In fact, when I asked the question that Sun Yiqing was thinking about, I felt that something was wrong. When it comes to a person's conscience, to be honest, why should I doubt him?
But Chen Xiaojia, you can't pretend even if you want to. Facts have proved that as soon as someone appears, your world will suddenly become chaotic.
No one is perfect. In the past few years, our mother and son owe Sun Yiqing too much. I shouldn't ask.
Sun Yiqing didn't reply to me immediately. He drove to a nearby hotel. When he was putting Douzi down, Sun Yiqing sent me a text message.
Douzi was very well-behaved and had the habit of taking a nap every day. I covered him with a quilt and walked out of the hotel.
Sun Yiqing was standing at the end of the corridor. After seeing me, he stretched out his hand and motioned for me to enter the room.
I walked in, and as soon as the door closed, Sun Yiqing came directly to press me and pressed me against the door.
Recently, he has changed tremendously. Just like last night on the phone, his voice suddenly became overbearing. Just like now, he would stare at me with his eyes wide open and remain motionless.
I was a little panicked, but not excited. Perhaps it was because, in the past few years, I had trusted Sun Yiqing more than I trusted myself. I didn't believe he would hurt me, nor did I believe he would hurt Douzi.
Given this foundation of trust, I raised my head and looked at him.
Looking into each other's eyes, there was a trace of emotion in Sun Yiqing's eyes. His hold on my wrist suddenly became gentle, my arm slowly dropped from my shoulder, and then Sun Yiqing hugged me.
He hugged me very tightly, and I could feel the bulging muscles on his arms, and even more, his hands with sharp knuckles, which almost wanted to melt me into his bones, so hard and so reluctant to let go.
.
In my memory, the number of times we have hugged each other is very few.
During the days when I was homeless in Yunshui Town, on the first day after coming out of the delivery room, when Douzi had a high fever and went to the hospital, he always accompanied me in obscurity, using my warmth and encouragement.
I was very grateful to Sun Yiqing and raised my arms to hug him.
I said, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked you that."
Sun Yiqing's back stiffened, and he slowly pushed me away, staring into my eyes, and finally, he quickly kissed me on the lips.
It was light, flustered, and urgent, like a butterfly landing on a flower petal. In just a moment, Sun Yiqing took it back.
He looked at me, the expression on his face finally relieved a little, and said, "This way, I can feel better in my heart."
I knew the meaning of Sun Yiqing's words. After all, asking such a question was more or less suspicious. When he said this, I felt a little less guilty.
He still stood in front of me, lowered his head and looked at me, and said, "Is that the person I met on the road today?"
Sun Yiqing is smarter than me, and he didn't expect that he would know it after Douzi mentioned it.
"If I had known that you would meet him today, I would not have rushed back in such a hurry last night," Sun Yiqing stared at me and said, "Chen Xiaojia, it has been four years, although I have been suppressing the emotions in my heart every moment.
Jealousy, but... forgive me, I am not a generous person to begin with."
"you……"
"I won't bear it anymore." Sun Yiqing looked at me with determination in his eyes. He put a hand on my shoulder, looked at me and said, "Since he doesn't know about this child, let him never know about it."
I know, Xiaojia, I used to wonder why some people would use the word "lasting forever" to describe love. Now I understand. Because I am with you and Douzi, I have this illusion. I will take good care of Douzi and I will take care of him.
Hello, now, I just want to ask you, are you willing to give me this opportunity?"
Sun Yiqing's attitude was too firm, and the hand on my shoulder was too strong. If my rejection two weeks ago had already hurt a good man's heart, then what choice should I make now?
Xiaodouzi longs for a father, and Sun Yiqing is indeed the best candidate.
If I hadn't met him today, maybe I would have agreed without hesitation. At least, I had made up my mind last night.
I also understand that I am no longer the young and beautiful Chen Xiaojia, and it is time to find a home for Douzi. As for myself, what kind of woman does a man like Sun Yiqing want? What do I care about?
He raised his head, looked at Sun Yiqing with a smile, and said, "Sun Yiqing, thank you."
"You know what I want is not thank you..." Sun Yiqing glared at me and dismissed my words.
"Then ask Douzi. To me, Douzi is everything now." I looked at Sun Yiqing with a smile and said.
Sun Yiqing's face also showed joy. He took my hand and asked: "So, if Douzi agrees, you..."
Just as I was about to nod, there was a heavy knocking sound behind me, and the door frame was hit hard, which was very harsh.
He turned around in confusion, not expecting someone to knock on the door at this critical moment. As soon as the door opened, he saw a disheveled Gao Zijian standing outside the door, glaring angrily into the room.
It's really haunting.
"Chen Xiaojia, I have something to tell you..." Gao Zijian tugged at his collar irritably, his voice cold.
"Mr. Gao, do you know what you are doing now?" Sun Yiqing protected me behind him and said, "If you don't want the security to come, please leave immediately."
Gao Zijian stood there silently, staring at me closely with his eyes, and said, "Chen Xiaojia, I want to say a few words to you. I beg you."
How come this sentence and this demeanor are so familiar?
"I...I really have something to tell you." Seeing that I didn't answer, Gao Zijian continued.
Just as Sun Yiqing was about to speak, I walked out from behind him, glanced at Sun Yiqing, and said, "Don't worry, he's not a tiger and can't eat me. I think he and I have to come to an end. Don't worry."
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Sun Yiqing's eyes were obviously worried. I smiled, walked out of the room, glanced at Gao Zijian, and said, "Let's go."
Gao Zijian has been following me. We walked around the long corridor of the hotel and stood at a place where flower pots were placed. In March, the grass was growing and the orioles were flying. It was a beautiful season.
Gao Zijian stood next to me, like a child who had done something wrong, with his head lowered and silent.
I snorted coldly and said, "I'll give you five minutes, you can figure it out yourself."
Gao Zijian hurriedly raised his head, looked at me, and said, "I heard it just now. Are you sure you agree to Sun Yiqing?"
I was stunned for a moment and immediately said, "This has nothing to do with you."
"Xiaojia, how are you doing?"
"Gao Zijian, since you don't know how to say it, let me tell you," I looked at Gao Zijian and kept my voice within the normal range, and continued: "I didn't expect to meet you in Yunshui, and I didn't
I admit that I will inevitably have different feelings after meeting you, but I really can’t afford to spend time with you. I have children and need to live. As you can see, my life is good or bad. There are some things that let us have each other.
Just pretend it didn’t happen, it’s good for you and me.”
Xiaodouzi needs a father who has a sense of security. When I am with you, I have to face too many things. I can deal with it, but my child is everything to me, and he can't.
Risking one's life for one's own love was a choice made when one was young, but one also understands that everything has to pay a price. Now, Douzi is growing up healthily. If you don't know something, let time bury the secret.
"Is this what you mean?" Gao Zijian looked at me, his voice slightly choked.
I bit my lip and said, "Yes."
Gao Zijian didn't speak, but I felt uncomfortable all over my body. I always felt that Gao Zijian's eyes staring at me were too hot, and I felt uncomfortable.
There was nearly two minutes of silence. I didn't say anything, and he didn't say anything. I was really helpless, so I could only take it as Gao Zijian's acquiescence, so he said: "Since we have made it clear, then... I will go back first."
Lifting my feet and taking a step forward, my wrist was suddenly grabbed by Gao Zijian. I turned around in surprise and found that his eyes were fixed on my right hand. His fingers were gently opened by him. I was about to take it back, but I saw
Gao Zijian raised his head and looked at me and said, "What's your relationship with Sun Yiqing? Are you married? Where is the wedding ring? Chen Xiaojia, are you kidding me?"
I took my hand back in annoyance and yelled: "Gao Zijian, are you fucking mentally ill? Who do you think you are? Do you think you are a popular male god and everyone worships you? Get your claws."
,You are so annoying!”
Gao Zijian retracted his hand, but I heard his chuckle, and the annoyance in my heart became more serious, so I asked: "Why are you laughing?"
Gao Zijian raised his head and looked at me and said: "Chen Xiaojia, your son is here to be raised by you. I am unlucky for not finding you and I am a coward. But once I meet you, I want to tell you that I will never let you go."
, you figure it out."
"Neuropathy!"
"Gao Zijian, you are crazy. Now I just want to take a bottle of Coke to vent my anger, stuff it in your pants pocket and give you a basket to fly. Who do you think you are without letting go?" I glared at him, my patience had reached its limit.
"Okay, if you like, I don't mind taking off my pants and fucking you!"