When I woke up again, my whole body felt like it was falling apart, there were tingling pains everywhere, and I was lying on my stomach. A slightly cold hand touched my forehead, and above my head I sighed with relief: "The fever is finally gone.
"I turned sideways with difficulty and saw Xu Zijie still in military uniform, standing in front of the hospital bed with a frown on his face, his face unusually solemn, and his eyes concealed and obscure.
In connection with what he just said, he bluntly asked: "What's wrong with me?"
"When you arrived at the bottom of the mountain, you had a high fever and fell unconscious. I really shouldn't have accompanied you crazy to that Wufeng Mountain. Do you know how serious the injury on your back was? The wound became infected and inflamed, and the high fever reached over 40 degrees.
If you send him to the hospital later, he may even burn his brain."
It turns out that I didn't fall asleep in the end. I really hoped that my brain would be burned out, so that I wouldn't have to feel the fear of the unknown so clearly, and my heart wouldn't be as painful as being bitten by ants.
My heart turned to gray and I felt helpless. The high fever and the injury on my back kept coming back and forth, leaving me unable to bear any more pain. I was like a trapped animal, even trying to struggle was in vain.
We could only get some news about him from Xu Zijie's mouth, but every piece of news was not optimistic and he never woke up.
At the end of the week, I seemed to have gone through reincarnation. I swam in the hot water, but I finally recovered a little. I couldn't lie down anymore, so I asked the doctor to be discharged. When I was arguing with the doctor, Xu Zijie left with something in his hand.
Come in.
In the past few days, he has taken time to come here every day, often bringing some nutritious meals from outside. His eyes flashed when he heard our argument. After the doctor left, he looked at me with an unkind expression and said, "You are asking to be discharged now because you want to go."
Look at him? Can he get through the gate of the military hospital? Look at your face, you must have fainted before you even reached the gate."
I turned my head, fixed my gaze on something, and said softly but firmly: "I want to be discharged from the hospital."
"Yu Qian, just do it. What will happen if you go? Don't say you can't get in, will he wake up even if he gets in? The doctor said he may be in a coma for a long time. Do you know how long it will be in the long run? One year,
Two years, five years, even ten years, or maybe a lifetime!”
"Shut up!" I roared, glaring at him with blood-red eyes, "Xu Zijie, are you very proud? You are the happiest when he can't wake up, right? Then everything he has belongs to you, and you are
He is a despicable thief who only dares to hide behind his back and steal other people's things wantonly!" I didn't want to hear him say that Xu Ziyang would never wake up, I didn't want to hear a word of it.
Xu Zijie's face was filled with rage, and it spread into his eyes. He stared at me with a stern gaze, almost wanting to burn a hole in me. Finally, he raised his finger, and his fingertip was only an inch away from the tip of my nose, and he said: "Yu Qian, you
OK!" Then he turned around and walked out of the ward without any regrets.
Staring at the empty door, after a moment of silence, I relaxed my nerves and sighed softly as I lowered my eyes. How could I not know that with Xu Zijie's pride, he would never do these things, but if he didn't anger him, he would definitely
He won't agree to my being discharged from the hospital now. More importantly, I don't want to owe him too much.
That day, I left the hospital without hesitation. When I got into the taxi, I only considered for a second before choosing to go back to the apartment. Because of the way I looked now, even if I didn’t look in the mirror, I knew it must be terrible. If I want to be respected by others, I must first
I have to strengthen myself. I can't do it. At least I shouldn't expose my embarrassing side to others.
Walking into the apartment, it was cold and empty. There was nowhere to be found in my heart. I found that even the aura that belonged to him was gone. I calmed down my mind, found some clean clothes and entered the bathroom. I wanted to put water in for a shower, but in the end
After thinking about it, I gave up. The wounds on my back were scabbed and I couldn't get in the water. Not only did I suffer after my wanton behavior, I also couldn't walk to him.
When I arrived at the entrance of the military hospital freshly dressed, I was stopped outside the door as expected. The soldiers in green uniforms kept a straight face from beginning to end and refused to let me take a step forward. I knew it was an order from above without asking.
I had no choice but to walk to the other side of the road and find a place to guard him. I knew it was stupid to do this, but at least I could get closer to him.
In particular, I can tell the progress of things from the people coming in and out. This is my purpose.
From that day on, I became another guard at the gate of the military hospital. I got up early in the dark and stared at the gate closely. I also slowly figured out which car Secretary Xu was in, and when Mrs. Xu would arrive and leave.
The secretary is a busy man, and he cannot stay in the hospital indefinitely. Mrs. Xu can stay longer, but she will also leave.
Xu Zijie came here, but not often. After five or six days, his jeep would slow down when it drove in, and the sight could be felt through the window glass, but not once did he get out of the car and come over. I
If I know that time, I hurt him. In fact, this is good. Xu Ziyang doesn't like me having contact with him. I can't take advantage of him being unconscious at the moment to tangle with his cousin again, not to mention that he will be
When others look down on me, even I look down on myself.
Occasionally, Mrs. Xu can be seen standing under the hospital building, waiting for the car to drive over. Although she is still gloomy from a distance, she is no longer too sad. She secretly thinks that Xu Ziyang's condition has not worsened. After watching for so many days, she has not yet recovered.
After looking at Ding Lan, was she always watching over him upstairs?
Now that I have fallen out with Xu Zijie, the only person I can find is Cheng Lei to get some information from him. The answer is always the same, Xu Ziyang is not awake. The doctor said that it was a lack of oxygen in the brain caused by excessive bleeding, and there was no timely blood transfusion for treatment.
, which caused some symptoms, so that he fell into a severe coma and was difficult to wake up.
When night fell, I looked up at the lights in the tall building, not knowing which ward he was in. I hadn't seen him for nearly twenty days. We were separated by thousands of miles of water and mountains, and I couldn't get closer. Walk.
On the way back to the apartment, I recalled every moment since we met again. Those bad scenes have become my comforting thoughts at this moment. Drinking poison to quench my thirst is probably my current situation.
After careful calculation, the one-year period between me and him is almost here. He once said that there would be no one-year period and he would not let me go. But now he is lying there, unable to hold me back.
My hands are very funny, and God seems to be looking at me maliciously and mockingly, asking us to fulfill our one-year promise in another form.
I smiled desolately, with a lot of unwillingness in my heart, unwilling to be dealt with by fate. So the next day, I got up early and stood on the road opposite the military hospital. The guard guarding the door looked at me a few more times.
, after so many days in a row, he already knows me, and may think that this woman is really stubborn.
He doesn't know that what makes me stubborn is not my personality, but the deepest incomprehensible love I have for someone.
A green taxi stopped by the door. I didn't pay attention at first, but I was stunned when I saw the figure coming out of the back seat. Ding Lan, whom I hadn't seen for many days, appeared in my field of vision for the first time, but she
The way she looks now, not to say it's bad, is just a little different from before. There is more sadness and confusion between her eyebrows, and her face doesn't look good. Then I thought about it, she loves the person upstairs so much, so these reactions are normal.
Suddenly she took out her cell phone from her pocket and answered it. I was more than ten meters away from her, and I could vaguely hear her voice on the phone.
"It's just an investigation, nothing will happen... I just got here and you asked me to go back. Even if something happens, what use can I do if I go back? Okay, okay, Mom, I understand, wait until I see it
He will be back later."
The sound faded away, and she had already walked in, her footsteps hurried.
I didn't take it too seriously, as her affairs had nothing to do with me, and I didn't have the energy to care about them. But for some reason, my heart felt very gloomy, like the sky above my head, blocked by dark clouds, without a trace of light.
Xu Zijie's military vehicle slowly approached again, and as usual, he drove until it was under the building inside the hospital before he got out of the car. This time, he did not walk away immediately, but leaned against the car door, lit a cigarette, and watched from a distance.
Looking in my direction.
I buried my head and didn't look at him. When I noticed that the intense gaze disappeared, I raised my head and saw that he was no longer there. I breathed a long sigh of relief and sighed heavily in my heart. But ten minutes later, Xu Zijie appeared.
At the gate of the hospital, he walked towards me with firm steps, and I felt a little overwhelmed.
When he crossed the street and walked up to me, he did not speak. Instead, he looked at me with a stern face, his eyes fixed on my face. The depth in it made me confused. After a while, he asked: "Are you really?"
Want to see him?"
My heart skipped a beat, and then started to jump violently. I stared at him hopefully, okay? Can he take me up to see him?
"Yu Qian, don't regret it." After saying that, he turned around and took a step forward. After walking a few steps, he paused and asked, "Why don't you keep up?"
I reacted immediately, stepped forward step by step, and then walked with him to the hospital gate. This time, the guard didn't stop me. He glanced at me silently and then looked away. It turned out that I was about to leave.
Getting close to this door is not as difficult as you think, you just have to rely on others to give you the opportunity.
There were only two of us in the elevator. The emotions that had been suppressed for a long time found an outlet. My breathing seemed particularly heavy. My excited heart was beating violently, as if a voice was shouting: Ziyang, I'm here.
When we arrived at the floor, the elevator door opened and Xu Zijie walked out first. He glanced back at me. There seemed to be a lot of information in his eyes, but he seemed to just look at me so calmly. Then he walked towards the door of the ward.
There were still a few people in military uniforms guarding the place, and it was a bit deserted compared to the first time I came here.
The strange thing is that Ding Lan seemed to be arguing with the guard about something. It was only when she got closer that she could hear the meaning of her words. I was surprised. It probably meant that the guard blocked her outside the door. What was going on?
Hearing our footsteps, Ding Lan turned around and saw me clearly behind Xu Zijie. Her pupils shrank and she stood there stiffly.
