Therefore, Xu Ziyang did not come to see me after the incident. Apart from being disappointed at first, he became very calm later on.
After I finished what I said, Gu Qingwei couldn't find any words to refute. This is the same as the duel between martial arts masters. They attack with a fatal move, thinking that they can at least seriously injure the opponent, but they don't want to fight.
After it passed, it was like hitting a sponge, with no focus at all, and she failed to achieve the goal of hurting both sides.
After a long time, she asked: "Then what are you doing here? Laughing at me? Don't say you are sympathizing with me."
"You are wrong again. I don't need to laugh at you at all. From the past to the present, when you intend to use him, you are destined to lose it. As for sympathy, you are not nothing, why should I sympathize with you?"
She suddenly turned her back and stopped talking to me. She shook her head with emotion and exited the ward. She saw the doctor sitting on the seat next to the door. It turned out that he had been staying here. From his nervous look, it could be seen that he was afraid.
If I say any insulting words to her that irritate her, I have reason to believe that he will rush in to defend her as soon as possible.
Gu Qingwei didn't know if she could understand my last words. With such a person silently guarding her, how could she have nothing? Counting the time, they must have known each other for many years. The doctor hesitated and said to me
Request: "Can you please ask Mr. Xu to continue to help find the person who can cure the blood disorder as soon as possible, because she may...not be able to hold on any longer."
I didn't promise him, I couldn't give him this promise.
This was the last time I saw Gu Qingwei. It was not until later that I heard that when she was critically ill, her cousin came with the only person in the world who could cure blood poisoning. Later, it was said that she and the doctor
She took her mother abroad with her, and went to the city where she had been recuperating and receiving medical treatment.
After hearing about this incident, I smiled and thought that Xu Ziyang was not heartless after all. He still gave the woman he once loved a glimmer of hope. Perhaps to a certain extent, he truly let go and let go of that love.
After years of romance, I also let go of my hatred. From then on, Gu Qingwei was no longer the thorn in my side.
These are all things for later, let’s go back to the original scene.
Peace of mind is my state of mind. I live my life as usual, watch the news here and there, learn about social trends, browse forums when I’m bored, and have created many vests to leave messages, but I spend more time with my daughter. I will take care of my daughter.
I watched her relax in the nearby park and walk around the supermarket. She was very curious about new things, her eyes were wide open and her expression was very cute.
I don’t know anything about his movements, because we live in the same city, and he is the person on the cutting edge. There are always channels to spy on some things. For example, when and where will the wedding that is being prepared in full swing be scheduled?
hotel. Naturally, this was not broadcast in the news, but was a "gossip" circulated on local forums.
In fact, I also noticed that every day before dawn, there would be a car parked downstairs. The body was dark. It was not an Audi or a Nissan. I didn't do any research on the brand. About half past six, this car just turned up.
The car would slowly drive away, so I got up very early every morning. I woke up on time around five o'clock, moved a chair and hid behind the curtains, and silently looked at the car.
This way of staying together is a bit silly, but I am happy with it.
Until one day, he came out of the car and kept coughing while holding on to the body of the car. I frowned and finally couldn't help but go downstairs. I didn't go too close, enough to see his side face clearly, which was swollen due to coughing.
It was red, but after only staying for a few seconds, he noticed me and turned his eyes to look over. For a moment, his eyes flashed with embarrassment and uneasiness, and then bottomless depth.
I handed him a tissue, pointed at his lips, and motioned for him to wipe it off.
The moment he took it, his fingertips touched it slightly, and a coolness penetrated through it. In the past, his body temperature was always warm, why has it become so cold now? Is it because of the low outdoor temperature in the morning?
I noticed that his eyes were falling on the ring finger of my left hand, which was empty when I read "Grapevine" in the forum. I said softly: "I took off the ring, took the red string and put it on and hung it around my neck. Since
It is a Buddhist amulet in itself, and it should be returned to its original place." I pulled out the red rope from around my neck, the silver light shone slightly, and the silver ring was peacefully shuttled in the red thread.
Many years ago, he told me in the legend, don’t take it off once you put it on. I didn’t listen. I took it off again and again, and even threw it away. But after going round and round, it came back to me and returned to the beginning.
position. I will wear it every day for the rest of my life until I grow old.
I saw him silent and knew that he might have a lot of things going on in his heart, but he would not tell me his pain. After thinking about it, he said: "Don't come here again. Getting up so early is not good for sleep. Now you have heavy government affairs."
, you have to take care of yourself. Have you checked your cough? Why is it always bad?"
"I'm fine."
Three simple words summarized his current situation. I smiled and turned around to leave. "Qianqian," Xu Ziyang called me from behind, and he said, "I will not let you down." My eyes were extremely sour and crystal clear.
He didn't stop talking, and didn't dare to look back. He just responded lightly: "Yeah."
From that day on, I never saw that car parked downstairs again, but I developed the habit of getting up early every day. Waking up at five o'clock became my biological clock. Since I couldn't stay together in silence, I had to pick up the pen again and start.
Recalling every moment of my relationship with him, I finally had the idea to write down my story with him.
I don’t want to write a story about deep love and shallow love. I want to write about love that I don’t know why and where it goes.
I purposely avoided all messages and stayed at home just playing with my daughter. I bought a lot of toys and a huge jigsaw puzzle, and started to put it together bit by bit. My little one came to me one after another and made trouble for me.
The put together pattern was messed up again, I pretended to glare at her and patted her little pussy, but thought I was joking with her, making her laugh out loud.
It was really annoying and funny. After such a fuss, it also diluted the sadness in my heart.
A few days later, I finally finished the puzzle and found a place to hang it. My mother asked, what did you put together? I smiled and pointed to the picture: blue sea and blue sky.
The blue sea and blue sky puzzle has been completed, but the blue sea and blue sky I was waiting for has not come yet. I was thinking about whether to buy a bigger puzzle and come back. When I opened the door, I was stunned and Zijie came.
When I stumbled into the ward, my vision was extremely blurry. After wiping my eyes, I saw behind the fog the face I had thought about a thousand times. But at this time, his face was pale and bloodless, even though he was handsome.
Still, it is a pathology that I have always ignored.
When I opened the door, Zijie said sadly: Ruoruo, go and see him.
At that moment, my body went numb and my brain stopped thinking. I only opened my eyes desperately, trying to identify whether the emotions in his eyes were really what he said. Then, slowly, somewhere on the left side of my chest, something was hollowed out.
Outside the court, his forbearing eyes were telling me: Wait for him! So I obediently let him arrange it, handing over all my trust without any hesitation. That day downstairs, he told me firmly: He will not let me down!
Actually, I want to say, I know. In this world, Xu Ziyang will betray everyone in the world, but he will not betray me, Yu Qian.
So I spent every day calmly, waiting for him to show up peacefully. After the wedding day, he didn't come. I said to myself, if I give him some more time, he will definitely come to me. But I thought about it in countless ways.
Maybe, I never thought he would leave before me.
Zijie said that three days before the wedding, he fainted next to Tong Xiaohan. After being sent to the hospital for emergency treatment, he was diagnosed with a tumor in his lungs and his liver was seriously damaged. The Tong family immediately blocked the news. Currently, he was sent to the hospital.
Only those close to you know.
No wonder he keeps coughing, this is the reason!
He was lying on the bed with his eyes closed and the corners of his lips pursed. When I held his hand, it felt less warm than usual and more cold. How could I be so careless? He coughed in front of me many times.
Unsurprisingly, I noticed last time that his coolness was different from before, but I never thought of anything else.
I pressed my face against his palm, letting tears roll down, and choked with sobs and whispered softly: "Zi Yang, you said you would not let me down, how could you lie to me? How could you lie to me like this again?"
I really don’t ask for much. Even if he doesn’t say that he won’t let me down, I will hold on to this relationship silently. Even if he really marries Tong Xiaohan, I still believe that he will come back to me one day. This is
His promise to me.
If one year is not enough, wait two years. If two years is not enough, wait five years. If you wait too long and your heart is tired, then call him: The child is his father. These are my well-thought-out plans.
, but no matter how beautiful the plan is, it cannot compete with the cruelty of reality.
"Xu Ziyang, you are a liar! You have been lying to me from beginning to end!"
I don’t believe that he doesn’t know about his body, so what does his promise to me mean? Is it giving me the last hope? Or did he not expect that he would collapse so quickly?
I have never cried hysterically, and every time I was extremely sad and grieved, I shed tears silently. But at this moment, I couldn't suppress my emotions, and all kinds of pain surged in my heart, and I couldn't stop crying in the end.
"Qianqian..."
A voice that seemed to come from another time and space penetrated my eardrums. I raised my head suddenly. I couldn't see his face clearly with my blurred vision. I blinked away my tears hard. My dark and distant eyes were filled with surprise and doubt. "Are you awake?" I said.
Only then did I realize that my throat was dry and hoarse from crying, and my throat was sore.
His cool hand touched my face, and his fingertips rubbed the tear stains, and he asked: "Why are you here? Why are you crying?" If his voice hadn't been low and his breath unsteady, his words would have been in an urgent tone.
I grabbed his hand and brought it to my mouth. My teeth dropped only half an inch. I didn't have the heart to be cruel. I looked into his eyes and said sadly: "Xu Ziyang, how could you lie to me again and again? You
You said you would never let me down, you said you would make me your only one, how could you make a promise and then break your promise?"
Confusion flashed in his eyes, and he raised his head and wanted to get up to hug me, but that movement was extremely difficult. I took the initiative to throw myself on his chest and hugged him tightly with both hands, "I don't believe God would be so unfair, Zi Yang.
You don't have to keep your promise to me. I just want you to be safe in this world. Even if I don't see you again in this life, I will admit it. The disease is not terrible. The terrible thing is that the disease has defeated your will. You can't give up just now, you know?
?”
I put my ear against his heart, the strong heartbeat passed into my ears, and a thought came to my mind.
With the most pious heart, pray to God, Buddha, and all gods:
Even if we never see him again, I just wish him good health.
His distant and pleasant voice came from above his head: "Qianqian, what are you talking about?"
