I was lying on the lawn by the roadside. The sea breeze was getting stronger and the sun was getting hotter, but I was like a corpse and didn't want to move.
The phone is buzzing crazily, maybe it's Jun Changqian? I once liked hearing his voice so much, but now I just feel heartbroken. Do you feel guilty for me? No need! I have my pride, and I won't hold it against him
Guilt came to threaten him to be with me. I have no hatred for Ji Minmin. He has lent me happiness for so many years, that’s enough! From now on, I want to get back on my own track!
After lying down for a long time, I got up. My phone was still buzzing. I glanced at the screen and saw many missed calls. Yu Bei, Le Siyuan, Su Molu, Sister Mingyue, Li Yangxi, and the most popular one was Jun Changqian. I guess he saw them.
The massager is placed outside the door.
I called Sister Mingyue back and said that I was very hungry and wanted to eat the food she cooked.
Sister Mingyue heard something wasn't right about my voice, asked me where I was, and told Li Yangxi to pick me up.
I was really hungry and didn't have the energy to walk any further, so I gave my address.
While I was waiting for Li Yangxi to pick me up, I sent a message to Jun Changqian: "Uncle, thank you for picking me up on the street and giving me so much love and care. The happiness of these twelve years has been mine.
I borrowed it from Minmin, now give it back to her, let's break up."
I pressed the word "break up" with trembling hands, and finally couldn't hold back the tears, which fell in large drops. If it hadn't been for Min Min's request, if it hadn't been for my own resolute abandonment of my only relative, I would have left Q City.
After taking a train all night to get here, maybe we are separated by two cities?
I came back in a hurry on my own. I couldn't figure out the situation, so I always thought it was Minmin who had bad intentions.
Never again, Jun Changqian, never again!
The moment the message was successfully sent, the phone rang again. I threw it into my bag, carried the bag, and stood up holding on to the coconut tree beside me.
I don’t know how long I’ve been walking for just now, and after walking around for so long, my feet have blistered and are very painful.
But I couldn't resist the pain in my heart. Looking back on the journey with Jun Changqian, I was always cautious. From the beginning, he didn't know my feelings for him, and I was constrained by the seniority between uncle and nephew.
I thought it would be nice to be by his side, even if I had to give in; later he and Min En had the intention of getting engaged, so I became even more careful.
I think this kind of love has given me a lot. I have enjoyed it whether it hurts or favors me, and I have no regrets. It’s just that in the future life, when there is no longer a certain person, I will feel this kind of loss and the fear of falling into a black hole.
I was so uneasy that I almost lost my balance. I lost my hat somewhere, and a young man driving a sports car passed by, pointing at the back of my head and laughing.
I also burst out laughing. How true is the person I am willing to sacrifice my life for?
Li Yangxi's car drove very fast, looking around all the way, and finally stopped in front of me with a screeching sound.
"Speechless?" He looked at my embarrassed look in surprise. He had just been lying on the lawn, and he probably hadn't even brushed the grass clippings off his body. At this moment, he was laughing like no one else was there, and even burst into tears.
Seeing him, I wanted to laugh even more. I couldn't stop. I bent over and lowered my head, and big tears fell down again.
Li Yangxi took a step forward and took me into his arms. He just hugged me and lent me his shoulder without saying a word.
After finally venting my anger, I followed him into the car. Li Yangxi said, "My wife has made a big table of dishes. You can eat as much as you want."
I nodded, smiled and thanked him. Every time I got hurt, he was always by my side.
"Why are you thanking me? It's not my cooking." Li Yangxi said as he started the car and turned around.
The journey is not too far, but it is already getting dusk. I have been wandering outside all day, and now my stomach is making an unsatisfactory growl. Li Yangxi smiled and said: "You really want to eat something delicious."
I nodded, not feeling ashamed at all.
Sister Mingyue and Lu Qiulang were waiting for me in the rented house, and Xu Yawei was helping to set the dishes. I slowly approached Lu Qiulang and said, "Uncle, I want to come back, will you kick me out?"
Lu Qiulang sighed and said, "Does it hurt?"
I nodded and put my hand on my chest: "It hurts!"
Lu Qiulang opened his arms to me without reservation. His nose felt sore inexplicably, and the tears he had shed all afternoon fell to the corner of his mouth again.
My stomach growled again. Sister Mingyue came over and hugged me. She patted Lu Qiulang and said, "Are you hungry? Come and eat."
Yawei took my bag and hung it up, but it still kept beeping and refused to stop. There was only one battery left in it, so I thought the beeping would stop soon.
No one asked me what happened, everyone understood it tacitly. While eating, Sister Mingyue talked about what kind of strange customer she met during the day. Li Yangxi also said how that customer was, and Yawei also answered with a smile.
Two cups of coffee were not enough. Lu Qiulang didn't answer much, but kept adding vegetables to my bowl.
Sure enough, after finishing the meal, the phone ran out of battery and finally stopped its endless, indomitable beeping.
I felt very tired, so I took a shower and slept in the same room as Yawei. I thought it would be difficult to fall asleep tonight, but I didn't expect that I fell asleep very quickly as soon as I lay down.
In a daze, he heard Lu Qiulang talking to someone, scolding him harshly, without showing any mercy.
I leaned up and walked out of the room a little head-heavy, and saw Jun Changqian standing in the living room. This is a rented three-bedroom apartment, and the living room is outside the room. As soon as I went out, he looked over.
I moved my eyes away, not wanting to look at him. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to hold back and cry in front of him. I didn't want to look so embarrassed.
Jun Changqian walked towards me and stretched out his mobile phone in front of me. He was obviously angry: "What's going on?"
Li Yangxi wanted to step forward to stop him, but Lu Qiulang stopped him. Thinking that it would be useless to argue in public, I simply turned around and went back to the room.
It seemed that I was the only one who went to bed early, and Yawei was not in the room.
He leaned forward and grabbed my wrist with great force, and a wave of pain came over me: "Jun Buyu, please tell me clearly, what is going on?"
When he calls me by my first name, it's usually when he's very angry.
His mobile phone was stretched out towards me, and on the screen was the message that I said I wanted to break up. His eyes were flashing red, reminding me of the question he had when he said I had taken away the child.
Is this happening again? Why can't he ask what's wrong with him? Forget it, what's the point of saying that now? What I want is not guilt!!
I turned my back and pretended to be calm: "As you can see, let's break up."
It turns out that speaking these two words requires great courage. The words spit out bit by bit from the torn heart are like thunder in the ears. After the explosion, everything is irreversible.
"Because I hugged Minmin?" He stepped closer to me, "Because of this, you said goodbye easily?"
The Jun Changqian in front of me doesn't look like Jun Changqian, but more like a young man trapped in love. But, if Minmin hadn't hoped for someone to accompany you instead of her, if it hadn't been for you who wanted Minmin to leave in peace, then there's me.
what's up?
Please, don't let me think you are sentimental!
"It's not the first time you hugged her! I can't bear the torture several times." Pretending, I really know how to do it, with such a calm voice, how did I do it.
"The first time, she overturned the wheelchair, and you happened to see it; the second time, she held my hand and said, don't drive her away, you are right behind me; the third time, she put tulips in the room
, calculated the time and asked Uncle Zhong to call her, just saying that I put the tulips in her bedroom; the fourth time you proposed to me, she fell into the sea... It was too much trouble, I was very tired! "
He wanted to hug me, but I avoided him. He coaxed in a low voice: "I know you are tired, but you will not be tired soon. Minmin, there is only one month left."
I raised my head in shock. Ji Minmin looked so healthy, how could she only have one month left? Who made a mistake?
"I stopped by for a checkup this morning. What the doctor said." Jun Changqian leaned against the wall, looking lonely. "After coming back from the hospital, her mood never improved. When I was comforting her, she hugged me..."
He was explaining to me, but I was not in the mood to listen. I already had preconceived ideas. Furthermore, didn't he hear what Ji Minmin said? Or did he think I was too far away to hear him?
He still doesn't want to break up, right? After all, he doesn't want Minmin to leave without peace of mind. She only has one month, so let's delay it for another month.
I raised my head and said: "I understand. I have to go back to school tomorrow to prepare for the thesis defense and some graduation matters. Tomorrow is Uncle Zhong's birthday. I won't go back. You can do it for me.
Say happy birthday."
He looked at me for a long time, and guessed that I had never mentioned going back to school. In fact, it is okay to go back later, but under the current situation, I don’t want to stay here anymore. After this month, Minmin leaves, and I
Maybe I won't come back again, what I want is uniqueness.
He didn't say much, just shook my shoulder and walked out.
I leaned against the door, as if I had fought a fierce battle, and my whole body was dripping with sweat.
Minmin, who has always refused to see a doctor, went to see a doctor today. As I expected, she was burned by soy milk and had to be sent to the hospital. Since she went to the hospital, Jun Changqian would definitely coax her to see a doctor. Just this
The result was beyond my expectation, she was really sick.
But, what does it have to do with whether I am really sick or not? I am just an explanation she made to Jun Changqian before she died. Why should I be this explanation? What is even more tragic is that in the past twelve years, I have only been her.
