Not lovers? If you are not lovers and you still say such disgusting words, anyone else would think that the relationship between you two is unusual. Hu Zongren said to Mr. Du. Mr. Du sighed and leaned heavily on the sofa.
Sitting on the backrest, he raised his head and looked at the chandelier above, and said slowly, "This matter is a long story."
I said to Mr. Du, we have plenty of time, so please tell us about this matter in detail. Of course, you can ignore some things that are too personal if you want. Mr. Du looked at me and said, I will tell you these things.
, do you believe it? I answered him, besides us, do you have anyone else to talk to now?
Mr. Du said that the thing is like this. A few years ago, he studied abroad. Although he returned to China several years ago, he never received a diploma at school. Therefore, a few years ago, he specifically asked for leave from his employer.
, went back to school for graduation defense, and then graduated. Mr. Du said, you must have seen a photo of me in the drawer when I graduated. That was the photo of the last time I stayed abroad.
Mr. Du went on to say, but before that, he was already in China. He accidentally wandered around on the Internet and entered a local dating website, where he chatted with many men and women he had never met without responsibility. But this
During this period, I met a female college student, Zhang Hong. Mr. Du said that Zhang Hong gave me a different feeling. She seemed to be very introverted and didn’t talk much. When chatting with everyone in the chat room, she
She is always the one who is automatically ignored by everyone. It always feels like she has been thinking about something for a long time before saying something, but no one pays attention to her.
Hu Zongren asked Mr. Du, how did you first get in touch? Mr. Du said that it was because there was a woman in the chat room that day who kept bragging about her beauty and kept posting photos, so Zhang Hong chatted with her.
In one sentence, she is so beautiful. It was originally a very simple compliment, but the girl encouraged Zhang Hong to post photos. For most male netizens, it is a happy thing for girls to expose photos of themselves. So,
Everyone has been urging Zhang Hong to post photos, even Mr. Du himself, but Zhang Hong has repeatedly delayed it, which made many other netizens feel dissatisfied, saying that she was arrogant and that her friends were not sincere. Only Mr. Du did not say so, but secretly and privately
I started chatting with Zhang Hong.
Mr. Du said, I admit that I had selfish motives at the time. I thought that Zhang Hong might be embarrassed to post photos because there were too many people in the chat room, so I planned to chat in private to see if I could deceive the photos. In fact,
I often do this kind of thing, but I never tell others. Mr. Du went on to say that because his level was relatively high, he quickly won Zhang Hong’s trust, and in the process, Du
Mr. Du also began to think that Zhang Hong was an independent-minded and very delicate girl, and he had a soft spot for such an intellectual girl. Mr. Du proposed to make an appointment to meet, but Zhang Hong refused.
Then it is required that our friendship can start from writing letters with pen pals.
So the two of them started to correspond with each other. From the exchange of letters, Mr. Du learned some information about Zhang Hong. She was a college student who came to the main city from a district or county in Chongqing. She didn't go home very often and would only go back during holidays.
.The university she studied at is a famous university in Chongqing, which shows that she is studying well. Since Mr. Du himself is a highly educated person, he naturally has a stronger impression of girls who like to study. And he also learned that Zhang Hong
His family background is actually average. Although it is not rich, it is not bad. But from between the lines, he gradually realized that Zhang Hong has a very calm heart. She does not seem to care about many bad words around her, but that is just
On the surface, but deep down, she has low self-esteem, is very withdrawn, and has no friends.
Hu Zongren asked Mr. Du, when you knew this, had you already seen her photos? Mr. Du shook his head and said not at that time. On the one hand, he felt nostalgic for exchanging letters with Zhang Hong in this way.
On the other hand, because Zhang Hong speaks very well and is consistent with his own thinking circle, he feels close to him. Mr. Du said with a wry smile that sometimes the most beautiful things are only based on imagination.
, if I had known this earlier, I would never have asked her for a photo.
I understand what he means, and he must be the same as when I first made a pen pal, asking for photos, and then dying. Mr. Du said that after the correspondence reached a certain level, he felt that Zhang Hong was a person with the same frequency as himself.
They were like old friends of Zhang Hong, and they liked Zhang Hong very much, so they gradually began to have some ambiguity between the lines and began to express their longing for each other. The same situation was also the case with Zhang Hong. The two of them began to get ready to have a relationship because of some letters. But
Such emotions are false, so Mr. Du proposed that we should meet in person, but before meeting, we need to have photos to get to know each other. In that letter, Mr. Du took the lead in mailing his own photos to Zhang Hong.
And in the reply we received, there was the photo we found in the envelope before.
Mr. Du smiled bitterly and said, To be honest, I am also an ordinary person, so my sentiments are not very noble. When I saw Zhang Hong’s photo, I did feel very disappointed. But I also understand that a person’s appearance and
In fact, character has nothing to do with it. It's just that because of the photo, when I think of Zhang Hong, his appearance becomes particularly concrete, and because of this, I can no longer find the Zhang Hong I once imagined in my mind.
He couldn't even remember what he looked like. This feeling made Mr. Du start to feel a little frustrated, and he had some thoughts of retreating.
Mr. Du said, you have also seen the first letter I wrote. In that letter, I was very conflicted. On the one hand, I was unwilling to admit that I was a person who judged people by their appearance. On the other hand, I felt that if I was judged by their appearance because of this,
I cut off contact with Zhang Hong, which would hurt other people's feelings. So I wrote to Zhang Hong according to my own habits, but never sent the letter again. I asked Mr. Du, what will happen next?
Those letters seemed to continue to enlighten and encourage Zhang Hong. Since you didn’t send them out, how do you know what problems she encountered? Mr. Du sighed and said that it was actually because he had not replied to the letter, so Zhang Hong wrote to himself
I called Zhang Hong to ask if it was because he had not received the letter. Mr. Du lied and answered Zhang Hong that he had actually received it, but because he was too busy with work recently, he did not have time to reply. Mr. Du said that in fact, every time she
She pretended to be fine when she called me, but I understood that she actually knew that the main reason why I didn't reply was because I saw her photo. Over the years, she has been discriminated against and looked down upon countless times because of her appearance.
, I couldn’t hide it from her at all. Mr. Du went on to say, but we still pretended as if it didn’t happen on the phone, but the feeling finally changed.
Mr. Du went on to say that due to the habit he had developed over a long period of time, every time he hung up the phone, he still wrote down some words in a letter that he had not said on the phone but felt that he should say. However,
He himself understood that if he continued to reply to the letter, he would give Zhang Hong a kind of hope. This kind of hope was very luxurious, but he could not give it to her at all. In order to prevent her from feeling that he had changed, he also lied that he
A trustee brought her a beautiful dress from abroad, and he planned to send it to him when he found an opportunity. In fact, what he was thinking was that he could just find a time to buy a dress to deal with it. I asked Mr. Du, what about buying it?
Have you done it? Mr. Du asked me what I bought. I said clothes. Mr. Du shook his head and said, "No, I haven't bought anything yet."
I also sighed and said, now I understand why Zhang Hong’s ghost is in your closet.
After saying this, everyone was quiet.
After a while, Mr. Du continued, but then we communicated on the phone most of the time and occasionally sent text messages. Zhang Hong also once took the initiative to invite himself out to meet for dinner, but he chose to use various methods to deal with it.
, and did not go to the appointment. Mr. Du said, after writing the last letter to her, I felt it was time to make a break, but he could not hurt her too much, so he sealed the written envelope and connected it to Zhang Hong.
He sent photos and stopped answering calls and text messages from then on. He thought that if he did this, Zhang Hong would understand what he meant after a while. Even if he was sad and sad, it was only a temporary thing, and the days were still the same.
Let’s move on. More than a year ago, Zhang Hong sent herself a message for the last time. The content of the message was, That’s it, goodbye.
After that, Mr. Du took out his mobile phone and found the message for us to see. But we only saw that one message. He explained that except for this message, the rest had been deleted by him. He treated it as
Remember, we finally met.
After listening to Mr. Du's words, I began to realize that he is actually a good person. He hopes to use his own way to encourage a girl with low self-esteem, but he has no choice but to develop his feelings beyond his control. It was originally simple.
Once their friendship begins to become ambiguous, many things become less pure. And this is not just Mr. Du's problem. As for Zhang Hong, who has been looked down upon by others for a long time, Mr. Du's appearance is undoubtedly like a savior.
Being able to understand and understand himself, to a certain extent, Mr. Du is a very important way of spiritual sustenance for Zhang Hong in addition to his own family. Regardless of whether he becomes a lover or a friend in the end, Mr. Du's existence is important to Zhang Hong.
It's very special. In addition, Zhang Hong's last text message seemed to be a farewell. Although it was not revealed, it was obvious that he was actually disappointed and blamed for Mr. Du.
So I said to Mr. Du, in this case, I probably know what to do. But since you only found out about Zhang Hong’s death today, and we didn’t know this person beforehand, we need to understand the cause of her death. I hope
She didn't commit suicide because of your disappointment.
Mr. Du did not speak, but lowered his head with a bit of remorse.