42. Who is more scheming than anyone else for the blue sea and blue sky 986
We sat shoulder to shoulder in the corner of the courtyard of the old house. Xu Zijie said that Gu Qingwei came here by herself. I don’t know who informed her about the old man’s death. He arrived only a little earlier than me. No one paid attention to the mourning hall set up in the morning.
How did she get in?
I stared at him sideways and didn't say anything for a long time. He asked, "What are you looking at?"
"Why do you explain to him every time? If I were to leave with this misunderstanding, then..."
"Do I have a chance then?" He forced a smile and then said: "Ruoruo, it's really not me who is noble. In fact, during those days when I thought you had lost your memory, I didn't want to be your brother, but there was no way.
, you are so painful and sad, my heart is very painful, and it hurts with you. Just like just now, I saw the way you looked at her, and I knew you wanted to go away, and your sad and indifferent eyes were so deep.
It hurts my heart. Can I just let you go like this? I can't."
The slow voice, with a deep and painful quality, lingers in my ears. This man loves me. There is no doubt that he fulfills my love with tolerance. I have thought more than once, why don't I love him? He truly allows me.
The only person, even if he was hurt, he was not the direct planner. At best, he was an accomplice. It is not unforgivable. In fact, in the subsequent interactions with me, I have forgiven him.
However, I just don't love him. In the world of love, there is no reason, only love or not. He saw the emotion in my eyes, stretched out his hand and pulled me into his arms, sighing and saying: "Ruoruo, don't be sorry to me.
, you can't change the fact that you don't love me. I missed you from the beginning, so I can only do my best to fulfill your happiness."
So, where is your happiness? I asked softly in my heart.
Suddenly something occurred to him, and he raised his head and asked him, "Have you also been suppressed in the army?" Xu Ziyang said that the Xu family is a big tree, and if the tree falls, it will scatter them, and no one related to the Xu family will be spared.
I mentioned before that Xu Zijie's father has resigned from the C Municipal Council, but I don't know what hardships he has suffered.
He forced a smile and said, "It's okay, it's just a temporary transfer to the instructor's post."
A commander who once fought floods and rescued people was transferred to be an instructor? I can't imagine what a gap this is. Although I don't know much about the military positions in the army, I think he must have reached the level of division commander or above. It can be said that he has plummeted. There is nothing hidden behind the smile.
Sadness and loneliness.
"Zijie, go and give the old man a head before he is buried."
My body stiffened, I stepped away from Zijie's arms, and turned around slowly. Xu Ziyang stood at the door of the hall, his body leaning on the door frame. I don't know how long he had been standing there. His back was straight, and the tiredness and sorrow in his eyes were like
He was as heavy as thick ink, but his whole temperament was as determined and cold as ice. It seemed that... something had changed.
Yes, the look in his eyes, the way he looked at me! It was calm and unconcerned. It lacked the warmth he had when we were in the provincial capital. My heart sank. Could it be that he had misunderstood me and Zijie again? Then I thought about it, no, he was treating Zijie.
Maybe you mind, but the brotherhood between the two has never changed. This is a fact that I, being between them, cannot change.
The feeling he gives me now is that his whole person is devastated from the inside out. This is not just directed at me, but radiates from my bones.
Xu Zijie crossed me and walked to him, wanting to explain: "Zi Yang, Ruoruo and I..."
"Go and kowtow first, don't let the old man wait." After saying that, he turned around and walked in. The gray figure was cold and cold. Could the space that gradually moved away be the distance between my heart and his? Could it be that I was wrong?
, I shouldn’t dwell on the past and refuse when he asks me to accompany him.
Zijie patted my shoulder lightly and advised: "Don't be sad, he just...blamed himself for the old man's death, and his uncle is also seriously ill, and he is having a very hard time now. Speaking of which, it's also us.
These descendants are unfilial, and the old man has to bow his head to ask for help in his old age. He has been strong all his life." The indescribable vicissitudes and helplessness, in fact, he felt uncomfortable in his heart.
After he walked in, I leaned against the door and watched Xu Ziyang and Xu Zijie kneel down respectively, took a few hits, then got up and walked into the back room, presumably for burial. Looking at that black and white photo, Nian Hua
The passing of time only added wrinkles to that face, but did not eliminate the pride, and the eyes were bright and sharp.
I still remember the time when the two of them had an internal quarrel while they were doing a show, and later said that they were beaten by the old man. At that time, I was still joking in my mind that in this day and age, the family law is so strict. When I think about it again, I can appreciate the deep love between grandfather and grandson. I must have been the same at that time.
He hates the failure of iron to become steel, and does not want his children and grandchildren to engage in brotherly feuding.
After that day, he lay there, swallowing the bitterness of his life.
The dead are gone, and the living are in pain. Life, separation, and death are the forms of the world, and those who live in them feel the deep sorrow.
Many people came to pay homage to the old man. No matter how depressed he was before he passed away, or how many people treated him coldly, after his death, retired cadres from the older generation still came in large numbers. After Xu's father fell seriously ill, Xu Ziyang
As a direct grandson, he stood aside with his uncle to receive the people who came to worship. Among the crowd, there were many descendants of the Xu family, from outside and collateral lines, many of them, and they were chaotic.
His back was very strong, and he only bent slightly to salute when someone came to visit.
I stood in the crowd of visitors and looked at him silently. I was relieved that he would occasionally raise his eyes to look at me, as if he was afraid that I would leave. Suddenly I felt something strange on my waist. When I turned around, Gu Qing smiled slightly.
Standing impressively behind me, she pointed outside. I stared at her indifferently for two seconds, then turned my head and ignored her.
After a while, she suddenly came closer and said something. I turned around suddenly and saw her smiling quietly, then turned and walked out. After hesitating for a moment, I followed her. When I walked out of the old house, I paused for a moment, but still followed her.
Behind her, until she reaches a quiet and uninhabited place.
"Is what you said true?" I couldn't help but asked urgently.
But I saw her smiling strangely: "You guessed it." I immediately went berserk. I wanted to step forward and slap her in the face, and shouted angrily: "Gu Qingwei, now is not the time to joke. You said that Ziyang's grandfather did not die of illness.
Yes, what exactly is going on?"
What she whispered in my ear just now was: The old man did not die of illness. If you want to know, come with me.
But she turned around and said to him: "Yu Qian, you are really not worthy of him. When he was deeply involved in the political situation, you enjoyed the so-called freedom peacefully; when he was fighting for the fate of the family, you were under his protective wing and did not know the pain.
He is a baby bird, but when he is exhausted, you are unwilling to stay with him. How can you be worth it for him to give up me for you?"
I frowned deeply and asked impatiently: "Are you going to tell me or not?" If she meant to say this, then there is no need for me to waste my time here.
A weird smile spread across her face again, and she suddenly came up to me and asked, "Do you feel that Ziyang has changed?"
I was slightly startled, only to hear her say: "Do you think that the last time I came to you, I really wanted to make you and him happy? How is that possible? I have loved this man for so many years, starting from my best years, and then to the end.
Many years of ups and downs have almost consumed my life. Back in Legend, I silently hid in the distance and watched you and him depend on each other. Do you know how much pain I must endure to allow this to happen? The timing must be mastered every second.
Not bad, only then can it have a huge impact on him and make him feel pity and love for me.
In the game, I won. Returning to reality, fate tightly tied me to him, but you happened to appear. Before I knew you were Shui Yunxuan, I still felt guilty about you and felt relieved about him.
, but when I discovered this, I knew that I had fallen into another reincarnation war. In fact, I won this battle again. But I never thought that you would destroy his love for me with death, and he would live in this world.
I can never get out of my guilt for you.
When I learned that you were not dead but had lost your memory, I told myself that there was still a chance. As long as you were not dead, there was a chance to win back his heart. He was just lost, but his lost way moved me to send him away.
If I really wanted to marry you, I couldn't win him back even if I had an attack of blood and almost died. At this time, I knew that I had to put myself to death and live.
Let him see clearly the gap, the estrangement, and the scars that cannot be dissolved between you. Only by pushing you together can the cracks become bigger and bigger. Some things are buried in the bones and blood, deep-rooted, and cannot be eliminated at all. You two
The longer the two of them are together, the problems will become infinitely magnified. You must not know how much effort he spent to rescue his father from it, and you must not know how hard he lives every day and how many people he has to see.
His expression, not to mention the fact that he smiles at you every day, is almost suffocating.
These things are your abscesses. The less he dares to show you, the more you question him. So this time when he returns to City C, I have already guessed that you will not come back with him. And the old man’s death, then
There was a sore in his heart, when he was most vulnerable and sad, where were you? Oh, Yu Qian, I finally waited for this day, and you will become strangers. This time, he let you go, and then he
You will know that in this world, I am the only one who loves him the most, and I am the only one who understands him best."
After listening to what she said, I didn't know whether I should sigh or admire her. I had known that this woman was no less sophisticated than Xu Ziyang. When the scene in the ward that year was intermittently repeated in my memory, I analyzed the entire incident.
The motives behind the conspiracy and behind the scenes were not simple. But at that time, I had no extra thoughts and just felt that all my thoughts were lost.
Looking at it now, she not only plotted against me, but also plotted against Xu Ziyang. Back then, she had a plan to let Xu Ziyang see her most tragic scene to induce him to feel compassion. Later, she planned every step to cling to Xu Ziyang.
The desire for power to avenge her, whether it was Ding Lan or me, was just a stepping stone for her, and in the end all obstacles were cleared in that final battle.
If Xu Ziyang had taken the initiative to confess the whole thing to me at that time, would the outcome have changed? I never dared to ask myself this question, but now I can't help but ask it in my heart.
There is no answer, because there is no possibility of "if", the word "if" is just a dummy word.
