When flowers, phone calls and chocolates propped up the dormitory table, I hid in the bed alone, looking at the hazy photo on my phone, feeling sour in my heart.
When I was fourteen years old, I knew very well what it felt like to like someone. If I liked her, I wanted to go to bed with her and do what I wanted to do.
I thought this was what it felt like to like someone.
But I was wrong. When my heart is occupied by a person, and I want to take it out and throw it away, but it still won't go away. I want to swallow it and hide it, but I can't. Then I understand that this is how I like someone.
feeling.
She was different from other girls. She went to a nursing home two weekends ago. There were a few old people on the second floor with limited mobility. She was alone, telling them stories and washing their hair.
She is not pretentious, but she will use curse words when she talks, and some boys can't handle her jokes. She has a classic saying: Nothing can be relied on these days, only myself can be relied on. The abbreviation is: Damn it! - every time
Thinking about it makes me laugh.
The school organized a teaching trip to the mountainous area, and she was the first to rush to sign up. She stood under the library and asked for a drink. People used to bring their daily luggage, but she packed a lot of snacks, toys, and textbooks.
The other girls were tired of carrying a water bottle, but she carried two snakeskin bags one at a time.
He always had a smile on his lips, and would hum a tune when nothing happened, following behind him with a pale face, laughing and joking.
Some boys treat her as a boy, and some girls treat her as a boy. Sometimes I even wonder if my slight liking for her is because I also see her as the same person.
You ask me who she is. In the past, she was my classmate. Later, she was my brother’s girlfriend. Then, I chased her hard and hard. Now, she is the mother of my child. By the way,
Her name is Chen Xiaojia.
Li Shu once told me that the reason why I care about her is because of her beauty.
In fact, I also think she is beautiful, but beautiful and different.
She has long eyelashes and big eyes. Although she wears loose clothes, she has an obvious S-shaped figure. She has long, straight black hair, no perm or dyeing, and is purely natural.
I occasionally wear lipstick, but I never use any makeup.
She is indeed special.
Especially when you have a crush on someone, you don’t even know to hold back.
Once a smart woman has a crush on a boy, she will make demands of one kind or another. A smart woman will let the man get closer to him slowly instead of blindly following him.
Chen Xiaojia is not a smart woman, so she likes to have a paralyzed face, so she will just stick to it.
Facial paralysis is a person who is cold on the outside but hot on the inside. He will not be kind to anyone easily, but once he is determined, he is gentle and gentle that no one can change.
In the beginning, Chen Xiaojia would find an excuse to come to the dormitory after class every afternoon. When she came, she would hold a book in her hand and pretend to study.
The man with facial paralysis was so smart, how could he not understand Chen Xiaojia's thoughts? At first, he would just refuse, using various reasons. Later, he became irritated when being chased by Chen Xiaojia, so he explained it to her more than a dozen times at once. Chen Xiaojia was red.
Face ran back, and in the corridor, he said stupidly: He finally talked to me.
As everyone knows, it is a sign that a man is too annoyed to refuse.
The next day, Chen Xiaojia came again, and I saw a box of fresh strawberries in his hand. As expected, he placed it on the table of the paralyzed man.
All fruits are seasonal, and strawberries in this season are definitely not cheap.
Chen Xiaojia gave up all her money, but she didn't know that the paralyzed man shared the strawberries with everyone.
Of course, I didn't eat it.
It’s not jealousy, let alone envy, I just feel like I can’t eat it.
A girl ran to the boys' dormitory over and over again. When she opened the door, the aunt was touched by her spirit of learning. Every time she came, the aunt would give her a bottle of Shuang Wai Wai. I really didn't know what kind of evil had taken hold of her.
Later I learned that Chen Xiaojia collects drink bottles in the girls’ dormitory every week and gives them to aunties.
Once or twice, Shi Lei was indifferent, three or four times, Shi Lei ignored it, five or six times, Shi Lei became irritable, and a dozen or so times, the paralyzed man couldn't bear it anymore.
In front of several other buddies, he yelled: "Chen Xiaojia, can you please stop coming to see me again?"
At that time, when I came back from playing basketball, Heizi *** teased me for staying in school longer than going out. Little did he know, I was just waiting for this day, although for Chen Xiaojia, the facial palsy's refusal was a bit indifferent.
It rained the next day. Anyone who knows me knows that rainy days are the most annoying thing for me.
In the first class in the morning, Chen Xiaojia was absent from class.
The man with facial paralysis was in charge of roll call. He called Chen Xiaojia's name twice, but no one answered him.
I saw hatred on the faces of Chen Xiaojia's roommates. I guessed that these women were unhappy with Shi Lei.
Sure enough, when the recess time came and the paralyzed man was still reading the questions in his seat, Liu Meiting took a few roommates over. She was not prepared to save face for the paralyzed man and threw his books directly.
From Liu Meiting's mouth, I learned one thing. Chen Xiaojia was blown outside all night last night. The outside was nowhere else but downstairs in our dormitory.
It is said that Shi Lei knew about it.
The girl said, "If you don't tell me clearly, I won't leave because I'm here."
The boy said, do you want to leave?
As a result, the girl really stood all night and walked back to the dormitory covered in rain.
***, I have grown up so old, how come I haven’t seen any girl stand outside the dormitory for me all night?
At this moment, I felt envious of people with facial paralysis.
But I think envy is not liking.
I sent a text message to Chen Xiaojia without signing it or introducing myself. I just wrote a few words and asked her to pay attention to her health.
As a result, Chen Xiaojia rushed in just after the Ma Si class ended.
She thought the text message was written by Shi Lei, so she looked at Shi Lei with a blushing face and said, "Don't worry, I'm in great health."
What I hate the most is making wedding dresses for others. If you like it, you like it, and if you don’t, you don’t like it. But everyone in the class knew very well about Chen Xiaojia and the paralyzed man, and I didn’t come out and talk about that text message.
thing.
I just finished talking about how good my health was, and within a minute, I fainted.
Strangely, the facial paralysis man who had always been indifferent actually rushed over for the first time, hugged Chen Xiaojia, and went to the infirmary.
This matter is the most annoying thing in my university.
To be honest, there was a time when I tried not to ask, so I found a girl from elementary school, walked around the playground, sang songs, and had a little love affair. I thought that I had forgotten about that stupid woman and Chen Xiaojia.
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Later, Li Shu told me a word called self-hypnosis.
Screw you second uncle’s self-hypnosis! I hung up the phone angrily, and then I thought, oh, Chen Xiaojia’s favorite thing is to beg you, second uncle.
***, there is no second uncle in labor and management at all!
Since then, the whole class seemed to have acquiesced in the relationship between the two people. Of course, I thought it had nothing to do with me.
In the first semester of my sophomore year, something suddenly happened at home for the man with facial paralysis. After returning home for a few days, Chen Xiaojia didn't seem to know before. On Friday, she came to our dormitory carelessly. At that time, I was still sleeping in the bed, and she was far away.
A loud voice woke me up.
I only had one pair of underpants on me, and I am not a conservative person. At that moment, I really wanted to play a prank. Who knew that before I even jumped out of bed, Chen Xiaojia's feet stepped in.
Damn it! Now thinking about that scene at that time, my heartbeat slowed down by half a beat.
I must explain that Chen Xiaojia rarely wears skirts. The only time she wore a skirt was at our freshman party. After that, she was never seen wearing a skirt. On this day, she was wearing a small floral skirt and a t-shirt.
The hair was long, stuck in hairpins, and there was a blush on the face, which immediately killed me.
At that second, my unsatisfactory little brother suddenly bulged shamelessly, and I could only cover myself with the quilt.
"Is Shi Lei here?"
"Reunite in my hometown."
"Isn't it? He didn't tell me."
Nonsense, do I have to tell you that you will come to the dormitory again to find him? "You're in a hurry, you should go back now."
"Oh, thank you, bye!"
goodbye.
By the time I exposed my covered face to the air, Chen Xiaojia had already walked away in her small skirt.
I lowered my head and looked at my little brother. Oh my god, this unlucky bastard is still standing upright.
So, I squinted my eyes, thinking about the scene I saw Chen Xiaojia just now, and started drawing a map.
If it hadn't been for this time, maybe I wouldn't have realized that I *** haven't used my hands since I was fifteen years old, and yet I made an exception because of this woman.
I think I like this woman.
If a person with facial paralysis does not know how to cherish, should I choose to fight for it?
When this idea came to his mind, Li Shu said that I had a brain twitch, twitched or not, in short, in those days, as long as I thought about that little skirt, I couldn't help but want to draw a map.
I***, this world is crazy.
On the day when the paralyzed man came back, Chen Xiaojia put on that little floral skirt again. He stood under the white birch at the school gate, with the green leaves among the green leaves, and she seemed like a fairy who had descended upon someone else's house.
I couldn't help but take out my phone and secretly took a photo of her.
I lowered my head and saw that the small tent had been set up. I hurriedly held my backpack to block it, and rolled and crawled to the dormitory.
For the first time, the man with facial paralysis came back with some specialties, such as chestnuts and peanuts. He left some for his buddies in the dormitory and prepared a small package for Chen Xiaojia.
The facial paralysis man prepared something for Chen Xiaojia, which shows that the facial paralysis man knows how to love others.
On the one hand, I am happy for Chen Xiaojia, and on the other hand, I feel sad for myself.
When it comes to women, I am very principled. Firstly, I will never get out by myself. Secondly, I will not touch my friends' women. I will hurt my friendship for the sake of women. In the embryonic stage, I will do this.
solve.
Only this Chen Xiaojia, ***, this heart, why can't I control it.
Not being able to control it is not aggrieved. What is aggrieved is that after the self-study get out of class that night, I watched the paralyzed woman hand the thing in her hand to Chen Xiaojia, and the happiness on her face was the biggest thing for me at that moment. Satire.
She didn't even know that somewhere in the corner, there was someone who was sad for her and happy for her. He dreamed of her, secretly sad, and secretly masturbating.
Fortunately, in the end, my wife’s name is Chen Xiaojia.
The most impressive thing was the Valentine's Day in 2011, when it was snowing heavily and it was so cold that it made people feel chilled.
Before that, Chen Xiaojia and the man with facial paralysis had a big quarrel over some unknown issue. Chen Xiaojia didn't come to the boys' dormitory for several days, nor did he give the man with facial paralysis any more hot water. There was a word called aboveboard, but at that time, in addition to gloating about his misfortune,
, I still gloat.
As I saw, the two people were having an argument.
A few days before Valentine's Day, Li Shu found a girl to go on vacation, and while I was thinking over and over again, I was thinking about how to go to Chen Xiaojia and tell her that there was a person like me who had been observing her for a long time.
I have many ways to chase girls, including sending flowers, sending cards, and being romantic. I have practiced it myself, and I have also been a military advisor. But here with Chen Xiaojia, I am a little timid.
Finally, under the ridicule of some people, I wrote a love letter.
Are you kidding me? In the information age, I actually write love letters. It’s really... bloody.
But I was so serious that I wrote a full twelve pages of confession, and finally signed my name gingerly.
I am Gao Zijian, Chen Xiaojia, I like you.
Some things, you have to believe, there is such a thing as fate, because on Valentine's Day in 2011, my dad suddenly entered the hospital. Between my carefully prepared Valentine's Day confession and my dad, I decisively chose the latter.
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As a result, when I returned to the dormitory the day after Valentine's Day, staring at panda eyes, I realized that on this day, Shi Lei and Chen Xiaojia officially confirmed their relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend.
I didn't like God's prank, so I tore up the love letters and deleted the photos, thinking that I would forget them.
This is the mood a man feels when facing the first girl who makes him uneasy. This mood is private, happy, and even more sour.
This was also the only firm feeling I had in that youth.
When Sun Yiqing chose to jump off the roof, I thought he had the same feeling as me. The only difference was that before that, he had a chance to get along with Chen Xiaojia, and I was just observing.
Had her for four years.
How can I rest assured about this stupid woman?
Everyone has a memorial in their youth, whether the person knows it or not, it doesn't matter.
If you don’t fight for it, you won’t know the result. If you fight for it, at least you won’t regret it.
I'm glad I worked hard for it.
Have you worked hard for her in your heart?
Today is the first wedding anniversary of this stupid woman and I. In fact, we have been secretly in love for four years, pursued for more than half a year, and waited for four years, plus one year of our wedding anniversary. Do you know this stupid woman Chen Xiaojia?
As soon as it was morning, Douzi was picked up by his grandparents, and the rest was our two-person world.
After thinking about it, this is our first wedding anniversary, and I must give Chen Xiaojia a little surprise.
But before the surprise was arranged, the doorbell rang.
When I opened the door, I saw that it was a courier from the United States.
With a very curious heart, I opened the express delivery. At a glance, I was surprised, but not happy.
It is a dark blue evening dress with a V-neck, inlaid with pearls, and a famous brand logo.
Isn't this the evening dress from a certain brand that Chen Xiaojia told me a few days ago? She bought it herself before I even started buying it?
Taking another look at the price above, my wife is indeed spending a lot of money.
Picking up the evening gown, he suddenly brought a greeting card to the floor.
A hunch told me that this greeting card might contain a surprising secret.
Almost without hesitation, I reached out and opened the greeting card. When I opened it and took a look, I was stunned.
"Dear Mrs. Gao, today is the first anniversary of our separation. It seems that it is also the first anniversary of your marriage to a certain gentleman. I wonder how you are doing? I accidentally saw in the space that you want this
As for the dress, I had dinner with their designer last time and made a special appointment. Take a look, do you like it?"
Sign the signature, Mr. Sun, who has always had a crush on you.
Sun Yiqing has gone to the United States for medical treatment, but he still refuses to let go of Chen Xiaojia. Seeing Chen Xiaojia’s space, he even specially ordered one? Who do you think you are? Are you buried as Mrs. Gao’s husband?
?
Angrily, I stuffed the greeting card into the carton and the dress as well, called the courier and sent the things back.
By the way, I would like to add one sentence above: Mr. Sun, since I got married, my taste has improved along with my husband’s. My clothes are of good taste, but unfortunately, they are not to my liking.
Hum, if you want Chen Xiaojia Hongxing to cheat on you, it depends on whether I am willing or not, right?
The phone rang, and I hurriedly walked over and looked at the number. It was my mother calling.
"Daddy, grandma said, today is daddy and mommy's private space. I won't go back tonight. Grandma asked you to work hard and give me a sister."
"Did your grandma tell you that children are not allowed to talk nonsense!"
"Daddy, last time you returned the small plane that Dad Sun gave me, doesn't Mommy know about this?"
"Douzi, if you have something to say, come and give me a kiss." I immediately slowed down my tone and begged for forgiveness.
"No, daddy, just follow what grandma said and give me a sister as soon as possible!"
Look at the little guy, who was naughty with me for a year in childhood. You ask me what my childhood was like? Oh, I’m embarrassed to say this myself. Please read the next chapter, what Gao Ziran said about me!