Although she had long known that she was not favored by her mother, once again confirming her favoritism did not make the original owner feel better. As a member of the human race, she did not want to be hated by others all the time.
After all, humans are social creatures, and the feeling of being excluded from the entire society may drive people crazy. There are generally several types of people who are excluded from the crowd without being affected.
First of all, it is the kind of person with great willpower who will not care about the external situation in order to achieve his own goal, but obviously the original owner does not have great willpower.
Secondly, there are those who suffer from symptoms similar to autism. Because of the illness, the patients have always lived in their own world and do not need to communicate with other people at all. The original owner does not like to talk very much, but he is not a patient.
The original owner can let himself ignore other people's attitudes, but this is not because he doesn't care, but because he has to alienate because he is afraid of being hurt, so he will be hurt because he is rejected by most people.
It also made her realize that she was not able to ignore everyone's attention, and that she did not need the same kind of care at all. Only after having Ling Xiao did she feel the care of her relatives.
This made the original owner feel that his life was not in vain, just like when he first came back to life, he didn't believe it was true, because he was obviously dead.
The original owner cried when he found out that he was really alive, because that period of life in the darkness was too difficult. If Ling Xiao had not been able to dispel the bad state, he would still be a madman alive.
Because she was in such a difficult situation at that time, no one came to rescue her. Later, she repeatedly warned herself not to wait for the rescuers to arrive.
This is not that she accepts her fate. If she didn't really think that she couldn't get out, who wouldn't want to live? This is just a kind of self-psychological adjustment.
In fact, at the last moment, she still tried hard to knock things, hoping that people would come to save her, but in the end she never waited for those who came to save her.
Oh no! It would be weird if someone could come to save her! After watching the relevant videos in this life, she only had one thought: She was both responsible and independent. The most important thing is that those people succeeded.
It’s really rubbish! This is the rescue comment given by the original owner, and those decision-makers should be buried under the rubble waiting for rescue that will never come.
As a victim, she still remembered that she was thirsty and hungry at the end, and then gradually began to fall into coma, but the despair in her heart that she had been abandoned was growing crazily.
The reason why she persisted and did not go crazy was because she knew that she was not the only one here, but there were others who were in this dark place like her.
Why can she be sure that she is not the only one who is still alive? That is because there are knocking sounds from other places as evidence, and then those sounds gradually disappeared.
Her fellow victims became silent one by one, and she found herself extremely frightened. If there were no more fellow travelers in this situation where she could not see them, she would go crazy.
Unfortunately, she was unable to do anything in a small space, and fell into a semi-conscious state with the thought of giving up on herself. She finally forgot about her situation and began to recall the past.
When she watched the past events as a third party, she realized that it wasn't that she didn't work hard or that she wasn't lovable, but that her own mother didn't like her from the beginning.
The original owner never knew what was going on. Sometimes she wondered if she had done something bad when she was a child, which caused her mother to look down on her daughter so much.
Perhaps before she died, she finally had a bright idea and discovered that the reason for this was due to her appearance, which was just because her appearance was closer to her mother's, an oriental appearance.
And my mother doesn't like her appearance at all. If there was any way to change her body, I'm afraid she would have changed her body long ago.
Of course, the mother usually doesn't dare to show it in front of the father. After all, he likes the mysterious temperament and appearance, so the mother will naturally not make any changes.
The mother's favoritism and suppression have the answer. Why is my sister always favored by her mother despite not being as good as her in studies and housework? It's because of her appearance.
Hahaha! She let out her last laugh after thinking clearly. So, if she could choose her mother, she would definitely not want to be her daughter. It is a pity that she did not have the right to choose when she was reincarnated.
She wants to tell herself that if she can have another life, she must live for herself, study the major she wants to study, and live where she wants to live, instead of being controlled by one person all the time.
The thought of that woman wishing to kick her out of the house when she became an adult made the original owner sneer. She would no longer regard that woman as a relative in her heart. She was just a bargaining chip for that woman to marry her father.
The reason why they say this is because they are marrying their son, haha! They are not afraid of hiding themselves, in case the man is unwilling to do so, it will be treated as an illegitimate daughter.
That woman is really funny. In the days after her marriage, she despised everything about her home country. She wished she could completely forget her mother tongue, dress and eat all Westernized.
But when dealing with her eldest daughter, on the one hand, she is required to conform to Western standards in everything, and on the other hand, she is required to be very obedient and filial to her, the mother.
Since she despises everything about her motherland, including but not limited to appearance, language, culture, customs and habits, how can she have the dignity to be a filial daughter? (1)
Doesn’t this country require you to make the decision early? Be filial? How to be filial? Shouldn’t you wait until you grow up to move out and have your own small home, and just make a phone call every once in a while?
Filial piety? Still thinking about her own filial piety? Then why not let her beloved be filial? Humph! She just wants pua herself, and the original owner has come to her senses.
After all, that woman is a selfish person, a person who likes to engage in double standards. She wants everything that is good for her. She doesn't care about the customs and habits of the place. She will stand on whichever side is useful. She can change her position at any time.
It's okay, okay! Although that woman did very poorly in many aspects, she didn't think about marrying off her eldest daughter early. Instead, she said she had to be an adult before getting married.
Why do you say this? It is because the law of this state allows child marriage, which means that the female party of both parties in the marriage is completely a minor.
It is said that girls at this time were still young, some girls were only seven or eight years old. At that time, she did not know her sexual orientation or the person she really wanted to marry in the future.
And her future guardian can arrange for the girl to get married, and the custody rights will be transferred to the husband. Who in the family would a normal man marry a little loli? Thinking about it carefully, the original owner was secretly glad that he had not reached that step yet.
The thought of becoming a married woman at such a young age made the original owner feel horrified. Is this how she promised to protect minors?
That woman was very bad in other places, but she still insisted on this, because the original owner still remembered that someone once approached that woman and asked her unpopular eldest daughter to marry early, but she refused. This is that woman.
Not many shining points.
In addition, the woman also adopted the same standard for her two daughters in terms of chastity: they were absolutely not allowed to have any intimate relationships with anyone when they were underage, including her beloved.
Why is there such a requirement? It is because the woman knows that girls will encounter too many temptations. When the two sexes have a relationship, the woman is more likely to be emotional and is more likely to be plotted.
That woman witnessed something with her own eyes: A girl found a boyfriend when she was in high school, and because of this she became even more unwilling to study. After that, the two of them couldn't stay together, so they simply stopped reading and went to another place.
After knowing about it, she felt that the girl was on the wrong path, because neither of them had any academic qualifications, so how could they find a job? They could only do the lowest-level jobs.
Later, news came out that the girl and her boyfriend had a good time at first because they were in the honeymoon period. Later, they had some problems and the man started taking things he shouldn't take.
After the two of them couldn't get along, the man mortgaged his girlfriend to the debtor. The girl had no diploma and no skills. The only thing that could be exchanged for money was her body.
After knowing the whole process, the woman strictly ordered her two daughters to remain chaste, not because of the so-called conservativeness, but to ensure that the two daughters should study hard and not do too many things.
Thanks to the original owner's father still having some power, even if someone wanted to ridicule such behavior, they didn't dare to make a scene directly, which can be regarded as a kind of protection for the child.
Even so, the original owner didn't have much of a good impression of that woman because she liked to control the eldest daughter's life too much and brought too much pain to her life.
The original owner now understands that what her mother did to her was very bad. She has been destroying Donna's self-confidence, making her feel inferior and sensitive, and she has an unspeakable fear of her mother.
If Ling Xiao hadn't arrived and specifically intervened in the psychology of the original owner, otherwise the original owner would have been ruined for the rest of his life, and even if he escaped the collapse, he would not have a good life.
Under such circumstances, the original owner had no sisterly affection for his biological sister Elena. As soon as he saw Elena, he thought of his mother's various methods. That woman had her own shining points, but she also had too much evil.
This kind of evil continued to Elena. Speaking of which, there was an age gap between her and her. However, in the later period, Elena was not a child who knew nothing, but she always looked very disdainful towards her sister.
Even after her parents died, Elena still inherited her mother's habit of making various sarcastic remarks to the original owner, her sister.
It's just that because Elena was underage, the two sisters would quarrel if the original owner wanted to take care of it, so she could only endure it, but she was holding back her anger until the two fell out after they escaped from the ruins.
I finally stopped holding my breath.
This is because the original owner felt that she had a new life, so why did she have to give in to her everywhere? In addition, she had a fiancé, so she made up her mind not to get along with Elena.
She knew that Elena could be considered a victim, but Elena had indeed hurt the original owner, and she would be punished for doing bad things. The original owner was unwilling to have more contact with Elena.
Maybe after a few decades, the original owner will feel relieved about everything she has encountered, and the hurt she has suffered will gradually be healed by time, but now she does not want to see Elena.
Now that she has a new life again, she is naturally completely free of the influence of that woman, and everything including Elena has to withdraw from her life.
After choosing mathematics as her major for postgraduate studies, she began to apply. Because her university diploma was not very good, she felt a little uneasy. Fortunately, she began to write papers specifically focusing on some mathematical issues at that time.
I sent my thesis to her with some trepidation, and finally impressed my supervisor because her ideas were very thoughtful, so I ended up studying together for both master's and Ph.D.
When she received the interview notice, she was a little surprised, because this tutor was really capable, and he was the kind of teacher who would not snatch students' papers. This was the candidate chosen by Ling Xiao after special investigation.
After the interview, the original owner really felt that she was very good. She could finally study again. With a bit of excitement, she was very happy to tell Ling Xiao, and Ling Xiao congratulated her on passing.
Later, after getting acquainted with her tutor, the others found out that she was still going to file a lawsuit. They also asked about the situation, but the original owner only told what should be said and did not talk about the rest.
Therefore, other people are just curious and don't care after that. You must know that although there are shady things in the academic field, there are also some people who are purely academic.
Because of the lawsuit, the original owner didn't like to come out very often. Ling Xiao told her that someone had secretly photographed her, and asked her not to be defenseless in school. After all, there are gunmen shooting on campus these days.
The original owner may not have much affection for her parents anymore, but she followed Ling Xiao's words very seriously. After all, it involved her own life. She had died once and wanted to die.
In her mind, she was even thinking about how to change her life after the lawsuit was over, and getting the doctorate degree that she was about to defend would be a stepping stone.
Of course, during this period, Ling Xiao suggested to the original owner whether to find a job first with the help of her mentor. With work experience, she would be more privileged when she sends out a cover letter again.
Why do you say that? Because in many relevant job recruitments, it is said that they have relevant work experience in many positions. Later, when the original owner was studying for a doctoral degree, he sometimes had to replace the tutor to guide the master's degree, so he got the title of teaching assistant.
The tutor was very sympathetic after learning about the student's experience, and since the original master was really capable, he specially took some of his most valued disciples to attend regular meetings. The original master followed the tutor and got to know more people in the mathematics circle.
Ling Xiao was very happy when she found out, because the original owner had really changed a lot and her future had unlimited possibilities. Now she was just waiting for the trial of the case. The original owner had to graduate with his doctorate before finally waiting for the first court session.
After the case is completed, they will have the opportunity to leave here and go somewhere else. Both the original owner and Ling Xiao are very happy about this, but Ling Xiao is a little wary because this body attracts a lot of attention.