For three days in a row, Douzi deliberately avoided Gao Zijian. I went to the kindergarten to pick up Douzi. When Douzi saw me, he hurried over with a smile on his face. But whenever he saw Gao Zijian behind me, he looked depressed.
Hidden in my arms.
For dinner in the evening, Gao Zijian cooked his favorite braised chicken for him. Although he ate a lot of beans, he didn't talk to Gao Zijian.
Yesterday weekend, Gao Zijian suggested going out to the aquarium to see sea lions. Originally this was one of Douzi's hobbies, but when he heard that he was with Gao Zijian, he changed his mind.
Gao Zijian was a little disappointed, and Douzi, as long as he couldn't see Gao Zijian's figure, then Xingjin would be even happier.
I explained to Douzi, and Douzi told me that he wanted to see Dad Sun.
I raised my eyes and looked at the door. Gao Zijian looked at me with a frustrated face, turned around and walked out of the door.
After sending Douzi to the kindergarten, I called Gao Zijian. There was frustration in Gao Zijian's voice. I knew he must be very disappointed.
We met near the park. From a distance, Gao Zi was wearing a black woolen coat, and a look of disappointment flashed across his face.
I stepped forward in three steps and hugged Gao Zijian from behind. He turned to look at me, with a trace of disappointment flashing in his eyes, and said, "Xiaojia, I am not a good father, let alone a good husband.
"
"What should we do?"
"Douzi, it seems that he has been rejecting me." Gao Zijian looked at me in despair and said.
"Douzi still knows in his heart that you care about him, but his relationship with Sun Yiqing..." I looked at Gao Zijian and hesitated to speak.
"Xiaojia, I always feel a little uneasy these days. I'm worried that something will happen." Gao Zijian took my hand and said, "To me now, Douzi and you are everything, so I have to be careful.
.”
I looked at Gao Zijian in confusion and asked, "What happened? Is it aunt..."
Gao Zijian shook his head and said, "This is a small matter. When they come back from Singapore in a while, I will tell them about the marriage."
I nodded and said no more.
In the afternoon, I called Sun Yiqing. I planned to keep the conversation short, but Sun Yiqing said he was busy and asked me to go to the coffee shop later to talk.
I thought I needed to explain to him more or less about Douzi, so I agreed.
The coffee shop is in the city center, just ten minutes' taxi ride away. When I walked in, I saw Sun Yiqing sitting there.
Sun Yiqing was standing there in a suit and leather suit, waving to me and gesturing for me to sit down.
The strong aroma of coffee wafted freely on the tip of my nose. I took a sip. The coffee was sweetened with sugar.
"What happened last time... Gao Zijian was too worried about Doudou, so..." I looked at Sun Yiqing and said in a calm voice: "So I was a little impulsive at the time, so don't mind."
Sun Yiqing looked at me and said: "It's nothing, but Douzi is still young. He shouldn't get angry directly in front of Douzi. Xiaojia and Gao Zijian's character is too fiery. I'm really worried that it will bring psychological consequences to Douzi...
"
Sun Yiqing didn't say anything else. Even if he didn't say anything, I understood. But Gao Zijian is Douzi's biological father after all.
"Normally Gao Zijian wouldn't be like this, but..." I looked up at Sun Yiqing and directly stated the purpose of looking for him: "Yiqing, I know that you and Douzi have a deep relationship, but can you promise me if you want to
If you go out to play with beans, remember to call me to inform me..."
"It seems that Gao Zijian doesn't trust me very much..." Sun Yiqing interrupted me, put the coffee in his hand on the dining table, raised his eyes and looked at me, and said: "He doesn't trust me, don't you trust me too?
?”
I shook my head hastily and said, "That's not what I meant, I just... you also know that it's not easy for me and Gao Zijian to be together now, so I must be concerned about Gao Zijian's feelings..."
"Xiaojia, Gao Zijian feels that you have concerns, but what about my feelings?" Sun Yiqing looked at me, with a trace of frustration on his face, "We have known each other for four years. Could it be that I am here with you?
Don’t you have even a little bit of trust?”
I think I must have expressed it wrong, otherwise Sun Yiqing would not have misunderstood so much. He shook his head nervously and said: "Yiqing, I'm sorry, I didn't expect that my words would affect you...I..."
"After all, you just think I should report to Gao Zijian when I pick up Douzi, right? Douzi has been with me for three and a half years, and he affectionately calls me Dad Sun. Can't I accompany him?"
Sun Yiqing's eyes were full of disappointment. He sighed, immediately stood up from his seat, turned around and left.
"As soon as I clear..." I stood up in a hurry, but my clothes were pulled to the dining table, and the coffee spilled out. There was coffee all over my pants and clothes.
"Why are you so careless?" Sun Yiqing turned to look at me, called the waiter directly, and took me into the private room upstairs.
I definitely can't wear pants, nor can I wear a top. I smell like coffee all over my body, and I'm very embarrassed.
I stood awkwardly in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror and feeling very funny. Suddenly there was a voice outside the door: "Xiaojia, take off your dirty clothes first. I have asked the waiter to prepare other clothes."
I coughed lightly, glanced at the figure flashing outside the bathroom, and said awkwardly: "I know."
The figure outside the door immediately walked away. I took off my clothes, took the towel on the bathroom cabinet, filled it with water, and wiped it on my body.
About ten minutes later, the doorbell rang. I knew that the clothes should be here. I heard footsteps outside the bathroom. I turned around and saw Sun Yiqing standing there.
"The clothes are here..." Sun Yiqing's voice came out.
I coughed lightly, took a look at myself, and luckily I was wearing a bathrobe. I opened the door, took a look at Sun Yiqing, and stretched out my hand to pick up the clothes.
My hands were hanging in the air without taking the clothes. As soon as I raised my head, I felt the bathroom door being pushed open by a strong force. The next second, Sun Yiqing leaned towards me.
Everything happened in an instant. Before I could react, Sun Yiqing's hand had already ripped off my bathrobe and pressed me against the wall.
"Sun..." I stretched out my hand nervously, but I was worried about touching his injury, so I didn't push hard.
A kiss was pressed on my face, and Sun Yiqing moved closer and closer. Finally, his arms used force at the same time to block my mouth.
One second, my mind was blank, but the next second, I reacted.
I looked at the familiar face in front of me in horror. For the first time, I felt that this face was very unfamiliar.
Is this the Sun Yiqing I know? Is this person the one who saved our mother and son from the fire and water and protected us silently? How...how could he...
The tip of the tongue in the mouth moved quickly, and Sun Yiqing's palm pressed my hand tightly. What surprised me was that his arms were actually strong.
Thinking of the doctor's words when we were in Yunshui, my heart sank even more.
"Why don't you resist?" Sun Yiqing kissed me for a long time and suddenly stopped. A cold voice sounded in my ears. He looked at me and said, "Why are you doing this?"
As soon as his voice rang in my ears, I felt my nose sore and tears flowed down uncontrollably.
I dare not look at the person in front of me. I would rather that nothing today happened.
When Sun Yiqing saw me crying, he slowly slid his tongue across my face, following the traces of my tears, all the way to my neck. I heard his hoarse voice say, "Chen Xiaojia, I'm sorry, I can't control myself.
"
My tears flowed more. In my blurry eyes, I could only see Sun Yiqing standing beside me with his eyes lowered, and continued: "Chen Xiaojia, I am not that great. I have always been a cold and selfish person. I
I want you and Douzi, I want our home, and I have waited too long for this. I...I will definitely love you more than Gao Zijian."
If it were someone else, maybe I could fight with fists and kicks at this moment, but he is Sun Yiqing, the best and good person I have met in these years, so I can't do it.
"Xiaojia, don't cry..." Sun Yiqing came close to me, sliding his hard bones on my face, gently wiping the tears on my face, and continued: "Chen Xiaojia, I have always felt that I am a stubborn person.
Man, but after I met you, I saw another version of myself. I feel sorry for you, for all your forbearance, for your waiting for that person, for you working hard for beans but unwilling to accept any help from me, I feel sorry for you.
, I feel so distressed that my own heart aches. I thought we would definitely be together, but why does Gao Zijian come to you? He has hurt you so much and is not worthy of you at all, nor is he worthy of being Douzi’s father...
…Would you like to stay with me?”
The more Sun Yiqing talked, the deeper I cried. Why don't I know this feeling? Why don't I understand this feeling?
"I'm sorry..." I wiped away the tears on my face, took a breath gently, and said, "Sun Yiqing, I'm sorry, a woman like me is not worthy of you at all. You will definitely meet a better girl.
She will love you well, I..."
"No," Sun Yiqing's hand covered my mouth and said softly: "In this life, I have already missed one girl, and I can't miss the second one. Chen Xiaojia, Douzi likes me, what about you? Don't you?
Don’t you have any feelings for me at all?”
Don't you feel anything at all? I think, not at all, that's a lie. Ambiguity brings a feeling of passion to people, but once we are together, all the passion will turn into a dull waiting. Although Sun Yiqing did not bring me a heartbeat
, However, it gave me and Douzi the most solid feeling. This feeling made me feel safe, made me feel comfortable, and allowed me to slowly integrate.
If there were no Gao Zijian, maybe I would choose Sun Yiqing. It has nothing to do with Douzi, but I know that this is the best place to belong.
But there is no way, Gao Zijian and I are destined to be entangled for a lifetime.
Some people may not be the best, but they are the ones you cherish the most.
Some people are obviously the best, but in fate, they are destined to be just passers-by.
I took a gentle breath, looked at Sun Yiqing, and said, "Yiqing, I... I may only love him as a man in this life, I'm sorry."
I wanted to lift my feet to leave, but my body was clamped. Sun Yiqing's eyes suddenly turned cold. He looked at me and pressed me again, saying: "Impossible, Chen Xiaojia, if it weren't for Gao Zijian, we would have held a wedding in Hawaii now."
No, I don’t believe it, I don’t believe it.”
"Yiqing, I won't take what happened today to heart. Please don't mention it again in the future..." I looked at Sun Yiqing and felt that I was particularly cruel at this moment. Who hasn't been humble before? It's just that... some things are destined to be impossible to force.
.
The hand that was holding me tightly loosened up quickly. Sun Yiqing glanced at his face indifferently, turned around and walked out of the bathroom.
"Chen Xiaojia, you will wear the ring willingly."
As soon as the bathroom door closed, my legs became weak and I leaned forward and slowly sank. Finally, I curled up against the wall and bit my lip tightly.
Is the thing I'm most worried about really going to happen?
Ten minutes later, I changed my clothes and opened the bathroom door. As soon as I took a step forward, I saw Sun Yiqing sitting on the sofa. His face was cold and he didn't look at me.
"I'm going back first." I simply said, and walked towards the door. The figure behind me also stood up from the sofa. Sun Yiqing quickly approached me and hugged me from behind.
He put his chin on my shoulder and said in a hoarse voice: "Chen Xiaojia, why don't you ask me?"
"I am Mrs. Gao now, please..."
Sun Yiqing hugged me tightly again and said, "No, you are not married yet, I still have a chance. Besides, you can get divorced after you get married, unless I am willing to give up."
I threw him away angrily, opened the door directly, and walked outside.
My steps were a little hurried, Sun Yiqing was following behind me, his hand held mine tightly, and suddenly, with a "bang", I bumped into someone.
After a few seconds of spinning, I was held tightly by an arm. When I raised my eyes in panic, I saw a disgusted face.
"Don't eat for the eyes, right? Why are you bumping into people!" The sharp voice reached my ears, our eyes met in the air, and the complaining face suddenly turned to look at me, surprised.
Said: "Chen Xiaojia?"
This city is so small. I’ve only been back for less than half a month, and I’ve met all the people I’m destined for.
Liu Meiting's eyes moved between me and Sun Yiqing. Only then did I realize that Sun Yiqing was hugging me tightly. She nervously pushed Sun Yiqing away without saying a word.
"This is..." Liu Meiting stared at Sun Yiqing with her big eyes, with an ambiguous halo hidden in her eyes.
"I still have something to do, let's go first..." I took a step forward in a panic, but my wrist was pulled by Liu Meiting. I heard her say with a smile: "Hey, Xiaojia, what are you busy with? We haven't seen each other for a long time.
Why don’t you go inside and have a drink?”
I shook Liu Meiting away stiffly and said, "If you really want to drink, go and drink by yourself. I told you I'm not free."
"You!" Liu Meiting stared at me with her big eyes, then turned to look at Sun Yiqing and said, "Could this be Xiaojia's husband?"
I glanced at Sun Yiqing, and thinking about the close contact between me and him just now, I suddenly panicked.
Sun Yiqing took a step forward and walked towards me and said, "Miss Liu, I haven't seen you for a long time. If I remember correctly, the person standing next to your husband at the Asia-Pacific Summit last time was not you, right?"
With a cold voice and a calm expression, Sun Yiqing said something casually, and Liu Meiting bit her lips and looked at me, raised her feet, and walked past me.
"Chen Xiaojia, it is said that you came back with Gao Zijian. Who is this man?"
The low and seductive tone made me turn around, but Liu Meiting and her servant had already walked to the hall.
I don’t know why, but listening to Liu Meiting’s tone, I suddenly had a bad feeling. Gao Zijian didn’t know about the meeting with Sun Yiqing in the afternoon. What if...
"I'll take you back." Sun Yiqing walked up to me, took my hand, and walked forward.
I shook off Sun Yiqing's hand hard and heard him say: "Chen Xiaojia, if you move around again, believe it or not, I will kiss you directly..."
I looked at Sun Yiqing in surprise, my mind was in confusion, I shook his hand away hard and rushed directly towards the road.
What to do? Is Sun Yiqing crazy?
I fled in a panic and got into a taxi. I looked at the time and it was already past the time to pick up the beans. Oh my God, what should I do?