The project has been approved. Basically, after the project is completed, I can take over the provincial office. But what I want is not to succeed in this city, but in this province. I want to go back to that city, and stand up from where I fell.
rise.
During the meeting and discussion, my heart jumped inexplicably and I felt like I couldn't grasp it, but I was quickly brought into the agenda of the meeting and didn't think much about it. When I got off work, I thought of Qianqian and my baby daughter at home, and I couldn't help but feel like I was going home. In fact, if
It’s not that I have too many social activities and can’t get away. I would really rather go home, hug my daughter, and eat some light tofu.
Wherever they are, there is a sense of peace and tranquility at home. I call that small house home.
When passing by a certain porridge shop, I went in and bought a portion of preserved egg and lean meat porridge. She always thought that I liked to eat this, but she didn't know that I got into this habit because she liked it. The house arranged for the cadres was behind the government unit.
I only need to walk for ten minutes every day, carrying my porridge at a brisk pace.
After opening the door with the key, she was nowhere to be seen in the living room. While changing her shoes, she shouted: "Qianqian?"
Usually after such a call, she would either come out of the bedroom or respond with a raised voice, but today it was quiet and strange. Could it be that she fell asleep with her daughter? I put the porridge in the kitchen first, and then went to the bedroom to look for it.
, but there was no one inside, and I went to the study next to it to check, but there was no sign of her. She and her daughter were not at home!
Looking at the time, it was almost six o'clock. I was still proud of being able to get off work normally and come back to eat her cooking. I didn't expect that she was not around. I dialed her number and heard the ringtone of my cell phone from the drawer in the study.
Because she was afraid that mobile phones would radiate radiation to her baby, she usually didn't use her mobile phone very much, so she just threw the machine in a drawer.
I looked around the room, but I didn't see her leaving a note saying where she was going. I was really worried.
I closed the door and walked to the nearby supermarket to look for someone. She pushed her daughter to the supermarket to buy everything she needed at home, so I guessed that she had forgotten the time while shopping. But after searching around, she didn't see her, so she went back.
When I got home, she still didn't come back. Suddenly something flashed in my mind. I changed my expression and rushed into the study to check the computer. I saw that it was turned off. I was slightly relieved, but still worried, and pressed the power button.
While I was waiting for the phone to turn on, for some reason, my heart beat violently and I felt more and more panicked. I told myself that it would not happen, that she would not leave me without a word again, that we were so good, it was impossible for the past to happen again.
After the screen turned on, I rummaged through all the folders on the desktop and went into my mailbox to see if there were any new emails. I couldn't find any trace of letters she had left. But my eyelids were twitching and I felt an inexplicable fear. The time was approaching.
At seven o'clock, it was already dark outside, so she would come back even if she went out for something.
I rushed out the door again and searched for her little by little along the surrounding area. My heart became heavier and heavier. I searched back and forth several times and visited all possible places nearby for her. When I walked into the house again, I faced the deserted and deserted place.
, I have to admit that she left and left me quietly.
Qianqian, do you really hate me so much? So much that you push me to the peak of happiness again and again, and then fall from that height again? I sat alone for who knows how long, and the ticking bell was like a thorn in my heart.
, it hurts every time.
I opened my cell phone and dialed Zijie's number. At this time, I didn't know who else to talk to except him. The night outside the window was already so thick that it was bottomless. It was already past ten o'clock in the evening, and there was no hope in my heart that she might be able to talk to her.
Will be back.
She really left me, taking Yiyi with her.
Zijie's voice came from the other end, and I said with great desolation: "She's gone again..."
It was still dark, and there was a knock on the door. I dragged my feet to open the door in confusion. Zijie's first words when he walked in were: "Impossible!" I couldn't even lift the corner of my mouth, turned around and buried myself in the sofa, and said with all hope: "A
It's night, and she hasn't come back yet. During this period, I made countless calls, and even... the transportation bureau also called me. It was calm and safe tonight, and there was not a single traffic accident in the city."
Zijie walked around the room, then stood in front of me, looked at me condescendingly, and said with great determination: "Ziyang, it's impossible for Ruoruo to leave you like she did last time. Didn't you see her when she first arrived?
The look in the troops' eyes when they came to me, the firmness and love in them, was that of someone who had made up their mind. I was injured before, and her attachment to you cannot be faked, so it is impossible for her to leave."
Bystanders know clearly, but the authorities are confused. I forced myself to calm down and tried to recall the differences between the two times. There were actually clues before she left last time, but I ignored them, but this time there was really no trace. And her love for me,
There is no doubt that if she really wants to take her daughter away, she will definitely give me an explanation.
After thinking about it, it became clear, and I regained my sanity. I frowned and asked, "Then where will she go? Is it really..." An accident happened? I couldn't sit still anymore and rushed to the door, "Go out and look for her again."
Zijie was actually panicking, but he could still control his emotions. Just when I walked out of the door, I suddenly heard him calling from behind: "Wait!"
I turned around and saw him staring at the door frame. Because this is an old residential area for cadres, the doors and door frames are made of wood. Naturally, there is no need to worry about the security of this area. It is very unlikely that thieves will come here.
Zijie pointed at that place: "Look." I followed his gaze. The light at the door was dim and I couldn't see clearly. I moved closer. This time I could see clearly. Then my eyes widened and I gasped.
Air conditioning.
There were extremely deep scratches in that place, and each stroke formed a word:
Su.
The writing was not neat, and the scratches were deep and shallow, which showed how hastily I was when I left it. I slowly lowered my head, stared intently, and then squatted down. There was a tiny nail on the corner of the door frame.
"Zi Yang, please help me trim my nails. I'm afraid it will hurt my baby."
"No, I just like the feeling of you grabbing my back and clawing at me when you are passionate. Don't cut it, just keep it."
"Xu Ziyang..."
…
The conversation with her that night flashed through her mind, and the corners of her eyes instantly moistened. She cut her fingernail here. How much pain must it have caused?
"It's the Su family..." Zijie murmured, with a confused expression.
That day in the hospital, Su Mu Nian's threatening and calm look appeared in front of me. We were all negligent, thinking that as long as we were prepared, we could prevent the Su family's tricks. However, we didn't know that the words "unpreventable" hit me hard.
on my face.
From the very beginning, I knew that as long as Qianqian was with me, this political storm would spread the danger to her, so I always pushed her away without even thinking about it, because I could bear
I can't afford the consequences.
But I prefer to take chances. After returning from Tibet, although my father's affairs were very difficult, I was confident that there was always a way to save him, so I told her to let go and started arranging those things at the same time. I can't say that I am sure.
, I just bet that she might come back, and she did come back, and she followed the path I arranged.
But when I met her and Lin Xiang in the hospital, I found that I couldn't tolerate anyone else standing next to her. The scene of them holding hands and smiling was so dazzling that my heart ached. I admit, I couldn't see her being nice to anyone else.
So when I first made these arrangements, I made plans to take a step back. Based on my understanding of her character, I would never accept the ordinary happiness arranged by me.
She and Lin Xiang really broke up, but she threw away the amulet I gave her. That day I was hiding downstairs with her and saw her walking towards the trash can step by step, and then she stayed there for a long time, and finally put that
The red box was abandoned, which made my heart hurt like blood. After she left, I took out the box and wiped the stains on it.
My heart sank to the bottom. I knew that she was determined to leave me this time. The meaning of the Buddha amulet to her was the only meaning promised back then. Sure enough, when I put the Buddha amulet back at her door, she roared angrily.
Throwing it at me, she wanted me to disappear forever. But Qianqian, how could I pull away and leave you?
I had no choice but to use Gu Qingwei and let Qianqian know my situation through her mouth. It was very embarrassing. If there was any other way, I would not make this choice, but I was at the end of my rope. The moment I saw her
, my hanging heart dropped, I knew she couldn't let me go, and I knew she would come to me after learning the truth.
Surprisingly, she would take me and my mother home. To be honest, I was filled with emotions at that time. How could I be willing to let go of this woman? How could I be willing to give up? There was a small storm in the middle because of my mother, but after all, I
Still, I got closer to her heart step by step. But little did I know that a greater disaster was waiting for me behind.
When those embarrassing photos were scattered on the ground, the old man died on the spot, and my father passed out again, I knew that my world had been turned upside down. I... was no longer qualified to talk about love, because I couldn't give peace to the woman I loved most.
life. These disasters will happen to my family today, and they may happen to her tomorrow. I will never allow this to happen.
Almost instantly, my heart turned cold and there was no warmth anymore. Because I had to do something, something to break her heart. Even I couldn’t believe that I could calmly call Qing Wei,
I called her over to arrange what she would do, and then I called Qianqian with my eyes choked with sobs at night. At that time, in addition to my grief for the old man’s death, I also felt that I would abandon her again. Based on my understanding of her, she would definitely immediately
Come here, the old man is mourning. I saw her as soon as she appeared.
Behind the crowd, her face showed anxiety, uneasiness, and heartache. She was talking peacefully to Zi Jie, but after I interrupted her, panic flashed across her face, fearing that I would misunderstand. But this silly girl didn't know
, I am planning how to hurt her severely and force her away from me. Look, I really understand her. Qingwei is a thorn in her heart. I will poke her wherever it hurts.
When I said let go again, her expression made me feel heartbroken. I didn't even dare to look into her eyes. I ran away with unsteady steps, but those extremely sad eyes kept staring at me.
