"Since I don't know, then tell me in detail, Zhongyi, are you hiding any secrets?" Li Xin looked at me coldly. Her eyes were so sharp that I didn't dare to look directly at her.
"I...I didn't. I told you everything. I was just controlled by the power of the magic circle at the time, and I woke up later. It's that simple." I don't want to say more, Li Xin is too cunning.
, she easily got me involved with just a few words.
Jiao Ba suddenly said, "After hearing what you said, I knew that the first power of the magic circle you encountered should be called greed. Those gold and silver are proof that when humans see wealth,
The greed in your inner world will burst out. The power of the magic circle will amplify this greed several times. In the end, it will make you become crazy and do whatever it takes for wealth. But wait until you come into contact with the gold turned by those black-faced stones.
In the future, you will be killed by this kind of greed. I also admire your sworn brother for actually relying on his own willpower to break through the power of the magic circle. You are indeed very strong."
I said disdainfully, "You're so strong, it's the power of that magic circle that distorted my mentality, otherwise I wouldn't have woken up."
Jiao Ba nodded and said, "Maybe. As for the second power you encountered, it's a bit strange. Logically speaking, it should be happiness, but...is this happiness also considered a kind of human desire?"
"Why not? In today's materialistic society, aren't people always looking for the so-called happiness? Therefore, this happiness can be regarded as a kind of luxury, and can even be said to be a luxury product." Li Xin said crookedly.
Head said, it seems that she also has a lot of emotions about life.
"Even if it is a kind of desire, this kind of desire should come from the sworn brother himself. I just don't understand that one that can make you obsessed, make you believe that there is your home, and even make you
Who is the woman who feels happy?" Jiao Ba looked directly at me, as if he was interrogating a prisoner.
"Damn, it's good that I can come out alive. Why are you asking me this? She's just an ordinary woman. Maybe... I've been single for too long, so... it's inevitable that there will be this illusion of happiness.
." I made up a random sentence, and I always felt that they were trying to trick me.
Jiao Ba chuckled lightly, "Brother Yi, although I have not experienced the situation at that time, I understand very well that the magic circle can only expand your vagina, but it should not change your thinking. If you are just an ordinary woman, you
There is absolutely no such feeling of happiness. That woman should have a very important place in your heart. It can even be said... that you love her very much."
Jiao Ba's words were like a steel needle, piercing my chest directly, causing my originally calm heart to start to fluctuate again. I glanced at him and said nothing. He was really troublesome.
It's enough to analyze the matter at this point, why bother asking so many questions.
Li Xin suddenly said, "Oh...I know, could it be that woman who turned into Jenny? That's why you..." She pointed at my chest with her finger, looking uncomfortable.
Hot or cold.
"Absolutely not. This has nothing to do with Jenny Ba, so why don't you stop making wild guesses?" I deliberately glared at Jiao Ba. If he changed the topic, Li Xin would not ask any more questions.
Jiao Ba understood what I meant immediately. He pretended to cough and said, "I don't mean anything else. Brother Yi, it's good that you can come back safely. The first two forces know about it, so where did you go in the end? At that time
Are you telling me...that it is a place full of mirrors?"
I thought about it and said, "Yes, it is a place surrounded by mirrors. No, it should be ice mirrors..." I explained the situation in detail. The feeling of fear is still unforgettable to me.
Thinking about it makes me feel cold all over, but I didn't talk about my comrades in arms, I just said that the power of the magic circle kept driving me to commit suicide.
After listening to what I said, Jiao Ba touched his chin and said, "Did you miss any important information?"
"Information? No." I pretended to be innocent.
Jiao Ba curled his lips and shook his head and said, "This is wrong. According to the power of the magic circle, it is impossible for it to control your heart and make you commit suicide. If that were the case, we would have died long ago. It should be inside you
Is there something that makes you blame yourself, or... you have done something that makes you feel very guilty, and you can't even forgive yourself. Only then will the power of this ancient ship be inserted. Otherwise, there would be no wind at all.
Wave-making."
Damn it, I don’t know if it’s because Jiao Ba’s analytical skills are too strong, or because he knows too much about these evil ways, he really hits the nail on the head, even if I want to hide it intentionally, it doesn’t work, it seems like this is not going to be easy to get through.
.
I said with a cold face, "No, there is nothing for me to blame myself for. You don't have to think about it anymore. It's just the power of the magic circle that controls me."
Jiao Ba suddenly smiled and said, "Brother Yi, I don't force you to tell us anything, but you can't lie to us. You just need to tell me that it was the magic circle that controlled your mind for no reason.
Or do you really have something to hide?"
I know very well that it seems impossible to get through with Jiao Ba. Jiao Ba doesn't dare to say how much he knows about the power of this hexagonal array, but he at least knows that the power of this array is extraordinary.
And he is also the only one among us, except Chang Shan, who knows about the hexagonal array. But I always feel that there must be some among us who know the existence of this array, especially Mai Lao and Jenny. I am more and more aware of the existence of the hexagonal array.
I can't understand them anymore.
I sighed and said, "You're right, I...I do have something that I blame myself for, but it's been many years and I haven't mentioned it to anyone. I've been keeping it in my heart. I didn't expect it."
Children can actually be used, but I don’t understand, can this be considered a kind of rape? "
"Being able to get rid of this kind of inner torture must be your personal success, what do you think?" Li Xin looked at me and asked softly.
"I...I don't know either." I really don't know if it is true, but in the past few years, this matter has always been lingering in my mind, and I can't forget it even if I want to.
Jiao Ba then patted me on the shoulder and said, "This kind of power should come from inner self-blame. The magic circle amplifies your self-blame and guilt several times. If you can't bear this kind of pressure, you will naturally commit suicide."
extreme."
I nodded and said, "Yes, I almost shot myself. It was really a torture in my heart. It seems that only if I die can I get rid of this feeling of guilt."
"I said brother, what on earth is this? Can you blame yourself for several years?" Jiao Ba turned to look at me and asked.
"I...I don't want to say it, you'd better not ask." I looked ugly and didn't want to think about that past event again.
"Aren't you afraid that it will always be pressing in your heart? Once the power of the ancient ship increases again, you may not be able to bear it. Brother Yi, this is a knot in your heart. If you want to untie this knot, you have to
You can do it yourself." Jiao Ba said seriously.
I thought about it carefully. If I keep it in my heart all the time, it is indeed a problem. Once it breaks out, I'm afraid I will go insane. I'm so crazy that it doesn't matter. At most, I will die and solve a lot of troubles. But if I implicate everyone, then I
He is truly a sinner through the ages.
"The thing... happened five years ago. Because of the failure of a mission, I killed my comrade..."
I recalled the situation at that time and told the story word for word. But when I told him that he died in my arms, I was already sobbing. The tears were like broken pearls, flowing down my cheeks.
His face began to fall apart silently, and the feeling of heartache came over again. We were once as close as brothers, but watching him die before my eyes made me miserable. Every time I thought about it, it stimulated my fragile body and mind.
"Lao Ba, I...I'm guilty. If it weren't for my selfishness, how could he die? It's all my fault. It was me who killed him, it was me." I grabbed Jiao
Ba's shoulder and said with tears.
Jiao Ba held my arm tightly with both hands, "Listen to me, sworn brother, I can't blame you entirely. It's been so many years, and you should be relieved. You can't always let this matter weigh on your mind."
, people have to look forward and cannot always stay in memories."
"Although you had an unshirkable responsibility back then, you didn't want this to happen. I know that his death was a big blow to you, but you were also condemned in your heart for it. In the past few years, you have been
The torture is enough. If your comrade knows that you are still living in self-blame, he will not be happy. Let it go, let it be a thing of the past and go with the wind."
Li Xin was also there to support me and said with slightly red eyes, "Yes, Zhongyi, let it go. As long as you want to let it go, you can do it. I didn't expect you still have such a big depression in your heart. People can't always live."
In the past, he would definitely forgive you, and you should also forgive yourself."
"Can I forgive myself? Can I?" I looked at them and asked with tears in my eyes.
Over the years, I have been looking for an excuse, or a reason, to let myself off this heavy burden, but every time, I have to continue to carry it, because I really can't find any way to offload this burden.
For reasons, I would rather it weigh heavily on me.
"Of course. You should forgive yourself. We can all understand you. Brother Yi, as a brother for many years, I didn't know you were still hiding such a big thing in your heart. Just say it. It's okay. You don't have to do it again in the future.
One person is carrying it, and we can all share the burden for you. Let him pass." Jiao Ba's words made me feel a lot more comfortable, and it seemed that the pressure in my heart was not so great anymore.
Li Xin smiled and said, "Yes, you still have us. It's okay. Loyalty has passed. As a grown man, please stop crying."
She made me feel very warm, really like a wife comforting her husband. Unknowingly, the relationship between Li Xin and I seemed to be closer, but it may also be my own one-sided feeling and what others are thinking.