Small towns are not more open than big cities, and women who remarry are not like men who remarry. There will always be rumors. As time goes by, people gradually forget about it, but there are always people who care about it.
For example, I looked at Xiao Bin, a boy who was taller than me, in front of my stepfather's house. I looked at him steadily, half-smiling but not smiling. After looking at each other for a few seconds, he turned away in defeat, with a guilty conscience in his eyes.
It's quite useful to learn some coercive momentum from someone, but it just feels a bit like bullying the smaller ones.
In fact, I am only a few years older than Xiao Binxu, and it is not appropriate to call him a boy, but his behavior is really childish. Those children's pranks and subsequent curse words were probably instigated by him. On New Year's Eve, I
The first time I stepped into his house, I knew that he didn't like me. The eyes behind his glasses were vaguely hostile.
Seeing my mother walking out of the door, I put a smile on my face and said softly as I passed by Xiao Bin: "I won't do this next time." I smiled secretly in my heart. This sentence has been used by someone many times, and I will borrow it again today.
It's not that I mean to bully the young, but if this kind of thing is only aimed at me, that's it. If it's also aimed at my mother, and I'm in a different place and can't take care of her... thinking about this worry arises again.
On the first day of the Lunar New Year, the morning was actually busy, with everyone running around to pay New Year greetings, and in the afternoon they were free. The elders gathered together to watch TV and eat melon seeds and chat. I quietly walked upstairs and pushed open the door of Xiaobin's room. Sure enough,
There was no one else downstairs, and he was hiding among the pile of books upstairs. He was startled when he saw me coming in, then closed the book and looked at me defensively.
Walking to the desk, he glanced at the title of the book - "A Gentleman Loves His Lover with Sex", and couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth. I didn't expect that he, who looked like a nerd, would read this kind of book. I saw that Xiao Bin felt embarrassed after being caught.
, quickly turned over the book, feeling as embarrassed as a junior high school student who was caught reading a novel in class by the teacher.
In fact, as long as the author is Li Ao, I won't think too much. I was surprised that he would read Li Ao's books. I once read a few books by this famous writer. This one, "A Gentleman Loves His Lover with Sex" is
Most of his early works were critical essays.
I cleared my throat and said what I meant: "Xiao Bin, let's talk. I know you don't like me. You taught them the pranks of the children in the afternoon. Their behavior was very childish. You are also in college, parents.
It's not our juniors' turn to take care of our affairs. I don't really hope that something similar will happen to my mother. Can you understand what I mean?"
Xiao Bin's face suddenly turned red and he started to stutter when he spoke: "Why do you say it was me who taught them the prank?"
I couldn't help but laugh. He is such an honest person. If he hadn't done it, there would be no need to be so nervous, let alone asking questions. I didn't want to embarrass him too much, so I just said, "Anyway, my mother is not in good health. Please help me."
Please bear with me." He turned around to leave, but when he was at the door, he heard him raise his voice and say: "I don't like you!"
He stopped, turned around, raised his eyebrows and waited for him to finish.
"I don't like that when you come back, Aunt Ru only has eyes for you, and I don't like that dad treats you like a Buddha. Aren't you the man who paid for dad to open a shop? Why do you look down on people?
Are their postures condescending to others?"
I was secretly shocked that I actually gave him this feeling? I asked in confusion: "Why do I act so superior to others?"
"Hmph, when your grandparents talk to you, you refuse to answer. When everyone tries to persuade you to eat, you just take a few bites and think about it, and you don't even offer a toast to my dad. Isn't this being superior to others?"
Speechless, that's how I am now. It turns out that a person's words and deeds do not depend on how they do it, but on how others see it. When any action is viewed with a colored lens, it becomes wrong. I thought I was comprehensive and polite.
It was in place, but in the eyes of this young boy, it was just showing off.
The fact that he thinks so means that others may also think so. Fortunately, his words contain the sour meaning that his mother cares about me, which proves that he is still friendly to his mother. If this is the case, should I snicker?
Now? He sighed softly, he shouldn’t have come back after all.
He said calmly: "Don't worry, I will leave in my third year of junior high school."
I really want to leave immediately, but there is no reason to explain to my mother that I am in a hurry to leave on New Year's Day, and I have made an appointment with my mother to go to the hospital for a full-body examination. I'm afraid there are no doctors in the hospital today, so I can only schedule it for tomorrow.
It’s afternoon, or I’ll go there in the morning of the third day of the third year. In fact, during the Chinese New Year, the most people staying in the hospital are doctors on duty. The examination may not be exhaustive, but firstly, I made an appointment with Xu Ziyang to go back on the third day of the third year, and secondly, I had a thorough talk with Xiao Bin.
I didn’t want to stay any longer and returned immediately after I had relieved my worries.
On the afternoon of the second day of the Lunar New Year, my mother and I walked into the hospital together. I didn’t tell my stepfather and others about this, mainly because I was afraid that the elders would be taboo about hospitals during the Chinese New Year. Also, because I wanted to take my mother for a physical examination, others would accuse me of it.
Not being allowed is a bad thing. So my mother found an excuse to take me to the town to buy things, and the two of them went out.
Sure enough, the hospital was also deserted. Except for the patients who could not go home for the New Year, there were only a few nurses and doctors staying behind. After registration, there was no need to queue up, and they were directly arranged to enter the examination room for various examinations. A series of report forms came out one after another.
, before I was going to take it to the doctor for examination, I made an excuse to ask my mother to help me buy things. After she walked away, I walked into the doctor's office.
When my mother came back, I was already waiting by the door and told her with a smile that the doctor had read the report and said that both of us were in good health and there was nothing abnormal. My mother did not doubt that we had it and said with great relief: "As long as we are healthy, we will be fine."
, Xiao Qian, you have suffered a lot these past two years."
I put my hands in her arms in silence. She seemed to notice and turned around to ask me: "What? Are you cold?" She was startled for a moment, and then she realized that her body was shaking slightly. She frowned and immediately raised her eyebrows.
Kai, forced a smile and said: "Some, you don't know that I have a cold constitution, so I stay close to my mother."
When my mother heard this, she pressed closer to me, trying to protect me from the wind. But she didn't know that it wasn't my body that was cold, but my heart. It should be said that there was an indescribable fear that made me unable to restrain myself.
of trembling.
But I couldn't let my mother find out, so I pretended to smile and rode in the car together, and then we went back to my stepfather's house. On the way, I mentioned to her that I was going back tomorrow, and she was naturally reluctant, but I was determined to go, and she also
Nothing can be done.
When I went back to my old house in the evening, I told her that I wouldn’t be coming over tomorrow, and that I would take the car back to the city and ask her to help say hello to my stepfather and others. My mother touched my face, sighed, and said, “Xiaoqian, you are so
The child is too preoccupied and keeps everything to himself, and you are the one who suffers. Mom knows that I can’t help you, and I can’t do anything to help you, but you have to make plans for yourself, you know?”
I bit my lip and turned away, not letting her notice the moisture in the corners of my eyes. I turned around and left slowly, feeling the loving eyes behind me fixed on my back, but I didn't look back because I was afraid of looking back.
I couldn't control the tears in my eyes when I looked back.
Who doesn’t want to be loved by someone, who doesn’t want to be attached to his parents, but can I? I can’t.
My mother's situation was already embarrassing. I couldn't destroy the contented happiness on my mother's face at this moment, so I had to swallow the hidden secrets.
When I returned to my old house, I lay on the bed undressed and the emotions I had suppressed all afternoon surged out. Looking back on the doctor’s affirmative conclusion, I really couldn’t figure out what was going on.
The appendicitis that occurred more than a month ago sent me to the hospital for surgery. During the surgery, the doctor may have talked to me from time to time to relieve my nervousness, but he did not expect that my casual words would trigger an unknown secret.
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So, I insisted on returning to my hometown during the Chinese New Year, just to ask my mother to accompany me for a full-body examination to confirm the authenticity of the secret. When the examination report came out, the doctor decisively told me the truth that I could never imagine.
What does it feel like to have thought that a certain organ was missing from your body, but now it has been confirmed that it is still intact?
During the cecal surgery, I accidentally mentioned that I was missing half of my kidneys, but the doctor was extremely surprised and told me that both kidneys were healthy and safe in my body. At that moment, I was even more surprised than the doctor, and there was only one question in my mind.
: How is that possible? If my kidneys are healthy, then whose organs were transplanted to my mother? And there is clearly a scar on my iliac fossa, which proves that I have indeed undergone surgery. Could it be that I am hallucinating?
?
With such doubts, I returned to my hometown without hesitation and took my mother to the hospital for a full-body examination. The examination report once again concluded that my kidneys were complete and not missing. But my mother’s examination report surprised me. The doctor actually said
She has never had a history of uremia and is very healthy except for some high blood pressure.
I simply suspected that there was something wrong with my ears, so I asked the doctor to read the report and the film again, and the answer was the same as before. I also asked for my mother’s original case report, but the doctor disagreed and claimed that he needed to come in person.
I had no choice but to ask when the doctor who performed my mother's surgery would come to work, only to learn that the doctor had resigned and left the hospital more than a year ago.
Suddenly I felt a chill in my heart. No matter how confused I was, I still smelled a conspiracy.
My first instinct was not to let my mother know. But then I thought, would my mother know the inside story? So when I waited outside the door and told her the doctor's conclusion, I stared closely at her expression without noticing anything.
The strange things were all normal reactions, so I breathed a sigh of relief.
You can’t blame me for doubting even my own mother, but this matter is too weird. If my mother knew the inside story and chose to hide it, she must have some difficulties, then I would have to ask her what happened; otherwise, if she didn’t know,
Then I will hide it to the end and not let her worry or be afraid.
What really makes me tremble is the motivation of the person behind the whole thing.
