When we got downstairs in the community, it was rare that Gao Zijian thought of opening the car door for me. I looked at him with some pride. As soon as I looked up, I saw Shi Lei standing under the streetlight.
Shi Lei had his back straight, and the ironed suit on his body made him look tall and handsome, with a cold face and bright eyes. It seemed that he had already guessed that I would appear here.
"I have something else to do. Let's go first." Gao Zijian looked at me, turned around and walked towards the car.
His heartbeat was racing and he was a little nervous. While secretly cursing Gao Zijian for his lack of conscience, he walked towards the door as if nothing had happened, telling himself not to worry.
"Xiaojia."
The footsteps behind me slowly approached. I took a breath and turned around to look at Shi Lei.
There are light stains on his shirt, which is somewhat inconsistent with his mysophobic personality. I can almost infer that he has not gone back since lunch.
"Xiaojia," Shi Lei's voice was hoarse. From the first day I met him, I was able to recognize this distinctive voice. However, unfortunately, I can only recognize voices, not people.
"Is something wrong?"
"No," Shi Lei looked at me, took out a box of medicine from his pants pocket, and said, "If your stomach feels uncomfortable, you can take some of this."
I don't know whether Shi Lei is too good at pretending, or whether I'm just a fool. Sure enough, he still remembered the time when my aunt came to visit, but it's a pity that I don't need it.
"Shi Lei, can you please don't do anything that makes me look down on you? Since you have chosen to be with Liu Meiting, there is no need to show your courtesy to me. It is impossible for any woman not to care." My voice was trembling, and I understood the reason.
Shi Lei looked at me in astonishment, with disbelief in his eyes. I watched him turn his face, looking at the direction Gao Zijian drove away, and said lightly: "Xiaojia, can you promise me one thing?"
"Say it. You also know that I don't like to show off."
"Wait for me for a month." Shi Lei's voice was slightly impatient as he said, "What happened before was my fault, but Xiaojia, are you willing to give me a month?"
I looked at Shi Lei who was holding my hands, and the last thoughts in my heart seemed to turn into ridicule. I sniffed and asked, "What's the reason? Why do you want me to wait for you?"
Shi Lei looked at my retracted hands and was a little at a loss. I looked at him mockingly, turned around and left.
"Xiaojia!" Shi Lei called my name from behind me, "I love you."
I sniffed and said, "If you love me, you won't hurt me again and again. If you love me, you won't hide anything from me. If you love me, you won't be with another woman."
Engagement, Shi Lei, you can't have your cake and eat it too, don't you understand?"
"Xiaojia, I can't explain to you now, so I beg you, give me one month, one month, I will explain everything clearly to you, I..."
"No need," I sighed softly, turned to look at Shi Lei, and said, "Let's... forget about it..."
Without waiting for Shi Lei to respond, I bit my lips, raised my feet and ran towards the entrance. Everyone has their own bottom line, and so do I. Even though I still love you, but...I'm sorry.
Shi Lei stood there for a long time. For a little while, I watched the figures under the window slowly go away. Finally, I raised my feet and walked towards the elevator.
What is love? Liu Meiting once told me that no matter how much a man loves someone, in the end, he will exchange it for three milliliters of liquid. The cost of loving someone is too high. It is better to love yourself and your friends; Shi Lei said, love a woman
, that is, let her never endure hardships and be happy all her life. Love her before marriage, and love her even more after marriage.
For me, these two people whose words can be remembered in my heart, in the end, I forgot what they said.
I sat in front of the window, looking at Doraemon on the bedside, and suddenly my heart ached. I took out the wooden box, stuffed everything about them into it, and put it under the bed.
The cell phone on the table rang. When I opened it, it was Gao Zijian.
"If you're hungry at night, there's something to eat in the refrigerator."
I took my phone and pressed a line of text, delete it, looked at the window blankly, and sighed softly.
My heart is small and can only accommodate one person. Even if I kick that person out, it will take time. So, Gao Zijian, I'm sorry.
I went to work, I only had one day off from three days of sick leave, and life went on.
Gao Zijian disappeared from the world again, but this time, he disappeared for four full days. Since he didn't reply to the last text message, Gao Zijian became cool this time, and I didn't dare to reply, so I simply left it alone.
I've been thinking about why Shi Lei mentioned a month. I looked at the time and saw that four days had passed. What was his reason? Could it have something to do with that trip back to his hometown?
People are like this sometimes. They say things simply and do things simply, but their hearts are not willing to accept it. I also want to know what prompted Shi Lei to cheat on him.
On Friday night, I received a call from Gao Ziran. She smiled and said, "Sister, come to Night City, there is something fun!"
"Is your brother here?"
"He...well, you'll know when you get here!" Gao Ziran said mysteriously: "Come here quickly, I'm a girl, are you relieved?"
I thought about it, and since I had nothing to do on the weekend, I agreed.
After taking two buses, I finally entered Night City. As soon as I entered, my right eyelid twitched twice. I thought something bad was going to happen, right?