Since this is his choice, let's all suffer together. I won't be able to get peace, and he won't be able to feel well either.
I saw the man two feet away, his blood fading away bit by bit, his handsome face all twisted together, he asked in a trembling voice: "Qianqian, are you telling the truth? Really...
..have a child?”
Fake, but I won't tell you.
I originally wanted to leave it at that and leave it as a thought. When I recall it many years later, I may have already felt relieved. At that time, I will think about how deeply I loved someone when I was young and in my youth. These are all
I was thinking about it when I was sitting on the train to Tibet. I listened to that beautiful song "I Used to Love You" over and over again, and I felt that many of the lyrics touched my heart.
If love can be forgotten instantly, why should I love you so much? The cold air penetrates my body and freezes my heart...
Yes, if people really lose their memory so easily, why go to the trouble of falling in love? As the saying goes: If a cup of love-forgetting water can change a life without sadness, I will still be reluctant to let it go, reluctant to forget everything about him
.So after the nightmare, I will remember the past deeply over and over again, just because I can't bear to forget.
In the last letter, what I left him were the words on the screen, hidden were the tears dripping on the keyboard, and the last cool farewell kiss that fell on his forehead.
Xu Zijie was right, I love this man so much that my whole body hurts. I just wanted to go far away to resolve this deep-rooted love and hate, and then forget about those hurts, and only the memory of him was left in my mind.
He was kind to me, and then one day he leaned on the recliner and smiled as he recalled this period of only beautiful feelings.
But God doesn't follow people's wishes. God will take away even those little thoughts. He just wants to see how we fight and how we survive in this world. Well, who can be stronger than fate? If I
I am bound to fall into hell, so I might as well let a man named Xu Ziyang fall with me.
So, I nodded coldly and firmly: "That child was killed by you, Xu Ziyang, and he was only so small." I gestured casually, with a sad look in my eyes.
The man who had always been calm and composed, his face unchanged despite the collapse of the mountain, was shaking violently, and his tears were flowing like an uncontrollable river. This was the first time I really saw him cry. In the previous two times, even if he was excited, he could not help but cry.
I pressed my head tightly and identified it through my senses and sounds. But in front of him, he tightly covered his eyes with his hands, and the water stains ran away from his fingers. Later, he curled up and sat on the ground, covering his face.
Buried in the knees.
"Qianqian, what have I done to you?" His voice was choked with sobs.
Shaking shoulders and painful sobs scratched my heart, and I felt that the hole in my heart was expanding infinitely. I looked up at the sky, it was clear and I could see clearly. I actually had no tears, just dry eyes.
pain.
Why? Shouldn't I laugh? I finally infected half of the poison in my body to him, making him feel heartbroken and sad. What is it like to die? Why can't I laugh?
I turned around in a daze, and as soon as I took a step, my hand tightened and he held it. His hand was wet. When I realized that those were his tears, I immediately felt my hand burning and tried to pull it away.
, but he held it tightly. There were still tears on his raised face, and his eyes were particularly clear after being washed by tears. He said, "Qianqian, I'm sorry."
Ha, I really want to look up to the sky and smile. Mr. Xu, who is so high above me, is crawling at my feet, humbly apologizing to me and saying sorry. Should I applaud? However, the word "sorry" is too light. Not everyone will do it after making a mistake.
Everyone has the opportunity to say sorry. If I were really pregnant at that time, if my life ended, who would he say sorry to?
Hardly, word by word came out from between the teeth, "Xu Ziyang, I will never forgive you."
Sadness and despair emerged from his eyes, and then turned into darkness.
I followed his example and broke it off one finger at a time. Everything he had given me, I would give back in full. When the last finger was thrown away, I turned around and left, but he grabbed me from behind.
Hold tight.
Silence was flowing, he didn't speak, there was only heavy breathing. I numbly let him hold me, thinking that this embrace was once the sweet harbor that I was most attached to, and even after being heartbroken, I couldn't help but lean on it, but
Now, the despair that filled his body was transmitted to me through his shoulders and back, filled with despair and sadness.
I asked softly: "Are you trying to force me to death?"
After he finished speaking, he could feel the muscles behind him stiffening inch by inch, and the tight shackles loosening little by little. Finally, his hand slipped down. He sighed softly: We finally forced each other to have no way out.
My hands were a little sticky from his tears just now, so I wiped them on my pants casually, and walked away. However, I found that I had gone in the wrong direction, and actually went towards the celestial burial platform. I turned around again and found that he
A few meters behind me, he saw me suddenly turning around, his expression flashed with shock, and then he lowered his eyes, not daring to look at me.
She snorted softly and passed by him, but carefully avoided physical contact. Even so, you could still see his slightly trembling shoulders. Without paying any extra attention, she stepped forward past him. She had already walked forward.
Knowing that he would not let go, even if I used a sharp knife to dig out his heart, we returned to the hotel in tandem.
Xu Zijie was waiting in the hall, looking anxious. As soon as he saw us entering, he walked forward and said in a low voice: "Ruoruo, you go upstairs to pack your luggage first, and we will leave immediately." I stood still and said, "I
I won’t walk.” Even if we do, it will be a different journey than them. Originally, the next stop was to go to Dunhuang and see the vast and boundless desert.
"Ruoruo! Don't hold back!" He scolded in a solemn voice.
Someone's hoarse voice came from behind: "Zijie, you go back first. The military department may have major adjustments, and you can't stay too long." He walked to the side, looked at me, and said, "I'll stay.
it's here."
My heart trembled. Is he going to stay?
"Zi Yang, do you know what you are doing? Are you going crazy with her at this time? If the whole city is closed, you won't be able to leave even if you want to." Although he deliberately lowered his voice, his tone was still urgent and worried.
I finally raised my eyes and looked at the man beside me, and asked sharply: "Why are you staying here? Are you reminding me over and over again that there was a life that you killed alive?" Extreme pain flashed through his eyes again,
But it just flashed by and then faded away. He whispered: "Qianqian, you don't need to provoke me. I won't leave even if you don't leave."
He turned around and walked up the stairs, full of anger. Damn his provoking method. Only ghosts use provoking methods. It has nothing to do with him whether he leaves or stays. He opened the door and entered the room. He closed it with a bang and his body tensed.
Suddenly, I leaned against the door and slid down slowly, sitting on the ground. I put my hand on my heart, which was shaking violently. Even I couldn't deny that he hit my mind.
I became more and more conflicted. On the one hand, I wanted to stay away from him and forget him. On the other hand, I saw him chasing after me, which aroused the hatred in my heart. I just wanted to drag him to hell with me, but when I turned around, I didn’t want him to be detained because of
This puts you at risk.
It turns out that what I am struggling with is not life, but the human heart. Everything is just in response to the sentence - I am trapped in a cocoon. As long as he, Xu Ziyang, appears in front of me, I will no longer be able to calm down.
I don’t know how much time passed, but there was a knock on the door above me, but I ignored it. Xu Ziyang’s voice came from outside the door: “Qianqian, you haven’t eaten for a day, come out and have something to eat.” I smiled coldly and continued to sit.
Dazed on the ground.
After waiting for a while, he said again: "Zijie is leaving first. He will make arrangements after he returns. In fact, it is not that serious. It is just an order from the superior to nip problems in the bud. If you don't want to leave, I will stay."
I’ll stay with you here, and we’ll leave when you want to leave.”
He frowned and continued to remain silent. After a while, he heard footsteps fading away. He couldn't tell whether it was disappointment or something, but he felt empty. After being alone for a while, he put his hands on the ground and prepared to get up. He was indeed hungry.
, I haven’t had a drop of water since I left home today. But I didn’t expect that my feet became numb due to sitting still for a long time. After the stinging pain like ants passed, I finally stood firm. When I opened the door, I was slightly stunned.
Unexpectedly, he was sitting at my door with his back to me.
Hearing the sound of the door opening, he turned to look back at me, surprise flashed in his eyes, and then returned to sadness after seeing my cold expression. I passed him and walked downstairs. There was a restaurant next to the hotel, which served ethnic cuisine and was very good. As soon as I sat down,
Someone actually sat across from me. I stared at him coldly. He bit his lip and left the table, sitting at the next table instead.
After filling my stomach quickly, I walked out of the hotel and walked on the dim roadside, walking on the top of my heart. I couldn't help but prick my ears to listen to the footsteps behind me and judge the distance between him and me. I thought I was crazy.
A sharp scream pierced the tranquil sky. He heard the sound and looked up reflexively. Because it was too dark to see clearly, he could only vaguely see a figure running towards us in the distance. Almost at the same time,
The man who had been following me stepped forward, took my hand and shouted: "Run!"
My body gave the command first and ran after him. My eyes couldn't help but fall on the side of his face. The wind blowing against my face blew his black hair away. If it weren't for the messy footsteps behind me getting closer and closer, I would have felt as if
Back to the past. When I finally ran back to the hotel door, I just breathed a sigh of relief, but he dragged me not to enter the door, but continued to run forward and buried himself in the darkness.
My heart was moved and I couldn't help but turn around. Sure enough, the group of people rushed into the hotel, and then a burst of frightened screams came from inside. Cold sweat dripped from my forehead. Fortunately, he was wise and didn't drag me back to the hotel.
That group of people seemed to have a target, and they were targeting foreign tourists. I couldn't help but think that if we hadn't gone out, then at this moment... my heart trembled, and I suddenly felt a sense of fear.
