504. Chapter 504 I still remember the first time I saw you
"Tell me, is your heart beating fast?"
He pressed his forehead against hers, looked into her eyes with his deep black eyes, and asked in a low voice.
Jiang Yufei did not answer.
He asked again: "Tell me, is your heart beating fast?"
Jiang Yufei said expressionlessly: "I have long since stopped feeling my heartbeat."
Her heart was like a pool of stagnant water, calm and lifeless.
Although her heart was still beating, she couldn't feel it.
Ruan Tianling lowered his head and gently held her lips in his mouth, kissing her softly and lovingly. His kiss had never been so gentle and affectionate.
Jiang Yufei wanted to push him away, but her body was limp and she didn't have much strength. Even if she had the strength, she couldn't push him away.
Her strength has never been effective in front of him.
"Yufei, when did you fall in love with me?" Ruan Tianling asked in a low voice while kissing her.
"..." Jiang Yufei stared at the ceiling with her eyes open, without any reaction.
The man dragged her hips, hugged her body tightly, and pressed his lips on her neck.
"Have you forgotten? Or have you never loved me?"
"..."
"I still remember that when I first met you, you were very shy and timid, and you were different from other girls on blind dates. You didn't have their courage, their generosity, and their pretentiousness. You were just shy.
, you don’t even dare to take a secret look at me.”
"..."
"At that time, I was thinking, I will definitely not choose you to be my wife. Because you are too unremarkable, as ordinary as a grain of sand.
But fate is so strange, it happened that you married me. I admit, I treat you badly not only because I don't love you, but also because I look down on you.
In my eyes, you are too ordinary, and I think you are completely unworthy of me."
"..."
Ruan Tianling paused and then said: "But it's amazing that I don't feel bored living with you.
I'm just used to pretending to hate you and ignore you.
But sleeping with you every night, I feel very comfortable, and I don't feel any rejection at all. I obviously hate you, but I don't reject you as my wife.
I am very conflicted and confused, my mind is always wandering, like a homeless man who doesn’t know where to go.”
"Later Yan Yue came back, and I was very happy because I no longer had to be at a loss.
I told myself that I must choose Yan Yue resolutely, after all, she has always been the woman I love.
However, after divorcing you, I felt even more confused. It turned out that the place I thought I belonged to was not what I needed.
I think I love Yan Yue very much, I think she is the woman who is most worthy of me, and I think you are not good at all."
"In the end, I discovered that the feelings I had for her for more than ten years had already turned into a kind of family affection. As a result, I couldn't distinguish between love and family affection, and thought I loved her very much. Now I know that the feelings between men and women are not the same.
That’s how it should be…”
"..."
"Yufei, I always thought of myself, but now I know that what you and I have come to today is the result of what I think. Yufei, try to accept me, can we start over?"
Ruan Tianling spoke softly. He raised his head and met Jiang Yufei's wandering eyes.
She was in a daze. Did she listen to him?
The man frowned and pinched her chin: "Did you hear what I said?"
Jiang Yufei came back to her senses and said calmly: "I heard it."