I don’t know what kind of life I lived like a walking zombie after that. During the day, I could control and measure all affairs with a clear head. I used means when I needed to, cruel and clean. Even the most trivial things, I could arrange them properly and in an orderly manner.
I control the overall situation and arrange people to find a cure for the blood disorder. But when I lie down at night, I feel an inexplicable emptiness from body to heart, and I recall the past with Yu Qian over and over again, as if forced to remember.
From legend to reality, from life to death...
Just using this self-abuse method, Ling Chi tortured his nerves and thinking, and then his heart.
After a year and a half of ups and downs, Qingwei's bloodemia was not eradicated, but it was relieved. The medical team officially researched a new drug, and her cousin also came over. The news she brought was that there is only one person in the world.
This blood can be cured, but the person is missing or may be dead. This is undoubtedly bad news!
The disease of blood disease was dragged on like this. Qing Wei's constitution was already extremely weak. Although this severe injury saved her life, as long as the blood disease is not eradicated, she will not be able to avoid the final tragic fate. Moreover,
For some unknown reason, her legs became crippled even though no symptoms were found.
After this incident, I no longer had any thoughts about her except for responsibility. I could not ignore her at this time. I arranged her in a specialized medical institution to provide the best environment and let the medical team continue to study. And
She hired a private detective to find the only person her cousin said could cure blood poisoning.
It was a dinner party that day, and several of us who usually gathered together gathered together, and somehow the conversation ended up talking about women. Haozi suddenly interrupted and said that he saw a woman who looked very similar to Yu Qian in Wu City.
Suddenly the atmosphere on the field became cold, and everyone looked at me. Even I didn't notice it. When Yu Qian's name appeared in their mouths, my face sank.
Everything about her has become an indelible sorrow for me.
A few days later, while listening to the meeting report in my work unit, I suddenly heard that an education plan was going to be launched in Wu City. My heart moved and I asked my subordinates to send the plan to my office. Maybe it was some mistake, but I heard Haozi say that Wu City
When there was a woman who looked like her, it touched my innermost feelings and I took over the plan.
But I never thought that on the first day I set foot in Wu City, I would meet her on campus. I was so embarrassed at that time that I couldn't believe my eyes. They were not similar faces, but exactly the same, except for
The hair style and the person made her look thin. She said her name was Xu Ruo. From those eyes, I couldn't see any resentment or hesitation. They just looked at me with such clarity and confusion.
Strange...she looked at me as if she were a stranger.
I almost immediately had her file checked. It was a complete file, and every record proved that she was not Yu Qian, but a woman named Xu Ruo. But even if they are similar,
It can't be exactly the same.
I couldn't stop myself from getting closer to her. Looking at her lively expression and bright smile, I even doubted myself. If it was Yu Qian, it would be impossible for her to remain calm after experiencing the pain. The investigation is still continuing, and some
The truth slowly emerged. Her abnormality and her hidden hospitalization history were all telling me something.
I could no longer calm down, and the most direct way to find the truth was to explore the scars on her body. So regardless of the despicable means, I had someone give her a tranquillizer in the milk tea and let her sleep. When the doctor opened her clothes, revealing
The scars on her belly and back, the marks on the back of her head, and a full body examination showed that she was Yu Qian.
Before contacting her, I checked her hospitalization history and found out the reason why she became Xu Ruo. It was Zijie who arranged all of this! He arranged a dead end for me, making me believe that it was a fact because of Qing Wei's symptoms. In fact, it was
He hid her secretly, and she probably lost her memory in the car accident, so she was as calm as a stranger when facing me.
In order to prove my guess, I found the mobile phone in her pocket and looked through her address book. None of the names on it were familiar. But one of them was "brother", which meant her brother's number, which was not Zijie's.
, but when I first looked up Xu Jianguo, I had doubts. Why did he also have the surname Xu and be a soldier? After dialing, no one answered the call after ringing for a long time.
I dialed every contact number in her mobile phone again until the number marked "Niuniu" was connected. A familiar voice came through. I just flipped my mind and recognized that this person was Xie Ya. Ha, Xie Ya.
!Her best friend. The truth is revealed and there is no longer any doubt.
I forcibly took her to the cemetery and took her under the tombstone. I can’t tell what my mentality was. I just wanted to see how she would react when she saw this “own” tombstone. I didn’t miss every expression of hers.
, and there was only sympathy in her expression besides shock. She had really forgotten that she was Yu Qian. Only then did I realize that subconsciously I didn’t believe that she would lose her memory, but now I couldn’t help but believe it.
Then I thought about it, it doesn't matter if I lose my memory. If I lose my memory, I won't have the pain. If I lose my memory... I won't hate me anymore.
In this world, there is a kind of happiness called - lost and found. I hugged her tightly and thanked God so much that I was not really lost. She is still here, so everything is fine. This time, starting all over again, I will not let go.
, and he was careful to win her heart back bit by bit.
Her rejection of me was naturally obvious. When I saw her on the list of supporting teachers, I felt strange in my heart, and then I made a decision. The gap in identity is now her biggest resistance to me, so it is so heart-breaking.
Shortening the gap is the first priority. I asked my superiors without hesitation to be transferred to the countryside for practice. When my father found out, he stopped me, saying that the current situation was unstable and it was not appropriate to leave at this time. I convinced him with high-sounding reasons.
Only I know that those reasons are not true. The real reason is that I want to be with her.
It was a very peaceful time, and I could feel her heart getting closer to me. But I didn’t expect that the peace would be broken by a natural disaster storm. When disaster strikes, as a leader, I cannot stay out of it. Every decision affects hundreds of people.
I stood at the forefront and commanded the lives of people or even thousands of people. I could face the strong winds and waves with ease. However, when I heard that she was missing on the hillside, I was so frightened that I fell to the ground.
When we quickly climbed up, we ran towards the hillside. Zijie came here as the leader of the rescue team. We hadn't seen each other for many days. There was originally going to be a confrontation when we met again, but we had no time for anything else at this time. The top of the mountain was too wide, so we couldn't even see him for a while.
The search failed, so I thought about it and called someone to prepare the boat and look for people from the other side of the torrent. Some people advised me that it was too dangerous. The boat could be overturned by strong winds at any time and might be submerged by floods.
Is it dangerous? What other situation is more dangerous when I see her holding a protruding stone, her whole body immersed in the flood, and there is a possibility of being swept away by the waves at any time? With trembling hands, she
When I picked him up, his pale face, purple lips from the cold, and the cold dampness all over his body made my heart hurt as if being stabbed by a sharp knife.
Back on the shore, Zijie came towards us, and I saw his eyes fixed on the person in my arms. Suddenly the anger that had been suppressed in my heart for a long time burst out, and I asked someone to take her to the doctor until she was gone.
As soon as he was in sight, I got into a fight with Zijie. It was a real fight. I grew up with him, and we have only fought a handful of times, especially as adults.
But for her sake, we punched her for more than just the first time. We punched each other, deliberately avoiding our faces, not wanting her to worry when she saw our serious injuries. People around us didn’t dare to come up to persuade them, and they all retreated in horror.
A few feet away, he beat us until both of us were lying on the ground, covered in mud and miserable.
I looked up at the sky and scolded: "Xu Zijie, you are so cruel!"
He only said: "To each other!"
Yes, he drew a knot between each other, but in fact, the real knot was drawn by myself. There was no questioning, no quarrel, I knew that everything was my fault, and even if he didn't say it, I also understood that Yu
Qian's situation must be very bad. He saved her and gave her a new life. Who am I to blame him?
Taking advantage of my position, I took her back to the provincial capital and arranged for the best doctor to treat her leg disease. Knowing that her leg disease was a leftover symptom after the car accident, I felt even more distressed. The subsequent development can be taken care of naturally.
To describe it, especially after she heard the quarrel between me and Zijie and found out that she was Yu Qian, she approached me with a smile, and I was fascinated.
Because we have lost, we can understand how happy we are and how we can cherish it. Everything has returned to our original cohabitation life, and she has undergone some qualitative changes. She is cute, charming, and has a little temper. She almost dominates everything I do.
Emotions. When I saw my mother and Qing Wei at the door of the tea shop, I felt a surge of anger in my heart. After returning home, she conquered me with the softest knife, but I began to feel uneasy.
Yu Qian, who looks like this, is as calm and composed as me. She seems to be contaminated by my aura, which is a bit hard for me to see through. But I know in my heart that it’s time to settle things with Qing Wei. I used to think that Yu Qian was gone, so I treated her
I fulfilled my final responsibility, but I couldn't delay it any longer at the moment. I had a detailed talk with Qing Wei and asked her if she had any idea of going abroad to study or work. I fully supported it.
The meaning was obvious, I wanted to draw a line with her. Within two days, Qing Wei came to see me. It turned out that she had gone to see Yu Qian. She kept saying that Yu Qian insulted her, and she swore that Yu Qian was
The memory has been restored.
I was already hesitant, but when she said that, the flames started to surge up. I didn’t know that my doubts would be met with a huge backlash from Yu Qian. Her words were nothing more than words that made my heart tremble when I heard it. The panic of loss
, spread throughout the heart and even the blood, and even after I begged her to forgive and reconcile with her, it could not be eliminated.
I can't go on like this. I have to control all this. The best way is to completely make her mine and give her my last name. I can overcome all external forces, including my mother's side, from lobbying to persuasion.
, and finally she nodded. Then she arranged the affairs alone and carefully planned the proposal, including what kind of wedding to hold later, all in the planning of my computer files.
But where would I have thought that I would answer the sentence: everything becomes empty.
Qianqian, you hate me after all, that’s why you ask me over and over again if I love you, and then give me the cruelest blow when I put my heart and soul into it. It’s really more painful than killing me. You said I can’t feel it
I can feel the pain I suffered in Tongsheng, it is bone-breaking and fatal!
The cold liquid slid across my face and into my mouth, it was bitter and astringent.
Fingering my phone, I dialed Zijie's number and said, "She's gone." At this time, other than talking to him, I didn't know how to resolve this heart-wrenching pain. There was a long silence before the voice came from the other side: "Zi Yang, you
Does it hurt?"
"Did you know she didn't have amnesia?" I asked softly.
"No, I don't know. She disguised herself so well that she deceived everyone. It can also be said that she was not pretending, but really wanted to forget the past, but you happened to show up again and dug her out.
The cancer in my heart. That day in the hospital, when she smiled and talked me away, I could see it. Either she had recovered her memory, or she had never lost her memory. If it was the former, then she must also hate me. If
If it's the latter, then how much pain did she endure to be safe?"
It was so painful that it hurt my heart. Zijie was right. She had never lost her memory. How much pain did she have to bear to accept my approach and possession?
"So, Ziyang, don't blame me for not reminding you. Because you owe her that, whether it's revenge or hurt, you deserve it. Especially, if you don't hurt once, how can you change the pain in her heart?"
poison?"
The phone has been hung up for a long time, and I kept holding the phone against my ear. The monotonous "beep" sound stimulated my eardrums. My heart stayed there, yes, Zijie was right.
, from the day the poison was implanted in her body, poison was planted in her heart, and when the truth was later revealed, the poison spread into her blood.
If she and I just disappeared, the poison would slowly fade away, and eventually she would forget about me and the poison would be released. But I happened to bump into her life again, reviving the poison, thus opening up a relationship between her and me.
catastrophe.
But, Qianqian, how do you want me to let go of you like this? You are already poison in my heart.
