At noon in summer, the sun was very hot, but Jiang Wei felt very cold all over. Above his head, the sunlight shining through the lush branches and leaves did not have any warmth. The coldness in his heart spread, and his lips were purple and trembling. His eyes did not dare to look, and he could not bear it.
Look at the girl next to you. This person who should exist in your dreams and miss her every day and night is now walking beside you, but she doesn't feel the slightest bit of heartbeat, only a touch of sadness.
The sadness does not come from the pain deep in the heart, but from the care of love. Although Jiang Wei is fat, his mind is very sensitive. From the moment he saw Su Xiaohan, he knew that it would be difficult to conquer. There was desire in Su Xiaohan's eyes,
In a materialistic world, money, power, and more fill her soul. Although her human side is occasionally revealed, it is fleeting. She has no time to wait and see, just like a shooting star in the night sky.
.
Shooting stars are beautiful, but very short-lived, just like his love. If falling in love with Su Xiaohan is a mistake, Jiang Wei would rather make it forever. A relationship that ends before it begins will be even more unforgettable.
He is a student of a third-rate university. He is a boy who came out of rural Heilongjiang. He carries the expectations of the whole village and looks forward to the future with passion. But the reality is always quite cruel. He thought that no matter how hard or tiring he is, he will always be able to survive.
You know, college students have a lot of good times, but when he met Su Xiaohan, he fell into despair.
Now that he was sinking, he didn't want to get up. So he ignored the warning of reason and beat Xu Pengfei. The outcome waiting for him was obvious. With Xu Pengfei's family background, it was too easy to get a college student without any power. It was as easy as stepping on a dead end.
Xiaocao by the side. But Jiang Wei couldn't bear it, his own affairs had affected Wu Ming and the others.
He didn't blame the girl around him at all, really, he just felt pity. Even if Su Xiaohan returned to someone else's arms tomorrow. He just wanted her to live well, but Xu Pengfei would never give Su Xiaohan happiness.
Su Xiaohan followed silently, the high heels under her feet ticking. The tree-lined path was cut with blue bricks. If you didn't pay attention to the gaps, the heels would get stuck. Just like her life, she would fall down accidentally. Although Su Xiaohan didn't want to
Admit it, she fell, and fell very hard.
Although the boy around her is not good-looking and even a little ugly, he cares about her. Unlike Xu Pengfei, he is just curious and only likes her appearance. Xu Pengfei has no shortage of women around him, especially beautiful women. She will always be one of them.
, will never be the only one. But he is Jiang Wei’s only one. Even if they have not known each other for a long time.
The surnames Gan and Li will always be twin brothers, constantly circling in his mind. Su Xiaohan has vowed to find a rich man since she was sensible, but there is always no chance. Now the only chance has slipped away.
Su Xiaohan stopped and Jiang Wei followed suit, looking back in confusion.
"Let's have a good talk." Su Xiaohan sighed, "Find a place where we can talk."
Jiang Wei nodded, so the two of them went to the rooftop of the library. Here, he once shouted to the sunset that his love was dead. But today he came to the same place with a love that was about to be destroyed, and seemed to want to verify
Speaking of that day, the irony is that Jiang Wei no longer had the heroic spirit he had at that time, but instead felt a touch of regret, intolerance and pain.
A few sticks were used to prop up a simple shed, and the two sat opposite each other, speechless for a while.
Su Xiaohan finally spoke and said with a smile: "Are you looking down on me?" The smile was natural, a little helpless and indifferent in nature, and there was laziness and depravity flowing in her body. Depravity, yes, this was something Jiang Wei could clearly feel.
Jiang Wei was stunned, shook his head and said: "How could it be? Everyone has the right to choose their own life. Your way is different from others, there is nothing wrong with it."
"But I see disappointment in your eyes." Su Xiaohan sighed.
Jiang Wei turned his head. He really didn't like, and even hated the lifestyle Su Xiaohan chose, and said, "I respect your choice more than others' hypocrisy."
Su Xiaohan smiled helplessly, shook her head and said: "People worship money and material things, and they always comment on others easily, trying to restrain others with unbrained conclusions. But everything happens for its own reason. Looking at the underlying reasons,
The emergence of phenomena is accompanied by good things. Because our starting point is always good. At least, personally, the starting point is good."
When Jiang Wei was about to speak, Su Xiaohan shook his head and said, "Don't refute, just listen to what I have to say."
Jiang Wei lowered his head and listened carefully.
Su Xiaohan looked at the sky and sighed: "When I was seven years old, my parents divorced. I lived with my mother. Can you guess why they divorced?"
With a wry smile, Su Xiaohan said: "For a schoolbag, my schoolbag. My mother loves me very much. Since my brother died, oh, by the way, my brother is two years younger than me. He was born with congenital heart disease and spent all the money."
Even with all the money in the family, he still left us. After my brother left, I was six years old and already knew how to feel sad. I was in the first grade of primary school when I was seven, but I didn’t have a nice school bag. My mother missed my father.
I wanted to, but was beaten. The reason was very simple. The schoolbag cost 20 yuan, and my father thought it was very expensive. Later I found out that it was not the reason for the 20 yuan, but that my father didn’t want to spend money on me. Because I didn’t want to spend money on me.
I have a younger brother, but he is not born to my mother. You should know that my father is having an affair."
"After that, my mother divorced my father and took me to live with me. When I was a child, I didn't know much about it and didn't care much about dressing up. Thinking about it, I lived very happily at that time. There was no father's love, no material things, and I was ignorant. Although
I understand, but at least I am happy." Su Xiaohan said quietly, "Until I was in the fifth grade, I was the most beautiful girl in the class, and almost all the boys in the class liked me. At that time, the simple eleven-year-old
Isn’t it ridiculous that a child can understand emotions? The girls in the class didn’t like me, they attacked me, and showed off beautiful pencils in front of me, as well as photos of travels across the country. At that time, I went home and asked my mother to give me
Good thing. I am really ignorant. My mother did not remarry and raised me alone. What she could give me was the best. I cry, I make trouble, and my mother also cries."
"I clearly remember what my mother said: I will marry a rich man in the future, so that I will not suffer. Even if there is no love, divorce is guaranteed. No matter whether you have money or not, you are unreliable in this world."
Jiang Wei listened to Su Xiaohan's story and fell silent. He didn't know what to say to comfort him. He squinted his eyes against the dazzling sunshine. He was also born in a poor family and also suffered the harm caused by poverty. But he
Fortunately, at least his parents love each other very much, cherish him very much, and try their best to satisfy him with whatever he wants.
"I'm sorry." Jiang Wei said softly, "Actually, you..."
"Are you starting to pity me now?" Su Xiaohan said lightly, "After I tell my story, can you understand some of what I'm thinking?"
Su Xiaohan's tone was very hot and aggressive: "You are standing on the top of a tall man's surname, overlooking me. I am ridiculous and pitiful. Is it different from the person you imagined?"
Jiang Wei wanted to shake his head, but finally nodded. Because no matter whether it was right or wrong, he found that he was not qualified to comment at all.
"You are very tired of living." Jiang Wei said, "Me too. Everyone is very tired of living. Because you can't get what you want, and people's desires are endless and extend to every aspect of society."
Su Xiaohan was not interested in continuing to dwell on the principles of life, and was in a low mood.
"Actually, I admire you very much, really." Jiang Wei suddenly said.
Su Xiaohan raised her head and looked at the person in front of her in confusion, asking if she heard correctly.
"No matter what, you still dare to admit yourself, but I don't have the courage. I am fat and not handsome. My family has no money, and I don't have much ability. I have a strong self-esteem and I envy rich people when I see them. But I always pretend
Qing Gao, and Li Haoran laughed at the rich people in the world, laughed at the social system, and even cursed everything. I was addicted to the dream I weaved. Just like the protagonist in "The Great Gatsby", living in innocence. I feel
The person who knows me best is Wu Ming. He understands what I need, gives me courage, and encourages me. I am very grateful to him, but I can’t say it out loud. Because there is a feeling that suppresses me, which is stronger than my gratitude to Wu Ming." Jiang
Wei laughed at himself, "He is the calmest person I have ever seen, and also the most opaque person. He has ideals, pursuits, and is always taking action. As we all know, although he is happy, he also feels inferior and miserable. You
Do you understand that feeling?”
Su Xiaohan nodded and said: "He and Lu Xiaoman are a good match."
"You are wrong, he is not a good match for anyone." Jiang Wei seemed to know Wu Ming very well, shaking his head and said, "But he is a good match for everyone."
"What do you mean?" Su Xiaohan asked curiously, forgetting her own story.
Jiang Wei organized the language and said: "This is just a feeling. I have always been very sensitive to things around me. Although I don't want to admit it, Wu Ming is indeed very mysterious. When we are dating, his eyes are really looking at you and he is very passionate.
, very kind, but there was always something missing. I didn’t understand it until today.”
"He has very good skills and is very good at fighting." Su Xiaohan said thoughtfully.
"No. He is like a dragon hiding in the world," Jiang Wei described it this way. "Nothing changes in his face in front of him. Even if he offends Xu Pengfei, he won't hesitate. Alas, it's just a pity that I got involved.
"
Su Xiaohan's eyes dimmed and she whispered: "It's my fault."
"It's God's fault." Jiang Wei laughed. Su Xiaohan also laughed.
"Leave Xu Pengfei." Jiang Wei hesitated for a moment, finally mustered up the courage, and said tentatively.
Su Xiaohan, who was joking just now, had a sudden change in his face, frowned in thought, and then shook his head for a long time and sighed: "I don't know."
Jiang Wei was angry, grabbed Su Xiaohan's hand, and asked: "Didn't you see what happened today? You are nothing to him! Money is really so important. I can do as much as he can give you.
Even if I can’t do it now, I will definitely do it in the future!”
The vowed words not only did not move Su Xiaohan, but instead stimulated her. Su Xiaohan suddenly hugged Jiang Wei and cried, heartbreakingly, with unspeakable regret and helplessness in her voice: "I'm sorry, it's really not about money now!
"
"Why?" Jiang Wei asked angrily.
"Xu Pengfei has photos of me at home." Su Xiaohan's words were like thunder in Jiang Wei's ears, completely shocking him.
"What photo?" Jiang Wei said hoarsely, a very bad premonition welling up in his heart.
