Finally, I remembered what the nightmare was that night when we were running. We were originally holding hands and running wantonly in the dark night, but suddenly an external force came from nowhere and split our hands open like an electric shock. When we looked up, we saw a pair of indifferent eyes.
Then one of them turned to the left and the other to the right, getting further and further away. When I looked back, I saw endless darkness.
Some people say that dreams occur at night when you think about it day by day, but I actually thought that the dream was a foreshadowing, just like the nightmare I had before that incident happened. Xu Zijie pointed at my nose and laughed at me, while he stood there
Looking at me coldly from the side, isn’t this the portrayal of me in the ward that day?
From nothing to something, from something to nothing, it is just a dream.
He nodded lightly to Xu Zijie. After a good sleep, and having been breathing oxygen, the chest tightness and other symptoms were gone, and he felt much more comfortable. Looking out the window, he had actually driven into the city, so the traffic should be smooth, right?
.
About half an hour later, the car arrived at the airport. After getting off the car, I stood by the car and watched Xu Zijie help him out of the car and into a wheelchair, and then pushed him towards the airport. During this period, he made a phone call, roughly
Tell someone to park the car at the airport and have someone come and pick it up. Judging from the situation, this military vehicle must have been temporarily requisitioned, and this may be the airport closest to where our accident occurred.
When Xu Zijie asked me for my ID to check in, I raised my head and looked at him with silent eyes, "Just stop here."
"What?" He didn't understand what I meant.
I smiled lightly and said softly: "Let's part ways here." He suddenly opened his eyes wide and took a breath of cold air, "Ruoruo..." But his voice was blocked and it was difficult to say a word.
When he came out, his expression was filled with pain, as if someone had punched him hard in the face.
I wanted to raise my hand and pat his shoulder to say I was fine, but I knew he was regretting that it was him who brought the news about Gu Qingwei, which made me become a stranger to that person. But who could I blame him for? I didn’t want to be with him in the first place.
Together again, the trip to Tibetan areas was just forced by circumstances. After being together for so long, we will eventually return to our destiny.
"Zijie, thank you for your care and companionship for more than a year. Let's see each other less often in the future. You actually said something wrong. It's not him who can give me happiness, but ordinary people." There were crisp bones next to my ears.
There was a sound, the sound made after clenching the fist no longer. I didn't even give the man in the wheelchair a peripheral vision, but I could feel the changes in his emotions.
In fact, after going through so much, he has been able to think more carefully. It would be a lie to say that he has no feelings for me at all. Otherwise, he would not have traveled to the countryside and come to this Tibetan area for me. But these feelings are not worth a word.
Gu Qing was seriously ill.
"Then where do you plan to go? Ruoruo, this place has not left the Tibetan area. You can't stay here anymore. If I don't see you leaving safely, I won't agree."
I frowned and looked up at the flights on the screen above. "I'll go to the service desk and ask." After saying that, I walked towards the service desk over there. I didn't have a place in mind, but suddenly something came to my mind.
I had an idea. After asking, I found out that there was actually a flight to that city. There was only one flight every day, which happened to be two hours later.
When I turned around with the ticket in hand, I saw Xu Zijie lowering his head and talking to that person. I thought about it and walked over. They looked up at me at the same time and stopped talking. Their eyes were fixed on Xu Zijie's face, and they looked at me.
He handed over the ticket and said, "Here, look, I've already bought it. I'm going back to City Y."
City Y is the superior city of the small town in my hometown. After wandering for so long, it’s time to go home. In the six months after the car accident, my memory was chaotic. I was in panic and didn’t know how to live every day. Later I woke up and died due to leg injuries.
Entering a long period of rehabilitation. How could I want my mother to see me like that? Plus, I pretended to have lost my memory, so I gave up my intention to contact my mother.
Until I saw my own tombstone in the cemetery, I was shocked and shocked at that moment. When I came back to my senses, I immediately thought of my mother. If Zijie did it so thoroughly, then she must have hidden it.
I dare not think about how my mother spent those years. Even though I stayed away from her due to various reasons such as study and work as an adult, her love for me never changed.
I rushed back to my hometown almost non-stop, but stopped in front of the village. I secretly hid in the corner to watch her staggering figure, her bent shoulders and back, and finally saw my stepfather walking out of the store, and the two of them smiled peacefully.
We closed the shop together and walked home, feeling very calm and peaceful.
At that time, I thought, since the sadness has passed, let’s not break this hard-won peace. So I walked through the door without entering, turned around and left. But after experiencing the catastrophe of life and death in Tibet, I suddenly felt that the most solid thing in the world is actually
It’s still family ties and blood ties that you can never let go of no matter where you go.
I miss home, I miss her, the woman who is called my mother.
Xu Zijie looked at the ticket carefully and handed it back to me, along with two keys. I raised my eyebrows and looked at him in confusion.
"This is the key to the house in Wu City and... the provincial capital. Although you sent a resignation email before leaving, the principal did not give any instructions and only made arrangements for you to take a long vacation."
As soon as I opened my mouth to speak, he blocked me, "Ruoruo, don't refuse in a hurry. Regardless of whether you accept it or not, I hope you will consider it carefully. The teaching profession was your choice at the beginning and it was also what you liked. Go back
I will return to the army later, and I and...we will not bother you again in the future, please accept it, okay?"
I had nothing to say anymore, and the cool key was thrust into my hand. The gears clicked in my palm, dull, and when I tightened my grip, it stung slightly. I walked towards the security checkpoint, and the footsteps behind me followed closely.
The sound of a roulette wheel turning.
When I entered the border, I turned around and raised a smile, "That's it, goodbye."
Xu Zijie came closer, his eyes were fixed, and he said: "Ruoruo, can you let me hug you again?" I nodded lightly, and he pulled me into his arms. The fresh breath surrounded me, and the arms were very warm.
, very peaceful. When he let go, he said: "Take care!"
The nose is slightly sour. In fact, everyone knows in their hearts that this separation is no better than when I left alone before. We really want to let go and let go of each other. And my meaning is very clear. I don’t want to have contact with any of them again.
So we say goodbye, but in fact we will never see you again.
I have always understood one thing. They and I are on parallel lines that do not intersect. The difference between civilians and high-ranking officials means that we are in different environments. If they had not crossed into my life, then I might have been in trouble all my life.
We have intersections with them. So if we say goodbye, we are really gone.
When I entered the checkpoint, the security inspection machine scanned my whole body. When I turned my back, my eyes finally came into contact with the man in the wheelchair. I had no time to dodge. This was the first time since I came out of the hospital that I really looked at him.
In the depth of the flow, it seems to be desolate and lonely, and the nostalgia is painful. It also seems to be my illusion, because when I look again, there is only sadness there. I sigh lightly on my lips. This man who crashed into my life can be said to be mine.
A catastrophe. I didn’t have the courage to wish him happiness. I only thought viciously that he would definitely not be happy after losing me, or he would not want to be happy.
But I know that he and Gu Qingwei will eventually get married.
Turning around, letting tears roll out of his eyes, Xu Ziyang, goodbye! I am finally out of your life.
Waiting calmly, boarding the plane calmly, and finally the plane took off and flew to an altitude of 30,000 feet. The music in my ears was very sad, but I was no longer sentimental. When people experience love, pain, repetition, and letting go, they will
I can fully understand.
A few hours later, the plane landed on the ground in City Y. I walked out of the airport, looked up at the thin sunlight, and raised my hand to hail a taxi to the station. From City Y to the lower-level town, it still takes an hour.
It was a little nostalgic, mainly because I was afraid of scaring my mother.
When that moment came, all the timidity and hesitation disappeared without a trace. I looked at the familiar figure in front of me, and my nose suddenly became sour. I whispered: "Mom." Almost instantly, the figure trembled, and then slowly
Turning around, his eyes narrowed and then widened in disbelief, and then his whole body was trembling.
"Xiao Qian?" It couldn't be lighter, as if confirming something.
I nodded and took a step forward, but my mother shook her body and walked a few steps closer, and then paused there. She could clearly see that the lines at the corners of her eyes were deep and long, and suddenly her eyes slipped.
Tears, she cried and said: "Xiao Qian, are you finally willing to come back to see mom? It's mom's fault, why are you left alone? Mom has never taken good care of you, and in the end you ended up dead in a foreign country.
..."
By the end of the story, she was crying bitterly, choked with sobs and unable to speak. She actually thought that my ghost came back to see her!
Only then did I realize how wrong my thinking was. I thought that after she and her stepfather went through the grieving period, she gradually forgot about the pain. But how could the pain of losing a daughter be eliminated? She would always live in grief. She couldn't bear it anymore.
Stop, step forward and hug her tightly, "Mom, I'm Xiao Qian, I'm not dead, if you touch it, it's hot, I'm alive."
My mother was stunned and looked at me blankly. When her hand tremblingly touched my face, she retracted it for just a second, and then tried again, touching my skin bit by bit, touching the skin under my skin.
Warmth. "Xiao Qian, you...really didn't...?" She didn't dare to say that word.
I nodded heavily, and then my mother screamed, hugged me and cried loudly, and I kept crying. The liquid was like a broken pearl. I regretted so much, how could I not come back to see her after I woke up? How could I not?
After knowing that Xu Zijie faked his own death and still refused to let him in, this woman is the mother who gave birth to me and raised me.
The two of us held each other's hands and cried without any image. The neighbors around us were shocked at first when they passed by. Later, someone came up to persuade me. Until my stepfather heard the sound and hurried over. When he saw me, he was stunned on the spot and couldn't speak for a long time.