Xiao Lang curled up on the bed and fell asleep, holding a scarf in his hand, which was knitted by Li Mingxi for him.
In the past few days, he has been holding the scarf and being in a daze day and night.
He fell asleep for a short time, so the maid didn't dare to disturb him when he was asleep.
The maid gently placed the medicine on the bedside table, then pulled up the quilt to cover him.
As soon as she moved, Xiao Lang opened his eyes in confusion.
"Mingxi..."
He thought the person in front of him was Li Mingxi, but when he saw it clearly, he realized it wasn't.
Xiao Lang couldn't hide the disappointment in his eyes.
The maid said respectfully: "Master, it's time to take medicine."
Xiao Lang was in a gloomy mood and said calmly: "Take it away, I don't want to eat it."
"Master, this is the medicine prescribed by Master Xiao. You must take it. If you don't take it, your body will not recover."
He didn't want his body to recover at all.
He doesn't want to do anything, he just wants to fend for himself.
But he promised Mother Li that she would live and not seek death.
But he didn't want to live a good life, and Li Mingxi's death had something to do with him.
He was the one who harmed her. If he hadn't insisted on imprisoning her and keeping her, nothing would have happened to her.
He cannot seek death. Only by torturing his body will he feel much better.
Xiao Lang was determined not to take medicine. The maid tried to persuade her again and again, but to no avail.
Seeing the young master's thin and haggard body, the maid sighed and had to withdraw.
Xiao Lang had stomach problems. Now he doesn't eat, drink or take medicine, so he gets sick every day.
He used to find stomach pain unbearable, but now he likes it very much.
Only when he had a stomachache did he feel that he was alive and not a walking corpse.
Also, this is his punishment for himself...
The stomach trouble occurred again.
With a burning stomachache, Xiao Lang curled up, put the scarf on his face, and smiled slightly.
Mingxi, I am already being punished, do you see it?
If you see it, please come to me in your dream. I have a lot to say to you.
But why don't you come? Is it because I haven't punished myself enough?
Is it because you still refuse to forgive me?
I just want to tell you something from my heart, and I don’t dare to ask for your forgiveness. Isn’t this even possible?
Xiao Lang closed his eyes and waited for Li Mingxi to enter his dream.
But she never came.
Maybe, he really didn't punish him enough.
Xiao Lang endured severe stomach pain and closed himself in the darkness, punishing himself and unwilling to wake up.
…
"How is the young master?"
"No...infusion alone is not enough...you must eat and drink medicine..."
"Master, wake up, Master, you will die if you do this."
It would be better if he died. After he died, he could go to Li Mingxi, apologize to her, and ask for her forgiveness.
As long as she forgives him, she will be with him.
He just wants to ask for her forgiveness...
Disheng called Xiao Lang several times, but he never woke him up.
The doctor next to him sighed: "He can't do it like this. He already had stomach problems, and now he is depressed. It will only make his condition worse, and it is very likely that he will develop into gastric cancer. He must cheer up, eat on time, and drink Chinese medicine.
Conditioning.”
Disheng also knew that the young master could not continue like this.
But the young master is simply hopeless and doesn't listen to anyone.
He was lucky enough not to commit suicide.
Xiao Lang wandered in the darkness, searching, but never found Li Mingxi.
He didn't know what was wrong. He used to dream about her every day, but now that she was gone, he couldn't dream about her anymore.