I looked at them in a daze and suddenly laughed, "Okay, since you all want me to die, then I will die. If I die, I will be free. If I die, I won't have to suffer anymore. If I die, you won't have to blame me anymore."
Already."
When I said this, I slowly raised the pistol and pointed it at my temple. My hand holding the gun kept shaking, shaking very badly. I am not afraid of death, but I am not willing to die like this and commit suicide.
This is something I would never even think about before. This is something only a coward would do. But I never thought that I would be here today.
"What are you doing standing still? Shoot, shoot, shoot!" The man in front of me shouted at me. His face was ferocious, and he wanted to rush out of the ice mirror and kill me right away.
"Don't be in a daze, shoot. After shooting, there will be no pain. Death is the best relief, haha...haha." All the images are saying this sentence repeatedly. Every time they say a word,
It pierced my heart like a steel needle.
I swallowed, took a deep breath, and slowly closed my eyes, but when I was about to pull the trigger, a shout suddenly came from my ears, "Brother Yi, Brother Yi, where are you?"
Do you hear my voice? Do you hear my voice?"
I suddenly woke up. This was actually Jiao Ba's voice. I suddenly reacted. I seemed to be possessed. How could I think of pointing a gun at my head? What happened just now?
Jiao Ba's voice continued in my ears, "Brother Yi, answer me. Don't be controlled by the power of the magic circle. Answer me quickly."
Only then did I realize that I must have been controlled by the power of the magic circle. They once again captured my inner world and completely manipulated me. But this time, what they captured was not my body.
, but the pain that has always been hidden in my heart.
But what I don’t understand is where Jiao Ba is calling me. His voice seems to have strong penetrating power and can come directly from behind the ice wall. It sounds like it is from a very far away place.
But it seems to be close to my ears. The sound is always near and far away, but it is very clear. Every word can be accurately transmitted into my ears, but I can only hear his voice and cannot tell where he is.
.
But just when I woke up, my head suddenly started to hurt again. It was still the unbearable severe pain before. It seemed that every struggle was excruciating, as if tens of thousands of words of worms were going back and forth in my mind.
Crawling.
I knelt on the ground and held my head, roaring in pain. I didn’t know if I could survive this time, but there was a kind of torment in my heart. I didn’t want to die without knowing it, but I also didn’t want to live in guilt.
.
Regarding the death of my comrade in arms, I have never forgotten it in the past few years. I blame myself all the time, but I really did not mean to kill him, but no matter what, his death is directly related to me. I have no choice but to do so.
shirk responsibility.
How many times have I dreamed of him. He looked at me with blood on his face and asked me to save him, but I could do nothing. I watched him die in my arms. In addition to the sadness that surged into my heart,
There was nothing I could do anymore. I didn't want to leave him behind, but in order to survive, I could only drag my exhausted body and escape back in embarrassment.
But I have been regretting it. If I could have taken him with me at that time, would he have had a chance of survival? I don't know, because there is no regret medicine in this world. Once you make a decision, you can only move forward.
,cannot go back....
I struggled to raise my head and looked at the image in the ice mirror in front of me. They still kept trying to persuade me, "Stop being stunned and shoot quickly. This is what you deserve. This is the punishment you deserve."
All the images are like chanting a spell, repeating one sentence over and over again, "Shoot, you deserve it...Shoot, you deserve it..." The whole space is echoing this
In just one sentence, Jiao Ba's voice was quickly covered up. Apart from these words, I could no longer hear anything else.
I was having a fierce struggle in my heart. For a moment, I really wanted to kill myself with one shot, so that I could eliminate the pain of struggle. But I couldn't just die. Jiao Ba and Li Xin were still waiting for me.
I have to go back, I have to get out of here.
I looked up to the sky and roared, "Don't you want me to die? Then come on, come on and kill me. Come on, I'll be waiting for you."
"Jin Zhongyi, if you still have the heart to repent, just commit suicide. We are all your souls and your evil side. As long as you die, we can all be liberated and your soul will be redeemed.
, your comrades will also forgive you." The image in front of me became more evil. Although he had my appearance, his eyes were completely different from mine. It was not the look that humans should have.
"Forgive me? As long as I die, will he forgive me?" I sneered, raised one foot, knelt on the ground on one knee, and asked through gritted teeth. My headache was diminishing and my consciousness was recovering.
, struggled until the end, and I understood one thing.
If my comrade and I swap roles, and if the person who dies is me, I will definitely hope that he lives a good life, even if it is for me, and he wants to live a better life, so I will never think of suicide again.
This is not liberation, this is ignorance.
"Yes, death is the best relief. There will be no more worries and pain, and you will live in happiness forever, haha...haha."
His smile made me feel sick. It was originally my face, but the more I looked at it, the more disgusting it became. I really wanted to tear his face open with a knife. I wanted to see what his true face looked like, right?
It's so ugly that no one can see it and everyone is afraid of it.
I slowly stood up and stretched my neck, "You really fucking disgust me. Do you think you are me when you turn into me? Do you think you can control my brain? Have your sweet dreams."
Go ahead." I finally yelled at the image in the ice mirror to vent all my previous anger.
The image in front of me immediately became furious. He stared, grinned, and cursed fiercely, "You shameless person, you still have the nerve to live in this world. You should die immediately. Have you forgotten?"
Have you forgiven your sins? Are you worthy of your dead comrades? You killed your most trusted brother. He lost his young life for you. You have to go down and accompany him to wash away your sins. You...
Damn thing."
"That's right, you are a shameless, selfish, and profit-seeking villain. You are not qualified to live in this world. You should die. You should die right away..."
"Jin Zhongyi, you shameless thing, how can you still have the shame to live in this world? Are you worthy of your comrades who sacrificed for you? Are you worthy of his family? If you still have a conscience, take your own life.
....”
"Death, it will be over once and for all, and you will be free. Trust me, you will not suffer."
At this time, the images in the ice mirrors around me began to accuse me one by one. They said different things, but they were all urging me to commit suicide. Some said soft words, and some simply scolded me.
, they wished that I would die immediately, they all looked at me with vicious expressions, and pointed at me, the whole space was filled with their voices accusing me, my head started to hurt again, just like that Tang Monk recited.
It's almost like a tightrope.
I couldn't fucking stand it anymore, I couldn't stand it anymore, I yelled, raised my hand and fired, with a 'bang' sound, the bullet hit the ice mirror on the opposite side directly, with a 'crack' sound
, the ice mirror opposite me cracked instantly, like a spider, and was about to shatter.
The image in front of me was no longer clear, but I could vaguely see that he was still reaching out and accusing me, and the voices in my ears were still coming. When other images around me saw that I had fired, they scolded me.
became even crazier.
They kept cursing me, even my family members. They cursed me to die a good death, and cursed me to fall into the eighteenth level of hell after death. The most unbearable thing is that if I don't die, they curse me.
The whole family will suffer.
The scolding and cursing sounds all around made me dizzy. It was like magic stimulating my brain. Everything in front of me started to blur. I felt like the world was spinning and I was obviously top-heavy. If this continued, I was very tired.
I'm about to faint.
I shook my head hard, and immediately fired another shot. The bullet passed by the last ice mirror on the left. There was a bang, and the ice mirror shattered. Only then did I see
, it turns out that there is actually a passage behind the ice mirror. This may be my only chance to leave here.
I ran towards this passage without even thinking about it. It was very dark in the passage. Without a flashlight, I couldn’t see anything at all. This passage was also very narrow, with the distance between the left and right and the height above and below.
Very limited.
It's just fine for me to walk alone, but if there is another person next to me, I have to queue up. I can't walk side by side at all. I can't straighten my waist. If I straighten my body, my head will definitely hit it. I am a cat all the way.
Keep your back and move forward.
Under the strong light of the flashlight, I saw the end of the passage at a glance. Fortunately, the distance of the passage was not very long, only ten meters at most. It only took a few seconds to reach it. I felt somewhat excited in my heart. It was finally time to go.
It's liberating.
But after I ran out, I was dumbfounded, completely dumbfounded. This place was actually the same space as before. There were still ice mirrors all around. My forehead suddenly started to sweat. Could it be that... I didn't run out at all.
? But I immediately rejected it. This may be just the same place. The purpose is to interfere with my thinking so that I give up hope of survival. I can't be frightened. I have to calm down. I have to stay calm.