I didn't expect that Sun Yiqing would call me, and I didn't expect that he would actually hear something unusual in my voice. I needed to find someone to talk to, so I put on my coat and went straight to the elevator.
The afternoon sun was a bit dazzling, and there were pedestrians coming and going on the road. I walked around the long road and looked at the mottled reflections under the trees. All the way to the east, I saw Sun Yiqing under a big banyan tree.
Last time I didn't have time to thank him for helping to repair the faucet. This time I had to complain to him again. Speaking of which, I felt a little sorry. But the man standing far away didn't seem to have such thoughts.
He was wearing a V-neck T-shirt, a blue and white striped suit, and big sunglasses on his face. He leaned in front of the car and looked at me.
We were sitting on wooden chairs under the park. We could hear laughter coming from afar. Not far away were citizens playing by the lake. The contrast between happiness and disappointment was so obvious that for a moment, I didn’t know where to start.
Speaking of.
Some things are easy to keep by yourself, but speaking out about them is difficult and tortuous.
After a while, Sun Yiqing walked around behind the tree. When he came back, he was holding two glasses of cold drinks and handed one to me.
He looked at me with a smile and said: "When you feel bitter in your heart, you can try something sweeter, so that you will feel less bitter."
I laughed and said, "Thank you for helping to fix the faucet last time. I don't know when you left... I'm sorry, I didn't even thank you properly."
Sun Yiqing lightly shrugged, looked at me, and said, "There are still many things you don't know." His smile was natural and there was nothing wrong with it. He always had an open-mindedness about him that made me envious.
I nodded, feeling something in my heart, and said, "Indeed, I'm just a speck of dust in the vastness, and it's nothing to worry about."
"What happened? Is it convenient to tell me? Maybe I can help you analyze it." Sun Yiqing took the straw and milk tea in my hand, inserted it, and handed it back, indicating that I could have a taste.
I took a small sip, and the sweet taste spread between my lips and teeth, and I felt my mood improved immediately.
The warm sunshine in the afternoon crept up onto my palm, fine and mottled, seeming to tell my thoughts about it.
I opened my mouth, glanced at the figure next to me, and summarized what happened when Gao Zijian's mother came over in one sentence: "Auntie came to me and told me clearly that the Gao family would never accept a daughter-in-law like me."
Sun Yiqing glanced at me, suddenly chuckled, and said, "Her thoughts are within your expectations, so why bother."
"How can I not care? Gao Zijian has already fallen out with my aunt because of me. I don't want them to make such a fuss, but I also understand that I myself can't let go at all." My nose felt sour and tears almost flowed out.
"Do you want to hear the truth from me?" Sun Yiqing looked at me and asked seriously.
I nodded and heard him say: "I know what you are thinking. Maybe I should encourage you to strive for your own happiness and don't care about what your parents think. However, this is obviously self-deception. The relationship between parents and younger generations is inherently
Existence cannot be concealed, let alone abandoned. A friend of mine also encountered the same problem as you. At that time, I did encourage her to fight for it, but now, I regret it."
"Regret?" I was a little confused.
"I encouraged her to pursue her own happiness, but it turned out that after a few years, she was not happy." Sun Yiqing shrugged and said: "Three years, such a long time, she was busy fighting with her parents,
I was so busy being a good daughter-in-law in the eyes of my mother-in-law that I completely forgot to enjoy my own life and lost my true self. Instead of doing this, why should I wrong myself so much?"
"You mean, I don't need to spend it?" I was a little surprised.
Sun Yiqing shook his head and said: "No, I believe you have the answer to this question yourself. I just think it would be good for you to recognize the facts earlier."
I understand what Sun Yiqing means is that there is no need for me to continue dreaming.
"It seems that you have also heard some rumors about the Gao family in this city. In fact, I also understand that the concept of family status is deeply rooted in their hearts. I am indeed causing trouble for myself."
Sun Yiqing sighed and said: "Chen Xiaojia, the concept of family status is only secondary. The main problem lies with you and Gao Zijian. If he handles it well, you will suffer less. Otherwise, you will take twists and turns."
Gao Zijian? Gao Zijian has a lot of problems to deal with now. I can’t let him go. I can’t let him go.
My tears flowed down. Because I was a little helpless, because I was a little dissatisfied, and more importantly, I was afraid. I was afraid that Gao Zijian would leave me, and I was even more afraid that we would lose to reality.
Sun Yiqing leaned over slightly, stretched out his hand, gently dangled the white handkerchief under my eyes twice, and said: "Chen Xiaojia, you are obviously not a woman who loves to cry, but recently, you have cried several times. He
Is it really good for you?"
I nodded, but the crying became louder and louder.
"He is immature now, which is very worrying..." Sun Yiqing looked at me with a smile and said, "But it's okay. If you have any questions, come to me and I will try my best to help."
I nodded. Just as Sun Yiqing said, I already had the answer in my heart.
Sun Yiqing moved towards me, pointed at his shoulder, and said, "Cry, I won't peek, it'll be fine after you cry."
I bit my lip and cried louder, as if all the grievances in my heart were bursting out at this moment. The arms behind me gently pushed me onto his shoulder, and I cried against his shoulder, feeling very relieved.
I know I can't let go of Gao Zijian.
In the evening, I said goodbye to Sun Yiqing downstairs. I looked at his suit jacket apologetically, but he didn't care and turned to leave.
Being reminded by Sun Yiqing, I was almost more certain that I could not separate from Gao Zijian. Since attitudes can be changed, I would try to change myself and cater to the views of Gao Zijian's parents.
After cooking two dishes and one soup, I called Gao Zijian, but the call was always on. At eight o'clock in the evening, the door opened and Gao Zijian came back dragging his tired body.
His face was a little ugly, his hair was a little messy, his collar seemed to have been torn open, and he looked very embarrassed.
I hurriedly walked over, put the slippers at his feet, and asked, "What's wrong?"
Gao Zijian then raised his head, looked at me, and said, "Chen Xiaojia, something happened."
The words "something happened" rang a loud alarm in my heart. I took Gao Zijian's hand, walked slowly to the bedside, and asked nervously: "What's wrong?"
Gao Zijian sighed softly and said, "The studio was smashed."
I was so surprised that I immediately stood up from the edge of the bed, looked at Gao Zijian, and said, "Who did this?"
Gao Zijian shook his head and said: "There are no clues in the surveillance of the building. The police came over and left. Xiaojia, I have nothing."
"No, you still have me." I held Gao Zijian's hands, feeling uneasy in my heart. First, there was a problem with the decoration store in the North First Ring Road, and then the studio was inexplicably damaged. What's wrong with all of this?
Contact?
He lowered his head and looked at the heavy dark circles on Gao Zijian's face. He choked up in his throat about his aunt's visit during the day and couldn't say a word.
"How's the decoration going? Can Li Shu help?" I looked at Gao Zijian distressedly and asked.
Gao Zijian shook his head and said: "Li Shu failed in the bidding project we talked about yesterday. He has many more problems than me now. It's just Xiaojia. I may have nothing."
"Gao Zijian, don't talk nonsense. Won't the store in the North First Ring Road be closed next month? Don't be so hasty to make a conclusion. Let's think about the solution." I hugged Gao Zijian and said in a gentle voice.
Gao Zijian raised his head and looked at me, opened his mouth and said, "Xiaojia, the decoration problem has been answered. The supplier responsible for providing us with cement is temporary and is missing now."
This time, I finally understood what it means to have a leaky house when it rains all night long. For a moment, I didn’t know what to say.
The light in the room was dim, and I stood in front of Gao Zijian. We looked at each other, and for the first time we knew what hardship was. This issue is not unfamiliar to me, but I know that for Gao Zijian, it is very cruel.
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I have a strange idea, that is, secretly, someone is deliberately causing trouble. But I don’t know who this person is. So many accidents are coming one after another, are they intentional or unintentional? Decoration accidents may be explained, then
What about the studio being smashed? How to explain this kind of direct provocation?
After a while, Gao Zijian raised his head dully, looked at me, and said, "Chen Xiaojia, I may, really, have nothing left."
I smiled, gently crossed Gao Zijian's face with my fingers, and said with a smile: "What you don't have are all external things. I will always be there."
Gao Zijian suddenly held my hand tightly and asked: "Chen Xiaojia, according to the contract, I need to compensate the shop owner for double the loss, and the studio will no longer be able to open. By then, not only will I have no money, I may also be unemployed.
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I can feel the fine sweat on Gao Zijian's palms. I know what he is afraid of. Because he has never experienced loss, he is afraid. Unlike me, I have never had one and do not understand the sadness of loss.
He leaned down, placed a gentle kiss on Gao Zijian's lips, and said, "Let's compensate for the loss together. The worst we can do is suffer for a few years. Who is Gao Zijian? I don't believe he will be poor forever."
"Xiaojia..."
"Gao Zijian, don't be discouraged. Even if the studio is smashed, so what? The rent for the house is for one year. Let's go there tomorrow to clean it and tidy it up a little. We can continue. For the damage to the store and house, let's find a backup first.
Let the decoration company of Pu help you complete it and minimize the loss. Don't worry, I will accompany you."
"Xiaojia, the renovation of the store means that all the previous expenses have been wasted. It was all my hard work..." Gao Zijian's voice was choked with sobs.
I pressed a gentle kiss on Gao Zijian's forehead and said, "I know very well who Gao Zijian is. Isn't it just a matter of money? The two of us will figure this out together. I'm too tired today. Let's eat something first."
, we’ll discuss it tomorrow.”
I pulled Gao Zijian to stand up from the bed. His voice was hoarse and he said he had no appetite.
Of course I know that these things have exhausted him mentally and physically. Gao Zijian seems mature. In fact, I know that so far, today's setback may be the most profound setback he has experienced in his life. He has no dependence now.
I had no support, no bank card prepared by my parents, just me.
I understand his fragility and I have to be stronger than him.
He brought the bowl and chopsticks to Gao Zijian and fed him two mouthfuls. He shook his head, very tired.
I didn't want to force him to eat anymore, so I took off his shoes and carried him to the bed. Just as I was getting ready, Gao Zijian held my hand and wouldn't let me move.
I turned to look at Gao Zijian, smiled and said, "I'll get you some water to wash your face."
Gao Zijian shook his head, like a bullied elementary school student, and said, "I want to hold you."
I simply lay down, snuggled closely with Gao Zijian, and said, "It's okay, I will be with you, I will always be there."
Gao Zijian sighed and said, "Xiaojia, I did a rough calculation just now. This time, I may have to bear a foreign debt of about 500,000 yuan."
Five hundred thousand? Although I was fully prepared, I didn’t expect that it would cost so much.
"Li Shu also invested a lot of money in the bidding. I'm afraid they won't be able to spare any extra money to help me this time. We..." Gao Zijian said at the end, only a hoarse voice could be heard in his voice.
"I know..." I held Gao Zijian's hand and said, "Let's find a way slowly, don't rush, we can't rush."
Gao Zijian stretched out his arms, hugged me in his arms as before, let out a long sigh, and said: "Chen Xiaojia, when you were with me, you never asked me for a penny. I have always been
Seeing it in your eyes, now you have to endure hardships with me, do you feel aggrieved?"
Where is this voice from Gao Zijian? His voice is loud and melodious, but where is this hoarse and weak voice at this moment?
He has changed, but his change and the grievances he has suffered are all because of me. What do I have to say that he is aggrieved?
"Zijian..." I raised my eyes and looked at the man in front of me and asked: "If I have a way to help you now, will you listen to me?"
Gao Zijian was stunned for a moment and motioned for me to continue.
I lowered my eyes and said in a calm voice: "Gao Zijian, I am willing to accompany you. No matter how hard it is ahead, I am willing. I just want to ask you, are you afraid of the hard work? If you are afraid, you can talk to Uncle Gao.
Talk, maybe, they can..."
Gao Zijian blocked my mouth with his index finger. His eyes were dark and translucent. He looked at me and said, "Chen Xiaojia, my women are not afraid, how could I be afraid? I don't want to ask them for any help. This is my answer."
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Why don't I understand? Uncle Gao and Auntie Gao were not very satisfied with me to begin with. If they knew that Gao Zijian had become like this after cutting off financial assistance from them, they would only persuade Gao Zijian to leave me even more.
Gao Zijian is different from me. Even if he causes big trouble, he is still the son of Uncle Gao after all, and he is still the son of the military compound. Who would compete with his own son? There is no need at all.
"Gao Zijian..." I sniffed, hugged him, and said, "You feel wronged by being with me."
"Don't say that," Gao Zijian glared at me and said, "Chen Xiaojia, I love you..."
I looked at Gao Zijian in surprise and heard him continue: "I love you...so I can't bear to see you being wronged. I...I'm not a qualified man..."
I bit Gao Zijian's lip with some dissatisfaction, expressing my deep protest.
My fingers moved gently on Gao Zijian's body. For the first time, I took the initiative to get close to Gao Zijian. Looking at his tired eyes and his tired face, I gently inserted the tip of my tongue into his
In his mouth, slowly and slowly, he stirred his tongue.
Gao Zijian's body was a little tense. I touched his forehead with my hand, tongue out, looked at him with a smile, and said, "Let me do it tonight, okay?"
A trace of surprise flashed in Gao Zijian's eyes, and he pressed me down instantly. His tongue plundered my body. My pajamas were almost torn apart by Gao Zijian. My heartbeat was beating rapidly, and they were tightly combined.
Once, I screamed so loudly.
The sweat of the body, combined with the body, intersects with each other, just like blood, all fused together.
After a long shiver, we let out a long groan from each other's mouths, and finally fell asleep hugging each other.
Gao Zijian was really tired and slept very deeply. The May Day holiday was over and I had to go to work, so I left her a note and ran straight to the company.
During lunch time, Durian and I made an appointment downstairs. I got straight to the point and talked about borrowing money.
Durian asked me why I was so anxious to spend money. I briefly told Durian about the unfortunate problems Gao Zijian had encountered recently, and she found it incredible.
Because last night, Zheng Kai was hurriedly called over by Li Shu to borrow money.
Li Shu's bid failed. He was 100% sure to win the bid, but suddenly he missed the bid. However, Li Shu had already signed a contract with the contractor and could not start construction when the time came. He was negotiating for losses.
Compared with Gao Zijian, Li Shu is not much better.
I asked Durian how much he could lend me.
Durian looked at me and said: "Chen Xiaojia, have you thought clearly? You and Gao Zijian are not married now, and the funds you owe are not small. It doesn't matter if you put the money in, but what about the future? Gao Zijian's parents are so capable, where can they go?
Do you need to take action?"
I know what Durian means. She is afraid that I will lose my virginity and lose money. In the end, if she is not with Gao Zijian, she will lose her youth. It is not worth it.
What Durian said was rational, but there was nothing I could do, I had already made a decision.
Seeing that I had made up my mind, Durian pointed his index finger at me. I smiled softly and said, "Ten thousand?"
"Tsk, look at your potential," Durian said with disdain on his face, "One hundred thousand."
Shakespeare said that if you want to test your relationship with someone, ask her to borrow money. I didn't expect Durian to be so generous. After all, I have worked with her for so long and never interfered with each other's affairs, but I understand that she is not
I was really touched that such a generous person could tell this number in one breath.
"Including the 50,000 in my bank card, the total is 150,000, which should be enough for a while." I sighed softly and said.
"Chen Xiaojia, aren't you going to use your money to prepare life insurance for your uncles and aunts? Didn't you say that you have saved it for two years?" Durian looked at me and said, "One hundred thousand yuan should be enough for a while, I don't
I want you to pay it back. I will record this account on Gao Zijian. It’s better not to take out the money you paid for the insurance for your uncle and aunt."
Yes, I endured the most difficult times in life, but now, where is the time to care about this time? I took a gentle breath and said: "I will explain this to my parents when I go back during the New Year.
You can’t tell Gao Zijian about things, understand?”
Durian looked at me, put the chicken on my plate and said, "Chen Xiaojia, I admire you very much. Even I don't have such courage."
I smiled softly and just as I was about to speak, my phone rang. I picked it up and saw that it was actually a call from Li Shu.
Durian and I looked at each other and picked up the phone.
"Chen Xiaojia, is Zijian here? I have something to discuss with him." Li Shu's somewhat impatient voice came over.
I coughed lightly and said, "I'm probably still sleeping now. What's wrong? Are you anxious?"
"Are you together now? Things are indeed a little tricky. Tell me your address..." Li Shu said nervously.
I lowered my head and glanced at the time and said, "I'm at the company, not far from home. It's still too late to go back. Can you tell me what's urgent?"
There was a horn sound coming from Li Shu's car. It seemed that he was a little impatient and said: "Yesterday Zijian asked me to find the businessman who was responsible for providing him with cement, so I paid attention and took a look. Who knows what happened?
What a coincidence, when I went to the construction site in the morning, the person who was causing trouble with the workers was actually the same person!!"
Alone? What does that mean?
"Okay, I'll go back right away, and I'll send the address to your mobile phone!" I said goodbye to Durian in a hurry, told her to remember to ask for leave for me if she couldn't come, and ran straight to the apartment.
The person who caused trouble at Li Shu's place and the person who provided Gao Zijian with cement with quality issues turned out to be the same person? Is it a coincidence, or is it really as I imagined, someone did it deliberately?
If it was intentional, who could that person be?
I stood at the intersection in panic, waving my hand to take a taxi, but my heart was in a mess. When did our lives become so complicated?
Who is it that wants to make things difficult for us? Doesn’t want us to be safe?
Gao Zijian, if he knew the truth, could he deal with it calmly? I don't know all this.