"No matter how much he loves you, there is no way you can walk into Jun's house and become her upright wife!" This sentence made my heart clench hard, right? Can't you walk into Jun's house?
I leaned on the railing and looked outside. On the autumn night, the breeze was blowing, still dry, but less hot. Jun Changqian, do you still love me? You do love me, right? Otherwise, why would you sit opposite me where I usually sit?
As if you were facing me? I bit your arm and left a mark, just like A Li bit Zhang Wuji's arm. Did that mark also bite into your heart?
Ji Min'en said, no matter how much you love me, I can't walk through the door of Jun's house. She is right. How could Grandpa Jun let me be with you? He said that I would destroy you. So, you
Can you tell me, how can I get closer to you, how can I be on par with you?
The phone rang again, making a fuss in my pocket. A series of familiar numbers jumped on the screen.
"Speechless?" He was very anxious: "I was just discussing the investment plan for an international mall, and I didn't bring my mobile phone."
He probably heard that my breathing was relatively steady, so he slowly calmed down. "What did you say in the message just now?"
I thought he knew what I was talking about, but now, after Ji Minen explained everything to me, I began to wonder whether he knew about the video he sent me of Jun Changqian? Or, he
You didn't come to question me, you didn't come to care about me, and you acquiesced to my cold treatment. In fact, you knew that I felt guilty and blamed myself for Ye Tong, and you didn't want to add to my burden? Or maybe you attributed the cause of my depression to his engagement to Ji Min'en,
And silently retreated? But he didn't know at all that I misunderstood that he was the instigator of the Yetong incident?
Now that I think about it carefully, it seems that he really didn't say anything to me at that time, and I never asked him whether he was like this. I just subconsciously decided that he was the messenger of the Lord, and I should hate him. And then I hated him for half a year.
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After not getting an answer from me for a long time, he became a little anxious: "Are you in the dormitory? I'll come up now."
Who does he think he is? Can outsiders enter the girls' dormitory at will?
I hung up the phone and texted back: "I'll be down."
He said he was coming up, and he was probably already rushing here when he saw my text message. There were several missed calls on his phone, all from him. When he was talking to Ji Minen just now, he
I just called him and he is probably downstairs now.
What should I say when I see him? Say sorry to him? But we can't go back to the past, can we?
But after all, I still want to meet him. Just thinking about him sitting there alone, and imagining me sitting opposite him on weekdays, makes my heart clenched tightly and hurts.
I changed my clothes, put on some lip gloss, and went downstairs.
Sure enough, he was waiting outside the school, standing there alone, without driving over. I still remember that he used to come to school from City S to see me. In order to see me earlier, he would stand there, even with his clothes on.
Without changing, he just wore a black suit and stood up straight.
Every time he sees me coming out, the corners of his lips are raised in a smile, and his eyes are locked on mine, implying pampering.
It was no longer daytime, and there was a streetlight above his head. The dim light enveloped him, showing a trace of anxiety and loneliness.
I approached with mixed emotions, but he had already seen me, and the fire in my hand fell to the ground instantly, and then went out.
He came over and stood in front of me, his eyes locked on mine.
"Have you cried?" His deep voice was as gentle and doting as ever. I had already sorted out my mood when I went to see Hua Qin and He Lianluo, so why could he still tell with a sharp glance that I had cried?
?
I lowered my head slightly, not daring to look at him.
"What's going on with the text message?" he asked me again.
I clenched my fists, raised my head, looked into his eyes, and trembled slightly. I never knew that one day I would tremble slightly when I saw his eyes. It was not fear, not fear, but,
Feeling distressed!
I just feel distressed, and it hurts slightly when I squeeze it lightly, as if someone is holding me in my arms.
I forgot to answer, so I felt my wrist tighten, and he pulled me over, hugging me tightly, as if he wanted to embed me into his chest.
I was slightly stunned. He was obviously here to talk about something, but how could I be in his arms just by making eye contact?
But my heart was beating very loudly, as if it wanted to break away from the stillness of the past six months, singing loudly. I laid my ears on his chest, and the same violent heartbeat filled my eardrums, and his breath disturbed me.
My breathing rhythm stopped, and I felt a little dizzy. I forgot to struggle to escape.
After a long time, he whispered in my ear: "Girl, I miss you!"
With such a short five words, tears fell down.
He patted my back and coaxed: "Stop crying, just come back."
He didn't ask about the text message again, and I didn't mention it again. We just hugged each other and prayed to the end of the world in the autumn night.
"Hey, uncle, why are you here?" Jun Xiaoqing's voice seemed a bit abrupt. I left Jun Changqian's arms and met Cao Zijian's confused and ambiguous eyes.
Jun Changqian refused to let go of me. He held my hand and looked at Xiaoqing with a calm expression: "Oh, Xiaoqing, how are you? Are you still used to going to school?"
Jun Xiaoqing nodded, then stepped forward and opened my hand, took his arm and said, "Uncle, come here."
I didn't know what they were going to say, my hands fell empty, and there was still the warmth from his big palms.
My mind was a little confused, so I turned around and walked towards the campus. I didn't know if I could come back to him after this hug. He was engaged to Ji Min'en. Do you really want me to be his lover like what was said on campus?
?
No, I can't do it!
Jun Changqian didn't call me, he just sent a text message asking me to take care of myself. He also knows, right? He and Ji Min'en are engaged, so what can he do even if he loves me?
"Classmate Jun, you're not in a good mood." Ji Yinze caught up from behind holding two books. I didn't plan to respond and kept going.
After his elective class in the afternoon, there were no classes, so he just happened to walk around. It was about to enter the end of October, the weather turned cooler, and the leaves had almost fallen. However, Weiming Lake reflected the blue sky and white clouds, making it look quiet and peaceful.
Ji Yinze put the book on the stone bench and sat down on it.
"Classmate Jun, come over and have a chat." Ji Yinze waved to me. Could it be that people who study psychology are very keen and can see people's inner souls at a glance?
Compared with normal times, I don't have much emotional ups and downs. How could he see through it at a glance?
"Okay, I ask, you just nod or shake your head. OK?" He is really a difficult person. Ever since I met him by the fountain in the central square that day, this person has been like a gummy candy, always clinging to me.
. He made me have to take his class as an elective, and then he used the excuses of failing the homework, failing the exam, analyzing subjects in clinical experiments, etc., to forcefully explain what was in my heart at that time bit by bit.
What's even more frightening is that this man seems to be capable of psychological hypnosis. Several times, I felt like I had been relieved of a very heavy burden after talking to him, and I felt a rare sense of ease and ease.
It's probably an occupational disease. Whenever you see someone having something on their mind, you can't help but explain it, and that's what happened now.
He stood up, helped me to another stone bench, put another book on it, and made an elegant gesture to sit down.
"Emotional problems?" Ji Yinze's first question was, "What disease did I suffer from?" But doesn't Chinese medicine emphasize looking, hearing, asking, and feeling? His first step was to ask directly.
I was really annoyed, so I nodded.
Ji Yinze said: "The person you mentioned before is back to see you?"
I knew he knew my story, but I was pretty sure he didn't know the man's name.
I continued to nod.
"You still can't forgive him?" he asked again.
I shook my head. It was not about forgiving or not. He had done nothing wrong, so how could I forgive him?
"Now that he has come back to you and you have forgiven him, you should be happy. Oh, he has a new girlfriend?" Ji Yinze's character is like this, he is always talking, but in the lecture hall he is serious and confused.
Ji Yinze said: "This is indeed very distressing. Otherwise, Teacher Ji will take you to relax? Call Huanhuan too."
I suspected that he had fallen in love with Huanhuan recently, but Huanhuan never dragged him, so he decided to start with me. I curled my lips and didn't want to pay attention. But I was pulled back by Ji Yinze: "Classmate Jun, my lifelong happiness is
It's in your hands. Please, please."
Drinking caused an accident. If I hadn't wanted to use alcohol to get drunk and relieve the pain, how could I have let that happen?
Ji Yinze seemed to have thought of this, put away his idleness, and said seriously: "Classmate Jun, there are some things that need to be forgotten, and there are some things that need to be kept in mind and warned from time to time. But about that matter, you should try
Just let go."
Really? Try to let go, can I do it?
Ji Yinze held my shoulders with both hands and said, "If he had a soul in heaven, he wouldn't want you to be like this. At least, being happy and living a happy life every day is the reason why he did those things for you."
I thought about his words carefully, and when I was slightly touched, I heard him say again: "So, when we go to a bar, we must call Huanhuan. I'll change my clothes. I'm so handsome..."
With Ji Yinze like this, it is hard for you to believe that he is a psychology professor at Q University. Oh no, he is just a specially appointed lecturer of our school. But it is also hard for you to imagine how professional such a childish man can be.
Knowledge. But it is undeniable that I did follow many of his instructions without knowing it, and I got better and better.
