"Hi, Xu Jie, you're back." I greeted him with a bright smile.
He frowned, walked over, looked at my legs and asked: "What's wrong?" I took two steps in front of him, then looked back: "As you can see." Finally his tight lip line loosened.
, his face is no longer solemn.
He asked me: "Ruoruo, what are your plans?"
When I was asked about the question that I knew would come, I felt uncertain in my heart. In fact, during this period of time, I just took things as they came and did not think deeply about them. I might also be avoiding this problem in my hidden consciousness.
When he saw that I was silent, he sighed and was about to say something. Xu Ziyang walked in quickly from the door, looking a little panicked, and there was even a thin layer of sweat on his forehead. He seemed to be rushing over in a hurry.
When he came to me, he put his arm around my waist and stared at Xu Jie's face, "Are you back?"
After Xu Jie's eyes settled on his hand, a sarcastic look appeared on his face, "You don't want me to come over here? She is my sister, you can't control anything." Almost instantly, I felt the warmth of the man surrounding me.
I got angry, and the atmosphere of the confrontation between the two became more and more intense. I calmed down a little uneasily: "Um... Ziyang, Xu Jie came here because he cared about me, so you two should stop arguing."
"Xu Jie?" Xu Ziyang suddenly raised his voice and said in a sharp voice: "It's really funny. Some people don't even dare to say their own names. Are they guilty? Guilty?"
"That's better than someone else! At least I still have a chance to make amends. Some people can only live in their memories and repent ridiculously. Even if they meet again and know it's her, they don't dare to reveal the truth."
I screamed because Xu Ziyang suddenly let go of me, stepped forward, grabbed his collar and dragged him out of the door. I was eager to catch up, but the two of them turned around and shouted at the same time: "Don't come over!" I was shocked for a moment.
Stay, stay where you are.
In the blink of an eye, the two of them were already out of the door. When they realized what they were doing and ran out, they were nowhere to be seen outside the door. They were very anxious. The two of them had a fight last time when they met. The situation just now clearly indicated that there was a tendency to fight again.
, but where did they go? With a thought in my mind, I walked toward the bathroom, and sure enough I heard some movement nearby. I gently pushed open a gap, and saw Xu Ziyang pointing at Xu Jie's nose and saying bitterly: "Xu Zijie,
You know better than anyone else, that's because you told me she was dead! If I had known..."
"What would I have known? If I had known that she was not dead, what would you have done? Repent? Beg for forgiveness? Xu Ziyang, don't forget that it was you who pushed her to doom with your own hands. Did you know that I was holding her cold body in my arms?
, when the floor was covered with blood, I felt so regretful, regretful that I should not have been your accomplice, regretful that I should not have brought her to your ward, regretful that made my heart ache."
"Does it hurt me? Ah?" Xu Ziyang roared, his face distorted, "What are you showing me? It's her grave! When I hugged the cold tombstone, I realized that there is a kind of pain scream in this world:
There is no way to repent. Zijie, I treat you as a brother, and you are just trying to trick me like this?!"
"Brother?" Xu Jie leaned against the wall, his face full of sarcasm, his eyes inexplicably sad, "I have endured and paid too much for these two words. Do you know why I named her Xu Ruo? And why did I only dare to
Do I approach her as her eldest brother? Because in the six months after the car accident, she remained motionless whenever she woke up, her expression was dull, and her eyes were ashen. As soon as I came near, she would tremble and beg in a low voice:
Xu Ziyang, Xu Zijie, please let me go.
She put you and me in the same country, which made her deeply afraid. Maybe it was because of the influence of the poison that caused her to have intermittent amnesia, but every time she woke up, she was back to the time before the car accident.
She hugged herself and rolled on the bed, as if the pain was tormenting her again. The doctor said it was a memory reorganization and an illusion caused by the damage being too profound.
It wasn't until half a year later that she lost her memory again, and then forgot everything about the past, including her own name. At that time, I didn't know if she would remember the past, but I didn't have the courage to tell her my name and named her Xu.
Ruo, give her a new identity and retreat to the position of brother. The word "Ruo" in Xu Ruo is half of the promise. The only thing I failed to do when I promised her was that I only promised her in the name of the rest of my life to protect her in this life.
Be considerate and keep her safe."
So this is how Xu Ruo's name came from, I thought dully. I quietly looked at Xu Ziyang's position, and saw that his expression was miserable. What was gathering in his eyes was not a storm, but inexplicable pain.
After a long time, I heard Xu Jie, no, it was Xu Zijie who said: "Zi Yang, I can be so forbearing for her, can you? Why don't you give her some peace, let her find an ordinary person to get married and have children, and wish her happiness
?If you still can't bear with her, let her go free."
But I heard Xu Ziyang say hoarsely: "I can't do it. When I stood in front of the grave and felt that my heart was being torn apart, I couldn't forget her; when I heard from Haozi that there was a person in Wu City who looked similar to her.
, I couldn’t calm down; when I met her by chance at school, I could never take back the steps toward her. If it weren’t for the happiness I gave her, I would never let go in this life, nor would I wish her well.
Zijie, this is the difference between you and me, don’t stop me, otherwise I will really turn my back on you."
The door was opened in front of my shocked eyes. I didn't even have a chance to dodge, so I was exposed to their sight. Then I saw shock in the two pairs of black eyes one after the other. Xu Ziyang looked up
He took a step forward and grabbed my arm, asking urgently: "When did you come here?" The strength on his fingertips was a bit heavy and it hurt slightly.
I really wanted to lie and say that I had just arrived, but my stupid expression could not be concealed from those two pairs of sharp eyes. I could only smile and replied nonchalantly: "Oh, it turns out I am Yu Qian."
As soon as the words came out, the two people's expressions suddenly became panicked again, "Ruoruo, I..." Xu Zijie whispered there, but the last words were stuck in his throat, and his expressions were extremely painful. I turned my head and looked
He looked at Xu Ziyang and asked in a low voice: "Can I talk to him?"
After Xu Ziyang walked away, I gestured to the man inside and said, "Uh, let's change the place. It's really indecent to talk here." Indeed, at the door of the men's room, he was inside and I was outside. No matter how I looked at it, it looked a bit indecent.
Later, I chose to walk to the window at the end of the corridor. I turned around and looked at the figure leaning against the door of the ward. He was also looking over here.
Suddenly an idiom came out: The tiger stares with eager eyes. The way Xu Ziyang looked at this moment gave me this feeling. He was like a tiger protecting its cubs. I was the cub in his arms. As soon as I walked away, he would
The tiger is watching eagerly, ready to pounce at any time.
I couldn't help but laugh, and when I turned my head, I met Xu Zijie's eyes. I said deliberately and carelessly as usual: "Xu Ruo is a good name, I like it very much." The smile on the corners of his lips showed in his eyes.
I became stiff in pain. I thought for a moment and said, "Xu Jie, don't be like this. It's nothing. I won't blame you."
"That's when you forget the past. If you remember..."
"Then don't tell me. If that past was really that painful, just forget it. Wouldn't it be just as good for me to be Xu Ruo now?"
He was stunned, maybe he didn't expect my attitude after hearing some truths. He stretched out his hand and grabbed the corner of his clothes, which he often did before, "You said you wanted to protect my safety and security for the rest of my life, this
Is the promise still valid?"
"It's valid!" He became excited and held my hand tightly, "It's valid forever! There is also a promise, as long as you want it, as long as I have it. Ruoruo, my promise to you will be valid for life."
I laughed and raised my neck slightly, "What you said will be valid for life! Even if you find your sister-in-law in the future, you can't default on it." Looking at those originally excited eyes, flashing through the painful eyes, my heart
There is dull pain.
In one sentence, he was placed outside a certain boundary. This was the purpose of my conversation with him.
From the words I overheard just now, I can feel that his love for me is more than just brother and sister. Whether it is guilt or regret, he has deep love for me. After I set the boundaries in my heart, I know that I can't do anything to him.
Repayment, especially feelings, cannot be forced. Then kill him as soon as possible. It may be cruel to him, but it is better than letting him waste his life for me.
The commitment is too heavy, whether it is the former or the latter.
The sunken back walked away, lonely, Xiao Ran... Suddenly I found that Xu Jie was very thin, especially this time. He was in the wind and fire, sitting in the distance and busy until today, but he came to me, but
Because of those things, I left silently. There was soreness in my nose, and the corners of my eyes were dry and painful.
Xu Ziyang walked over slowly, stood one meter away and stared at me. After a long time, he asked: "Is it my turn? Qianqian."
I glared at him, "What are you talking about? It's your turn?" He was shocked and asked back: "Weren't you just trying Zijie?" This time I wanted to roll my eyes, "Who are you?
Did you see that I was judging him? I just asked him about his situation these days. What are you making blind suspicions about?"
He seemed to be unable to keep up with my rhythm. For the first time, he saw a dull look on this man's face, and asked slowly: "But didn't you hear us talking? You are...Yu Qian."
"
"So what?" I asked funnyly.
Someone was stunned again, panicked and confused about my attitude. He smiled and gave an explanation: "It's better if it's Yu Qian, so I don't have to worry about whether you called another woman's name when you came to save me from the flood.
I was uneasy and thought that you treated me differently because we looked alike. As for the painful past, I have forgotten it. You said that there is a kind of pain that means there is no way to repent, and now I can give you a chance to repent. Xu Ziyang
, bribe me, please me, and confess to me."
As soon as I finished speaking, I was pulled into his arms and my nose hit his sternum, which hurt! I was annoyed that this man was so barbaric and didn’t know how to control himself. He put his chin on top of my head and was speechless.
My voice whispered: "Qianqian..." My heart moved slightly, and I wanted to raise my head from his arms, but he pressed my head tightly and wouldn't let me move.
What did the choking in the voice mean? When my scalp felt wet, I understood the meaning of the choking. Just like that day when I stood with him in front of the tomb, I felt so sad...
