"Gao Ziran?" An impatient voice came to my ears, "Fuck! It's really you!"
When I heard this voice, even though my thoughts were so confused, I relaxed with relief and held my hand tightly on the door frame.
Passerby A inside the room had already noticed a figure moving outside the door, and a second later, he uttered a curse.
"Master Lin, I misunderstood. This is Brother Li's friend. Look..."
"What misunderstanding? What do you mean? Isn't it just to open a service place to serve us? Ah? If you ruin my good deeds, get out of here, you all, get out of here!"
"Young Master Lin, it's really a misunderstanding. That person is our Brother Li..."
"No, I want her tonight! Come here and ask him to come to me!"
My mind was in a state of confusion. I was held by a tight arm, and even though the two people were cursing in my ears, I couldn't tell who was who.
Raising his head slightly, he saw that angular face.
Is it a plum tree?
"Brother Li, Mr. Lin..."
"Help me hold her up..." The arm shook me aside, and the indifference in the voice was very similar to that day.
"Hey, isn't this Mr. Li? What's wrong? His face is so ugly?" It was the voice of the passerby.
"From what you just said, did you fall in love with her?" Li Shu snorted indifferently and said.
"To tell you the truth, Mr. Li, this is indeed the case. You don't know, but I just like this kind of thing, pure on the surface..."
"Bang!" sounded, startling me, and when I opened my eyes, I saw one of Li Shu's hands grabbing passerby A's hair, and the other hand pulling his arm behind his back, and then
, "Bang bang bang" pushed passerby A's head and smashed it against the wall.
"Dong dong dong" and "Ouch, help me" are sandwiched together, which makes me feel slightly satisfied.
To be honest, I had never seen boys fight before my second year in high school. Out of curiosity, I had to bother Gao Zijian for two days and two nights before he agreed to take me to the scene to watch.
They were all high school students of varying heights, but when they really started to fight, they were extremely ruthless. There were quite a few who were punched and kicked, and their bodies were covered in blood.
Because of this precaution, when I saw Li Shu pushing someone's head against the wall mercilessly, I only had one thought, which was to clap my hands and applaud.
So, I stretched out my hand, smiled softly, and said, "Well done! What a great beat, and it screamed like a croak!"
Someone who was smashing passerby's head against the wall seemed to hear my voice, turned to look at me, shook his hand, and walked over quickly.
"Before I come back, wipe the wall clean." After Li Shu's cold voice sounded, he dragged me hard with his arms and ran directly in the other direction.
Li Shu's strength was so great that it caused severe pain in my arm. I gritted my teeth gently and raised my head to look at him. I couldn't see anything else except those cold eyes.
Suddenly, a door opened, and a gust of cold wind blew over and hit my face.
"cold……"
"Why is it cold?" Li Shu dragged me forward and said as he walked: "Gao Ziran, you can do it. You motherfucker came here behind your brother's back and actually hung out with other men, okay?"
, you can do it!”
"You care about me..." I exhaled and said.
"Miss Gao Da, do you think I want to take care of you? If it weren't for Gao Zijian's sake, do you think I would take care of you? With you like this, even if you die in there, I won't bother to take care of you!" Li Shu continued to drag you!
I walked outside, my feet almost walking across the ground, and I didn't have to walk at all.
On the one hand, it is physical discomfort, and on the other hand, it is psychological discomfort. In fact, I have become accustomed to everything about Li Shu in the past two years, but what I am not used to is that he used to lose his temper with me.
After getting rid of his temper, he won't coax me anymore.
Any sin must be found and suffered by oneself, and this time, it is the same.
But I don’t want to endure it anymore, why do I have to bear it all the time?
"Let me go..."
"Do you think I want to carry you? Ah? Gao Ziran, are you here for a place like the bar? Can't you study hard? Is there a bad place to go? Will your heart be eaten by a dog when you come here?"
"Yes!" I threw away Li Shu's hand angrily and said, "My heart was eaten by a dog! What do you care about me? I tell you Li Shu, you must not take yourself seriously.
You are nothing to me here! Go away, I can go wherever I like, get out!"
I don’t want to see Li Shu, not even for a moment, not even a second!
After being scolded by me for a few times, Li Shu also let go of my hand, and I walked forward unsteadily. Although I knew he was standing behind me, I didn't dare to look back.
I can't get anything back if I look back, so why should I be so contemptuous of myself?
Suddenly, a beam of light shone from my right side, and before I could turn my face, I was pulled behind me by a hand.
The piercing screams of two loudspeakers rang in my ears, and I seemed to understand something.
It was also at this moment that my consciousness became somewhat clear.
Li Shu raised his head and looked at the eyes staring at me. Li Shu's eyes were like a cheetah's, looking at me coldly.
I pursed my lips and wanted to curse, but I couldn't. Are you using death to win sympathy? A person who doesn't care about you at all, even your death can't win his sympathy. What else did it mean at that moment?
What about the panicked ones?
My stomach was tumbling back and forth, and I shook Li Shu's hand away hard, only to be pulled back by him again. I heard him say: "I'll take you back."
"Need not!"
"Stop talking nonsense and hurry up!" Li Shu pulled my arm hard and stretched out his hand to take a taxi.
After being forced into the car, I reached out to close the door, but Li Shu pushed me in. He glared at me and told the driver my home address.
"I'm not going back there!!" I stared at Li Shu, not knowing what to say. After all, neither Gao Jianguo nor Gao Zijian knew about my return.
"Gao Ziran, please be honest with me right now, otherwise, when I get to your house, I will tell you exactly what happened!" Li Shu and I looked at each other and said in an irritable voice.
I stared at him, and just as I was about to speak, my stomach suddenly turned and I vomited it out.
"Gao Ziran...you...you..."
The sound of plum trees roaring to the sky rang in my ears. In the end, I had no choice but to tell the driver the location of the hotel.
I lay on the bed and pretended to be dead. I could clearly hear the sound of washing coming from the bathroom on the side. The vomit just now was all covered on Li Shu's body. Speaking of which, I felt quite happy.
The sound of water flowing suddenly stopped. I closed my eyes nervously and lay on the bed pretending to be dead.
The bathroom door was opened, and the sound of slippers falling to the floor resounded throughout the room, and that sound was slowly approaching the bed.
I held my breath, trying not to show any clues. What made me curious was that Li Shu seemed to be approaching me.
In the not-so-long two years, I have been thinking about the day after the college entrance examination. I don’t understand why Li Shu broke the promise between us with his own hands. In my opinion, the cruelty of that time was really
It cannot be described with simple words such as heartache.
If I really wanted to describe my feelings at that time, despair would be the most realistic word.
Now, he is leaning next to me and slowly puts an arm on my arm, carefully, as if he is afraid of waking me up.
Somewhat unreal tenderness.
"Idiot..." Li Shu suddenly said it, which immediately made my body stiffen.
Because although his voice was weak, there was a gentleness in it.
I'm a little nervous. I don't know if this is my hallucination after drinking. After all, when we first met in the evening, we were still targeting each other and would not get close to each other.
"Gao Ziran, you are really an idiot..." Li Shu muttered in a low voice. Originally, I wanted to turn over and fight with him, but after hearing his voice, that momentum disappeared immediately.
"I really don't understand... The Gao family are all smart people, why are you the only fool..." Li Shu muttered a little louder this time, and I could hear him clearly immediately.
I endured it the first time, but I couldn't help it the second time. So, I quickly turned over and got up from the bed. Because I was drunk, when I just got up, my eyes went dark.
Fell down.
It was Li Shu who supported me and pulled me into his arms.
I raised my head and looked at him, and he looked at me, and their eyes met. For a second, I seemed to see a familiar tenderness.
The next moment, that tenderness was gone.
"Li Shu, tell me, you broke my heart. Do you feel good about this feeling?" I don't know why I suddenly said this. In fact, what I want to ask more is, we have agreed to elope.
Yes, why do you want to leave me alone?
Why are you not counting the things you promised me?
"Gao Ziran, don't force me..." Li Shu's pupils widened and he stared at me angrily.
"I forced you? Li Shu, come here, tell me, why did I force you? I don't understand what you said. I went to drink. Does it have anything to do with you?"
"Gao Ziran, you...if you dare to say anything again, believe it or not, I will call your mother directly?"
My body suddenly stiffened, and I looked at Li Shu in shock. Finally, I smiled softly and said, "Okay, Li Shu, now you know how to use my mother to suppress me. Two years earlier, if you had followed
My mother is so united on the same front, why am I so hesitant, I promise to get out of here!"
Li Shu looked at me, suddenly walked off the bed, turned his back to me, and said: "Gao Ziran, go back to school obediently, don't think too much..."
Just as I was about to speak, the cell phone on the table rang. I picked it up and saw that it was Lu Xiaoping.
I didn't dare to answer.
"Go away. You have already paid off what you owe me. From now on, we will not owe each other anything." I exhaled softly and said the bravest sentence I had.
Sometimes, bravery and disobedience actually stand on a united front.
Li Shu put on his bathrobe and walked out. The bedroom door was closed. I replied to Lu Xiaoping's text message and lay in bed alone in a daze.
I closed my eyes gently, as if I was eighteen years old again.
I remember that night on the roof of the fifth floor of the school, Li Shu said those words to me so decisively that I vowed never to ignore him again. When Gao Jianguo took the diploma into my hands, I suddenly felt that
, reluctant to leave here. Lu Xiaoping said with a smile, they all want to take the college entrance examination, but I, obviously have this blessing, but my face is full of sadness.
Of course Lu Xiaoping knew why I was sad. She discovered that Li Shu and I had not spoken for half a month. Just the morning before leaving, Lu Xiaoping asked me to say goodbye to Li Shu in her homework book.
It was cloudy on May 30th, and it rained heavily after 12 noon. I was sitting alone in the classroom packing my schoolbag, and a cool breeze blew in from the window. It blew on my face and opened the Chinese textbook.
.
Lu Xiaoping's message once again told me that on the last day of my stay at school, it was necessary to say goodbye to Li Shu.
But due to my youthful stubbornness, I did not take the initiative to find Li Shu.
I was the only one in the classroom. I raised my feet and walked to the last row. Looking at the messy books on Li Shu's desk, I felt no trace of joy in my heart.
After a few minutes of daze, I finally gave in.
I will never forget the rain that day. It was thunderous, lightning, windy and rainy, and it poured down. It was very spectacular.
I returned to the dormitory alone, while Lu Xiaoping and the others were still in the classroom making final preparations.
Just as I was arranging my books, suddenly, the door to the dormitory opened. I turned around in panic and was shocked.
Li Shu stood in front of me soaked to the skin, with rainwater running down his hair, drop by drop, and he was very embarrassed.
There were no lights on in the dormitory, and it was still pouring rain outside the window. A bolt of lightning suddenly fell, and I shrank my head nervously.
Li Shu stretched out his hand behind his back, looked at me, and said, "Does this count?"
I bit my lip and said, "What do you think?" Actually, I still cared a little about what he said that night, so my tone was not very good.
Li Shu did not speak. He was soaked all over and just stood there quietly. He was quiet, but there was fire in his eyes.
Suddenly, the Chinese book in his hand fell to the ground, and he ran towards me with one stride, holding my face with one hand, and holding my waist with the other, and kissed me fiercely.
I remember that I was a little stunned at the time. Li Shu was arrogant. What I didn't expect was that he would actually show up in the girls' dormitory and kiss me so enthusiastically while still in the girls' dormitory.
I pushed him nervously, but he led me forward, and finally, he pushed me on the bed behind the door.
The dark eyes looked at me, and the moist and hot tongue moved quickly. My mind went blank. All the grievances, all the sorrow and indignation, I could pretend that they were not pure at all.
Finally, he looked at me condescendingly, with his trembling Adam's apple and fiery eyes, as if he wanted to eat me instantly.
"Are you afraid?" He looked at me and asked.
I pursed my lips and nodded slightly.
Li Shu did not act impulsively, even though we had met each other sincerely. He just hugged me tightly, kissed me gently on the forehead, and said: "Wait for me, I have something to tell you."
"
——I will study hard, catch up with you, stand side by side with you, and am willing to dedicate my best self to you. See you at the back door of school after the college entrance examination.
Such young and childish words, but at that time, they seemed to be the most precious oath.
He also said he would wait for me, but why did he send me away with his own hands?