I have to admit that Gu Qingwei knows Xu Ziyang very well. She has a clear understanding of his habits, mentality and emotions. As she said, the problem between me and Xu Ziyang is because of his relationship with him after the hurt.
My Zhan Zhan was silent and I couldn't trust him, so even though we still loved each other, we were still walking on two different paths.
In fact, later on, I became increasingly unable to see through his thoughts. He would not confess to me the hardships he suffered outside, and he did not dare to show me his truly vulnerable side, even though he really wanted me to accompany him back home.
In City C, he only made one request and got my rejection and then gave up. This is not the same Xu Ziyang who robbed me.
Gu Qingwei's plan was really vicious. She didn't provoke or fight for it, and even superficially accepted Xu Ziyang's arrangements for her. Even I thought there might be a development between her and that doctor, but it turned out to be just the beginning of another scheming match.
But can we blame her? She just peeled off the cloak of reality and let me see the essence of love. I am not willing to accept it. Even if she is right, Xu Ziyang and I have a big problem, but the problem is with
To resolve, not to escape. The way Xu Ziyang looked at me just now clearly still showed attachment, unlike what she said about us reaching the end of the road.
She took a deep breath to prevent the panic in her heart from appearing on her face, "Gu Qingwei, you are just bluffing when you say so much. Do you think I will believe it? What happened between me and him, whether it is good or bad, even if I
I really can't really forgive him, and it's not your turn to judge. Moreover, even if I can't stand by his side, you can? Illegitimate daughter, her father was cheated, her mother suffered from depression, and she was terminally ill.
No matter which one it is, do you think you are worthy of him? Ha, the best of luck in the world!"
Suddenly, her originally proud face turned pale. Viciousness and ferocity flashed through her eyes, and then she inexplicably changed her tone to a sad tone: "Yu Qian, why do you say that to me? Yes, I am an illegitimate daughter.
My father is Shuanggui, my mother suffers from depression, and her body has incurable hematuria. I just want to resolve the hatred in your heart before I die, can't I do that?"
I was slightly startled. I didn’t know what she meant. Why did she suddenly look like this poor saint again? But I saw her turn her eyes away, fixate behind me, and smile miserably: “Zi Yang, I have no choice.
I know how to make her forgive you, it's all my fault." Tears fell straight down, with a sad and pitiful expression.
No matter how confused I am, I still know what happened. I turned around stiffly, and a few meters away, Xu Ziyang stood there with a cold expression, the curves of his eyes and brows were calm, and the dark color covered all the emotions in his eyes, unfamiliar.
Xiao Sha's aura was even stronger than when he saw it just now.
He said: "Qing Wei, you go back first." Gu Qing wiped her tears slightly, nodded obediently, and left without any hesitation. She couldn't help but cheer. This is her cleverness. She does not make any entanglements and always treats her with kindness.
The gesture of showing others stimulates the so-called male instinct to protect the weak.
And I finally understood that this was another situation Gu Qingwei had set up for me. She used the old man’s incident to lure me out, and deliberately analyzed the past events in front of me, arousing my unwillingness to confront, and then just right
Seizing Xu Ziyang's opportunity, she exposed my aggressive side and her tolerant and pitiful side in front of him.
She calculated this location and the direction we were facing extremely accurately. It was not far from the old house, and with the way Xu Ziyang would sometimes drift his eyes to look at me, he would definitely look for me when he found out that I was not there. She chose to face the old house.
The direction of the house was facing away from me, which made it impossible for me to know that Xu Ziyang was behind me.
She planned every step and calculated every step. She calculated my emotions and Xu Ziyang's reaction very accurately. In particular, the biggest sorrow in Xu Ziyang's heart was that I was still worried about the past and did not forgive him. She
It just makes this point bigger so that he can see it clearly.
I, Yu Qian, am willing to be the loser. I am really a big loser to her.
My eyes turned from the distant figure back to his face. After sending her away, the only ones left were him and me.
He asked: "Qianqian, why are you here?"
I lowered my head and thought about it, and found the most direct reason: "Because I received your call last night, and I..." I was worried that before you could say three words, he would interrupt you with a laugh, "
If I didn't call you, you wouldn't come over, would you?"
This question is easy to answer, but I can’t make up my mind. Indeed, if I don’t receive his call, I will be confused and worried, but I will not come back to City C. The problem itself is really not played by Gu Qingwei.
What scheming is, it comes from ourselves. He hid all the pain in his heart without telling me, and I kept the deep pain in my heart without telling him. Neither of us let go of our knots and trusted each other.
If we could be frank about it, the current situation would not have occurred, and all Gu Qingwei's efforts would have been in vain.
"Zi Yang, let's start from the beginning, okay?" After thinking through it, there is understanding, so I want to fight for it.
He smiled bitterly, stepped forward and held me in his arms, burying his head in my neck for a long time. I felt desperate. I only heard him say softly: "Qianqian, I'm so tired, really tired. I've never been tired."
I don’t know that loving someone can make you exhausted.”
The strings in my mind were broken, I could no longer think, my vision began to blur, and it took me a while to realize that the tears were gone. He let go of me, wiped my tears gently, and said in an extremely gentle voice: "Don't cry, Qian Qian
, I feel bad. I really want to give you happiness, but I find that you are so unhappy by my side. Even if I hold the whole world in your palm, you can't forget that year I brought you...
The pain I caused you has already been engraved with the words "never forgive" in your heart.
We obviously love each other, but we are walking the opposite path, like a sharp saw cutting the blood in our bodies. The longer the time goes by, the deeper the damage will be, and then you and I will become more and more tired.
Only then did I realize that I can't give you happiness because I hurt you too deeply, and my love is not enough to make you forget the past."
That's not the case, I shouted in my heart, wanting to refute him, but my lips were trembling and I couldn't speak, tears were pouring out, and it was like there was a misty fog in front of my eyes, and I could no longer see his face clearly.
"Later, when the old man's business is over, I will ask Cheng Lei to take you back." His voice was unfamiliar and hoarse, with a strong hint of exhaustion. Listening to it, one could vaguely distinguish the distance, desolation and emptiness.
The warmth disappeared and he turned around gracefully. I could only stare at his back as he walked away quickly, unable to hold back my tears. All the resentment and hatred could not resist the fact that he turned back to me twice. The first time he was afraid of the political situation being overturned.
He implicated me, and when we broke up, he was still reluctant even though he was determined. But this time, he was not determined, his expression was calm, and he didn't even say those words, but he really wanted to let me go.
The sunlight in the sky was extremely dazzling, and the world around me was no longer alive.
The words stuck in my throat were never uttered. By this time, I could no longer speak.
In fact, I have already tried to forgive you. I only need a little more time to guard you without any grudges, but you no longer want me...
There is a time when the tears stop, and there is a time when the heart stops shaking. I wiped away the tears, calmed down my heart, and walked towards the old house. Just as people were leaving the house one after another, the old man's coffin had been sent to the hearse. I could only see him.
The dark figure disappeared by the car door. Zijie glanced at me and fixed his gaze when he got in the car, but he didn't know who was urging him, so he had no choice but to suppress the worry in his eyes and follow the car.
I quietly got into a bus that was following behind. Most of the people sitting inside were distant relatives of the Xu family. I went all the way to the cremation ground, not among the crowd, and watched them send the old man off for his last journey. Later, I went there again.
I went to a cemetery in the suburbs. I had been to this place before and was brought there by force. My tombstone was still erected at a certain location.
I raised my head and squinted at the spectacular procession in front of me. I turned around and walked towards that place. Based on my vague memory, when I found the place, I found that the tombstone was no longer there and became an empty grave. Maybe he pushed it away later.
. Sitting on the spot, watching from a distance the dark crowd over there slowly dissipated, and finally only the close relatives of the Xu family remained.
In fact, outsiders cannot understand the sorrow, only those who are truly close to relatives can feel it. Everyone will say "sorrow and surrender", but when it falls on you, you realize how heavy those four words are.
Even though we are so far apart, it seems that we can still feel the pain in his body. Is this really a connection between our hearts? However, I can't go to his side anymore. That position may be vacant, or it may eventually fall to that woman.
His eyes turned slightly and he paused. The beautiful figure walking in the distance was very familiar. It suddenly overlapped with the image he saw two days ago in his mind. Is it her? It's her! I read it right, Ding Lan.
Her posture was as elegant as before, and her expression as she walked slowly carried a certain look of disdain. I straightened up and ran over there quickly. I had an intuition that she had bad intentions. It was almost unnecessary to think that she was interested in Xu Ziyang.
He must be filled with hatred to the core.
When I rushed there, the confrontation had already begun. I heard Ding Lan asking sarcastically: "Xu Ziyang, how does it feel to be left behind and lose your loved ones, okay?"
No one responded to her, just silent. Xu Ziyang didn't even look at her, but his eyes were fixed on the tombstone.
I felt a little strange. It seemed that he was not shocked by Ding Lan's sudden appearance. So there was only one possibility, that is, they had met before. What kind of occasion would that be? Obviously, Ding Lan was not shocked by her father's appearance.
She fell down due to the incident, and may even have turned around, otherwise she would not have appeared in the public eye with such a high profile.
