Chapter 222: I Can Only Stay Away [One One Diamonds]
"No, it's not that I have masochistic tendencies, but Mu Yuxiu has never hurt me. This is the most important reason why I have never really hated him, or even given up on loving him." Compared with Sheng Qizhou's
Excited and gentle, she was calmer than ever, as if Sheng Qizhou was a joke in her eyes and what he said was ridiculous.
This made Sheng Qizhou himself start to question himself.
His eyes were dazed for a moment, but he returned to his usual calmness in an instant. He asked Wen Wan, "Really? Wen Wan, in fact, your love is not that great, let alone that pure. You are just deceiving yourself and making excuses.
Mu Yuxiu treats you far less well than you imagined."
"So you think your sowing discord and conspiracy can easily separate us, right?" Wen Wan asked without answering, with a smile on her lips, looking at Sheng Qizhou sadly, "Okay then"
, I will tell you now why he used the same tricks as you, but I didn’t care about him."
"I'm not afraid of your jokes. He raped me the first time. I didn't feel any pleasure. All I could feel was pain. Then I fainted, but when I woke up, I found that I was in bed, and my lower body was already
He cleaned me up very well. Then I fell asleep again, and he got up and went to the kitchen to cook me a bowl of porridge, but before that, I left."
When Wen Wan talks about these things, the look in her eyes is very gentle.
In fact, many times she was grateful for the entanglement during that period, which allowed them to have all kinds of ties later and they were able to get to where they are today step by step.
She continued: "I went to find Yuan Qian, and he chased me. His purpose was not to capture me and imprison me, but to worry about my safety. I didn't know that he had actually been following me. When I fainted,
He hugged me. Later, he used all kinds of methods to force me to be his woman, but do you know Sheng Qizhou? When he used these methods, he did not let others hurt me at all, he tortured me
The only way to do this is in bed, or by slandering and humiliating me. From this point of comparison, what have you, Sheng Qizhou, done?"
Sheng Qizhou could not answer this question.
Because it was at this moment that he probably knew the difference between himself and Mu Yuxiu.
What he did to Wen Wan was to put her to death in order to survive. He could push her into hell with all his heart because he also had the means to pull her back to the clouds.
He always thought that if he hurt her first, he could always save her in the end and let her know that everything he did was for her.
She will always forgive him and accept him.
But Mu Yuxiu is different.
She said Mu Yuxiu would not allow others to hurt her.
Seeing that Sheng Qizhou looked a little confused, Wen Wan continued: "When I entered the Sheng family, you set up a trap for the first time to make me misunderstand him. What were you using? What you were using was that Mu Yuxiu loved me."
"When you firmly believe that Mu Yuxiu will save me, you should know that in order to prevent me from being harmed, he would rather give up the revenge plan he has been planning for many years. Even if it fails and starts all over again, he will not be willing to push me there.
Such a situation. And you? Just the opposite of him."
"You wouldn't know that when I left him for the first time, he locked himself in the house and smashed everything in the room. After he was drunk, he used glass shards to scratch his wrists. You know what he did,
Does it make my heart hurt?" Wen Wan said this, and once again thought of the thick blood in Mu Yuxiu's eyes, the blood in his palms, and the pain on his face.
She felt so distressed that she originally didn't want to cry in front of Sheng Qizhou, but she couldn't control herself and her tears kept falling.
When she wiped it away, she thought of the tenderness and distress in his eyes when he wiped her tears, so her tears flowed more fiercely, and she could only choke and say: "I have never told him this, but what he suffered for me
I remember everything he did for me clearly. When I was on my period, he would boil brown sugar water for me, buy sanitary napkins, and even help me change sanitary napkins. He would wash my clothes and make meals.
He did. Sheng Qizhou, don't say I love him Mu Yuxiu, for any woman, if she is pampered like this by a man, it is impossible for her not to love him."
"In that case, do you still think that I am masochistic? Do you still think that you like me and that everything you do is right? No, Sheng Qizhou, you don't know how to love at all, or maybe you only love
yourself."
"I don't understand love?" Sheng Qizhou spoke at this time. After hearing what Wen Wan had just said, he completely lost control. All the hatred and pain that he usually kept deep in his heart burst out. He raised his voice with some excitement,
"You don't understand me at all! You have never given me a chance, you have been rejecting me, how can you ask me to pamper you like Mu Yuxiu does?"
"I once loved a woman. I would wash her clothes and cook for her. I would also help her buy sanitary napkins. I would hold her and coax her when she was in pain. But what did I get in the end? I
What I saw was her naked body straddling another man. Do you know who this man is? It’s my eldest brother, Mu Yuxiu! At that time, I thought it was a misunderstanding, so I begged her countless times.
She wanted an explanation, but what was the result? She told me that she was pregnant and the child was Mu Yuxiu's, but I still didn't believe it."
"Do you know how humble I was at that time? I almost knelt down to beg her, but she walked away. I chased her to the airport, and there was a car accident on the way. It was also at that time that my leg was amputated.
The first person I wanted to see the most after I woke up was her, but I stayed in the hospital for so long and she never came."
"You still say that I don't understand love, am I cold-blooded? I also want to believe in love, and I want to pursue you in the right way, but I don't dare anymore. I'm afraid of being rejected, and I'm afraid of being hurt to that point again. I
I would rather control everything and use whatever means necessary than let myself sink into the dust."
In the beginning, human beings are inherently good.
Everyone’s personality and outlook on life are different, which are actually affected by their growth environment and experiences.
Such as Mu Yuxiu, such as Sheng Qizhou.
Because he had been betrayed, he no longer believed in true love, wrapped up his heart in layers, and was unwilling to treat anyone with sincerity.
His own shortcomings make him stronger than anyone else. The more a person pursues perfection, the more lacking he is in a certain aspect. His attempt to let people see his best side is actually nothing more than a
A sign of inferiority.
right.
Sheng Qizhou has low self-esteem.
Because of his low self-esteem, he was hostile and jealous of Mu Yuxiu.
Because of his low self-esteem, he would steal other people's things.
Because of his low self-esteem, he wants to attract other people's attention.
Often this kind of person is actually the most miserable.
Wen Wan can understand Sheng Qizhou's pain and hardship, but this does not mean that she can accept what Sheng Qizhou did.
She only half believed what Sheng Qizhou said. As for Mu Yuxiu being entangled with Sheng Qizhou's woman, she only regarded it as Sheng Qizhou's instigation.
Sheng Qizhou was silent for a long time, and then Wen Wan said: "Actually, Second Young Master, let's not say whether I regard you as a true friend, but at least with the help of your warm greetings to me some time ago, I began to trust you.
I gave you a chance, as long as you don't frame Ah Xiu again, but in the end it was me who was too sentimental."
Over the years, Sheng Qizhou has never had a real friend, let alone anyone who really cares about him, but he feels he doesn't need them and he doesn't care.
He is never afraid of losing anything, because he has everything and there is nothing to lose.
Or maybe he has nothing, so he has nothing to lose.
However, when he saw the disappointment in Wen Wan's eyes, and when the panic in his heart surged up again, he finally knew what he had lost.
Even if the real Yuan Qian left him, he never felt the sense of loss so deeply as at this moment.
Over the years, as long as it was something he wanted, even if it was something he didn't want but had to get, he would fight for it and grab it. He didn't care whether the other person was his eldest brother or his sister-in-law, he had always been the one in his heart.
Without these concepts, he only cares about his own interests.
But what did he actually get?
Supreme right?
Worshiped and admired by millions of people?
Or countless money?
He got them all, but none of them were what he wanted. He suddenly felt that he actually had nothing.
hehe--
It turns out that the second young master of the Sheng family, who looks perfect and extraordinary in the eyes of outsiders, is actually a walking corpse?
It turns out that the principles and beliefs he has adhered to for many years are actually wrong?
It turned out that the person who made him see himself clearly was actually the woman he had always wanted to control and conquer?
He just felt that his world suddenly collapsed at this moment, and he suddenly didn't know the meaning of living in this world.
At this moment, he felt the loneliness as if his heart was empty. Only then did he realize how sad his life had been over the years, and what kind of path he had taken from the beginning.
Sheng Qizhou's back, which had always been straight, collapsed a little bit. He leaned against the back of the sofa. His noble and aloof temperament in the past was now slumped and tired.
"Second Young Master, that's all I'm saying. Please don't do these things again. I can tell you clearly that even without him, Mu Yuxiu, my choice would not be you Sheng Qizhou." Wen Wan stood up and said,
He bowed his head and said hello before leaving.
However, Sheng Qizhou suddenly grabbed her wrist, without raising his head to look at her, and asked in a low and sad voice: "You are no longer willing to accept the heart I provide, do you think I will do something with it?"
He raised his head and saw the sarcasm in Wen Wan's eyes. Sheng Qizhou smiled bitterly and said, "I really won't do anything else this time. Wen Wan, I promise, I just want to save you, I don't want you to die."
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"How do you want me to trust you?" Wen Wan coldly shook off Sheng Qizhou's arm.
She looked down at him from above, her condescending attitude full of ridicule, "You also said that day that you would protect Ahan, but what happened? You set up a trap to make her lose her child, and you almost cost me my life countless times. Now you
You also said you wanted to save me, who would believe it? How do I know if you are planning something else, if you are targeting Mu Yuxiu again?"
"Sheng Qizhou, I'm really afraid of you. I can only stay away from a person like you who has all your tricks and is watertight. I would rather die than accept any help from you again." After she finished speaking, she no longer looked at him.
With one glance, he lifted his feet and walked out.
