Hearing me saying "holding a knife", Ruan Dongli was stunned for a moment, then handed me a cigarette and said: "Crazy brother, you have to think about it, 'holding a knife' is unusual. To a certain extent,
This is a road of no return, and does Buddha know that you want to 'hold a knife'?"
I lit the cigarette, took a deep puff and smiled, "I don't know, I don't know if I have thought about it, but I have a feeling in my heart that I must hold this 'knife'. Where does this feeling come from?"
I don’t know either, but I think I will know one day.”
Ruan Dongli patted me on the shoulder and said with a smile: "Crazy brother, you are so literary and artistic, I can't even understand what you are saying."
I said, actually I don’t understand it myself.
That night I chatted with Ruan Dongli for a long time, but the more we talked, the more confused I became, and the less I knew where the feeling of "holding a knife" in my heart came from.
In the middle of the night, the stairs were already littered with cigarette butts, so Ruan Dongli and I separated.
However, this confusion about "holding the knife" did not bother me for long, because something happened very quickly, which completely explained the source of this feeling in my heart. Of course, those are things for a later time.
The next morning for self-study, I picked up Lu Xiaoyu and went to the classroom. I thought I was already early enough, but when I arrived at the classroom, An Liang was already waiting for me at the door.
I pulled Lu Xiaoyu over and asked, "Xiao Anliang, are you waiting for me?"
An Liang smiled and said, "Of course it is, crazy brother, are you going to take action against Golden Eagle and No. 2 Middle School recently?"
I didn't say anything, just smiled.
An Liang continued: "Crazy brother, before taking action, I think it is necessary for us to contact Chen Yang from Golden Eagle. He is the mortal enemy of the prince and Ma Liu'er. It would be a waste if such a good chess piece is left unused."
I nodded and said, "Although I say that, I don't have much contact with Chen Yang, so I'm afraid it wouldn't be good to contact him rashly."
An Liang smiled and said: "Crazy brother, don't worry too much. I will contact Chen Yang for you. How about we take some time this weekend and make an appointment with Chen Yang to meet?"
I hesitated and looked at Lu Xiaoyu next to me and said, "I'm afraid I won't have time this weekend, because I want to go see Buddha with Xiaoyu, and I also have some things to ask Buddha."
An Liang was stunned for a moment after hearing what I said, and then smiled and said, "Then we can make an appointment for one day next week, can you?"
I nodded. Actually, I have wanted to meet Chen Yang for a long time.
After talking to An Liang for a while, it was almost time for morning self-study, so she went back to her classroom.
After An Liang left, Lu Xiaoyu and I entered the classroom together. When we returned to my seats, Lu Xiaoyu said softly: "Yifeng, I feel more and more that we are people from two different worlds."
.”
When Lu Xiaoyu said this, I was stunned for a moment. Then I used to blow Lu Xiaoyu's nose and said, "Xiaoyu, what are you talking about? How come you are from two different worlds?"
Lu Xiaoyu pouted and took my arm and said: "Maybe I'm thinking wildly again. Okay, let's not talk about this anymore. Yi Feng, if you want to leave me one day, can you not tell me? You just do that."
Just leave and let me find you. I promise not to bother you, okay, but please don't say the words "you don't want me anymore, okay?"
I didn't know what to say for a moment, so I put my arms around her waist and said, "Xiaoyu, what are you talking about? Why don't you want me? You are the only woman in my life, Yi Feng. There will never be anyone else in my heart. You
When you say these incomprehensible words, I am really going to get angry."
After hearing what I said, Lu Xiaoyu smiled and said: "Okay, I was wrong, Yi Feng, I shouldn't have said these strange things. Let's look at the notes. The exam will be in more than a week. Do you want to
Work hard."
Lu Xiaoyu's strange words made me feel uneasy for a long time, especially the sentence "We are people from two worlds". When I thought of this sentence, I felt a cold feeling in my heart, as if I had lost something.
, or in other words, something is being lost.
In the next few days, Zheng Yanbin and Ma Xiaoxiao came to see me again. Naturally, they asked me when I would deal with the Prince of Golden Eagle. I did not give them an exact reply, but just said "to be determined".
At the weekend, Lu Xiaoyu and I went to Jincheng Hyatt in the north of Xingzhou City to find Buddha.
Of course, I led Xiaoyu through the back door.
On the day we went, Jin Laowai and He Jiman were not there. It happened that "Buddha" was watching the venue alone. However, since Buddha was still a newcomer, he didn't talk about many things in the venue, so he didn't take me with him.
and Lu Xiaoyu visited the Hyatt Regency in Jincheng.
In fact, Jincheng Hyatt is, to put it bluntly, a huge pornographic trading base. Even if Lord Fo were in charge, he would definitely not take Lu Xiaoyu and me to visit.
So when I, Lu Xiaoyu, came here, Lord Buddha said to me with a depressed look on his face: "Oh, silly brother-in-law, why did you lead Xiaoyu to a place like this? Are you out of your mind?"
After greeting me, Mr. Fo led Lu Xiaoyu and me into his office.
His office is relatively small. It doesn't even have a desk, just a bed, a coffee table and a sofa. It looks almost like a dormitory.
Fortunately, it's pretty clean inside.
Entering the room, Mr. Fo poured two glasses of water for me and Lu Xiaoyu, and then asked: "You two are not studying at school on the weekend. Why are you here with me? Are you going to take the exam soon?"
Before I could say anything, Lu Xiaoyu spoke first: "Brother, I just wanted to come over and see how you were doing. My parents also wanted to know how you were doing, so they asked me to come over and have a look. In fact, dad
Mom still hopes you can come back to our town."
Buddha shook his head and said: "Xiaoyu, you know my character. I can't get into the things that happen at home at all. It's better to be more carefree here. If you go back and tell your parents, I'm living a good life, I will also have a good life."
My own piece of heaven.”
Lu Xiaoyu was very afraid of Buddha, and she would not refute what Buddha said, so she nodded and said nothing. Alas, Lu Xiaoyu's parents made a wrong decision by letting her be a lobbyist.
Lu Xiaoyu chatted with Mr. Fo for a while, and the two of them had nothing to say. Mr. Fo glanced at me and asked: "Silly brother-in-law, tell me, you are not just accompanying my sister to see me, are you?"
I scratched my head and felt embarrassed and said, "I have something I want to ask the Buddha for advice."
Buddha nodded and said to me.
I took a breath, looked at Lu Xiaoyu next to me and said, "Lord Buddha, if my brother and I want to hold a knife, what do you think?"
When he heard me say holding the knife, Buddha was immediately stunned. Lu Xiaoyu next to him also became hysterical for a moment, and then looked at me with a puzzled face.
Buddha even said angrily: "Fuck you, silly brother-in-law, your brain is really full of shit. Do you know what 'holding a knife' means?"
I shook my head.
Buddha continued: "After holding a knife, it means that you have one foot to step into society, whether you want it or not. If you hold a knife, if the school finds out about you, it will definitely expel you. Will you think about it then?"
It’s difficult to enter society; at the same time, if you come into contact with knives, gangsters in society may also find you, some because they want to win over you, and some simply want to deal with you because they don’t like you. This society is far better than you think.
It's much more complicated, madman, stupid brother-in-law, I said, if you continue to be a gangster in society, then there is absolutely no way you can be with Xiaoyu. If you don't believe it, you can try it."
Lu Xiaoyu, who was next to me, even held my hand and shook his head, indicating that I should give up the idea.
How to put it, if I had to lose Lu Xiaoyu in exchange for the status of "holding a knife", I still wouldn't do it, not because I have a long-lasting love for my son and daughter, but because I haven't found the one in my heart who has to let me hold the knife.
The "reason" for the knife.
So I held Lu Xiaoyu's hand, then looked at Buddha with a smile and said: "I'm just joking, you guys are too serious. I haven't offended any gangsters in society. I'm holding the knife and making a fool of myself."
ah."
Seeing what I said, Lu Xiaoyu breathed a sigh of relief.
Buddha added worriedly: "Even if you offend the gangsters in society, I will not allow you to embark on this 'path'. I will take care of your affairs for you, and what you have to do is
Just a light rain is enough, don't let anything happen."
I said "Oh" and did not continue what Buddha said.
Next, Buddha said a lot of things to me, most of which were warning me not to step into the "Tao" of society, but I kept nodding in agreement.
At noon, Buddha took us to a nearby small restaurant for lunch, and then we left.
In the afternoon, I took Lu Xiaoyu to visit a few shopping malls in the city and bought her some summer clothes before we went back to school together.
In fact, those clothes were all those that I thought looked good, and I didn’t ask for her opinion much, and she didn’t express any opinions from the beginning to the end.
When we got on the bus back to school, Lu Xiaoyu took my arm and asked me: "Yifeng, do you want to be like my brother?"
I turned around and asked Lu Xiaoyu why he suddenly said this.
Lu Xiaoyu said: "I can see that you were not joking when you mentioned 'holding a knife' to my brother today, but you really want to hold a knife. I know what it means. My brother told me before
,Yifeng, don’t you want to go to college with me and live a peaceful life?”
I smiled and said, "Why don't you want to? It's just that my grades are too bad. It's really hard to get into the same school as you."
Lu Xiaoyu continued: "Even if you can't get into the same school, you can apply for a slightly worse school, and then we can go to the same city. At that time, we can still be together, and we can still want to be like this now, staying together every day.
Together, we can even live together..."
I could tell that Lu Xiaoyu really didn't want me to take the same path as her brother.
However, after listening to Lu Xiaoyu's words, I suddenly had this feeling - "She and I are from two different worlds."
This feeling makes my heart feel cold, painful, and empty...