He had no intention of killing the child in her belly, but he couldn't help but want to get rid of him.
However, who would believe this?
No matter who it is, they will suspect that he actually wants the child to die.
Even if he really wanted him to die, he couldn't tell Kisaragi.
He couldn't let her carry any ideological baggage.
This is not considered deception or concealment.
After all, there is no absolute and unreserved relationship between people.
If we really get to that point, something will happen sooner or later.
So he didn't feel any guilt in his heart for not telling the truth to her.
He just didn't want her to think too much...
He seemed to be in a daze and didn't answer.
The confusion in Nangong Ruyue's eyes became even more serious: "What did you really hide from me?"
"No!" Xiao Zexin denied in a deep voice, "I just lose control occasionally. I really don't want you to stay with me. Can you go back? When I get better, I will go back to find you."
"If I were sick and I asked you to go back, would you go back?" Nangong Ruyue asked.
"I said this is different, I am a man..."
"What's wrong with you being a man!" Nangong Ruyue interrupted him, "As a man you have to bear everything? Are you not willing to just let me stay by your side and share something with you?"
Xiao Zexin clenched his hands tightly: "I will hurt you..."
"Then did you hurt me?"
"I'm really going to hurt you."
"Wait until you really hurt me before you talk."
"Ruyue, this is not child's play!" Xiao Zexin shouted emotionally.
"Go back, I can't relax here at all!"
Nangong Ruyue's eyes instantly turned red.
"You can't relax because you are too nervous and you are too afraid of hurting me. From now on, don't be afraid of hurting me and learn to relax."
Xiao Zexin stared at her, with uncontrollable anger in his eyes.
"Do you know what the consequences of your injury will be? One dead body, two lives, do you know! At this time, you should stay as far away from me as possible, and it is best not to appear in front of me!"
"If I stay away from you, your illness will be cured?"
"……right."
"When is the best time?"
"..."
"One month, two months, or half a year?"
Xiao Zexin couldn't answer, and he didn't know how long it would take for him to recover.
Perhaps, this inner demon will stay with him for the rest of his life.
Nangong Ruyue's eyes looked sad: "If you can't recover for the rest of your life, then do I have to avoid you for the rest of your life? Do we have to not see each other for the rest of our lives?"
"It won't take that long..."
"How long will it take? Xiao Zexin, how old are you and how old am I?! How long do we have? Maybe in ten or twenty years, we will all be dead!"
Xiao Zexin trembled all over!
Nangong Ruyue raised her hand to wipe away her tears: "We are not twenty-year-old young people. We have no time to waste and we have no time to separate anymore. Maybe, if there is an accident tomorrow, I will..."
"Shut up! Don't say that kind of thing!" Xiao Zexin interrupted her hastily.
"I'm telling the truth. So just because of your illness, you asked me to hide from you. Do you think I will agree to it?"
"..." Xiao Zexin clenched his hands even more tightly.
He knew she was right.
However, he didn't dare to gamble, and he didn't want to live if he lost her.
Nangong Ruyue seemed to see his concerns, she said softly: "Even if you really lose control and kill me, I will not regret it. As long as I can be by your side, I am not afraid of death."