waiting for death.
She has always acted very strong, but in fact, her heart is as fragile as fragile glass, which breaks at the touch of a touch. Especially Gu Xiaojun is a treasure and life to her, and now he is lifeless.
, her life seems to have completely lost its direction...
"Call the doctor quickly." Bai Ting roared, and the servant hurriedly left.
He hugged her slightly cool body tightly, as if the warmth on her body was draining away bit by bit, "Think...be strong! Don't sleep! I don't allow you to sleep, do you hear me?" He patted her pale face.
He wanted to slap her awake hard, but seemed reluctant to do so. A thick layer of tears was already stained under his eyes, dripping down on Gu Si's cheeks.
The fear and panic of losing her forever filled his body, causing tingling pain all over his body.
"You fool! Why did you commit suicide? Even if Xiaojun is really in trouble, he would not like to see you like this! Gu Si, wake up! Wake up!"
Chen Bei shook her angrily a few times, why was he so stupid? Even if Xiaojun is no longer in her life, there are other people around her. Look at Bai Ting... His nervousness towards her will move anyone who sees it.
She still had friends and relatives... How could she end her life so hastily?
Gu Si just softened for a moment, but she could still vaguely hear Chen Bei's voice.
"It's not your fault that something like this happened to Xiaojun, nor Bai Ting's fault! Just because something happened to Xiaojun, you should face life more positively, instead of being sluggish and seeking a short-circuit like you are now.
!Is this like what a mother would do? Gu Si, did you hear that? Wake up! Be strong! You have to work hard to live, so that Xiaojun has hope. Even if you give up on Xiaojun, how can he still have it?
Any chance of waking up?"
Chen Bei has always had a loud voice, but now it is mixed with anger, so her voice is especially loud.
Gu Si slowly opened her eyes, her eyes were indifferent, and there was no trace of blood on her pale cheeks. It was as if she was surrounded by the breath of death. She really didn't want to live anymore! Without Xiaojun by her side...she wouldn't
Know what else can support her!
Bai Tingjian gently stroked her cold forehead, and the next second, his chin was pressed against her forehead, "Don't worry, nothing will happen to you. If you leave me too... what will I do?" His words were so thick.
It was the first time for Chen Bei to feel such helplessness and hesitation in Bai Ting. In the shopping mall, he was the proud son of the emperor and nothing could trouble him. However, in front of Gu Si, he was completely helpless.
