Zhihao's understanding of the new mysteries of "Internal Strength and Mental Technique" happened after Rouyu went to a nightclub after getting up from a nap, and Zhihao was alone in a state of extreme depression.
If the person who passed away had nothing to do with Zhihao, Zhihao would never feel such grief. It is precisely because of the inextricable connection with him that Zhihao is in such unbearable pain.
Zhihao sat on the bed blankly, not wanting to get up. Yu Ting's figure kept fluttering in front of Zhihao's eyes, lingering and coming back as soon as he called. Zhihao's eyes that closed in pain were still the shadow of Yu Ting.
The tender care and tenderness he once had was unforgettable and unforgettable. Zhihao felt heartbroken when he thought about it. How could he not feel heartbroken when such a living person disappeared before his eyes?
Zhihao is going to face the next life. He clearly knows that wallowing in it is not necessarily a normal state of mind, but how can he forget it casually, unless his memory completely disappears, like the injury after the fire?
Affection.
The same thing happened to save people from the fire, but this time, why was his memory still so complete? Zhihao even had the illusion of erasing his memory. Perhaps in this way, the pain in his heart would be alleviated a lot.
But this is an unrealistic idea, and Zhihao knows it all too well.
Sister Rouyu needs to be taken care of by herself, as well as sister Xueting. If Xueting appears in Zhihao's field of vision at this time, Zhihao will also love her even more and take care of her in every possible way.
That's it, that's it. Zhihao wanted to get rid of this state of mind. He came to the living room and looked downstairs. He was still in a bad mood. Human emotions are originally delicate and rich. Otherwise, there would be differences between humans and animals because of their IQ and EQ.
Do you have to be clear?
Tragedy is a tragedy that happens to you. If it happens to others, you may be able to say a few words of comfort and express your kind sympathy. But if it happens to you, you only know how sad it is when you put yourself in someone else's shoes. It is so sad that you can't bear it.
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When his parents passed away, Zhihao was still young. Although the sadness at that time was not inferior to the sadness at this moment, Zhihao knew that it was far from as delicate and long-lasting. As time went by, the pain of his parents' death has become
In the past, he had regained his due calm. When his sister left Zhihao, Zhihao was sad for a long time.
The sadness at that time was the sadness of childhood. Compared with the sadness now, it seemed to be much less detailed and rich. As for what it was, Zhihao couldn't explain it for a while.
What is left for Zhihao is not only sad, but also sad.
I remember a philosopher once said that tragedy is the destruction of valuable things for people to see. This sentence contains rich philosophy. Now Zhihao understands it very deeply. No one understands it more deeply than Zhihao.
Zhihao sat back on the sofa blankly, his eyes were dull and his thoughts were complicated. If Zhihao stood up and walked around, he would be like a walking zombie.
Zhihao suddenly remembered that the best way to cure sadness is to do something. When people concentrate on something, they will naturally turn a deaf ear to the things around them and forget both honor and disgrace.
Zhihao thought about cultivation, concentrated his thoughts, and naturally forgot about his own suffering and pain.
Zhihao sat cross-legged on the sofa, with his hands flat on his legs, his short hair, like a monk, harmonizing his breath, looking inward, observing his nose and heart. When he felt a little bit, what was in front of Zhihao's eyes
Yu Ting's shadow appeared again, and Zhihao let out a long sigh. In such a state of mind, he definitely could not enter concentration.
If you are unable to enter concentration, it is not an effective practice. If you do it reluctantly, even though it is hard, it is not necessarily a good thing.
"I feel it, I feel it..." Zhihao silently recited the formulas in "Neigong Xinfa". If you can't practice, memorizing "Neigong Xinfa" is also a way to calm your mind. At least it can calm your messy brain.
A moment of silence.
Zhihao relaxed his body and leaned softly on the sofa. Later, he lay down with his pillow on the armrest and began to recite "Nei Gong Xin Dharma" wholeheartedly. He had not recited it for a long time and was not as familiar as before. Zhihao reluctantly finished reciting it once.
When he recited it for the second time, Zhihao found a familiar feeling and could recite it smoothly. It felt good. Zhihao lay on the sofa and recited it for the fifth time.
When I recited it for the sixth time, Zhihao's mood gradually improved, and Ruoyouruowu's grief suddenly eased a lot, as if the world around him no longer existed around Zhihao.
Zhihao suddenly had the idea of memorizing "Internal Strength and Mental Techniques" backwards. He had tried this before but failed. There were many stuck areas. Zhihao wanted to give it a try today.
The spacious living room was quiet and quiet, with no one disturbing him. When Zhihao got up, he did not open the window, and the noise from outside could not be heard in the house, affecting Zhihao's peaceful state of mind.
It was indeed a peaceful state of mind, Zhihao seemed to be suddenly freed from sadness and reborn.
Zhihao concentrated his thoughts and devoted himself to reciting "Nei Gong Xin Dharma" as if he was engaged in a very important thing. Nothing was more important than this thing.
After succeeding, Zhihao even felt a strange joy in his heart, and he successfully recited "Internal Strength and Heart Method" backwards for the first time.
It is said that there are people with super strong memories in the world. They have a photographic memory and can recite everything from memory to memory. Those are all descriptions. How can it be so easy to actually do it? Zhihao did it. Zhihao was in such a state of mind.
, suddenly recited "Internal Strength and Mental Technique" backwards, even Zhihao himself found it strange.
Zhihao did not stop, he kept up his efforts, and recited it several times. Until the familiarity of reciting backwards and forwards was equal, Zhihao was satisfied with his efforts. The joy of success and a touch of excitement were written on Zhihao's face. If Zhihao
If you look in the mirror, you will definitely find a different kind of brilliance on your face, which is slightly different from before.
Zhihao sat up. When his mood returned to a slightly unhappy state, the sadness did not show up. Zhihao began to recite "Internal Strength and Mental Methods" again, reciting it forward and backward. While reciting, Zhihao was not satisfied.
After memorizing it, Zhihao began to chew the essence of "Nei Gong Xin Dharma" word by word.
It was slightly deeper than the previous understanding, but there was no qualitative leap. When Zhihao was thinking backwards, Zhihao's eyes suddenly lit up. Zhihao discovered novelties that he had not discovered before, from the formulation to the meaning, everything was brand new.
The annotations are hidden between the lines. Fortunately, Zhihao's Chinese skills are quite deep, and he can understand the semi-ancient words quite well.
Zhihao was so drunk that he was completely immersed in the joy of his new discovery. He was even more surprised. If he had discovered the secret one day earlier, would his skills have been improved?
Zhihao went through the entire text of "Internal Strength and Mental Techniques" in his mind. He understood it very carefully and upside down. The things hidden in the text were not found in every chapter and every section. They appeared inadvertently and intermittently.
After the discovery, Zhihao was overjoyed and came to the conclusion that the mental problems that had troubled him for a long time were expected to be completely solved this time. From then on, his physical control would reach an almost perfect state.
The bottleneck, that bottleneck that is not easy to break through, will be completely solved this time.
The excitement generated when concentrating may be a kind of enlightenment in pain. Zhihao felt relieved and relaxed, silently digesting the essence of the article. At that time, Rouyu opened the door and came in. Zhihao originally wanted Rouyu to share about himself
With joy, Zhihao couldn't suppress the impulse after seeing this smart and well-behaved sister.
But these days, Zhihao didn't talk much and didn't express himself well, so Rouyu naturally couldn't understand...
Zhihao was lying on the bed, wearing only pajamas. This pajama was chosen by Rouyu. It was a one-piece windbreaker style, which was different from Rouyu's split pajamas. Rouyu's pajamas looked more delicate and exquisite.
Zhihao allowed his body to fully relax, so soft that it seemed as if it no longer existed. It was light and fluttery, like catkins fluttering in the wind or a helpless white cloud. The concentration of thoughts at the same time was a kind of relaxed concentration. It should not be unintentional.
Don’t pay too much attention to it, as excessive attention during practice can easily lead to deviations in mindfulness. This is Zhihao’s latest understanding.
Immediately he had a feeling, as thin as a gossamer. Zhihao was surprised to find that although the route of the true energy was basically the same as the previous practice, it was now a completely new feeling, delicate and orderly, slowly permeating from the inside to the outside.
It reaches every part of the body, feeling full and comfortable.
What surprised Zhihao even more was that his mind's control over his breath had reached an unprecedented level, almost to the point where he could do whatever he wanted. Zhihao suppressed the ecstasy in his heart. After all, this was just the beginning, and the energy in Zhihao's mind
Accumulation and distribution are far from achieved.
Zhihao finished his training. His body was light and his steps were steady. When he jumped out of bed, he was light and silent.
Zhihao deliberately went into the bathroom and took a look in the mirror. The blackness had not lightened much, but a rare luster appeared. Zhihao believed that it would not take long before his original appearance would be restored, and his skin that had been burned and discolored by the fire would be completely gone.
Complete restoration, including face and hands.
At the door of Rouyu's bedroom, Zhihao hesitated.
Zhihao suddenly remembered that before going to bed, Rouyu's sister asked if she could sleep with Rouyu in her arms at night. Zhihao did not comment, nodding in agreement or refusing.
This is a legitimate request. For the pure and innocent sister Rouyu, the most legitimate and pure request is not excessive at all, not to mention that Rouyu's request was originally made with good intentions.
Zhihao pretended to smile, but his grief naturally did not recover so quickly. Especially in his sleep, he was more likely to suffer from grief-stricken convulsions or even nightmares. If there was someone around him, he would always be well cared for.
Zhihao had a nightmare last night. Although Zhihao was not awakened, he was still sweating. When he woke up, he found Sister Rouyu in his arms, and he felt much more at ease.
Zhihao hesitated and decided whether to sleep in the same bed as Rouyu. Weren't we together last night? Last night was last night. Rouyu went there by herself after she fell asleep. If she took the initiative to go there tonight, it would be impossible to guarantee that it would happen.
Something that cannot be controlled by oneself.
Zhihao knows this very well.
A young flesh and blood body, with normal emotions and desires, it is inevitable to be self-controlled for a while. Didn't you act frivolously towards sister Rouyu in your sleep? What makes it even more difficult for Zhihao to say is that before returning to this city, he had a close relationship with his sister Rouyu.
Something almost crazy happened to a beautiful woman.
When Zhihao thought of this, a faint self-blame rose from the bottom of his heart.
No matter what kind of psychology it was due to or what kind of situation it was under, in short, after being self-imprisoned for such a long time, it suddenly relaxed, relaxing to the point of indulgence. Once the passion between men and women is aroused, they will never tire of it.
I am willing to indulge in it all the time.
Zhihao is worried that if he holds sister Rouyu in his arms, a similar situation will inevitably happen, which is disrespectful to Rouyu.
Zhihao only hesitated for a moment, walking lightly as he passed by gently. Just as he left the bedroom door, before he entered his room, he heard Rouyu's gentle voice, "Come in..."
