23. Do you really have to prove it with pain before you give up?
I called Lu Xiaoping and said that I was a little confused. At four o'clock in the morning, I was once again lying in the guest room of Li Shu's house, my heart was in a state of confusion.
After drinking beer, although my head feels dizzy, I know one thing clearly, that is my heart.
I knew there was a misunderstanding between us, but I didn't say it out loud.
Li Shu has a girlfriend, and that person is Hu Yueyue.
The only thing I can do is to wait. I know that Li Shu will definitely choose an opportunity to explain it to Hu Yueyue, and he will definitely come to me after explaining it.
Lu Xiaoping asked me to rush forward, give Li Shu two slaps, and then ask him to deal with it quickly.
I hid under the quilt and giggled, I have been here for the past two years, why should I be so anxious?
Lu Xiaoping scolded me for being worthless, but I didn’t want to explain. Because liking someone is not the time to explore self-esteem. Just like what Li Shu said to me on the playground last night, with those words, I will be content.
Already.
As for the scar on the wrist, if Li Shu discovers it, I will take the initiative to inform him. If he never discovers it, then just pretend that those painful times never happened.
Thinking of the warmth on Li Shu's chest, I finally fell asleep peacefully.
Unexpectedly, I slept until after three o'clock in the afternoon.
There were missed calls on the phone, two from Wei Zheng and one from home.
Speaking of Wei Zheng, I suddenly thought of the text message he sent me last night. I wanted to watch the movie, but I wanted Li Shu to accompany me.
After much hesitation, I texted Wei Zheng back.
When I walked out of the guest room, I saw Li Shu sitting at the window. His fingers were tapping on his notebook and he had a Bluetooth headset next to his ear. He seemed to be busy working. When he saw me getting up, he nodded to me, and then
Keep busy.
I looked for something to eat in the refrigerator.
After he was done with his work, my lunch was also placed on the table, scrambled eggs with green peppers. I only know this dish.
Li Shu is not picky about food. He looked at me with admiration and said, "It's not bad. It's both delicious and delicious."
I served him a bowl of rice and said mysteriously, "I heard that several movies have been released recently."
"There are new movies released every day." Li Shu took over the job with a calm expression.
"What I mean is..." I lowered my head and looked at the bowls and chopsticks in my hands, pouted, and lowered my voice. He could be calm, but as for me, I couldn't be calm.
Li Shu burst out laughing and said, "Okay, after we finish our work in the afternoon, we'll go watch a movie."
I knew this guy was teasing me on purpose.
After eating, I was responsible for washing, and Li Shu continued working. When I was lying on the sofa and about to fall asleep, he was still busy. In a daze, I heard the ringtone of my cell phone, and Li Shu went to answer the phone.
When I woke up again, it was already past six o'clock in the evening.
Li Shu stood next to me, looked at me with a guilty look on his face, and said, "Gao Ziran, tonight..."
"Watching a movie?" I answered his question.
"No, I have something else to do tonight...maybe..."
I was a little disappointed and said softly that it didn't matter. Li Shu was going to drive me back to school. I saw that he was very busy, so I took a taxi myself. What I didn't expect was that I met Wei Zheng at the school gate.
I feel that there is always such a subtle relationship between people. Li Shu was arranged by God to help me grow, and Wei Zheng was used to comfort me because God was worried that I would be too shocked.
Wei Zheng suggested going to the cinema, which was said to be very suitable for little girls. I originally had the same idea, but unfortunately...but it is always comfortable to have someone with me, so I followed Wei Zheng to the cinema.
While queuing up to buy popcorn, I heard a familiar voice. Turning around, I saw Li Shu standing not far away, and Hu Yueyue beside him.
I must emphasize that I am not a dumpling.
An hour ago, in Li Shu's villa, he told me that he was not free. What happened now?
Didn't Hu Yueyue go back to school? Why did she suddenly come back?
With all kinds of questions, I stared closely at the two people not far away. When I saw her hand holding his, I suddenly woke up.
I know, after all, Li Shu is someone else's boyfriend.
As for me, I think only I understand what kind of existence I am.
"Gao Ziran, come here and line up..." Wei Zheng called my name not far away. Someone seemed to have heard the voice, and looked around with surprise on his face.
When our eyes met, I pursed my lips slightly, glared at Li Shu, and walked towards Wei Zheng.
I feel very sad in my heart. The happiest thing in this world is to deceive oneself and others, and the most cruel thing is to reveal the truth.
"What's wrong? Where do you feel uncomfortable?" Wei Zheng looked at me and asked with concern.
I shook my head, took a deep breath, and said, "It's okay, when will the movie start playing?"
"Seven o'clock."
I nodded and didn't look back.
Coincidentally, Li Shu and Hu Yueyue were in the same session as us. Listening to the voices coming from behind, I knew that there were only a few people between them and me.
I couldn't help but clenched my hands into fists. I lowered my head and looked at my shoes, for fear that tears would flow out.
Wei Zheng seemed to notice something was wrong with me. He knelt down and looked at me and said, "What's wrong?"
I shook my head and said it was okay.
The movie is a comedy, and it made me cry. Although I warned myself not to pay attention, but if I turned my face slightly, I could see Li Shu and Hu Yueyue sitting in the second row. The light was flickering, and I couldn't see his face clearly.
expression, but you can see her leaning on his shoulder and smiling wildly.
For one hour and twenty minutes, I thought I could hide it well, but I was so humble that I could only secretly wipe my tears.
Wei Zheng didn't speak the whole time. He just handed me tissues and finally put my head on his shoulder and remained silent.
It has been more than twenty years, and today I feel really wronged.
After the movie ended, everyone was busy going out, but I was the only one who still sat there, silently in a daze.
Loving someone is really not an easy thing.
Turning around and looking at Wei Zheng, he saw him smiling gently and asked, "Am I embarrassed today..."
"No way..." Wei Zheng handed me a piece of paper and said, "Maybe the two of them are just..."
"You know?" I looked at Wei Zheng in surprise and asked.
"I saw it when I was buying popcorn. I thought you didn't see it, but in the end, you saw it..." Wei Zheng scratched his head and said, "Gao Ziran, you are so stupid."
"Foolish people are lucky." I laughed at myself.
Wei Zheng patted my head gently with his palm and said, "Are you feeling better now? Do you want to eat something?"
After Wei Zheng said this, I was really hungry.
We went to the dessert shop downstairs. I ordered a Napoleon cake, and Wei Zheng only ordered a cup of lemon tea. The two of us chatted for a while until the cake was finished, and I felt a little better.
Wei Zheng sent me back to school. The two of us walked back from the path behind the teaching building. Just as we were about to reach the dormitory, Wei Zheng suddenly stopped.
I looked at Wei Zheng in confusion and asked, "What's wrong?"
Wei Zheng looked at me and smiled, his eyes were extremely soft, and he said with a smile: "Gao Ziran, I thought about it, should I help you?"
"Huh?" I looked at Wei Zheng in surprise. Could it be that he was talking about the matter between me and Li Shu?
"Come on, put your ears over, I'll tell you..." Wei Zheng stretched out his index finger, tickled me, and said with a mysterious look on his face.
I didn't think much and just stretched out my ears. Unexpectedly, when my head was halfway out, Wei Zheng's hands suddenly held my face and placed a gentle kiss on my forehead.
What happened was so sudden that I hurriedly backed away, but my head was clamped by Wei Zheng's hands. I heard him say: "Don't worry, it will take effect in a while."
Of course I didn't know what medicine Wei Zheng sold in his gourd, but he gently let go of my hand, turned around and left.
Why is this guy making such a joke?
He shook his head helplessly, raised his feet and walked forward. After taking two steps, he saw the plum tree three steps away.
He opened his eyes angrily and looked at me with a dark face.
All along, even if I hate him, I have been cautious in every step I take. It is bitter to like someone. I am so cautious because I am afraid that I will play too big and have no way to stop.
But now it seems that is not the case.
Because some people will use sweet words to coax me, but their actions are deceptive.
When I was in high school, I felt that Li Shu was very playful and it was hard to expect him to be attentive to me. Maybe it was his behavior that made me feel sincere, which is why I fell hopelessly into it.
Now it seems that the protection he mentioned is real protection. The protection he mentioned is not the protection of my significant other.
I don't want to pester Li Shu. If we can maintain the relationship between friends, maybe, this is also good.
Forgive me for being pretentious, I need time to digest my feelings for him.
"Hey, you haven't gone back so late?" I forced a smile to myself, looked at the plum tree not far away, and said.
"You haven't had any rest either?" Li Shu looked at me and said in a calm voice.
"Oh, I went to see a movie today and came back late." Pretending to be understated and with a relaxed expression.
"Zi Ran, what happened today..."
"Oh, it's really late, I have to go back to the dormitory..." I interrupted Li Shu, fearing that I would change my mind, "You should go back early, and pay attention to safety on the road..."
He anxiously passed by Li Shu, but the next second, Li Shu grabbed his arm.
"What's wrong?"
"Ziran, I didn't mean to lie, I thought..."
"Hey, what's the big deal? Besides, didn't I watch a movie too? It's okay..." I tried my best to control my tone, shook my head and said, "Go back, I'm still waiting for you."
Li Shu looked at me blankly, and then nodded gently.
I quickly turned my face away, fearing that if I looked at him one more time, I would feel even worse.
Yes, they are waiting for him. Does it have anything to do with me?